Test Match Special - The King of Spain and I – Ashley Giles
Episode Date: July 6, 2025Jonathan Agnew talks to former Warwickshire and England spinner Ashley Giles about his life and career. Giles has been an England player, coach, selector and managing director and has experienced high...s and lows in all those roles. They talk the iconic 2005 Ashes series and some of the challenges he’s faced with his mental health.
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from BBC Radio 5 Live.
I'm Jonathan Agnew.
Welcome to a bonus TMS podcast.
In this episode, I'm joined by a former England spinbowl
who's also had a series of senior roles with the England side.
These days, Ashley Giles, the chief executive at Worcestershire,
but still very welcome at Edgebaston,
where we caught up with him during the test match against India.
We talked about his life and his career
and its contribution to that unforgettable series 20 years ago.
You're listening to the TMS podcast.
from BBC Radio 5 Live.
We'd love to see you, Ashley.
Thanks, Agus. Great to be here.
Welcome back. I mean, it is your home, really, isn't it?
I know not necessarily home at the moment.
Yeah, I've got to be careful, but it always feels like home when I come back.
It's quite a friendly rival with that, or is it quite a delicately,
delicately poised one at you at Worcestershire?
No, I think it's a friendly rival.
Of course, we want to turn the bears over at every opportunity.
Yes.
No, I think it's fairly cozy now.
Yeah. Come on, the King of Spain.
I remember that day, we turned up here.
2001 wasn't it i think a test match and they're all these very nice looking coffee mugs about
they look rather nice bit of a freebie don't get many of those and i thought i'd take one of
those home and someone else had a look and then it took a little time it wasn't an immediate
thing yeah said hang on a minute that says that says the king of spain not the king of spin
and that's when the whole thing sort of broke out wasn't it i mean it was it was very funny
It was. I mean, it was a simple printing error up front.
Is that all, is that, absolutely?
If you've investigated this, have you?
Well, yeah, I mean, there's times when probably the King of Spain
might have been more relevant than the King of Spin in my career.
Well, we didn't wonder, to be honest.
But yeah, the club shop here sent off some sample mugs
to sell in obviously our shop.
Yes.
And they came back with a printing error.
So the King of Spain rather than Spin,
it was pretty low key up front.
And then I think what really broke the story was Nick Owen, good friend,
obviously TV legend.
I think you see it tomorrow, yes.
He covered it on local news.
Right.
Then it was in the papers.
And then actually, I think it was around 2004 when I had a really good summer,
my best home summer with England.
Then it started to build.
And obviously then through that year and then going into the ashes,
there were Spanish flags and song and everything.
And actually, you know, to this day, having spent 18 years in administration or coaching,
it's still the thing if I walk past people.
And I know they've clocked me.
There used to be a few seconds.
And then I get a King of Spain.
And it just reconnects me with that period that was actually now in reflection,
you know, 20 years ago, such a special time in my career.
Yeah.
I've forgotten the flags.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I know.
So you know what a Spanish flag looked like?
No, well, actually I've got a great picture of Trafalgar Square.
Oh yes.
The day after we won the ashes.
And right at the front, there is a Spanish flag.
Gilo is our king on the front.
So yeah, it's great.
It is.
It's one of those crazy things that happens.
So let's start there because, you know, coming here, every time I come here, Ashley,
and I look at the Holley's stand, I just get transported back to 2005.
because it was so special it wasn't this same box a bit below us since it's a whole new stand but same view a little bit lower and really in it i was talking about that flint off over the ponting earlier on you know we're right in it yeah right in it yeah um and i just get transported back to that match and and and to have played in it and to have been such a part of of that series but that game here your home ground and everything else and that tension and having lost the first test at lords and
you know, so close to what should have been quite an emphatic win, really, is it turned out?
And there's that last day when the games are drifting away.
Yeah.
How often do you go back to that?
Regularly.
Well, the two things that come up a lot, King of Spain and the Ashes 2005.
