Smosh Mouth - S1: #45 - The Best of SmoshCast 2019

Episode Date: January 8, 2020

From Tinder for Hot Dogs to getting deep with an ex, here are some of the most iconic SmoshCast moments of 2019! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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to speak to an advisor free of charge. BetMGM operates pursuant to an operating agreement with iGaming Ontario. Ramble. Well, hello, everyone. Ramble. doing a podcast. We did 44 episodes in total. I guess we have maybe around 3000 minutes of audio or 50 hours of us just talking about absolutely nothing. And I just want to say thank you guys so much for being there through all this nonsense. The podcasts have been really fun to do and learned a lot about each other. I hope that you guys learned a little something about us and something about the world. Let's take this moment to look back at some of our favorite moments from the first year of the Smoshcast. We'll start at the very beginning and work our

way through chronologically. So this first clip that I want to show you guys is Courtney, myself, and Damien. And we're talking about sexuality. And Courtney has a little surprise for us. Lilly Singh, she tweeted, and it's kind of the same thing. It's like you said, with John Wayne, you're like, oh, what do you think? A 1970s cowboy, of course he had that kind of opinion type thing. Lilly Singh tweeted um i'm a woman i'm colored i'm bisexual and these are my powers when and apparently that was her coming out right like for me it was like we've been new like i thought i was like wait i thought everybody knew that

yeah yeah i mean i thought it was a thing i mean you, you can never assume. And you never want to. True. And obviously that's one other thing. You never want to out somebody. Of course. Unless they've clearly outed themselves. Yeah. Especially if you get it wrong.

Yeah. Imagine if I tweeted, yeah, you know how Lily sings bisexual. And she didn't even say anything like that. That would not be good. A world of oops. Yeah. Big old basket of whoopsie daisies. I think that's super important.

It's not just like sexuality, but also people that struggle with mental health. Mental illness, yeah. People that struggle. Normalizing those things is so important. And like that's a thing too. Like I am not straight. That's something that I only recently started working through and I'm still kind of working through it.

But it is something that I've felt is important for people to know because it's like, let's normalize. Like it's so important to normalize things that people are insecure about. Like I'm still a little insecure about what exactly it is. I remember when I, I didn't even realize it, literally until a couple years ago when I started, because I grew up in the Mormon church and when I was 12, I realized that Mormons hated, there are a lot of them, I won't generalize,

but when Prop 8, the gay marriage, like, proposition was a thing, a lot of my friends in the Mormon church were like, gays are bad, all this terrible thing. And I was like, whoa. And I left the church at that point. Wasn't until I was 21-ish that I was like, I mean, all my life I'd kind of wondered. And, like, the fact that I kept wondering,

it wasn't like a naive, like, am I gay? I don't know. It was definitely like, man, this is something that I need to relax and like think about because for so long I was like, yeah, I'm straight. That's what I am because that's what I thought I was supposed to be. But like there was so many conflicting things with that.

I don't know if I'm bisexual, because like that that's kind of limiting to gender because I've definitely found people who are gender fluid like attractive just I think I don't know everybody's hot I don't know man like spectrum and I remember the first people I told were it was definitely Matt Robb and Joe Barretta were there. It was a Defy Media Christmas party. And that was the first time. I didn't know this. Yeah. Yeah. That was the first time I'd said out loud that I don't think I'm straight. And for, cause the longest time I like was just thinking about it and kind of like let those walls down that I'd had up for a long time. I'm hot in the face right now. Well, I fully support everything you're saying.

I think the coolest thing is there might be a kid or anybody out there right now who really needs to hear this. Yeah. Especially coming from you. And it feels very much like a fluid thing. And I also I think I have a weird type, too. Like because, OK, when I was a kid kid my mom had a lot of drawing books and like comic book books including this Wonder Woman one that I always loved I really loved the artwork and everything and so literally a couple months ago I messaged my mom and I was like hey like

do you have that Wonder Woman book that's super old one I'd love to like add it to my collection I have drawing books I have a Guardians of the Galaxy book for my coffee table. And she sent it to me and I'm going through it and it's just really sexually charged drawings of women. And I was like, oh! Okay. That's why I like looking at that. So basically

my type is Wonder Woman. I think that's something we can all agree on. Or face painting. Sorry, my knuckles are super dry. It's okay. Before fans get weird, I just like something I realized throughout all this just now is like,

Olivia and I have kissed in videos. Calm down. We definitely do those for you. I'm not like, Olivia is shipping. Courtivia shipping is a fun thing, but like, I'm not attracted to Olivia.

I'm not attracted to any Mariivia, I'm not attracted to any Mari, Sarah, nobody I like not, it's not like oh every girl is a potential for me I mean that's a general thing It's the same thing. It's the same for all that Yeah, I'm straight, not every girl that I interact with I have to date

Our first video together speed drawing people were immediately, since I was this new girl in a video, making sexual comments. It's just what happens. But yeah, I just wanted to disclose that. Olivia, I love you. I'll kiss you any day you need.

But I'm not into you like that. Sorry, babe. For sure. But yeah. Well, I applaud you for talking about this. I really do. Because I think, like you said, whatever, whatever the thing is, whether it's, whether it's mental health, whether it's sexuality, whether it's gender,

whether it's anything like things are only quote unquote weird because we don't talk about them. That's why I like when I get the opportunity, I talk about mental health stuff all the time, anxiety, panic attacks, paranoia, like all that good stuff. I deal with that. I do. And it's only weird because it's not talked about and that's, it's not your job to talk about it necessarily, but I think you have done and can do a lot of good because there's someone out there right now who's just like probably bawling, being like, oh my God, that's me and it's okay.

Like, I'm proud of you. It's so important. And I think you bring up a good point where you said, I don't know what I am and that's okay. It's so important. And I think you bring up a good point where you said, I don't know what I am. And that's okay. That's okay. Because I think people feel such a need to adhere themselves to a specific identity that they might not actually completely.

People need to label things. Yeah. And feel secure. But like, we should probably stop doing that so much. Yeah, completely. But I think that there is some safety in that and saying, I don't know, but I'm figuring it out.

And especially like young people, like, yeah, everybody's had the thought before, like, am I? Yeah, everyone wonders. What is this?

You know? I didn't know what anxiety was until like 16 because it's not something that was talked about. And I wasn't on the internet that much at that time.

It's like, you got to talk about that stuff. People need to know. I was diagnosed OCD two years ago and I had no idea that what I was experiencing was OCD because I just took that as like, I've got to organize stuff and check this doorknob six times. That is OCD. And it's just like, oh no, it's the way my mind works and how I deal with things, which leads to anxiety, yada, yada, yada. And I've got to say, you know, even though this doesn't have to do with sexuality, I can understand the comfort in finding a label. You know, even if it's better to maybe not label so you can like figure things out, you

know, finding out that I had a word for what I was feeling, I could be like, ah, I have OCD. Yeah. It's the same way with someone who goes like, I'm bi, got it, check, done. Like, you know i definitely like the most secure way to say it for me is just being like oh yeah i'm not straight like that's just because and i it could be pansexual it could just be bisexual i don't know whatever but like i just realized in these last couple years and it was like right as I was in a new relationship that I was like, wow. And like, I remember I was coming out to certain people,

but like my stomach growled just so loud. I hope you all heard that. I did not hear that. Some people, I didn't go about it the right way. Like I thought people knew already and they'd be like, oh, I didn't know that. And like, I definitely had some people that probably got upset when they found out.

And you'll never really know who's tolerant of that stuff. I didn't know that I had a homophobic person in my friend circle. You don't, you'll never know. And sometimes, yeah, you will never find that out. But yeah, it's crazy, man. It's been a journey. Sometimes people need time to,

maybe if they were like, I don't know. But like, I think I said this in my stream recently. Somebody was just like, I came out to some friends and my best friend won't talk to me now. And I said, like, unfortunately, try your best to be the bigger person and forgive them for yourself for now to try to like save yourself a lot of grief. Because they might not have never actually been exposed to anybody that they knew was gay before and then once they do some thinking they'll be like oh that person is still that person holy crap and so then two weeks later in the stream they're like yo my best friend reached out and apologized and now we're hanging out again

and it's just like well there you go yeah and that that person that was upset when they found out they didn't they didn't tell me they were upset i could just very much tell and then they basically told me that they were homophobic later but they're still in my life i think it's okay to have people around like don't just keep people with the same opinions as you i mean it's good to have those people but it's also good i mean homophobia is a terrible thing yeah that's that's not an opinion we really we really welcome around these parts no no and just be tolerant be tolerant, be accepting, whatever. Like, not whatever, but you know what I mean. That person's still in my life.

I don't hate them. It's, you know, like we are all here on our own path. Yeah. Well, thank you so much for sharing that, Courtney. That takes a lot. And I think, you know, for some of the people listening, I think that's something that that needs to be heard um i i'm always a big supporter of of you know getting these sort of

problems out here and that's what podcasts are really good for because you know everyone's struggling with something and uh it's nice to hear that that other people have these things going on with with my ex pam she was a she's a cancer survivor and she always kept it secret yeah and and when we were together i i told her like this is this is you could help people by by talking about it raising awareness totally and And when she had her sort of last scare, she then started talking about it more and talking about it more and being more involved in the

community. And it really helps people. What a sweet, sweet clip. So this next one is episode five where it's Courtney, myself, and MattPat from The Game Theorists. And MatPat brings up one of the worst ideas that was ever pitched to Smosh back in the Defy days.

Enjoy. So did you have a hand in the strategy at all? Or when we brought in, I just want to know in depth a little bit more. My secret role behind the scenes. I know you're the agent Cody Banks of Defy. Sorry I'm bringing in the weirdest oldest most obscure reference.

These pop culture references are gold right now. Yeah no I mean it's interesting and it's funny to hear Ian talk about like Defy like the higher ups at Defy wanting to fast forward that process and kind of like... Just jam it down their throats. Yeah, shoehorn it in as quickly as possible. Because this was the same group of people who were also promoting the idea of doing black smosh.

