The Break-Up Diet - Made in Chelsea Star Amelia Mist Reveals How Ignoring Red Flags Led to a DEVASTATING Breakup!

Episode Date: March 27, 2025

"The amount of times I was convulsing, werewolf-style in the shower..." These raw, vulnerable words capture the excruciating pain that follows the end of a five-year relationship built on shaky foundations. This episode offers a searingly honest conversation about love, betrayal, and the difficult journey back to self-worth.Our guest reveals how she documented red flags just eight months into her relationship – writing letters she never sent but kept as evidence of behavior she couldn't quite face at the time. Looking back, she sees how placing her entire purpose in another person led to losing herself completely. The relationship had evolved past casual dating into shared property, a countryside home, and even adopting a dog together – making the eventual breakup all the more devastating.We explore the modern relationship challenges social media creates, with our guest passionately explaining why liking provocative photos constitutes a clear boundary violation. "Don't put your finger on the double tap," she advises men in relationships, highlighting how these seemingly small actions reveal deeper issues of respect.What makes this conversation particularly valuable is witnessing someone in the active process of healing. Having broken up just months prior to recording, our guest speaks with remarkable clarity about her journey – from inconsolable grief to emerging self-awareness. Her advice for those in the trenches of heartbreak is practical: limit drinking to avoid emotional spiraling, cut nights short before impulsive decisions happen, seek refuge in nature, and focus on rebuilding your independent identity.This episode offers a compassionate roadmap for anyone who's stayed too long in a relationship that wasn't serving them. Listen now to explore the complex emotions of heartbreak and discover how even the most painful endings can lead to powerful new beginnings.Send us a textInstagram:@the_breakup_dietTikTok:@thebreakupdietEmail: [e-mail]

Okay, welcome Amelia. Thank you for coming on the Breakup Diet. Would you like to introduce yourself? Yeah, absolutely. I wasn't prepared to introduce myself. However, hello, who am I talking to? You can talk to me or you can talk to me. I'm the only person in here.

I know, but you know me, kind of. Yeah, but we wanna know more. Okay, I don't really know how to introduce myself because five years ago, I was somebody totally different to who I am now. Changing. Changing. Are you upgrading?

Oh, upgrading automatically. You see, that's a massive theme in the Breakup Diet actually. Okay, good. You know, you're changing, you're upgrading, you're letting go of the old hello. In with the new. Exactly, exactly.

Independent boss bitch now. So you have a concierge. Yeah, lifestyle management, luxury lifestyle management. And then did a little bit of reality TV back in the day, which makes me cringe to this day. Which has given me the platform, that's probably why I'm here right now, maybe. Did you have any breakups on you on reality TV?

On, do you know what? Yes, yes, kind of two. Buckle up bitches, it's gonna get bumpy. This is the breakup diet. Like one, which was, I was coming onto it and then the next one I had like this very much fling on and off camera and then as soon as I just fizzled out and then it was just awkward on camera and that was it and then bye bye. I feel like the way to get in on that show is by being in a relationship or being with

somebody and then they introduce you. For sure. But then to stay on the show, you kind of have to have a break up. Yeah. Because it is, it's like all those types of stuff, like all reality. I feel like if you're the villain, you normally do the best. Yeah, for sure. And I definitely was not the villain.

I was always the peacekeeper, peacemaker. And I think that's why I was on it, maybe, for longer than expected. It was just, I was definitely an alternative to the rest. Yeah. Sure. And then you've stopped doing that now, though. Yeah, stopped doing it.

I think I just stopped doing that like four years ago. Life has gone so fast. That's crazy. When you actually think about it, like all of my life is a blur, probably because I had a five year relationship in between that time. So, whew.

Yeah, can you tell us about that? That's why I'm here. Yeah, that is one of the reasons you're here. Yeah, it is because I have great insight to share about relationships and no crucifying the ex, just talking about. A little bit. I'll give you little snippets

but not to expose anybody in any party. Unless you did something bad, then we expose it. Yeah, I tried to do my best not to. I've only had two glasses of bubbles and I'm like, whoop, slippin' out my mouth. So you've had, was that your main like breakup that you would say is the worst one you've gone through? Yeah, I'd say, I'd say that is my only breakup,

realistically. Can you tell me more? Did you guys live together? Yeah. Oh gosh, okay, so that was, it was a serious breakup. Oh, for sure. We, I haven't really told you much about it, but basically we, we met when

I was on the show and I was like three years deep in the show. So I was very much like living my best life. I wasn't expecting to meet anybody. It was fun. I was with all my best friends and we were just, yeah, having fun. And then I met him at a, his birthday party as a plus one. And it was very much like oh this could have been perfect this is it this is this is like fate this is meant to be. Did you get into a relationship really fast or did you kind of like have a situationship and then it formed? Do you know what he very much I will confidently say this that we very much did really like each other but I would say he very much this that we very much did really like each other, but I would say he very much, he's going to cringe if he's listening to this. So fate, some would say, some would say the

worst decision. The wasted five years, again, I'm sorry. Never waste just the journey and lesson. So met there and then to be honest, it is a blur because when you are so consumed in something, a lot of alcohol was consumed, a lot of, you know, going out, having fun. And obviously I was filming a TV show, which was great in that moment. I kind of blurred like all of the problems out. And I actually found a letter yesterday when I was sorting out my bedroom in my country home. So finding out, and I was reading through all of the things

that I wrote to him, never gave to him. That's a good tip actually. So when you were in the relationship, you were like writing letters when you were annoyed about something? Well, it was like every time that he'd do something, quite terrible. Yeah, quite terrible, you're fair.

