Nothing much happens: bedtime stories to help you sleep - Begin Again

Episode Date: March 21, 2022

Our story tonight is called Begin Again and it’s a story about a reset scheduled for the equinox. It’s also about sunrise watched from an open hatchback on a road outside of town, birds and squirr...els ringing in the spring, and making your own rituals to mark a moment.So get cozy and ready to sleep.Order the book now! Purchase Our Book: https://bit.ly/Nothing-Much-HappensSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

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Starting point is 00:00:00 Welcome to Bedtime Stories for Grownups, in which nothing much happens. You feel good, and then you fall asleep. I'm Catherine Nicolai. I write and read all the stories you hear on Nothing Much Happens, with audio engineering by Bob Wittersheim. If you'd like to hear our show without ads and maybe listen to some bonus episodes, head over to nothingmuchhappens.com to subscribe to our premium or premium plus feeds.
Starting point is 00:00:46 That's also where you can get your very own With Audio Engineering by Bob Wittersheim hoodie. If you know, you know. Let me explain a bit about how to use this podcast. We need to engage your mind just enough to help you unstick from your day and slip into sleep.
Starting point is 00:01:16 And I've got the perfect formula for it. It's a simple, soothing story that I'll tell twice, a little slower the second time. Just rest your mind on it and follow where it goes. And probably before we get very far into it, you'll be deeply asleep.
Starting point is 00:01:44 If you wake again later, you could listen again, or just think through what you remember from the story, or even any pleasant memory. This is brain training. We are building up a reliable response to make sleep come easier and last longer. And it does take a bit of time to create that habit, so be patient if you are new to this. Now, it's time to turn off the light and put away anything you've been playing with or looking at.
Starting point is 00:02:30 Take some time to cozy your body down into your preferred sleeping position. If there is a thought tugging on your sleeve, take a second to acknowledge it. You don't have to pretend it isn't there. Just go ahead and think that thought one more time. Good. Now hand it to me. I've got it now. If you really want it back when you wake up, you can have it. But chances are, you'll forget. Let's take a deep breath in through the nose. And a soft sigh through the mouth.
Starting point is 00:03:29 Do that again. Breathe in, and out. Good. Our story tonight is called Begin Again, and it's a story about a reset scheduled for the equinox. birds and squirrels ringing in the spring and making your own rituals to mark a moment. Begin again. I'd learned it in science class when I was 11 or 12
Starting point is 00:04:23 and had somehow never forgotten it. Though I could certainly use a refresher on lots of other topics we'd covered then. We must have been studying the planets. In fact, I remember that the solar system, simply as an idea in and of itself, was a popular project to make for science fair. Although we were warned against it,
Starting point is 00:05:09 as it wasn't an experiment, just a display. But every year, there would be someone who'd put it off till it was too late. And out would come the styrofoam balls, the wire and poster paints. and out would come the styrofoam balls, the wire and poster paints. And there it would be. A map of this small corner of the universe.
Starting point is 00:05:41 And who doesn't love a good map? We'd been studying the position and relative size of the planets, which was then, and continues to be, at least for me, pretty difficult to grasp. Here is Earth. Okay.
Starting point is 00:06:08 I have some experience with Earth. I've taken a flight to another continent. I've driven from one coast to another. I can grasp, if lightly, how big she is. And then there is Mercury, about a third of the size of our planet. And Mars, which is about half the size. And Venus, which is only slightly smaller than we are. Then Neptune and Uranus, four times as big,
Starting point is 00:06:54 and Saturn, nine times, and Jupiter, eleven times as big. There was a poster on the wall above my seat in our classroom that I would stare at, wondering at the size of those giants. The planets sat as if on a table to show how they compared to one another. Mercury looked like a marble, and Mars like the red ball in my tiny plastic jacks case.
Starting point is 00:07:43 Earth and Venus were good-sized gumballs, the ones that came out of the candy machines by the door at the grocery store, the kind you dropped a quarter into and twisted the knob to release the candy, then quickly cupped your hand under the chute to catch your treat. Uranus and Neptune might be soccer or basketballs, and Saturn an extra-large beach ball, though it had rings instead of seams. And still, Jupiter was even bigger. It was the pumpkin that had won the prize at the fall fair.
Starting point is 00:08:48 I'd lost myself at times, staring up at that poster, trying to imagine so much space, so many stars, and the sweeping elliptical orbits of the planets. It felt like poetry that they didn't just make perfect circles, that their paths had a long side and a short side, like the track around the football field. We'd studied eclipses and made cardboard tube telescopes to spy Jupiter over Christmas vacation. Then, on the cusp of spring, we'd learned about the equinox. This was the bit I remembered still, because often people call the first day of the warming season spring solstice.