Oh, yeah. Oh, God. Like, unironically wanting to do black smosh. Yep. Which I wasn't sure, like, had you had those conversations with the team clearly based on your reaction? Yeah. There was somebody,

there was somebody higher up. I'm not going to say their name for me for many years, for many years. One of their story, one of their dream projects was to create black smosh, which they, what they wanted to do was, um, Black Smosh, which what they wanted to do was cast a group of black people to create, shall we say, urban comedy.

They were like, well, you know, there's this whole other audience out there. So we just need to create Black Smosh. Well, yeah, I mean, basically the thought process of this person in the meetings that we were having was, well, we have this back catalog of funny scripts. So if we just, you know, change out the two white dudes for different demographics, we have tons of new verticals and basically you reuse the same scripts, but just kind of like mix it up a little bit.

And it was, his first spinoff was always going to be black Smosh followed by, you know, female Smosh, gay Smosh. It was bad. Yeah, that's rough. That separation is so rough. That is truly spilling the tea. Every time they brought it up, and that's really funny, I've never mentioned the whole black Smosh thing.

Probably smart of you to not mention it. Yeah, but every time they brought it up, it was just like, no, no. And here's another weird freaking reference. Hairspray, how there's like Negro Day on the dancing show. Like that says, and I'm sorry, that's rough. But like that's, it's just that I get that vibe when I hear about what they were trying to do. Well, and the thing was, you know, the first time, because again, I'm this young guy who, you know, has only been working at this company for about a year. But I'm like the guy who understands YouTube.

I'm the guy who's been able to build up my own channel in the background. Like I was the representative of like the digital video ecosystem and optimization. Right. And so I'm in these rooms with all these traditional media guys who had been working in TV for years and had, you know, decent levels of success there. You know, suddenly now, like, let's figure out ways to capitalize off of these brands that we have and this and that. And he tosses out this idea. And at first, like, everyone, you know, me and a couple other people in the room are like, ha ha, that's, you know, that's an idea. But really, but they were so serious about it was the thing.

Like they legitimately thought that there was no problem with it and that it was totally fine. And of course, at that point, the conversation fundamentally shifts to like, oh, no, you're taking it like absolutely not. Do not do this. This is horrific for so many reasons. Are they wanting to call it that? Like actually? Well, that was always just the sort of... The working title?

Yeah, the working title. And by the way, there's nothing wrong with two black dudes doing comedy. Obviously, Key and Peele was probably one of the greatest sketch shows ever made. But it wasn't for the sake of representation. It was for the sake of like, let's just get this other thing going to appeal to this other group. Because we don't believe that two white guys are going to be enjoyed by black people.

This is actually why I'm shocked to hear that you also know this. Because to me, when that was brought up in the room, I'm like, this is unbelievable. I can't believe that someone would actually legitimately think of this as an idea. And so now to hear that it was also brought up to you and you also had to shoot it down. Yeah, multiple times. It's unbelievable to me. It kind of became a running joke about this person because it's just ludicrous. Right. It doesn't make any sense.

Amazing. That's wild. So there you go. I do remember the other joke that he would toss out when it came to like some of the other verticals and obviously bring up like gay smosh, LGBT smosh. That's a whole new community. The joke was, though, that they already had gay smosh because you and Anthony were already hosts. Anthony, baby.

Did they toss that joke your way? Probably. Okay. Just so we have full transparency here of what was being said behind the scenes. Yeah. Oh, my gosh. I mean, you got to keep those fan fictions going.

Sure. So this next clip comes from episode 10 and it's with myself, Shane, and our writer, Monica, and they discuss a scrapped idea

called Tinder for Hot Dogs. Enjoy. Monica had a few pitches. She was like, this sketch, this sketch, and Tinder for Hot Dogs was an idea I had and I just go, yes! Enjoy. No one gave it the respect it deserves. Well, hold on. I'm pretty sure I said something akin to, yes. I mean, dude, Tinder, come on. First of all, beyond a sketch, it's a good idea. It's just a genuinely good product.

You want a hot dog, but there's many types of hot dogs. But the world, our economy doesn't cater to differentiating between hot dog tastes. Right. And for hot dogs being such an American food, we don't like, we don't put it in the spotlight enough. We really don't. This is true.

And it's like, sometimes you're in the mood for Nathan's. Sometimes you're in the mood for Hebrew National. But see, you're talking about different brands. We're going beyond that. See, Tinder for hot dogs,

from the simplicity of the nap on your phone. Go on. You're getting like, do you want a bratwurst? Do you want beef? Do you want turkey? These are all the different types of dogs. What flavor profile do you want? What flavor profile? What sauces do you want?

You know, it gets, and type of buns you get, oh my god, the extremes. You know. And you want to know that it's close by. Like, I want to know that I don't have to travel more than four miles. Yeah, you want to see how close. And you can specify in your bio. It's like dogs under six inches, swipe left. Get really specific with it.

This podcast is brought to you by Tinder for Hot Dogs. No, it's great. It's a great idea. It's funny, but it's also good. I have to admit, I tried to write it. I got nowhere. I think Ryan Finnerty left me an hour to write it, and I tried so hard.

I got six lines in, and I was like, I'm just going to work on something else, because I hate this while I'm working on it. Just hand me the reins, and I'll give you an autobiography on Tinder for hot dogs. You're going to write Tinder for hot dogs. Is that what you're saying right here? But an autobiography.

So from the point of view of Tinder for hot dogs. I don't know what I was going. I'll give you a book the size of the Odyssey for Tinder for hot dogs. You know what I think? I think if enough listeners give us a five-star review with the review saying make Tinder for hot dogs. You know what I think? I think if enough listeners give us a five-star review with the review saying make Tinder for hot dogs, then we're going to have to make Tinder for hot dogs. Please give me those dogs. If we get enough five-star reviews on this podcast.

And if you guys go to the YouTube and like it and subscribe. Yes. If we get 50, likes on youtube on this on the smosh cast you youtube video about this we'll make tinder for hot dogs make my dreams come true please somebody do something for shane i can't stress i can't stress how much i want tinder Hot Dogs made, and this is the only way that it's going to get made, guys. You all have to come out in droves and support this podcast in every way possible on YouTube, on Spotify, on iTunes, in every way,

and Tinder for Hot Dogs will come to fruition. Make it happen. Make it happen. Make it happen, guys. Please. So yeah, so then eventually we did create the Tinder for Hot Dogs video. It was a video that we enjoyed making very much. It was very silly. Damien sings in it.

It's pretty great. This next clip comes from episode 13 with myself, Shane and Courtney. And this is when I started sort of the meme of me wanting to date Courtney's sister. I found that it makes Courtney extremely uncomfortable. So I decided to dig in further because I am an annoying person like that. Enjoy. I'm a working woman and like, I don't need a partner. I don't need no man. Or woman.

It's pretty cool. I was actually out with my sister last night. I was telling her about that. She like took my hand and she was like, I'm really proud of you. Aww. That's great. Yeah. Because it's not what it's all about, you know?

The sister that you're going to hook me up with on a date. Wow. Wow. We've been Wow.

We've been It's a We've been bothering Courtney. It's a joke. It's a joke. Sure it is. Dude.

Let me Let me tell it at least. Okay, so we're all single. But Ian's been like, can I say slang and dong? I'm not slang and dong. You're not. No dong has been slang. You're not slang and dong.

Ian has not slang a single dong, guys. How dare you appropriate my word and then use it. Falsely. How dare you claim my word and then use it. Falsely. How dare you claim I slang dong. Well, he's been dating. He's been in the dating pool and, you know, going on dates. I've been following leads, but I haven't really been. Oh, my God.

I haven't been. Is this how you pursue women? Successfully dating. A suspect. I guess. I pursue women? Successfully dating A suspect I guess I'm like I'm like That's

I think that's A suspect Aha I'd like to take you out to dinner For questioning I'd like some evidence That we might be compatible I mean

Yeah That's kind of how How it's been Well anyway He's So that's what He's been following leads Of suspecting women

And we were having a conversation The other day Of like Oh who can we set him up with La la la Well, anyway, he's been following leads of suspecting women. And we were having a conversation the other day of like, oh, who can we set him up with? And I made a joke that my older sister was recently, she's newly single, but they would not work. Why? It's weird for me. But it's not about you, Courtney.

It's about my happiness and your sister's happiness. That's right, Courtney. Dude. Oh, my God. This is so awkward. I don't know what to say. Look, your sister and I are the same age, roughly. We both live near each other, so that's great for LA.

Dude. Boy, you live close to each other? Well, I guess that's great for LA. Dude. Boy, you live close to each other. Well, I guess it's a match made in heaven. That is a lead. We have a lead. In LA,

if you live close to somebody, that's like, that's half of the relationship. Yeah. Oh man. I've, I've, I've definitely ended.

I've definitely, I ended a thing once cause it was just too far away. You're like, Oh, you're in Santa Monica. We were, we were, it was literally like we were, we were a it was just too far away. You're like, oh, you're in Santa Monica? It was literally like we were a solid like 20 miles away. And like in any other state, that'd be fine. But it got to a point where I was like, I am, this is crushing me. Like my back hurts from driving so much.

You get to their house and you just fall asleep on their bed? I was like, I'm just like, I'm exhausted every time we hang out. Like I can't do this. And also, like, it just wasn't, like, there was more reasons, obviously. But it wasn't. But it's mostly the distance. If she had lived closer, I would have been like, I'll give this more of a shot. I mean, the weird thing is, 20 miles, if you're coming from Los Angeles,

that's a long distance relationship. Yeah, it essentially is. Because it's over an hour to, like, get to each other. That's awful. Yeah, no, I'm not going to have you date an older version of myself. Yeah, essentially it's because it's over an hour to like get to each other. That's awful. Yeah, no, I'm not going to have you date an older version of myself. Sorry, dude. But she's not, she's not like, I've met her before. She's not like you. No, we're

very different, but I feel like she's, I don't know. You guys do not. Hold on, hold on. Does she have a Keurig? Does she have a Keurig? Does she have a Keurig? Does she drink coffee? Iig? Does she have a Keurig? Does she drink coffee? I don't think she has a Keurig. Oh, no. She's nothing like you, Courtney.