But, yeah, that week started terribly for me because on the back of Lords,
I had a bit of a run-in with the media.
I was one of a few who were people were being called to be dropped,
and I carried that with me too much
coming into this test match.
It's a hard thing to know
to read stuff.
I mean, it's a bad result at Lords, wasn't it?
It was, and we had to take that on the chin.
Yeah, you perform badly.
There was a hell of a lot of expectation around that series
given the cricket we'd played in the build-up.
Yes.
Probably just ignored it, as others of, you know,
my teammates did, including Michael Vaughn.
But I remember the atmosphere, the build-up, that first day.
Michael Vaughn, actually before the first day,
saying, you know, we went hard at law.
We go harder at Edgebaston, which was a totally new approach really for an England team, particularly having just been hammered.
And even just before that, to actually keep the same team though.
I mean, they were, as I remember, we were all saying, well, they can't play the same team after this.
Yeah.
So you would have been anxious.
Yeah.
At what point did you know, Michael's here.
At what point did you know that actually you were going to be back, so you were going to read, if the whole team remained unchanged?
Pretty much straight away, I think.
I can't really recall.
But I was on that manager.
team and I never had a feeling that Vaughney or Fletch had lost that confidence.
I probably just lost it myself in that week by getting wrapped up in too much of the outside
rather than concentrating on the inside.
It was actually something that John Buchanan, the Australian coach, did in the media that really
helped me.
He did an interview and he said, we know if we can get to Ashley Giles, we can get to the
rest of them, talking about the fast bowlers.
actually when I'd gone from a point of thinking
I was pretty useless
I had value and I had purpose in the team
so okay actually if the Australian coach is saying that
then great okay let's get on with it
but still very nervous coming into this match
but it was an incredible game of cricket
particularly to play here at my home ground
and you talk about that over a fred
it was hard up here
it was really hard standing at fourth slip
yeah waiting for someone to edge one
It was quick, wasn't it?
It was one of the most extraordinary things I've ever seen.
Yeah, and that just summed up Fred's summer.
I mean, he was coming of age.
I mean, it was just extraordinary the summer he had.
But that over, yeah, sort of encapsulated all of it in seven balls, actually,
because there was a no ball.
It was, yeah, yeah.
Where were you?
Well, I'll go back a bit.
When it was drifting and when that partnership was building
And when Shane Warren was knocking it about
and he got out and chip, chip, chip, chip, chip, chip.
What were you thinking?
I think we were okay until Simon dropped one down here at third mat.
He did.
Really sharp chance, low down in front of it.
And I think there was about 15 left or something like that.
Then I think you start to think then, you know, have we blown this?
And in that last over, I was actually down at Fine Leg to Steve Harmeson.
and the ball before Brett Lee hit a low full toss.
I think Harmie went for a yorker, a low full toss hard out to cover.
And I couldn't really quite see where deep cover was
and thought that was it because he absolutely smashed it.
Luckily it went straight to Simon Jones, ball came in, another chance.
The ball, the last ball, remember it going in,
and as Kasparvich went round, I started moving to my right as you do,
thinking, well, if I have to cut it off, have to cut it off.
So I'm Garant Jones rolling, catching the ball.
And then everything goes from this somber, quiet, or just hearing the Aussies, to this noise and everything opening up and charging in, actually.
And then Garant Jones running the other way because there was a group of Aussies all in yellow down that far inch, just abusing him the whole game.
He set off there.
Tres and I went after him, so I think we missed all the photos.
But just, yeah, a magical finish.
and that fine line between being hero or villain as a team kept us in the series.
You mentioned the noise, that's what I always remember, actually,
because it was like a tsunami.
There was silence, the catch has taken,
and it takes however long to transport, doesn't it,
to the spectators that this has happened, brain engages,
we've won, bang, and the noise just came through our window.
Really, the head has stood up.
That's what actually, what I'll always remember,
from that moment.