Starting point is 00:10:12 But it isn't a solstice at all. The solstice marks the longest and shortest days of the year. In December and June, as the sand in the hourglass gets tipped in the other direction, on the vernal and autumnal equinoxes, the glass gets tipped on its side for a day. Both bulbs hold an exactly equal count of sand. On the equinox, there are as many minutes of darkness as light. And that had stayed with me all these years. It felt like a factory reset.
Starting point is 00:11:26 Nature saying, let's have a day where we wipe the slate. Let's even it all out and start again tomorrow. It reminded me of that turn of phrase, all things being equal, though instead of it being a choice of words, it was a literal description, at least as long as sunbeams and night sky were concerned. So, looking at my calendar all these years after sixth grade science, I was excited to see the equinox approaching.
Starting point is 00:12:23 If the new year was for letting go of old things and leap day for trying something you'd never imagined you'd do, then equinox was a day for starting over. For turning my dial back to zero. Sometimes in the winter, it dipped down a few notches, mimicking the temperature, and got stuck there. Or when I was busy,
Starting point is 00:13:06 had too many projects on the go, or was too wrapped up in problems I couldn't solve. My dial got turned far up, and even a good night's sleep didn't reset it. So that's how I would spend my equinox, getting back to zero. I did it by getting up a half hour or so before the sun rose, packing a thermos of coffee and driving out past the edge of town.
Starting point is 00:13:55 There is a small rise that faces east, just a turn in the road with space to pull over. But it gave a clear view of where the sun would come up. I parked my car on the verge and popped my hatchback so I could sit in the warm, open space and wait for the light to change. As the sun was about to crest the horizon, I poured myself a cup of coffee and held it under my nose, letting the aroma and steam warm my face. I drank coffee every morning, which meant it was already built into my life and a perfect carrier for a moment of intention. So, as the sun reflected on my lenses,
Starting point is 00:15:18 I took a slow sip of coffee and thought, begin again. I took a slow sip of coffee and thought, begin again, start again. Once my cup was empty and my stomach beginning to grumble, I climbed out of the car and took a big stretch and a couple of deep breaths of cool morning air. I felt awake. That was something more light always helped with. The neurons in my brain seemed less sluggish,
Starting point is 00:16:11 my body less bound into stillness. I walked around the car, looking up into the branches to see who else was up. I could hear birdsong, loud and optimistic, and the scrabbling of squirrels as they leapt from bough to bough. I buckled into my car and drove back into town.
Starting point is 00:16:45 I found a spot to park near the library and walked down a few streets to the bakery. There were tables outside, along with one of those standing heaters that had been ignited probably when the baker had flipped the open sign on the door. I tried to be outside for as much of the day as possible on Equinox. It was part of my reset plan. After months nestled into my house,
Starting point is 00:17:36 I had to reacquaint myself with the out-of-doors. So I was grateful for the heater, as I intended to have breakfast. At one of the tables, it was warming. Inside, the shop smelled of a heavenly mix of fresh baked bread and sweets, muffins and pastries. I scoped out the cases while I stood in line. But when I got to the front, I just said, whatever you recommend, I'll have two of. The baker gave an honest laugh. Oh, I loved when some silly thing I said made someone actually laugh. Oh, I loved when some silly thing I said made someone actually laugh.
Starting point is 00:18:31 She shook out a wax paper sack and reached with her tongs for something on the counter behind her. She turned back to me and set it down, saying, Two carrot cake muffins. You won't be sorry. I said, And a latte. One will be enough. I carried my breakfast out to the table and thought about the day in front of me. I'd walk through the park and look for tulips coming up in the flower beds. I'd go to the bookshop and buy something to read on my front porch. I'd hike the crow's nest trail and see if any hothouse rhubarb was ready
Starting point is 00:19:29 at the farmer's market. I'd visit friends and keep my face to the sun till it set. And And tomorrow, I would begin again. Again. Begin again. Begin again. I'd learned it in science class when I was 11 or 12, and had somehow never forgotten it. Though I could certainly use a refresher on lots of other topics we'd covered then. We must have been studying the planets. In fact, I remember that the solar system simply as an idea in and of itself was a popular project to make for science fair.
Starting point is 00:20:45 Although we were warned against it, as it wasn't an experiment, just a display. But every year, there would be someone who'd put it off till it was too late, and out would come the styrofoam balls, the wire and poster paints, and there it would be, a map of this small corner of the universe. And who doesn't love a good map? We'd been studying the position and relative size of the planets, which was then and continues to be, at least for me, pretty difficult to grasp.
Starting point is 00:21:57 Here is Earth, okay? I have some experience with Earth. I've taken a flight to another continent. I've driven from one coast to another. I can grasp, if lightly, how big she is. And then there is Mercury, about a third of the size of our planet. And Mars, which is about half the size, and Venus, which is only slightly smaller than we are.