That's another lead, Ian. That's another lead. She's nothing like you. What do you guys think at home? What? Should Courtney set it up? No. No.

I talked to Carrie about it. And she's like, no. But is she just saying that for your sake? Yeah. Did she say you? No, she didn't say you. Carrie, I'm so sorry. Does she listen to this?

Sometimes, if i'm on it my family only listens if i'm not on it does your dad does your dad listen to this podcast or he watches it do you think he would approve um i don't know man yeah before you even start dating can you get your father's blessing for i? Yeah, you know what? If you want to. Sure, Ian, go for it. Shoot your shot. I dare you. No, no, in person.

You don't do that. I'm addressing him on the podcast. Sorry, Dad. Mr. Miller. Say your condolences for the robbery. My condolences for the robbery my condolences for the robbery may i have your daughter's hand in marriage oh my god you cut straight to the point i'm done that's smart i'm ready i'm ready to commit

kicking it old school oh my god could you imagine what my i just like i all i can think about right now is the wonderful thanksgiving dinner we would all have i'd come to your house and we'd all just have a lovely dinner together we'd share stories you know talk about the time uh your sister and i went to Cozumel. Oh my God. Pina Coladas by the beach. Guys. Wow. Go on.

That's it. We only took one trip. Oh yeah. This is early on. Yeah. This is only what? Seven months in? Well, we're talking about this Thanksgiving.

Yeah, this Thanksgiving. So we're only like a few months into the relationship. Yeah, only a few months in. So one trip to Cozumel at that point is fair. Yeah, that's enough. Yeah, this Thanksgiving. So we're only like a few months into the relationship. Yeah, only a few months in. So one trip to Cozumel at that point is fair. Yeah, that's enough. Yeah. But Paris next year.

Yeah, that's probably where I'll propose. Yeah, you'd propose there. Right at the Eiffel Tower. Yeah, exactly. You already got my dad's blessing, apparently. Mm-hmm.

Yeah. That's great. Wow. It's been really, it's been awesome. Love this. This is really sweet. I just don't know what to say.

What if Terry came on the podcast? Oh my God. Oh my God. Okay. This next clip, gosh, is gonna get emotional this is episode 14 where i bring my ex-girlfriend on the podcast mari is our mediator i believe this clip is just us talking about our relationship and the failings and what led to us breaking up so this one's this one's pretty emotional. You're committed to this relationship.

You've been in this relationship for a year and a half. Things start to happen. How does that make you feel, Ian? How does that take a toll on you? Because you're not expecting this. And in so many ways, when we start a relationship, it's like that is the last thing you think that you're signing up for. Yeah. I mean, I think one of the, one of the signs for me that I felt like, you know, this,

this was like a real, a real, real relationship, but there was real, real feelings was the fact that, you know, Pam told me that she had a, she had a risk of cancer and that she had a history of cancer before we even started legitimately dating. Um, so that was sort of my out. That was like,

that was like, here's the door. If, if you're not, if you're not about this, like, you know, Pam was like straight up.

She's like, you know, you might have to live with the fact that I might die at an early age. And, and it didn't really bother me. I mean, obviously, the thought of her dying. The thought of her dying greatly bothered me, but it didn't scare me away.

Right. You're like, I can take this on. Yeah. It didn't, yeah, that didn't, to me, that wasn't a reason to end things. And at that time, Pam hadn't told anybody really about her history of cancer. You literally told your past boyfriend, like whoever you were in a relationship with when you were going through that. But you didn't tell your parents.

Didn't tell my parents. You didn't tell anybody. Nobody on the internet knew. Like a couple friends knew, and you told me. And that kind of openness like really created this sort of connection between us, I feel. Well, and also too, like you were talking about when I told you about that and you thought about like there's a chance that this could happen. There's this thing where you try to imagine scenarios like you try to imagine your significant other dying

and like the way that it plays out in your head is never how it's going to play out in real life so i feel that although you were like i can i can handle this when it actually started happening there was there was something to it that was not necessarily missing, but it just hits you harder than you thought it would. Because, you know, a good portion of the the reason that I, you know, ended the relationship is because I couldn't deal with someone not being emotionally supportive for me while I was in the hospital. Like, I mean, I don't want to go into detail because I still believe that you're a very good person, but at the time it was just I wasn't as important, and that's what it felt like. Yeah, that was a thing. And we can either get to that now or we can get to that later,

but the straw that broke the camel's back was i was set to go um on a business trip uh and it was i was only gonna be gone for two three days the night before i left uh you started feeling abdominal pain and we had been through this before and you know i was always there at the hospital as much as I could be. And at this point, it was almost routine, right? Yeah. And so I was like, okay, no problem. I'm going to go on this trip. And whatever will happen will happen. It's probably the same exact thing as it was before.

And I'll be right back. And I'll be there. And I'll be there for you. But you clearly had different needs for, you know, how you see a relationship being and how you see the person being there for you. And I wasn't there for you as much as you needed me to be in those situations. Do you think that one of the reasons that you weren't there as much is because it bothered you like the pain and the the suffering like bothered you so much to the point that you couldn't tolerate being or not tolerate but it just you were uncomfortable being around when it was happening because it hurt so much or is it like one of those i i really

i haven't really broken down exactly why you weren't there. Maybe you don't have something to explain that with, but just any insight? I think, like I said, it became almost like a routine. We had been through it before. It didn't seem like it was anything new. So we kind of knew what the outcome would be if we figured it was another torsion and it was right but what ended up happening is that was that was the final that was the final one right uh no no there's one more yeah that's right there's one

more after so yeah there was another torsion. I was out on my trip. And then, you know, I came back. I had to deal with some stuff at the office. And, you know, and Ryan, who's our writer, is sitting behind the camera, was there that day. And he was like, you good? Like, Pam's in the hospital. You should probably go

see her. I was like, yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm going to get over there. I need to finish this and then I'm going to go. And the hospital was two miles away from the office. It sounds like you run to your

defense mechanism, which is running to work because that that that's the thing that makes sense for you it's almost like you're it's like your safe place and it's a way to to run away from things which i totally get i think it's one of the reasons why my schedule is like packed to the brim because it's like that's how i know that my life is like like good like yeah you know like it it gives you some sort of security brim because it's like that's how i know that my life is like like good like you know like it it gives you some sort of security to know that it's there um and from the outside that's what it sounds like because having to deal with it is just so difficult and i think also like i i was just i'm very much an optimist and i've always, I was always an optimist in our relationship.

Whenever she was, you know, worried about whatever, whatever pain you were feeling, Pam, I was always just like, ah, we don't know.

We don't know until the doctors tell us like, and you know, you're like, you know, be, be prepared for, for a loss. You know,

I could, I could get this and I could be gone in a year or six months or you know one time you were diagnosed and they said you had a few months to live so you you're not not well oh well i mean technically at the er kind of but my that the one that kind of it was way before yeah it was way before relationship uh so i mean, your sort of outlook on everything is very different from mine. You've obviously— I'd say I was a realist for my life, not everybody's life. Once you've had a life of just stuff, is what I'm going to call it,

you become very aware that the good that you have is sometimes only fleeting and that bad stuff is around the corner. So maybe sort of a pessimist, but I'm still a very positive person, you know? It's so interesting because from the outside, it really is like you guys are reading two different books because I can totally see it. From Pam's perspective, you've been through all this stuff.

You know how hard it can be, and you see it from a realist point of view um and and so much emotion comes from that when you're like you just almost want to like you want to be like romantic almost where it's like this could be the last one you know like like i just want to feel all those things and then i can totally understand your perspective of just like no no no like it maybe it's not that bad like let's keep our head up and uh keep things positive but to you it feels like you're not being validated where it's like you're going through all this stuff sorry yeah pam doesn't feel validated in what she's going through when ian is being the best person he knows he could be by just being optimistic.

And it's interesting because we grew up with the saying, like, treat others the way you want to be treated. But I think as we grow older, we have to really understand that you have to treat the other person how they want to be treated. And it's like you guys were speaking your own languages as opposed to speaking each other's languages. That's very astute, Mari. Damn, we're getting deep in here like you guys were speaking your own languages as opposed to speaking each other's languages. That's very astute, Mari.

Damn, we're getting deep in here, you guys. Are you ready? That's really good. Yeah. Yeah, that was a thing. That was a good pod. I forgot how good of a pod that was. We were like, damn.

Damn. She got real. This next one is episode 17. This is one that I did with Damien and Shane. We talked about how I screwed up the two truths, one lie video that we did with Pam, my ex. And yeah, enjoy. This week is a little bit of a rough one because I had to give final approval of the two truths, one lie that I did with Pamela.

Right, right. For those of you who don't know, Pamela being my ex-girlfriend. And I thought it'd be such a hilarious idea to do Two Truths, One Lie with her. And that video will be out by the time this podcast comes out. So if you haven't watched it, watch it right after you listen to all this. Can we speak freely about what happened? Yes, yes.

