Life Kit - Dear Life Kit: He kissed me then took it back

Episode Date: January 28, 2025

The heart wants what it wants, but it's rarely that simple. Advice columnist Meredith Goldstein and psychologist Monica O'Neal — two longtime love experts and real-life friends — answer burning questions about work wives and friend zones, just in time for Valentine's Day.Learn more about sponsor message choices: podcastchoices.com/adchoicesNPR Privacy Policy

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Yeah, okay, it feels early, but by drugstore standards, they put out their singing stuffed animals and chocolate-filled hearts weeks ago. This episode is right on time. Today, we've got an edition of Dear Life Kit, the series where reporter Andy Tagel asks experts listeners burning questions. Today she's talking to two long time love experts. Meredith Goldstein is the author of Love Letters,

an advice column for the Boston Globe. And Monica O'Neill is a clinical psychologist who focuses on relationships. Oh, and they're also friends in real life. Every time I talk to Monica about a problem, I'm like, you know, do you need a copay? I always want to make sure I always want to make sure so sometimes also just reminding people that some of the people who are the best counsel in your life, you can't only go to them because they are probably that person for many people. And that can be taxing, I can

imagine. I don't ever feel taxed by you, Meredith. I don't. We have had plenty of these conversations over the years, haven't we? Yes. By the way, Meredith says, try not to worry about all the pressure around Valentine's Day. It doesn't mean everything.

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Okay, question number one. Dear Life Kit, my husband has a female friend at work that he's very close with. Recently, I happened on a written conversation on my husband's computer with his friend. In their conversation, my husband was giving her a lot of assurance and was really open with his emotions. Much more so than he is with me. When I confronted my husband, he became defensive and refused to show me any more of their conversations. He told me he only sees her as a sister, of their conversations. He told me he only sees her as a sister, and that he feels I'm being competitive for no reason. How should I navigate this? Signed, wary of work wife. All right, Monica, I'm going to turn to you first.

Okay. Well, I think the hard part about this question is it's so multi-layered. It sounds like the thing that hit her to the hardest was the fact that her husband is more emotionally available and open with this bestie. And there's something that's not surprising about that, but I can imagine that might fall hard on anybody that's on the other side of that. Number one. And then number two, if there is no discussion about her and the positive things about her, if this work wife slash bestie isn't giving any kind of deference to the actual wife and the marriage and his family life, that to me is like a big, big red flag and warning sign that there needs to be boundaries in place.

That's my first thought. Okay. You're being more generous than I am feeling, but let's turn to Meredith who I think is still, who's probably going to be kinder than the both of us. Meredith. So I think the first thing is to totally agree with Monica, like so much of this issue is about what's not being talked about at home and the relationship, the pieces of the relationship

that are missing. And I also want to say right off the bat that I tend to be overly generous in situations like this, partly because at the Boston Globe, I have a best friend. We don't like work wife and work husband, those terms, but very early on in our now very long friendship, he was so excited to meet someone who was a friend, not just the parents of his children's friend, but a friend he chose that felt right.

And for me, at a time that so many friends were getting married and having kids and unavailable, he came into my life ready to go see a movie, right? And listen to some records. And so many of our mutual acquaintances would say, well, is this weird? And what we learned was that very quickly, I was not just a work friend, not just a work wife, I was brought to his home. I hung out with his family. I just think that so much of this is about maybe separating the church and state of it all, that if it's more mysterious than understood, I can understand why there are weird feelings. Lauren Henry The fact that you also were open to being a part of like his family's life and

friends with his wife, I think that's the difference. And my hunch is if she asked him about you, he didn't get defensive the way it sounds like this husband did. That would be like a big red flag on my part because I understand, okay, you're telling me that she is just a friend to you, but what are you to her? That's the piece that I would need to know. Yeah.

Well, I'm gonna tell you, at the beginning of my relationship with my current partner, he talked about this friend that he had. And when we started dating, there's something inside of me was like, she's a little too over familiar with me in a way that I don't know her or she's saying things that feel loaded to me. He and I argued about it because he was very hurt.

He was like, she's actually just a friend and it's hard for me as a guy to make good friends at this point in my life. So I was like, I got it. Cool, let's do a test, my love. And so, you know, I was just like, let's be scientists about this. So literally while we were on a trip driving

from Colorado back to Boston, we took beautiful, beautiful photos. And I was like, and when she messages you, message her back, Monica and I are having a great trip. Look at our photos. And if she doesn't say anything about the Monica and you having a great trip, and she doesn't say, these are beautiful photos, you know, she wants you and you need to set some boundaries. Wait, what was the answer? What was the answer? She didn't say Jack squat about the photos. She didn't say anything. She didn't even say, I'm glad you and Monica are having a good time.

And so in that case, I was right. Yep. Yep. You were right. Okay. I really like your approach to that. And I also think it's a fair point that you're making, Meredith. I think you're allowed to have friends of different genders.