Yeah.
Just that noise.
And that was sort of the start of it,
but I still remember that night.
I mean, we had a drink with the Aussies.
We went to the hotel, we had a few more.
They were cheerful, all the Aussies, were they?
And then we all wandered along Broad Street, as I remember,
and pretty much unbothered.
A couple of people, you know, said well done and whatever,
but it was okay.
We just got on with our evening and how that changed then
as the series went on.
It was just incredible.
Old Traff had more momentum.
ended in their last overdrawn
and that was thousands of people locked out
and he felt you're really on a role
I think my fondest memory
after this was Trembridge
and only because I know
Matthew Hoggard so well
Yeah, yeah
Where did he get that cover drive from?
Matthew Hoggaw has never played a shot in his life
He hasn't got a shot
Certainly not in front of square
No, he might have a paddle to the spinner
Or a little nerdle but
He drove Brett Lee for four through the covers
And there was a moment where we both stood there, I think, and paused and went,
yeah, does that really happen?
And then we started running, and neither of us are particularly mobile, are we?
We're not really Simon Jones across the ground, so we made the first couple of runs
looked particularly difficult.
But thankfully, it got over the boundary, and I remember being at the other end, and we needed
four then, thinking, just do it again, just do it again.
Unlikely.
Yeah, but he clipped one down the final leg, got two.
last ball huge appeal as I remember for LBW but missing
missing another set and when we got into that last over
I actually said to Hockey look we don't really need to do anything here
because with pace on the ball we'll knit two somewhere
so if I block Warnie we block Warnie and we you know if it's a maiden it's fine
and I think it was the fourth ball
was sort of a half folly full tossish
I just sort of lent on and smashed it and you think
wow and i think that's when vaughney jumped up on the balcony and that you know that picture of him
smashed straight into cartridges pads didn't go anywhere at short leg right went down a hoggy
right let's go again reset get through this over next ball was a bit of width just floated into off-stump
through my you know all i could think of then this is it threw my hands at it missed off-stump by
you know a whisker okay went back down a hoggy right let's get to the next
over and then yeah same thing just drifted into my pads and lent on it and I didn't have a
particularly good record against warn but just lent on it and timed it better than anything
I've ever timed and went then went through the field yeah we scampered the two and it was
yeah quite a finish and again you talk about the noise here again that that moment when you're
in the game and it and it's you and hoggy and bretley and shame warn that it feels like that's
the game and then when you win
it's like someone just turned the volume up
and you just go wow okay
that's um it means something
yeah and then the Oval of course
you and KP batting at the end of dark
yeah
yeah that last day you get it was a roller coaster
I mean to get to get there
yeah I mean it's um
KP dropped
as I said in the
as I said in the book if I could relive two days
it would be that last day at the Oval and the next day
the celebrations but that last day the Oval
was complete, you know,
spectrum of emotions from we've blown this,
we've thrown this away,
to then, of course, the end of the day
and we won it, but batting with Kev.
A lot of people talk about Trent Bridge
and the winning runs,
but that batting with Kev for three hours
was the most important contribution
because, you know, when I went in,
I think we were at about 200 ahead
with 55 overs left,
which was plenty.
Perfect doable, yeah.
But often say I, the best seat
in the house to one of the greatest testinians of all time.
Yeah.
Incredible.
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That next day, I was on that bus with you.
You probably remember that.
But there were only, I think, me and one of the journalists allowed on there.
I remember turning up and the general mood of, I think, was everybody,
wow, no one's going to turn up for this.
Trafalgar Square, an open-top bus.