I thought it'd be hilarious. And I was like, okay, one of the great lies that I'm going to drop on her at the very end is that i cheated on her and then obviously that didn't happen so that was gonna be the lie then something happened i was obviously like very nervous during that part and i was very excited and i'd been waiting a long time to do this two truths one lie and it was this was the moment and she was she was uh confusing me with her word jazz and um and whatever it's called english like she was like saying things i i've had to watch it back like six times to understand where it all went wrong but basically i for a moment forgot how the game was played and uh then she guessed that the lie was that I cheated on her

which is correct which is correct and so she's supposed to spray me if she gets it right I for some reason sprayed her which then proceeded to what then happened next was probably one of the worst moments in my life where i sprayed her then i realized oh shit she thinks i cheated on her and this is the moment that i reveal it to

her spraying her in the face with water uh public on camera on camera in front of people and you were laughing you were kind of like laughing yeah as you did like gotcha and like the moment the water like hit her face i realized like looking at her reaction i was like wait wait she thinks i cheated oh god oh no oh no and like and you guys you damien and shane like you guys were in the the peanut gallery and i told you guys this though that i was going to drop that yeah and so you guys knew you guys were in the the peanut gallery and i told you guys this though that i was going to drop that yeah and so you guys knew you guys were ready for it and you're like what are you doing you're playing the game wrong yeah what was what was going well some thoughts on you kind of caught

it no i was going to say you kind of caught what it might have what might have caused his confusion we re-watched it the other day to give like notes on it. And first of all, I will say like, you didn't just come up with that idea out of the blue. Like Olivia had one of the best two truths, one lies of all time with her boyfriend, Sam, by dropping the bombshell of I'm pregnant, which was also the lie,

but just that moment was great. So I think that inspired. Yes. I was like, I was like, Oh, I'm going to one up it. Yeah. And no matter what,

and no matter what we did know, like you did have to know, cause it was the same with Olivia by saying, oh, I cheated on you. We obviously know it's a lie, but there's still that moment of like, there's the 0.01% chance of like, is he really willing to do this? Like, whatever. And so you could see that kind of with her. Are you that crazy of a man? Because Pam goes like, oh, well, I definitely know you wouldn't reveal it like this.

So that's the thing. So when we watched it again, we caught where the mix-up happened. So it's two truths, one lie, right? So she's dissecting it after you say everything. It's, I prefer whatever type of peanut butter. I don't know my mom's birthday. And I cheated on you. So she says, well, I know you didn't cheat on me.

That's for sure. And then she continues on. So if she really knew that she also playing the game correctly should have said, like, that is for sure and then she continues on so if she really knew that she she also playing the game correctly should have said like that is for sure the lie but she says i know you didn't cheat on me so that okay that one and so she keeps going and so you're thinking all right she's correct about that true so then next and so the idea of true got switched up for both of y'all there she's like well i know you didn't cheat on me so let me go to the other ones and then she kept dissecting them and then that's when you were like well wait so you're trying to find a lie and she's like oh that's right well i know you didn't cheat on me

so because that first switch happened for you in your mind when she revealed like okay a lie you uh you didn't cheat on me and it's like no the lie is that i cheated on you not that i didn't cheat on you so it got reversed for both you guys it was just more visceral for her it's also the most simple game in the universe and this is the second time that I've messed it up because I messed it up the last time I played it I think um and so and so like I sprayed her in the face and then obviously she she got very upset which I completely understand and uh and then we we had to we had to cut the cameras for a moment and you know allow allow everyone to like settle down a little bit and I'm like that was a complete mess up I didn't cheat on you and this is not the reveal that I did

on camera and it was it was the it was the worst it was the worst feeling ever. And everyone was very thoughtful afterwards. And everyone wanted to make sure we were OK. And they were like, are you all right? And I'm like, well, it turns out I really don't like hurting the people I care about. I felt bad for you, too. I felt bad for both of you. But I ran into you in the bathroom but I ran into you in the bathroom I ran into you in the bathroom afterwards

I was like hey man are you doing okay and you were like well I'm worried about Pam and I was like yes and I know that as well we all are but obviously you didn't mean to do that I'm worried about you too and then Pam comes out of one of the restroom stalls and just says am I in the wrong bathroom

and I'm just like hi Pam it was the weirdest moment I definitely felt bad for her we cut a lot am I in the wrong bathroom? Oh yeah. I'm just like hi Pam. What the fuck? It was the weirdest moment. I definitely felt bad for her. We cut a lot because I mean she knew pretty quickly like we cleared it up

very quickly but still that just reaction of like oh my god because yeah what we cut was her being sprayed with a super soaker

and then be like you cheated on me? And like we were all just like oh no and you were just like i could tell in that moment i felt bad because you looked at her like what what obviously no like hold on what what's going on and then it it slowly hit and i mean everyone in that room the problem is everyone in the room i think except you and pam knew it was going wrong because we were looking at each other damienian and Courtney and I, and I was looking at the

cameraman and everyone in the room and everyone was like, eyes wide open, mouth agape, being like, what are you doing? And then after it all went down, my favorite quote from the day was Brennan, our cameraman, just looking at you and just went, Ian, that was the dumbest thing I've ever seen. But I felt horrible because then later I saw you in our cast room and you're just kind of standing there and I was like, hey, how are you doing? Like, it must have been, you know, I'm sorry. And you were just like, yeah, I just, I've never hurt her that way.

And I was like, I was like, oh, like, and to hurt someone on that level when you didn't do anything wrong. Yeah. Like you accidentally pulled a horrible prank is what happened. Yeah. And you would never obviously do that to her. Hell no. The sweetest human. So it's hard to see that.

Yeah. So, yeah, I felt for both of you. And I think we all do. So, yeah, it's really funny. So when we, when we broke up, uh, I was having like little sort of like anxiety attacks and, and I kind of told her about it and she,

she was like, okay, well I have like this kind of like medication, um, that, you know, if you're having anxiety attack, you could take it and it kind of kills it immediately.

And she kind of like gave me like a small, like a amount like not like a full dose um she's like if you ever feel it you know take one of these so i i kept it in my backpack i actually never ended up using it i got better i still had it in my backpack and so like after after the shoot like i walked into the room and she was there and i was like are you feeling okay and she's like no I was like are you uh I have that medication you gave me do you want it she's like yeah that's really good strangely like came full circle full circle she seemed fine pretty quickly like she she really pulled it together very well but it just shakes you a little oh my god yeah yeah well it's the context it's getting told you you were cheated on is one thing if it's told in a specific way,

but getting sprayed in the face with a super soaker in front of a bunch of people is bonkers. Having said that, I respect the hell out of you for putting out the video and acknowledging it and talking about it now, because I feel like I would have been like, no, please, there's no way we can cut it to make this fine. Like, please. But you were like, no, it happened. Pretty immediately because I talked to you and Pam after.

I was like, you guys, you know, you don't have to put it out there. You can cut whatever. And both of you were like, nah, we did it. Let's do it. So this next clip is from the same episode, episode 17. Shane, Damien, and myself talk about insecurities. Yeah, because we got feelings. Enjoy.

Do you guys struggle with any sort of insecurities? Well, a reason I also think therapy is great is great is because, you know, I don't have, I'm not an expert in psychology, but from the classes I've taken, like the big takeaway is that we know far less about ourselves than we think we do. So you might think you know what your insecurities exactly are, and you probably know a lot of them, or you think you know what your issues are. And you probably know a lot of them or you think you know what your issues are, but there's probably a lot that you're just simply unaware of that through a therapist asking you the right questions and just conversing with them will be brought to the forefront. And then you'll be like, oh my gosh, I wasn't aware of some of these things that then it helps so much. Yeah. I mean, I think everybody has a lot of insecurities too. I mean, I have not been feeling good about my physical appearance lately, probably for the past year, year and a half. If you watch older Smosh videos, I was much thinner then

and also had a lot of stomach problems, which is partially why that is. But my parents were always very physical. They met because my dad owned a gym and my mom taught aerobics there. And so that was always a way to like... I bet they great photos from like the 80s none literally none what i asked my mom for 80s photos for a potential video that we and they're literally none bullshit bullshit but like i you know that was a good way to get like attaboys from the parents and like ah you've been exercising like that's great and now that's not a part of my life so much because i'm just so busy doing either voiceover,

Twitch streaming, or being here that I just do not have time to exercise right now and I've let myself go by the wayside a bit. But I'm trying to figure out how to still feel good about myself even if it's not in a physical way. And I've never been comfortable in my body. I was a chubby kid. But yeah, I would say you're insanely hard on yourself

in that regard because I don't think anyone would, definitely people watching, I don't think anyone would, definitely people watching, I don't think would ever claim you to be out of shape, but I notice all the time you talking like, oh, yeah, I don't know about this shirt. It makes me like this or whatever. Or like we'll take a group photo and you're like, I don't know. I don't know.

I don't like how I look in that or whatever. Or like you pointed out in videos and edits, you're like, I look like this. I'm like, I would have never noticed it. You're holding such a lens to yourself you're being so hard on yourself yeah oftentimes we're our own biggest critics thank god because if anyone else was worse on me i'd be like that that dude's just an asshole well we wouldn't keep them around like honestly like we're like i i think you know one of the one of the greatest things about the people that we've sort of kept around ourselves and surrounded ourselves with here is everyone is super supportive of each other. We all want the best for each other. I would hope that if any of us are struggling with anything, that we would all be here for each other.

Absolutely. No, I love these. There's no real reason for it. I love the people around me. Nobody's been mean about anything on the internet, which is shocking. I love the people around me. Um, nobody's been like mean about anything on the internet, which is shocking, but like, it just comes from within. And I know it's something I've got to work on mentally as well as physically. Yeah. I feel like, I feel like I'm, I'm mean to you when, when you're talking shit about yourself and I'm like, you shut up right

now. Yeah. Yeah. You do that. I feel like I'm, I'm like, oh, maybe I'm being too mean. But I'm like, shut the hell up, Damien. And I don't think those insecurities would leave you if, you know, if you got into the best shape of your life. You would still, that's, those insecurities are still there. And you're still going to be like, oh, I don't, I don't know about this today. Or I don't know, whatever. Like, if you're insecure about your body, you're going to be insecure about your body you're gonna be insecure about your body and you can't the only way to beat that is to mentally you know counteract that or to find ways around it i mean you're somebody you exercise all the flipping time and when i see you i think you're like the most shredded person i've ever met but if you're talking about those insecurities not

leaving you do you feel like you still deal with that stuff uh absolutely yeah yeah uh and i mean i'd say part of the reason i work out so incessantly is because like if i go two days without working out i'll be like oh god i feel i feel like goo today i yeah i hate it and it's it changes right like because it'll be you know for the longest time it was that i was like oh i'm too skinny. I'm like, whatever. I, uh, you knew up until like, I want to say the age of 23 or 24, I wore jackets year round. Like even when it was like, I can think of that black jean jacket. It's what I met you when you were wearing it.