I agree with you. For me, it's the husband not having any emotional intelligence at home and then having a high degree of emotional intelligence for this random coworker. That's what would really, really hurt me. Yeah. Experiencing my partner being emotionally available to another person when I don't experience that, that would hit very hard. But I would also be, again, the therapist in me, you know, says, be curious about this and ask the question,

like, what is different about this bond that makes it easier for you to respond in this way because this is what I wish that I got from you. You know, I think I would be, I would, those are the kind of conversations I would lean into. And if he's still being a jerk and saying you're being jealous and competitive and being unreasonable, I think I would have to check him on that. One thing that this reminds me of is that during my friendship, especially when their kids were young, I feared I was getting a better version of my friend

than his wife was getting. Because with me, he was well rested, he wasn't interrupted by toddlers. And he and I did talk about, if everybody's getting the best of you except your partner, what support do you need so that you can talk to each other while you're awake without 80 distractions? Because it's not fair that you and I get to sit through a movie and have fun and the

two of you never do. Any parting thoughts for Wary of Work Wife? Yeah, I think have a big dinner all together and see how it feels and that might answer a lot of questions. Right. Well, good luck to you Wary of work wife, we're thinking of you. Are we ready for question two? Yes.

Dear Life Kit, I've started spending time with a man that I really like. He's a great communicator, he's generous, and he's kind. The problem is his breath is very bad, and I think it may be a deal breaker for me. What should I do? Signed, waiting with bothered breath. Two points for you for that wonderful sign off. Okay, so lighter territory here, but still a puzzler. How are we feeling with this question?

Well, so again, this is a personal thing for me because I remember being back in graduate school, having a similar encounter with somebody that I had known all through college. We both ended up in DC together and eventually we kind of started dating. But it was still very early on, but I thought because of the familiarity that we had from having known each other years before, I could actually bring this up to him. And so I tried to be very ginger, I tried to approach it very gingerly and it just did not work

out at all. Like in the end, it just like, yeah, things just like over time, I would say probably over the next couple of weeks, I just, there were less phone calls, less whatever until it was just like, I think we should be friends. The thing is, I'd want to know. So that makes me feel like even if that guy was like, I cannot overcome the fact that she said this, I hope that someone else is enjoying the benefits of a more hygienic routine. But there's no easy way.

But if it were me, I would very much appreciate someone telling me kindly. Yeah, that's true. That's a good point. I was kind of approaching this question from a different lens that like dumping someone over Bad breath might be seen as a little bit petty And so the the bigger question for me here is that if something is super small, but it bothers you really deeply Are you wrong? It reminds me of a letter I received once from someone who wanted to know if it was fair to break up with someone who was otherwise

Very nice because they slipped into baby talk. The thing is, this guy liked to do baby talk, and I'm not talking about in the bedroom, I'm just talking about in life. And it was infrequent, but when it happened, it poisoned the outing. And like, is it small or is it big? If he likes to do baby talk, he should be with someone who loves it. So yeah, I think, you know, to Monica's point, feedback is great. Accepting feedback is great.

But I wouldn't feel bad because you think it's small because you got to put your mouth on that mouth. It's not that small. Hmm. All right. Question three. Here we go. Dear Life Kit, my husband is almost 20 years my senior, and we've been married for 16 years.

Our age gap never bothered me before, but now that he's in his 70s, he's become more forgetful than he used to be, and he seems depressed. I've suggested therapy or hobbies or trying medication, but he refuses it all. I love my husband and never imagined leaving my marriage due to my partner's age. But I'm getting much less out of our relationship than I used to. I feel that I have so much more to live for, but he doesn't feel the same way. What should we do? Signed, young at heart.

This one makes my heart heavy. Monica, you have a much different look on your face. I've struggled with this. I try not to be judgmental whatsoever, but. Okay. You know, my parents are going on 52 years of marriage and my dad having gone through cancer twice and my mom having gone through a kidney transplant and like

her perspective on like being able to go through those things in partnership and the way that it changes the relationship and how like the connection grows and deepens and there's an appreciation that's there. So it's hard for me not to personally like look at this and be like you said in sickness and in health, you know, and he was always 20 years older than you. The issue to me is not the age difference, it's his inability or discomfort with having any kind of help, whether that be, you know, talking to a doctor, talking to a therapist, like, and I think if a partner looked at me and said, I'm having trouble in this relationship now, can we get help?

I want to say yes to that. So like the issue to me is not the age gap, it's philosophy is about assistance. And I wonder, you know, so many letters that come into me, I'm like, well, you should go talk to a professional. But yet I'm talking to a letter writer who is telling me their partner will not go to therapy with them or alone. And I always want to ask like a therapist like Monica, what do you what do you tell that person if you're with somebody who refuses

any kind of intervention? Is there hope? Right? Well, no. So that was my second part of it. I actually think it's incredibly selfish when people don't when people refuse help. I always tell my patients, and I've said this to my partner too, like, you know, that what you're going through is not just happening to you, it's also happening to me, and I need to trust that you care about my experience. And so I do think it's incredibly, incredibly selfish

for him to refuse help. I think the thing is, it's hard to know, but the tone of this letter, it seems less cooperative and less collaborative of like, I'd like for us to get help, but I'd like for us to adjust to this change together. It's more kind of like, I wanna live life and he's not doing anything.