And just being on that open-top bus,
going through the streets, the mansion.
and all that and down to Trafalgar Square
and turning into Trafalgar Square
just seeing that sea of colour
and the place absolutely packed
to have got to that stage
and then 24 hours of the game ending
remarkable really
yeah we never expected that
we thought it would be a bit of fun
a bit of a jolly for us and our families
but yeah on the way to Trafalgar Square
the streets lined almost five deep
people hanging out of windows
it probably just demonstrated again that move from
what I talk about walking down Broad Street at Edgebaston
to how the series had moved on
by the time you got the Trent Bridge and the Oval
and Trafalgar Square you couldn't see pavement
you couldn't see an inch of space
so in some ways it was probably lucky in that last idea
we didn't realise quite how much it meant to everyone
but I think one of the really big and important things
that came out of it was what it did
the profile of the game
and we're on Channel 4 of course
so everyone saw it I think 8.5 million people
watched me at those winning runs at Trent Bridge
and I think that's probably why still
as I talked about the King of Spain thing
that's how people still see me
that moment that team
and it was a very special time
and it lit the spark for so many cricketers
isn't it I mean the England players today
they'll talk about 2000
2005
yeah whenever I see
Joe Root, he still takes the Mickey out of me
for my running down the wicket at Trent Bridge of my bat
in my hand, looking rather awkward
but yeah
and it's
people often ask what
it was like and it, when I reflect
now, there are times honestly
when I reflect on my playing career probably negatively
or used to
but that period it was just a pure privilege
to play in that team with those guys and I think
there'll always be a
certain bond. There's been a lot of water under the
bridge but I think there'll be a certain bond between those 12 guys and all the support team
who went through that summer yeah but it has been a roller coaster for you actually hasn't it
and it started before that um didn't sort of right in and say what's the point of
Ashley Giles or something like that that really kind of began this this roller coaster of
ups and downs for you yeah yeah I've had um I've had some particularly low times I would say
2004, beginning of 2004, end of 2003, particularly some really dark moments where at times
I'd felt like walking away from the game. Now, you know, we're talking about a game of cricket
and we're not talking about life of death, but yeah, some really dark moments where perhaps I just
didn't manage the pressure well and just scrambled. I, you know, I often use the analogy of a,
you know a pint glass
and we all tend to operate with the level
close to the top
but there were times in my career
where that it was just overflowing
and once it starts overflowing it's difficult to control
and that's when you start listening to
what's being said and the critics and reading
too much rather than
we all know you know it's an old saying
control the controllables or focus on the process
we're actually rather control on what you can do
and what's around you
could you feel this coming on
I mean, did you know when you were going to be starting a bit of a bout of this?
I think in those early times, probably not.
I think I just got more and more scrambled.
And I knew at times that I wasn't performing as well as I'd like to.
In some ways, I think that's part of it, because you're disappointed with yourself
and because we all just want to, we want to please, we want to succeed,
we want to make people happy, we want to provide for our families,
you want them to be proud of us,
and I think it's all a mix of that
but I think at times I just got
I got really scrambled
and at times it led to what I would call
sort of performance anxiety
but I think at times I was
I used that word in the book and I've never used it
I think I've really used it before
but I think there are times where I generally depressed
where I'd be at home with my family
and not want to play with the kids
and not want to go out, not want to be seen
and when I was there I felt like I should be at
cricket and when I was at cricket I felt guilty because I wasn't being a father and being at
home and that's just a yeah it was a pretty dark dark place yeah and was there help i mean
nowadays a lot of a lot of psychology and so on around the england set up and so on but was that
was that much when this started off with you we had a sports psych um Steve bull it was certainly
I think something that was more difficult to talk about definitely I'd have thought to go and see him
back then
You get quite a deep breath,
wasn't it?
Yeah.
And that was a chance meeting with him,
but before that,
you know, even,
I was obviously very close to Vaughney.
We used to spend a lot of time together,
but you don't broach this stuff with you.
No.
Particularly with the captain.
No.
You know, I'm really dark.
I'm really struggling.
Yeah.
I'd not play then.
Yeah, that's a really difficult conversation to have.
And there's an element of the pride,
the what do people think of me,
stuff that goes on as well.