Yeah. Uh, that, that, or that was, it was like that Robert Pattinson type black, black one. And then I switched to the green leather one, which I would still wear when I started here. And I would wear them, if it was 90 degrees outside, I'd still be wearing that jacket. And it was just because I was just like, oh, I don't like how my arms look today. Wow, I didn't know that.

Or I don't like whatever. Really? Yeah, so yeah, no. And then pool parties and stuff, I'd be like, oh, shit. No way, because I feel like that. And if you feel like that and if you feel like that there's no hope for me it's just it's just i don't know and it's and then it changes man like because i i definitely you know i can't self-diagnose but uh you know with like body

dysmorphia and stuff i still don't think like i'm that big like i don't think i'm that buff or anything like i don't i don, I think of my body as being rather average size, but what'll happen is sometimes even if I do get bigger, then I'll just be like, oh, but it's shaped, my body's shaped weird, or it just looks weird, or it just doesn't look good. I don't look, I just don't look like I'm in great shape. I just, whatever. So it changes all the damn time and it's really tough to keep up with and uh i really am a you know it's i'm a prisoner to it sometimes because there'll be days where like if i haven't worked out for a couple days and then say it's you know oh i haven't worked

out for the past two days but today everyone's going to disneyland but if i go i'm not gonna be able to make it to the gym and And I'll be like, should I go? Should I should I go or should I go to the gym? So you had no idea. I had no idea that, you know, you struggled with this because, because I, you know, I mean, we make we make jokes all the time. And I don't know if it's if it's if it's hurtful. Now that I'm thinking about it. We make jokes all the time about how swole you are. Yeah. Like it's,

it just, I think I have gotten much better at about everything through Smosh just because not necessarily through praise doesn't really help any, any, any of it. In fact, sometimes I think it makes it worse. A lot of the most insecure people I know physically are the models and the like best looking people I've met because growing up they were constantly told

you're so pretty, you're so attractive. So it's like, Oh, that's my entire worth. So if I lose that, even for a moment, I am nothing.

Got it. And probably the same why people who are praised for being super smart, then get super insecure if their intelligence gets, you know, questioned. But that's the thing about you too. That's interesting to me is like, you're, you're an incredibly well-rounded person. So like, yeah, you know, questioned. But that's the thing about you too that's interesting to me is like you're an incredibly well-rounded person. So like, yeah, you exercise constantly.

You're doing fine in that department. But also you have a lot of intelligence to back it up. Your house, which we saw on the house tour, is stacked with books that you've read, not even counting the books that you gave away because you know you're just not going to read them again. You're always trying to like, you know, discover more things about like music. You were teaching trying to like, you know, discover more things

about like music. You were teaching yourself guitar right now. You're learning Spanish. Like there's so much that like, even if your physical stuff went away, even if all your books burned and you couldn't read anymore, like you would have so much to fall back on. So it's interesting to hear. And I know nothing I say can fix anything, but it's just interesting knowing that like, you know, a lot of people have one thing to build self-worth off of. You've got a lot of things. Yeah. I mean, I don't know.

It's tough. I mean, but we could all say that for ourselves, right? Like, I don't know. I feel like a lot could be the exact same could be said to you, could be said to all of us that work here and for so many people who are insecure. And I think there's an aspect of insecurity fueling that motivation, but I don't think it's a good fuel. I think a better fuel is just enjoying life and doing things because it's fun and wanting, improving yourself because improving yourself is fun. For the sake of it, not for, oh, I need to improve myself

to become something that's worthwhile did those insecurities become worse after your last breakup or I actually think they were they've gotten better I think and it changes you know as you get older just different just in life

insecurities just switch around I think when I'm insecure I am insecure about anything and I will find the thing to be insecure about you know I'll be like oh I'm I think when I'm insecure, I am insecure about anything. I will find the thing to be insecure about, you know, I'll be like, oh, I'm short or, oh, I'm this or, oh, I'm, I'm not whatever. Like if it's, and it'll be physical or then it'll be just who I am or something like that. I mean, and I think that goes for everybody. I think, I think insecurity is insecurity. It takes many forms. I think there is a good, humble way to look at that and be like, you know, everybody can say that we all have these different talents and different things to fall back on. But I found that you are somebody, and just speaking as a friend here, I found that you are somebody that will do that all the time to the point where it's not even a sense of necessarily being humble, but you're taking victories away from yourself.

Everybody has different things that they can consider, you know, a source of pride for themselves, or I should hope so. And if you don't feel that way, you should definitely do some soul searching and find it because it is out there. But with how many different areas of expertise you have, Shane, I think it's okay to like every once in a while say it just for yourself. And it's not even an arrogant thing. It's like,

you know what? Not everybody is able to do all these different things. Good for me because it's not like I was born being the best runner, smartest boy in comedy. Like you work flipping hard in a lot of areas. So I would just encourage you to, you know, acknowledge that for yourself.

You know, everybody has the insecurities. Everybody can fall back on stuff, but you work hard to have a lot of things you're good at. Good for Shane. Well, thanks, man. You got it. Thank you. Yeah. And I, I don't know. It's like I said, the even self praise, it's not, I don't know. I feel that.

It's not like that's like, oh, great. I am this thing thing i am who i need to be to be happy right yeah i just think that the pursuit of all those things for the sake of finding happiness will never achieve it i think when i find when i'm able to let go of those insecurities is when i i think honestly what it is is is in its own form selfishness right i'm doing all these things to improve myself whatever i'm thinking and but it's just that I'm thinking about myself. I'm, I'm so focused in on improving myself and, and becoming something that I need to be that I'm not looking outward. And so when I, I let go of that and I go, you know what? I'm going to focus on my friends, my family,

the people around me and what makes them amazing. Suddenly then you just lose yourself. And it's, it's this, it is kind of this euphoria, this breaking free of that prison that you get into yourself when you're just locked into your own head about what's wrong with you and what everybody's thinking about you.

Instead going, no, I'm going to focus on what's great about everyone around me, what I love about them. And then you feel that connection to everyone. You go, and then you suddenly feel loved because you're looking for that when you're trapped inside yourself, but you can't feel that love

because you're just inside yourself. You're sealed away. You get out. You go, okay, I'm with everyone. Oh, my God, I'm loved, and I love them, and great, and now I feel great. So this next clip is from episode 25 with Courtney, Noah, and Keith. And Courtney and Keith hash out some real drama, and it's all about a desk.

Enjoy. I used to rearrange my apartment or room, like, regularly. I know. You rearranged the desk that one time. We could always go back to it. Do we want to go there? I always want to go back to the desk. Listen.

I'm still dealing with that. Really? Okay, low key, on the real i am can i tell like let me i'm down like this is the thing okay let's talk about we have to like take turns yeah we're gonna take turns okay so this is my thing when for me this is i love this it's so wait do we need backstory yeah yeah can i give quick you could tell you you were kind of the middleman yeah you are the middle i witnessed it so essentially it's a friday i believe courtney started working with us on a monday whatever everyone's meeting whatever we're in essentially, it's a Friday. I believe Courtney started working with us on a Monday, whatever.

Everyone's meeting, whatever. We're in an office. It's white walls. We don't really talk to anyone. We're stuck in a room for like eight hours a day with each other. That's really it. We all have our own computer and a weird desk in each corner. That's it.

That's the setup. I like my corners. Yeah. And then I think Courtney asked, she was like, could we like do something with the room? But I thought you were telling the whole story. Oh, I'll tell the whole story. I'm so sorry. Okay, so then there was a group talk. I believe it was our producer at the time, Sonny, and Joe Beretta. I believe

we all got together on that Friday, all the cast too, and they were like, hey, do you want to possibly rearrange the room? I know everyone's got individual desks, but maybe we do some sort of group desk situation or something like that. I believe we went around to ask people's opinions. I believe it was two in the yes, three in the no, or two in the yes, two in the no.

Shane wasn't around at the time. With Olivia and Keith saying, no, we don't want our stuff moved. No on the movement. Courtney saying, I would really, really love it. And me saying, oh, I do like that idea. I think it would be a lot more collaborative for all of us to have desks together.

Did you say that? Oh, yes, I did. I did. I said have desks together. Did you say that? Yes, I did. I said, yes, whatever, but you know what? After our conversation, I believe we landed on we weren't going to move them yet, but the idea was, you know, accept it. 50-50 at that point. That was Friday. Monday, we

all come back. I walk in this mother. I walk in the office and the desk, my desk was gone. No, it wasn't gone it was moved over by the apartment you pushed two desks together

each desk had a separate desk as if the computer the back of the computers would face each other so it's like one long desk and two people

are on the opposite ends yes you and me were together and then they were together so look I came in you're still hurting from this man I have trust issues

I should be hurting I'm telling you that's what I'm trying to tell you because it's like a straight up when you tell somebody no i don't want something some way and i come in and the first thing she says to me and i didn't even like when you said this to me i kind of like like my insides just bursted you were like you're like yeah i moved the desk do you like it yeah no i came in hot like i literally came with that that was so unbelievable when she asked me i just met this girl and she's moving my desk and then she asked me if i like it when i just sold her on friday would she like i was like oh my god she's nuts she's nuts i'm thinking like what did i do wrong to deserve this that was in

my head like it was the ultimate. Dude. Oh, like you got to understand, like when I go through it, I'm going through it. Yeah. That doesn't sound fun. No, it's not. It wasn't fun to like to for someone for me to say like, yo, please don't. You can move anybody else's and to be told like, you know, like straight up eye contact and then to like be pulled back and then the same person be like, hey, do you like it?