And I think that's the piece that I'm reacting to. And it's hard to know that, but that's the tone of what I'm getting. Does And it's hard to know that. But that's the tone of what I'm getting. Does that make sense? Yeah, absolutely. I got a letter recently from somebody whose spouse was starting to believe conspiracy theories. And she was wondering if she allowed to leave a situation because she felt like she was married to somebody else. And in that sense, she kind of was. And my thought was,

this isn't even feeling safe for you at the moment. And I think that changes things quite a bit. So I think there's a big difference between sickness and health, aging, caring for somebody throughout, the journey of life and wow, this is no longer the person I married and there is a better way for us to find happiness. So I don't know, Monica, you're like better

about these kinds of marital values. Do you fall in the same place with that about when it's okay to go? I do think that at some point it's okay to say this is just not good enough or it's not sustainable enough for me and my wellbeing. And so because of that, I have to go. But I do think that everything should be exhausted before you get to that point. There could be so much more truthfulness and acceptance

because I think you have to leave room for that to be a possibility and I think so often people are afraid for that to be a possibility because that takes a lot of vulnerability and hard work to say I know I need something different. What can we build together? And if I love you enough and if our commitment and our vows mean enough, let's try to do that first. Don't be hasty. Yeah.

Ready for our last question? Sure. Dear Life Kit, I had dinner with a good friend recently. We were close in high school and despite living a few hours apart, we keep in touch and meet up every couple years. During dinner, things turned a little flirtatious. You walked me back to my car and kissed me goodnight.

He caught me off guard, but I was pleasantly surprised. The next day, he sent me a text saying he didn't want to pursue a romantic relationship because he's afraid to lose me as a friend. But kissing me and then taking it back risks losing me as a friend too, since I feel really hurt and confused. What should I do? Signed, friendzoned. This one makes me so mad. Meredith, please. Yes. Okay. Because I am a person who has had unrequited or mildly requited crushes on friends. My first thought hearing this is, if you need some space,

take whatever you need. But I'm coming from a place where I'm talking to my 23-year-old self saying, yeah, he kissed you and then changed his mind and you're so upset. Yeah, absolutely. That is, I just feel like there's no way to un-awkward this awkward. I, you know, it's interesting. I have a, you know, I'm with you. I have a slightly different thought only because this has come up in conversations that I've had with my partner. I feel like there's perhaps a dude perspective that I never thought about that he put out

there for me. I'm ready. He basically just said out forthright, he was like, I think men say that because they just don't want to either go there physically with somebody or they just know that there's not going to be a future. When he said that, I was like, well, why to either go there physically with somebody or they just know that there's not gonna be a future and When he said that I was like, well, why would he go there? Anyways, he's like cuz everybody's curious people want to know but like what he's like implicit in that is saying because I don't See a future with you this I really don't want to go there with you

And when he said that I was like, oh, that's and I hadn't thought about that before Well, I'm thinking about your own advice to me and to people who read and listen to love letters. You talk about ghosting, right? And Monica is a very class act when it comes to never ghosting anyone and believes that there's never a reason to. And this is something I've tried to adopt in my own life. And I wonder to your set of rules,

would this have been better if this guy had said, the minute we kissed five minutes later, I thought this isn't it? Like you are my friend, it is platonic, as opposed to, I'm afraid of ruining the, no, I don't want it. I wanted it and then I didn't and I hope it doesn't ruin it because everything in my gut told me I want what we already have. And that could have, while it seems a little bit more cruel, I think it might be more kind. Yes. No, absolutely. It's worth having the conversation to close the loop and she can share how much she was hurt because as a friend, he still should care about her feelings and care about whether or not he hurts her. But I think she's also learning that

he probably is just not it for her. But you both think that there's a world where they can be friends after this. Yeah, yeah, absolutely. I think, you know, especially if there's a little bit more honesty and clarity, I think it can all be there. This is with the caveat also that like, I don't know if this, if this person has been harboring unrequited feelings for a very long time. And this was like, finally the kiss, right? Like that's a little bit harder to get over. But then your relationship

wasn't really platonic to begin with. It was something else. So you should be able to overcome this. Monica, Meredith, it has been such a pleasure. Before I let you go, we ask every guest of Dear Life Kit for their very best piece of advice. I can go, which is Monica's brilliant thought that don't ghost people, be clear, say the thing, even if it makes you feel a little weird to say it. I think that's fair.

Like sometimes saying the thing is so much better than not saying anything at all. Meredith, I love you so much. Thank you for that. That's really sweet. Many, many years ago, I had such a wise, wonderful therapist named Ann, who basically said to me, goodbyes are supposed to feel sad, they're supposed to feel painful.

This is a normal thing. It really, it was like such a life changing moment for me. Monica, Meredith, thank you so much for letting me in to your friendship bubble for today. I feel so warm from the glow of your love and friendship. Thank you. Thank you. That was LifeKit reporter, Andi Tagel, talking to Monica O'Neill and Meredith Goldstein.

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