So, but that's,
that chance meeting in 2004 at Trent Bridge with Steve Bull
transformed that year, definitely.
There's no other explanation for it.
And certainly without that chance meeting with Steve Bull,
where we just got, you know, we put things down on a piece of paper,
this is what's important, this is what I need to focus on,
this is my value to the team, not what other people say.
Without that, I wouldn't have got to 2005, I'm pretty sure.
So 2005, high.
Yeah.
Amazing.
2006, 7, you're in Australia.
You get dropped.
And you get word that your wife, Steiner, has now been diagnosed the brain tumor.
How do you cope with that when you're thousands of miles away from home?
Well, it just gives you a huge amount of perspective, actually.
When you, I guess you've been there.
Yes.
We, us men on tour, you get dropped.
You think it's the end of the world.
And I remember sitting on the end of my bed with my head in my hands,
thinking, oh, poor me.
And then you get a call like that.
And suddenly nothing else in the world is really important,
except getting home and being there for Stina and the kids who were tiny.
Of course, you still, you know, I left a team behind
who were going through Ash's Hell at the time.
Five-0 hammering.
I certainly know what that's like.
But it definitely gives you perspective.
This is a game and it's a great game
and it means a lot to people
and it's meant a lot to me. It's been my life
but it's not life or death
and in that moment
I certainly had true perspective.
Yeah. It's also your job.
So how did you handle doing your job well
when you've got all of this going on? You've got your own issues.
You've got your wife ill.
Yeah. Where did cricket fit into all of this?
Well I think at that point
you know i'd just been through over a year of rehab with my my hip injury in operations three
operations um got back into the team didn't been left out um rightly so um and then had this news
so while i was injured i i suppose there were parts of me that started to think i might have to
get used to the idea that i might be coming to the end of the road um then with steena um similarly that's all
that was important in that in that time and actually you start to realize as well you know as
Monty comes in um as i talk about in again in the book that you sort of your time in the sun
starts to come to an end and that's just the way of things so um again you know you you're one
minute you're in the middle of it the next minute you wake up and and that that bus or that that
circus has left town and no one looks back and that's okay that's just you you have to
to be comfortable with that but when as you say it's your job it's your purpose it's your life
it's everything you ever wanted to do it's your teammates it's your friends um that is quite hard
to deal with for many um and and it was it was for me but i think others have a much tougher ride
at times yeah i always hesitate to ask because i know when i get asked how emma is that you
say well you know okay but how how is steena doing no she's good
So she's still on sort of 12 to 18 month checkups.
She has two tumours in her head, which we always say are behaving.
Right.
But they are still there?
They're still there.
We have our own trust now, the Giles Trust, which she's the driving force behind,
but we're the QE Hospital's Brain Tumor Charity.
We're relatively small, but we've raised over £1.5 million now,
and it all goes to the right place.
But she's good.
And we're lucky.
you know brain tumours are still the biggest killer of under 40s
that doesn't make one cancer better than another they're all horrible
horrible thing don't get me wrong they're all horrible but brain tumours are the
biggest killer of under 40s including kids and they get about 2% of the funding
nationally so that's what we're trying to do that's the really important stuff
yeah good well it's great here she's okay I reckon every professional
cricketer actually reckons they could do a good job of running the game yeah give
They know nothing as administrators.
You've tried it, I think.
You've had to go at all of these things.
Yeah.
I suspect it's a bit tougher that it actually appears to a player, isn't it?
Yeah, it's hard.
Yeah, it's hard.
But ultimately in these roles, you're given these roles
because people believe you can do it.
And you've got to do what you think is right.
You've got to stick to your values and your morals.
You know, I don't think, and no one's born leader,
but I feel very lucky, almost part of my education,
was working with some of the best,
whether they be coaches, administrators, players, captains,
and you take the good stuff that you like
and that you've seen, and you leave the bad stuff.
But I'm, you know, for me, I'm very big on values,
on culture-based, on people-based systems.