It's like, oh, my God. I'm like, yo, does she like does it's like oh my god i'm like yo does she like does she does she want problems i was like no qualms no yeah i i honestly didn't know i was like yo she's trying to pick on me like i really felt like you were picking on me i had to deal with it for a long time we went through our shit yeah and i had to really deal with it even to the point now where i think about it sometimes and it's like fun but i was like dang like this really took me to a place of just not trusting and not like we had to build that love and trust and we do have it like all by all means like we love each other like courtney i'll text her every now and again just to be like you know i love you

or she'll send pictures or whatever but like it was definitely for me like out of like the like all of us it was just like damn like who can i trust in this like i'm coming into a whole different like situation like how am i supposed to trust someone when we have like an understanding and the understanding is just like yeah like what up you like this i did it for you like no that was not for me that was like all you okay real quick before we get to your side i just want to say two things keith for me experiencing that uh number one i did like the desks a lot more you did say 10 out of 10 i did enjoy the rearrangement yeah i loved it and it was much more effective she did do a great job rearranging it our desks were by the windows each person had a window to share it was done but he

had didn't he keith lost his special like spot where he had his zone i told you guys i like my corner yeah and as much as we're a group we are individuals that come from different places struggle with different thought processes and everything and for me it was just like oh yeah what up it was really funny to see a fight happen over a desk oh then the fight yeah yeah i love you i love you i know you do i trust you we've been through a lot and like i'm gonna say my honest opinion about that whole situation because like dude i was a control freak when i came in i was ready to make myself a part of everything and like be a part of everything whether you guys were ready for or not i wanted

to be your best friends and i didn't realize that some people don't like that right away. I totally came in too hot. Um, when that happened, like, and it may, maybe you said directly. No, I don't remember.

I thought it was like, I don't know. Like, I'm not sure. That's what I remember, but it could have been that I still was wrong for taking your guys's space and moving it. Cause that was not my fucking job. Um,

your reaction was so shocking. And like, i feel terrible that it affected you for that long like it affected me terribly because it affected you so much and i was like holy shit i made this person feel so much anger and i know you didn't let it go for months and like i didn't earn your trust for a month yeah it was like a trusting for me especially with it being like you being a new person it was like damn like if, like if this is how this is going to go, like, I don't know if I can like really be cool. I just, we're so different. We totally are.

And like, you literally did not know me at all. And like, I came at it with like, oh, like this is something exciting and new. And like me rearranging is like a fun like cleanse that happens in a room. It's like my equivalent of like staging a place or whatever. But like the like I just it was just a desk, dude. No, but the desk. But it was the no that like really made me upset. The fact that I defied you.

Yeah. So it was like we had this conversation. It was like it was just a desk. And that's how simple it was. If you just move a desk when I tell you that's how simple it was if if you just move a desk when i tell you like don't move mine i said you can move everybody else's and then we get to the point where you just like come in and then you ask me if i like i'm like yo dude she's playing games and i'm like and i know how to play i i know how people play games i know how i play games

sometimes everybody plays games so in my head it just was like game we play monopoly in this hoe shit like what the fuck like i didn't know like i have never experienced anything like i don't believe everyone's trying to play games because like my that's another that's a personal thing too for me that is a personal thing but like that no and that like even that we're talking about it today like it's still kind of yeah i mean those are the foundations of the foundations of relationships like the legitimate love it was beginning stuff but like that sucks when it's like we're still learning each other and like that experience was really hard for me too and like i i wronged you i i invaded your space it was incorrect that i did that i just couldn't believe like how long and like how harshly

you treated me like and again like we've been through whatever i fucking love you both like um it was definitely tried i tried to apologize and like and then like you just didn't take it well and like i started crying and then like you felt bad and hugged me there was a separation for sure yeah the separation it's just like how for you you say it was just a desk it was like for me it was just a no you know just to say that it was and that i feel like because of that whole like like oh you're feeling this way i'm feeling this way it's just like we had our own feelings we just it was hard for me with it being so new to understand somebody to like you know you don't know my yeah so i'm like

so my like in my head i thought your intentions were so like just against me. And I like this is something I have to work on. Like with people in general, I don't let people in. I really don't. I struggle with it. Like all my friends that know me personally, like on a deep level, they're like, yo, Keith is not cool right now. Like, what do you need? Like, you know, like I just have people that support me in that way. And like I do take friendship very, very seriously.

And it was just like damn like fuck like no i gotta work with somebody who's just like so like like i guess inconsiderate for me you know yeah no it was like and that's it came across to you as inconsiderate and all this shit and it's like and it's real like you're that's what you felt and like that's how it came across i am like oh this is great like i'm gonna do this thing for these guys and like maybe they'll like what i do like i fucking drew fan art of you guys i'm such a fucking dork no you're really a sweet person like that's not a problem both of you communicate similarly i weirdly like those first few months like we

we did not vibe well and like it was really hard for me. It's like for me, the way I view friends, at least back then, 100%, at least back then, it was like, oh, friends? The more the merrier. I'm not going to check you psychologically. I'm going to let you in. You're going to learn everything about me. I'm going to trust you with my life. For that, I've made some serious mistakes.

We are the complete opposite is what it was. It's fucking fucking what is it fire and ice or fire all i'm saying we're complete opposites because like like you said i'm gonna allow people to come in and blah blah blah all that i'm like yo like i'm not like and i'm just like nothing yeah you know what i mean and like honestly i feel like out of anybody in the group i feel like we've actually clashed the most oh yeah you know what I mean like it's just been like a it's but it's never like we can always look back in hindsight

in the moment it like hurts you know for like everybody involved and that doesn't make anybody feel comfortable in the group but like on the outside looking in what's it like how do you see it like honestly uh both of you communicate very similarly which is uh not how I communicate or I don't think I'm as good at it which is both of you are like similarly, which is not how I communicate,

or I don't think I'm as good at it, which is both of you are like very emotional people in no negative, but in the way where like you guys very much are in tune with how people are feeling, how like you feel, and like how those things kind of connect in communication. I don't know if I'm doing a good job

describing what I'm trying to, but both of you are like, I love you. Give people hugs. Both of you very often will like affirm love or kindness for each other other people around you both of you will make sure someone feels comfortable if like you notice that they don't um and just to touch on the the early days like really it's it's like you coming in being new like us being stuck there

in like a room for like six months yeah meeting you randomly and like you coming in with the exact same energy we had six months prior and it's definitely like we did not let you in as much as we could have the energy right out of you no the opposite you gave us energy and that was like we didn't know why you were coming in with energy because you had yet to realize what the first year was like which was like hey we're not announced yet like we're we're just kind of secretly doing this and that like um so it kind of we we pretty much spent months just in the same room together there wasn't much space there wasn't much to do so it makes sense that we were in like a like a boring white office room like kids that have never really really had real jobs it looks

like your teacher's desk i think courtney was the only one that had like a real job because you worked at a pharmacy but like or the rest of the only one that had a real job because you worked at a pharmacy. Yeah, you did the taco stand. That wasn't like a grown-up job, though. That's like some kid, like, let's go make some. Had a few little restaurant situations. But we were just in this white room. I don't even know that they knew what they wanted to do with us or what the situation, what we actually were.

Guys, you got to realize we are five different types of people so different like just the way like i mean beyond the way we look you know and everything all together like the way that we all came together y'all it's like something that like people don't have and will never have and i'm like five pieces from different puzzles somehow fit it fit it fit and, that's the thing beyond it fitting, like the way that it fits now, we have to find how to fit it, how the puzzle works. Like it was like,

I look back at like how I handled a lot of things in the beginning, just like with like even this situation, I'm like, dang, I could have like softened up a little bit or like, you know, I could have, you know,

like we could have did all that. But like the way that this, like at the end of the day, we're not at the office as much as we used to be. But I'm telling you, the love that I have for you, Courtney, the love that I have for Shane, Ian, it's real. It's real shit for me. I had to grow to love.

I feel like we all had to grow to love different people. You know what I mean? It's so cool. It's so cool. People will never get this opportunity. No. Ever. And after experiencing the being in that room with you guys so much i wouldn't want to do that with the person i love

most i would not want to be in the same room stuck with that person all the time no matter how much i love them because that's too much you need that being said i would not trade those experiences no i'm so glad we had them but i wouldn't build us like i wouldn't like oh you have the opportunity to work 10 hours a day with your favorite sibling and you like do you want to do it i'm like no no i just want to do what i've gotten enjoy them when i have them like what we have now but like yeah i think we all grew so much not like not just together as a group but like independently because we were learning how to coexist with people we wouldn't normally. We, Keith, you and I specifically, I feel like we have very big personalities.

And, like, we're very passionate. And, like, we feel very hard. Yeah. And so that's why, like, the clash is, like, we feel that clash. Yeah, like, harder than what we should. Like, honestly, harder than what we should. Like, I feel like in the moment is there we can validate it all day like you know what i mean but like hindsight we is like we just we

we some cry babies we some cry babies i'm baby that's baby that's my baby so this next episode is the so random smosh cast episode featuring damien shane allison ashley arm and matthew scott montgomery and they talk about a sketch that was done on so random that was so bad that it never aired enjoy so my favorite story one of my top five favorite stories of all time is we did a sketch that never made it to air. Thank God. Called Teenie in a Bottle. And I know it was Matthew Scott and myself. You were the dad.

I was the dad. I was the son. Tiffany was my wife. Or baby mama. Audrey was my sister. So we were the children. So the sketch was like a 60s

sitcom. Like a 60s sitcom family. I think I was cleaning out the basement. I was like, Hey kids, I found this lamp in the basement. Wanna rub it? And then out of it, out of this genie lamp that we find comes a teenage genie who doesn't grant any

wishes because she's sassy and doesn't want to like, she's a teenager. She's like an angry, sassy teen. There was a lot of issues with the girl who played the, the teeny who played teeny. She had to be painted and they painted her green, but that wasn't working. So the producers were so focused on her and how she was doing the character that Matthew Scott and I were just like let's give the worst performances of our lives we were running behind on time yeah the actress name was Coco Jones she was having a really hard time with the material she was also like a toddler she was also like like an adult but she was like 11 12 you know the notes they're getting from the network

or whatever that was like everything she was doing was like too negative or like would be a bad influence on kids but that was kind of how it was written yeah so on the fly they're trying to rewrite it to make it more positive but it's not working she's half in green makeup what was the line about being adopted i don't even know like there was some line where it's like what's what do you want to wish for and like you were audrey's like i wish i weren't adopted and like do you remember that and we like we're improvving and they're like, okay, and moving on. We're like, what? Dude, no. So we start this and Matthew Scott and I had talked, but we're like, let's go insane with this. Yes.