Starting point is 00:22:57 Then, Neptune and Uranus, four times as big, and Saturn, nine times, and Jupiter eleven times as big. There was a poster on the wall above my seat in our classroom that I would stare at, wondering at the size of those giants. The planets sat as if on a table to show how they compared to one another. Mercury looked like marble, and Mars like the red ball in my tiny plastic jack's case. Earth and Venus were good-sized gumballs, the ones that came out of the candy machines by the door at the grocery store, the kind you dropped a quarter into and twisted the knob to release the candy,
Starting point is 00:24:33 then quickly cupped your hand under the chute to catch your treat. Uranus and Neptune might be soccer or basketballs, and Saturn an extra-large though it had rings instead of seams. And still, Jupiter was even bigger. It was the pumpkin that had won the prize at the fall fair. I'd lost myself at times, staring up at that poster, trying to imagine so much space, so so many stars and the sweeping elliptical orbits of the planets that felt like poetry, that they didn't just make perfect circles, that their paths had a long side and a short side, like the track around the football field.
Starting point is 00:26:13 We'd studied eclipses and made cardboard tube telescopes to spy Jupiter over Christmas vacation. Then, on the cusp of spring, we learned about the equinox. This was the bit I remembered still, because often people call the first day of the warming season spring solstice. But it isn't a solstice at all. The solstice marks the longest and shortest days of the year, in December and June, as
Starting point is 00:27:13 the sand in the hourglass gets tipped on its side for a day. Both bulbs hold an exactly equal count of sand. On the equinox, there are as many minutes of darkness as light. And that had stayed with me all these years. It felt like a factory reset. Nature saying, let's have a day where we wipe the slate. Let's even it all out and start again tomorrow.
Starting point is 00:28:18 It reminded me of that turn of phrase, all things being equal. Though, instead of it being a choice of words, it was a literal description. At least, as long as sunbeams and night sky were concerned. So looking at my calendar, all these years after sixth grade science, I was excited to see the equinox approaching.
Starting point is 00:29:15 If the new year was for letting go of old things, and leap day for trying something you'd never imagined you'd do. Then Equinox was a day for starting over. For turning my dial back to zero. Sometimes in the winter, it dipped down a few notches, mimicking the temperature and got stuck there. Or when I was busy,
Starting point is 00:30:07 had too many projects on the go, or was too wrapped up in problems I couldn't solve. My dial got turned far up, and even a good night's sleep didn't reset it. So that was how I would spend my equinox, getting back to zero. I did it by getting up a half hour or so before the sun rose, packing a thermos of coffee, and driving out past the edge of town.
Starting point is 00:31:02 There is a small rise that faces east. Just a turn in the road, with space to pull over. But it gave a clear view of where the sun would come up. I parked my car on the verge and popped my hatchback so I could sit in the warm, open space and wait for the light to change.
Starting point is 00:31:51 As the sun was about to crest the horizon, I poured myself a cup of coffee and held it under my life, and a perfect carrier for a moment of intention. So, as the sun reflected on my lenses, I took a slow sip of coffee and thought, Begin again. Start again. Once my cup was empty and my stomach beginning to grumble, I climbed out of the car
Starting point is 00:33:17 and took a big stretch and a couple of deep breaths of cool morning air. I felt awake. That was something the neurons in my brain seemed less sluggish my body less bound into stillness I walked around the car looking up into the branches to see who else was up.
Starting point is 00:34:10 I could hear birdsong, loud and optimistic, and the scrabbling of squirrels as they leapt from bough to bough. I buckled into my car and drove back into town. I found a spot to park near the library and walked down a few streets to the bakery. There were tables outside, along with one of those standing heaters that had been ignited probably when the baker had flipped the open sign on the door. I tried to be outside for as much of the day as possible on Equinox. It was part of my reset plan. After months nestled into my house,
Starting point is 00:35:46 I had to reacquaint myself with the out-of-doors. So I was grateful for the heater. As I intended to have breakfast, at one of the tables it was warming. inside the shop smelled of a heavenly mix of fresh baked breads and sweets muffins and pastries I scoped out the cases
Starting point is 00:36:22 while I stood in line but when I got to the front I scoped out the cases while I stood in line. But when I got to the front, I just said, Whatever you recommend, I'll have two of. The baker gave an honest laugh. Oh, how I loved when some silly thing I said made someone actually laugh. She shook out a wax paper sack and reached with her tongs for something on the counter behind
Starting point is 00:37:09 her. She turned back to me and sent it down, saying, Two carrot cake muffins. You won't be sorry. I said, and a latte, but one will be enough. I carried my breakfast out to the table and thought about the day in front of me. I'd walk through the park and look for tulips coming up in the flowerbeds. I'd go to the bookshop and buy something to read on my front porch.
Starting point is 00:38:07 I'd hike the crow's nest trail and see if any hothouse rhubarb was ready at the farmer's market. I'd visit friends and keep my face to the sun till it set and tomorrow I would begin again again sweet dreams

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