You know, you don't do anything without good people.
if you've got bad people you're struggling but with good people you could achieve anything so that's always a good start point yeah
I mean managing director of English cricket is a that's a big job yeah I mean I mean are you and I don't know it's like with Rob Key but are you essentially that's it that is you and you are answerable obviously to the chief executive yeah but but essentially it's it's your job to run the whole thing yeah men's cricket stops with you yeah and those big decisions I suppose
During my time, you know, I love some of it, but the COVID years were particularly challenging.
And again, when you talk about some of those dark days, definitely, you know, by the end of my time as managing director, I don't think you could describe it any less than burnt out.
I was cooked.
It's actually too much for one person to do.
No, I just think it was everything coming in.
I think you can do it, but I just think in that period.
you know, being on calls
from 7 o'clock in the morning
to 8 o'clock at night
I remember doing an interview
with you guys
when I came back to Sydney
just before the fourth test
and I looked back on that
I was scrambled
that was the COVID series
where it was an almost impossible series
to manage
I would have thought
with no warm-up cricket
no games between test matches
everything in an absolute isolated
bubble
I mean, it was impossible.
It was different states
with different rules
and everyone terrified of a COVID outbreak.
Yes, and just one and the impact it would have.
I mean, the pressure of that.
And on the, you know, when we're playing,
we think we're grown-ups and big grown-up men,
they're in their 20s.
You know, they're very young men,
often quite sheltered and brought up through a system.
To try and manage that,
on its own would have been incredibly difficult out of thought
yeah and trying to manage
for me trying to manage both sides
so trying to keep cricket on
which we did to a large part
which was really important for the whole game
both domestically and internationally
so honouring our commitments in Australia
but at the same time looking after our people
I just talked about how important people are
and actually you know we went to Australia
we didn't really have a chance of winning those ashes
you know we were we were cooked
management players
we were asking a huge amount of them
and then even then when we were there I was
I was having to dish out
the odd you know
telling off
because there were certain things we had to do to try and
protect the series I could understand
why players didn't want to do it because
they were at their wits end
other TV revenue
that was dependent on the Australians and all that
didn't really matter to our players at all
absolutely they're young men and they're
don't think about these.
No, but that's part of the responsibility you carry as managing director of cricket,
and that's something I took that responsibility very seriously,
but as I do, to look after our people, and did we always get that balance right?
I don't know.
I don't know we could have done it any differently, but we did it to the best of our ability,
but I don't think we're ever winning the ashes, quite frankly.
Should that tour have happened?
I mean, Stuart Broad, it's not happening, and it was just cancer,
sort of white wash it out and so on.
But it's not making excuses,
but you were not hiding to nothing of that.
It's difficult in hindsight.
I think it had to because we had to try and keep the game on.
And Australia would have suffered hugely if we hadn't.
Could there have been a better understanding
of what was actually going on?
I think actually a lot of people on the outside
didn't really understand
because I think many felt the world had just gone back to normal.
It hadn't.
Not there, no.
Certainly not for the players.
But, you know, that's performance sport.
And we lost 4-0.
You lose your job, people lose their jobs.
That's the game we're in.
And there is a, you know, there's a lifespan of all these jobs
because it's both is high intensity and hard work.
But they're the cycles anyway.
We've got another one coming up now.
We've got India now, but we've got the ashes.
And that seems to be the big one that is almost a regime.
Team changer.
Yeah.
Why did you, because you left the tour, didn't you, went back home?
Yeah.
And then Chris Silver would got, the coach got COVID, his family or something, and they'd all
got a bit difficult.
Grand Thorpe actually stepped in, didn't he as coach?
You came back.
What was it, because you really found himself in a bad way then, didn't you?
You mentioned that interview, I think, as a assignment, actually.
You were clearly in a bad place.
Yeah.
What, you know, why was that particularly, do you think?