So I'm going to see, and I'm thinking, I'm going to go nuts. And all of a sudden, Matthew Scott just goes, a genie. Yes, literally. Do you remember the face though? I said, genie. I was watching this on the closed circuit TV in the dressing room and I think you said you turned to Matthew Scott at one point and you just went like

just gritted teeth eyes looking like they're gonna pop out of his face you looked both angry and happy at the same time We were running way behind and the last shot we had to get was like the opening credit shot where it's like and that's's teeny, or whatever it was.

And it was a shot of me and my family shoved around each other and Coco popping up between us. And we only had time for one take. And so instead of me saying the line, that's teeny, I literally would go, ah! Like, literally, that made the most... There was moments where you just were screaming in it. Where it was just like, she's like, I'm not going to grant that wish.

And I go, Danny! And no one corrected me. No one corrected me. And then they were like, okay, check in the gate. Time to go to the lunch. And I was like, that's going to be dumb. I was laughing through most of the takes. I didn't have a line delivered where I wasn't like, what a cheating.

And we only shot our stuff once because they didn't have a line delivered where I wasn't like, what a genie! And we only shot our stuff once because they didn't have time. So we knew they were going to have to use those takes. You had a part where you folded your arms, but you didn't touch. Your arms did not touch. You just like weirdly folded them. I was like, genie. Oh my God.

It was absolutely insane. And they said nothing. We're like, they never even looked at me. Damien was watching it on the monitor. And I come back, I're like, we're kidding. They never even looked at me. Damien was watching it on the monitor. And I come back, I'm like, did you watch it? He's like, no. Yeah.

Everyone's watching on the monitors in the dressing room. And they were so disturbed by what we were doing that they came out to set. Like, is everything okay? Like, what's happening? But they were so concerned with Coco that they never looked at us. It was the most, it is the hardest I've ever laughed. I went, there's this guy Skip

who was editing and I went to him in the editor's bay a couple weeks later. I was like, can I please watch Teeny to Bottle? He's like,

oh no, we scrapped all of that. He was like, we couldn't use any of that. I was like, oh my God. Is this just deleted? It's not even.

I mean, I would give anything to watch all that stuff now. Oh man, there's so many funny moments. Oh man. Oh man, what Oh, man. What a bad sketch.

Right, guys? There's no one else here in this room. Ha, ha, ha, ha. Well, this next clip comes from episode 33. And it's myself, Noah, and Keith. And Keith opens up out of nowhere about how he hasn't been feeling so good and the steps that he's taking to be happier and healthier. So Keith you've made some changes in your life? Oh yeah I have

actually. Not as much as people think. Like I've been trying to get a lot more healthy. I've been trying to get a lot more healthy. I've been trying to go on hikes because like I do have a lot more free time. And I see that I am starting to gain weight. I'm 27 years old now. Don't tell nobody but God, but I'm 27 years old and weight is sticking to me like never before. 27 is the turning point. That's the final dying gasp of our metabolism. So let just say this so i i went uh i weighed myself i didn't even know like one of my roommates

has like a scale in the bathroom and i never weigh myself i don't really i weigh myself but like not that often and i happen to look over and i was like okay let me just weigh myself let me see where i'm at because my weight fluctuates you know i'm saying to just say up and down up and down so i ended up weighing myself and i was like 140 or 141 I can't remember my memory's not that good anymore and uh like by the next week or the week after that I want to say I was 145 and I had started hiking I had started like doing you know like a couple push-ups like not like just a few just a few like 10 20 here yeah 30 if i'm feeling real nice nice but i've been doing that but like to gain weight i know it's not muscle like i know

it's not muscle so like i i also have to eat healthier and i just i honestly have to like honest like just monitor what i eat what i do what i drink i can't drink beers as much y'all know i love a free beer at kitchen 24 I shouldn't have said that you guys are gonna find me there I'm going after this good lord but like uh like dead ass y'all like I looked at the the scale the the next two weeks or so and I like weighed 145 and that scared me because I was like yo I'm actually trying to like take you know precaution and just, you know, wait this shit out. Yeah.

Drinking's a big one, man. It's that that'll catch up for sure. It caught me. It caught. I'm starting to get like all my size right here. Oh, you got the love handles? Like beyond side. My mom calls them side items.

I got side items, but they also got some dents in them. And I'm like, well, damn, I ain't never had no dents in them and I'm like well damn I ain't never had no dents like potholes everywhere they some little cute ones it's like kind of like a beanie baby you know how like when you touch it it's just like the little like thingies in there that's how my side items are yeah you got something to hold on to but I've definitely been like working out I'm going hiking after this is why I'm dressed like this I'm very you know like comfortable you know I'm saying yeah, get you a shirt. Oh, yeah.

Get you a shirt. You got to get the Slush Cult merch before it's all gone. The collab, it's good shit. It's really good. This shirt's actually incredibly like... Comfy. This material is super nice. I don't know about that one.

This is the last limited edition, which is super dope. But the hat is awesome. It's like a straight up custom one. This is the last limited edition, which is super dope, but the hat is awesome. It's like a straight-up custom stitch. What is this called, the five panel? Except I don't know how many. It's a camp hat. I like how this turned into a commercial, and it's not about me anymore.

Sorry. It's okay. Get your stuff, though. Get your merch. Smosh.store. Yep, yep, yep. Back to you, Keith. But definitely just trying to watch myself,

and the funny thing is people think that I'm better. Ryan was talking to Olivia recently and he was like, yo, like, how's Keith? And he's asking her questions and she's like, yo, he's like healthier. He seems happier. And guys, I am fighting so hard for my happiness. You know what I mean? I like when he brought it up earlier because you know we do talk about a little bit about like what we're gonna talk about before we get here you know just to like have a understanding

of where things could go and I started thinking when he asked me I was like yo like I think I might be more depressed than I've ever been and I beat myself up when I'm alone and everything and I'm like I'm fighting and I feel like oh like, like even saying it, I'm kind of getting emotional, like just honestly like fighting for my life. You know what I mean? Really? And it's, yes, yes. And I find myself, you know, like I go to church and everything and I'm just trying

to find something. Like, I mean, like I'm not here all the time. You know what I mean? We don't come in Monday through Friday. I have a lot more time. I'm auditioning and stuff now more so. And, you know, like ideas, it's like, what's like what makes me happy yeah like what do I enjoy like what's what what's my identity like who am I like I'm really going through it y'all like when you have like so many people watching you you have

to you start to watch yourself more and to the point where you judge yourself way more than what you ever like would have if you only had a couple people, you know, eyes on you. But I honestly realized I am like, I'm pushing through, I'm persevering. I take pride in person, like just persevering and moving forward.

But like, I am doing these things and like, just because I don't feel the best, you know what I mean? I don't feel 100%. I'm trying what I mean? I don't feel 100%. I'm trying to find it. I'm searching, y'all. I am searching.

And the only way to, like, I'm doing something new. I used to make fun of people for hiking. And now I'm like, yo, I see why people do it. I see why people work out. Remember, I will always say, like, I'm not working out for shit. I'm not doing this. Like, no, it's stupid. I didn't have to.

Now my body's changing. changing like that's one thing but like just the things that you're you're psyching your mental like I have to do that for that like just going on the hikes I get down like out the first day let me just start by the first day the first day I did the hike I had drank the day before just being transparent being very transparent right now guys I drank the day before and me and my homeboy from ohio zach we had the idea to go and we had it for a week like a couple weeks but i just never did it but this time like i ended up waking up and i got a message from him he said yo and this was like 30

minutes before we were supposed to go because i was gonna bail like i was gonna bail like just straight up i was like i'm over i shouldn't be doing this. Like, I'm dehydrated. How late were you up the night before? I want to say two or three. So, like, and then, like, but this is the thing. He hit me up at 1030. So, I can, like, I can move and, like, you know, make things work. Like, I'm a professional.

He ended up, like, FaceTiming me, like, after, like, I seen a message. And, no, I FaceTimed him. And I was like, bro, you know, hopefully that he would, like, be, like, see my face. Like, okay, like, he doesn't want to do it. But he was like, are we still doing that? I was like bro you know hopefully that he would like be like see my face like okay like he doesn't want to do it but he was like are we still doing that i was like yes and i got up i jumped up and y'all it was the worst decision of my life i felt like i was gonna die i was walking up there he brought his dog so we're going i'm like oh my god i just started what got out the car and i'm walking up this damn hill and my calves are on fire what is going on with me what happened and i'm guessing did you not and i'm guessing you probably didn't

bring water you know i ain't bringing water you know i brought some soda non-platinum but i brought some water and i'm walking up and we start getting up there we stop he had to make a phone call he does like real estate or some stuff so like we stopped and we're talking i'm like well this is great this is great we stop it we're having a good time i'm like on my phone like face like uh instagram and you know just you know making content and then we started walking but we go like up this like this steep ass heel and we walked up it almost slipped and i don't have good gym shoes gym shoes tennis shoes what are they sneakers i don't know the hiking shoes so like i kind of slipped and i was like okay we get up there like to this like weird area and we do push-ups i'm like okay this is cool i shouldn't have did the push-ups y'all shouldn't

have did the push-ups and i should have had water started walking i'm like okay we're talking after like five minutes into it y'all i felt the the wind it was hot. Then it got cold. And then I was like, whoa. I ain't never felt like this before. What's going on? What's going on? So I keep walking. I'm like, he looks back. He's like, Keith, are you okay?

And I was like, no. But we keep walking. I'm like, I'm going to keep it going. I'm like hoping, like somehow, someway, he would see. Like he could tell that I wasn't good. And every, like his dog wasn't either. His dog had like a fucking chinchilla fur on. What the dog had a full ass chinchilla one second one second chinchilla is the finest fur according to Jay-z that's what I'm saying the dog had on chinchilla yes a whole

chinchilla fur so he's just panting he's like I'm like do you see your dog your dog's dying your dog's dying and we keep walking he's like are you okay I'm like no don't see your dog? Your dog's dying. Your dog's dying. And we keep walking. He's like, are you okay? I'm like, no, don't ask me that again. Let's keep going. Like, if you're not going to ask me to go down, let's just keep going. So we keep going. We got up there. I felt like I was going to die.

I didn't feel good. But like once, like, you know how they tell you don't sit down, like, and put your hands behind your head. Definitely sat down. Definitely did not do that. I was that bad. Like, I didn't feel like I was going to make it. And I didn't have water, and I will never walk up a damn hill at all. I don't care what hill, if it's just a hill like this that I just made,

and I walk over this, I'm carrying some water with me. But did not feel good. But at the same time, at the end, I realized how much just, like, getting through it was for me. Like, just moving, getting over the hill, y'all me like just moving getting over the hill y'all like honestly getting over the hill and fighting for it because i did not feel good i did not feel good and i don't i don't feel good right now so i'm just being honest just so you know it doesn't matter how you get there okay all that matters is that you make it to the other side because it's

the climb oh is that miley cyrus that's Miley Cyrus. I might have misquoted. I was serious. I almost cried and shit. Yeah. You shouldn't even write that. I mean, and plus if you keep doing the climb, like it'll only get easier. And it's pretty remarkable.

Like if you just keep committing to that, every single time is going to be easier than the last. And then, you know, maybe one day you'll run up that thing. Oh, I got to stop doing a few things for that. So last clip of the episode. This is from episode 40, where Olivia shares with Courtney, Noe, and Shane about how when she was a child, she made all sorts of weird friends.

Here it is. You always know someone like earlier today, I was like, I was thinking about doing acupuncture. And you're like, I have a guy that does acupuncture. I know a lot of, I know a lot of,

I have a lot of sources, but then it's also, also because I grew up in LA. So like, I, you know, at age 15, I was going to weird places, know a lot of i have a lot of sources but then it's also also because i grew up in la so like yeah i you know at age 15 i was going to weird places just doing some investigating work when i was a detective no i would just like i i didn't have anyone to talk to only child syndrome i would just go linger at, I remember like at dollar stores or like liquor stores. Did you still have your roller backpack? Yeah. And I met many interesting people.

And I would just ask them a lot of questions and talk and like, I would become friends with them. And okay, hold on. We got to, Olivia, how have I known you for four and a half years? And I didn't know that when you were a kid, you would linger around dollar stores and meet people and find out about their lives. Oh, my God. You guys didn't. Wait. What is your childhood? Well, because my first really good friend that I had in middle school was actually the custodian.

Wow. Because my mom wouldn't pick me up for three. Well, ever since elementary school, my mom would not pick me up for like two or three hours and then a big mom and then she'd open the trunk yeah i was at kmart and like she was like shopping and like you guys can't really it's it's very rare where i find someone who can relate to my childhood because my mom would just like leave me at school or like leave me in middle school and in middle school i stopped going to after school classes because i hated it so i would just like wait three hours like school would end at three I would she'd pick me up at six and I would hang out with like I would hang out around the there was a dollar store I'd go hang out and they would

close at like five and then I'd go back to school and hang out with the custodian wow was the custodian was cool so cool and that was your first best friend that's cool we were very close um I honestly forgot but we talked about his kids and, but we'd talk about it as kids. And then, yeah, it was. Talk about like, you know, shit. I would follow him around. Trade Pokemon cards. And then I would help him with this. Truthfully, that's what I did, and I really liked it.

Solve mysteries under the school. And then I used to go to this. I would go to this place called Bentoya, and I would hang out with. What is your life? I would walk down the block and just like I made my stops. I'm like hey

how you doing today? Wow. You were like Belle from Beauty and the Beast but it was just this street with a dollar store. And there's a liquor store. Just hang out.

Hey Olivia. Hey Olivia. Hey how's your wife doing today? Are you guys going on the cruise? I can actually relate to the I still have to like address this with my mom because it's something

I really recently figured out because I'm pretty sure I was left places too. Like McDonald's Playplace or Barnes and Noble. Yeah. See, my mom would pick me up and I would have to then go to the YMCA because she would have a couple more hours of work and I would just chill at the gym. Wow. I wouldn't work out. You taught anyone?

I was just a kid. No, I was very shy. I would often have a Game Boy or something or I would just chill at the gym. I wouldn't work out. You taught anyone? I was just a kid. No, I was very shy. I would often have a Game Boy or something or I would just chill around. You missed out. My first video game experience was a gym daycare playing Spyro. Oh, that's cool.

I was like Hoda. Hoda? You know who she is? No. You're talking about... Oh, I thought that was a video game. From Good Morning America? Yeah.

Why are you like, Hoda? What does that have to do... Because I interviewed everybody. So you interviewed the custodian. You also interviewed the liquor store. Yeah. And you were just a kid. How old were you?

I wasn't interviewing them. I was just talking to them. How old were you, though? That was when I was 14, 13. Oh, you just walk in and be like, what's up, Marty? And he'd be like, how's it going? He'd be like, how's your day going? He's like, selling alcohol. You're like, that's pretty cool. Can I have some? He's like, no. I'm like, 13. Oh, you just walk in and be like, what's up, Marty? And he'd be like, how's it going? He'd be like, how's your day going? He's like, selling alcohol.

You're like, that's pretty cool. Can I have some? He's like, no. I'm like, okay. And then I started getting a car, and that's when I got dangerous. Oh, where'd you go? Because then you would drive around all of LA and interview everyone. Well, no, no, because then I went to this bookstore on Melrose, and I met this dude,

and he was the first guy that I met. He was the first guy I ever met. No, he told me about like, why am I being so random right now? Please. Like they, you know, like there's a form of art, performance art, where they would put hooks

in their bodies. In their bodies? Oh. And dangle from a ceiling? Like the weird stuff. And so this guy you met at a bookstore would do that. Oh, no, no, no. He was the first one. Okay, when I was 16, sorry, that was actually

the second most memorable guy. What just happened? The first guy was actually, I met at an Amoeba. You know Amoeba? Yeah, I know Amoeba. This guy. Amoeba's a giant record store.

Yeah, yeah. In LA. It's about to close down. Oh, yeah. But I met this guy. I think his name was... I forgot his name already he had curly hair

anyways he introduced me to a lot I know this sounds really creepy but we were truly friends I look like a little boy

anyways so like there was nothing is that better? no I was very like like not scary

you know and he introduced me to a bunch of awesome movies. And then he also was like, oh, yeah, I'm also making a documentary about people who were in Psycho. The movie Psycho? Yeah. And this was a long time ago. You remember these conversations.

Yes. But after these one meetings. They were not one meetings. You would be consistent friends with these people. Yeah. We're Facebook friends. Wow. You still talk to these people?. They were not one meetings. You would be consistent friends with these people. Yeah. We're Facebook friends. Wow. You still talk to these people?

No. Absolutely not. Absolutely not. They're absolutely insane. That's crazy. Well, I remember being so, because when you think about it, I grew up in a bubble and then I would go out into the city and I'd meet a bunch of people and obviously I would like to know about their lives.

Wow. Because they lived a life that I didn't live. I have to admit this. You make a lot more sense now. Like, who you are makes a lot more sense now that I know that your childhood was a Diablo Cody movie. You were just walking around, repeating like, yeah, my best friends, a janitor, a stripper, and a liquor store owner, and a guy who dangles from books. Dude, this guy invited me to a show, too. I was like, oh, no, no, no, I can't.

Wow. Is it called chandeliering? What is that called? I don't know what it's called, but because this guy had a lot of body jewelry on him, and then he was telling me more and more, and I think they didn't have an outlet. You know, how many customers go to the store

and ask them about what they do outside of the store? Yeah, well, I'm at a bookstore. I'm assuming people are going to ask about books. Hey, this book at a bookstore. I'm assuming people are going to ask about books. Yeah. Hey, this book's really good. Do you put hooks in your body and hang the ceiling ever? I remember this comment. Wow, no one's ever asked me that before.

You're never going to believe this. That's my passion. Wow. You want to be best friends for right now, but then we'll just be Facebook friends later. I'll never talk to you again. I mean, I enjoyed doing that way more than being at school. No, that's awesome because my days after school were so fucking boring at the high school library. Should have hung out with me. Ignoring Johnny.

Wow. My life is nothing compared to yours, Olivia. You were in L.A. too? Not until I was 16. You could have hung out with me. We probably hung out. We probably were at some point. You guys have a lot of similar friends.

We have a lot of similar friends. We were probably at the same party at some point. I was not. I was out. You were off hanging out with Hookmaster Jim. You were hanging out with the mime you met At Best Buy Yeah

No You know But even now You could ask Sam too Even now Like I love Like meeting people And just asking them

Yeah you're a very curious person You love to like Talk to people And ask questions I believe That's the thing I believe everything you're saying I know you're not making this up

And that's why it's so insane And funny to me Well that does it for the trip down old smosh cast memory lane of 2019 guys this again this was our first ever year of doing podcasts we had a whole heck of a lot of fun i i love all my friends just bringing them in here talking about stuff sharing weird things with you guys. I hope you guys learned something from it, or at least we're just entertained. It's been a lot of fun. I'm looking forward to 2020, podcasting some more. So if you're not subscribed to Smoshcast yet on any of the podcast listening apps, go do it. Rate us five stars. Help the Grow the Smosh family. And also check us out on the YouTube.

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