I thought I had to.
had to. I had a responsibility of the team. The team were going through it. And I'd spoken to our
team psychologist before I left England and he said, I really shouldn't let you go, but I know
you're going to go. And I actually got to Heathrow and, you know, these silly passenger locator
forms they give you. Yeah. I hadn't done it. And the lady behind the desk said, you just go
away and do that and come straight back, leave your bags here. And I had a panic attack, anxiety
and I just sat there looking at my phone and couldn't see this screen for about 15 minutes
and I must have been a moment away from getting in a car and just going back home.
Sort of you just, okay, let's get on with this.
And then I spent four days, five days in my room, quarantine.
You just, yeah, it was crazy, but I had to go back.
I mean, the team were going through as much.
That was my job.
Was it the right thing for me?
probably not but it didn't matter at that point it was the right thing that I had to do
my job and for the team yeah yeah bizarre when you look back at it all isn't it I mean
these things it seems like a different time yeah um which is good because none of us want to
go back to that time it was terrible what I think um we're talking about cricket obviously but
sport in general has learned since you first started having these issues back in um the early
2000s about sports men and women's mental health and the
fact that actually when I played you'd never even talk about it I mean pull
itself together and get out there it wasn't even talked thought about in the
1980s we've come okay so now 20 years on from there when you first started
having these things and you had this chance meeting with Steve Bull where where
where are we now I mean in terms of players at Worcestershire being able to come to
you and say look I've got a few problems here and not have the fear of saying well
that's it around the team you can't possibly play if that's how you feel because
that's one of the big hurdles, I'd have thought.
Yeah, I think we are so much further on
and so much more sympathetic
to these issues.
And that's a lot of
what the King of Spain is about.
This is okay to talk about
because, you know, the King of Spain was this character
everyone invented who was this cricketer.
But behind that, there was someone else
who really struggled with the game at times
and faced adversity in the ups and downs
and through life as well as cricket.
And again, I don't have a monopoly on that.
That's what everyone deals with.
And I think that's what this is about.
I'm happy to talk about it.
Doesn't make me a bad person.
Doesn't make me a normal.
Doesn't make me weak?
No, absolutely not.
In fact, it makes me, you know,
I think in many ways stronger to talk about it.
That's probably what I helped the first time with Steve Bull,
talking about it, writing it down.
And in many ways, that's what the book has been.
It's been cathartic.
And I started writing some of these words back in 2007
when Steena was recovering from surgery
because it was a way of putting everything
or getting everything out and putting it down on paper.
But it's that saying that we used to,
it is okay not to be okay.
And it's okay to share.
And I hope, you know, all of us who are administrators,
leaders in the game or in business
really understand that
that our people come first
and you've got to take care of them
what is unusual about this book Ashley
I'm not saying this in any sort of disparaging way
but what makes it unusual from
most sports books these days
written by sports people is you have written
it yourself yeah you haven't lent on
someone else to go out and do it for you've written it yourself
and that's fabulous that's a great achievement
no thank you it's been a huge challenge for me
it was again you know I've had a number of them
through my career but
It was something I wanted to do because, yeah, from what I understand, most don't write them.
I've had some brilliant editing support from Matt Thacker and Phil Walker, Fairfield.
But yeah, it's the last six months, particularly working five days a week and then writing at weekends.
I think Steena's happy to have me back.
I hope people enjoy it.
It's not about that, really.
It's, you know, if people want to enjoy the story, great.
It's not about how many a cell.
They will enjoy it.
It's been a good challenge.
They will enjoy it.
And it's lovely to see you
looking so well.
Good man.
Thank you for being so honest.
Thanks, I guess.
King of Spain and I
is out any time.
I think next couple of weeks.
Yeah, can I just say
while I'm on?
I just want to say
hello to my dad.
My dad's in hospital at the moment.
I hope he's listening to this
and get well soon, Dad,
because without my dad,
none of this would have been possible.
Fair play.
Good luck.
Cheers, Ash.
Lovely to see you.
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