Then you would just jot it down? Yeah, I would write it down and then I'd think that I was going to give it to him, but then this so happens, normally I would, but this piece of paper, it's really weird timing actually that I'm talking about it today and literally read it yesterday. Faint.

It was, it was faint, it was faint, I love this, I love this video, shit. But I was reading it and it was like 20 bullet points of just, and I think that was really early on, I was like a year, and the shit that I read on it, I was just like, wow. Did, were they all the points that came back at the end? Yeah, and I was just like, you did this to me,

you did this to me, and bearing in mind, this was like eight months, probably not even eight months into our relationship, and all of this shit happened. I was like, I feel like a lot of the time, people don't realize but well like they realize after it's like the reflection is when they go into the relationship they see the red flags and they're like, oh my god, like that's not okay. But then you fall

deeper and deeper and you get so much history that then you then just kind of forget it. And then when you break up, it's actually those points that you put or thought of. Yeah, because you just sort of block it out because that's just the coping mechanism because you're in la la land and you think, okay, this is the best thing for me. I'm like super happy. Don't get me wrong, there were many moments in that relationship where I was extraordinarily happy and I can't like dismiss those. But you do look back at it and I blame myself partly because of my, probably where I was in life, I was not confident, I was very insecure, I was very... Is it your first boyfriend?

Yeah, I would say, yeah, first proper boyfriend. Yeah, proper boyfriend. It's easy to just want it to work so bad as well because if it's taken you so long to find that one person, you almost latch onto it. For sure, toxic trauma bond completely. And it also completely goes back to like childhood and like how you were, I'm not gonna talk about childhood, but how you were, how you were.

Here we go. Listen, you can go wherever you wanna go. But it's all relative and like everybody, every emotion you felt as a child, be it with friendships or like family and relationships within the family and your friendships and everything, it's all relative to how you are as a person and definitely inflicted on how I was. But in my opinion, like having your career set straight and having like that focus where you're passionate and independent with something. I wasn't passionate or independent because I was off living my best life and that was

like my relationship was in the background and I'm not saying that I was a hundred percent clean but also it's just like two people who are both clearly like clashing but also love each other so intensely made it really toxic and that was how was it? I was fucking nuts. So you were five years were you like living together the whole five years or did you have like a year apart and then you moved in or was it all quite like rapid? It was do you know what I What do we do? You can't remember what you did? No, no. Why are you liking that? No, because I'm like, whoa.

Because I... You're having like a weird flashback. What's going on? You're blanking things out and you're like, I don't remember that part of my life. That's really, really, really stressed. Yeah, yeah. Fuck. I think I...

So I'd always have my own flat. He had his own flat. He had his flat with his brother. So he would always basically be with me. He's really gonna know it as well. Obviously, who else is it gonna be a lot? I think if he watches this, he's gonna know. I think it's already up by the five years

by the only first serious boyfriend. You're like, oh my God, is he gonna know it's me? I promise you, this isn't for you, this is for me, okay? Yeah, we're on the therapy, we're having therapy. Yeah, so yeah, I'd always have my own flat. He would live with his brother and I, like we'd always be around each other's houses and we'd always go to the countryside,

I'm not gonna say where, nearly to the controls, the door set, and then we ended up actually, that was probably about two years in, but we'd spend like every other day, but I'd say that's probably lack of trust as well, that we'd want, I'd want to be with him the whole time, but I know that we'd go out partying, we'd have such fun time,

and we'd spend the weekend just being hung over in each other's houses. So you didn't move in till like two years, really officially, but you were always together. Yeah, always together, how should I say this, probably about, yeah, two years in. So you wanted to be with him all the time because you base like this is me blunt saying, like you basically thought that if you're with him, he can't be with somebody else. Yeah. And there were many men. Now I wasn't going to say this.

There were many, many times where he was with somebody else and that also, yeah, scandalous. But okay, so actually, to to be fair your feelings were valid yeah my feelings were very valid i was never a lunatic before i was so chilled i was just like do what you want babe go for it men actually do that they're like oh she's so crazy i'm like yeah because you made her crazy for sure i don't know who i am anymore no you're involved since here this you're only talking about the trenches yeah yeah we're out of the trenches about the trenches. You're out of the trenches. That is so true. We are out of the trenches.

You moved in together. Is that when it kind of went bad? No, it was great when we were living together, but it was continuously bad, but continuously good. So that's why it was confusing because you crave it. It's all to do with like serotonin and endorphins. It's like you crave are really good times. And when something goes really, really bad, it's like, whoa, this is like so adrenaline-y

and you're like, whoa, it's so bad. And then you're like, oh, it's going to be fine again. And then your serotonin drops and then you crave that person again. Did you ever think that when you had those bad times previously, like within the relationship, that it was actually over? Or you kind of always in the back of your head was like nah. Exactly. I was always like we're gonna get back together this time. I've never had that.

Really? Whenever I've had something like it's been really bad I thought it was over over. Really? Yeah. That strength though. I don't think so. No? I didn't have any strength in that moment I could tell you.

I was crying in my shower like a werewolf. But I know, like, you know, the very in the in the gut cry. Yeah. That's sad. Are you okay? I'm okay now. I haven't had that in a long time, but that's good. I haven't had the like toxic as such. Yeah, but it's amazing how life is when you're not in a toxic cycle and you break out. You feel way calmer as a person. Yeah, for sure. Everybody's like, you're so different.

I was like, that's probably because I'm back to who I was originally with a little bit more confidence and independence and a mentality where I am not gonna tolerate bullshit anymore. Ended up getting a house near my parents home in the countryside. With him. With him but he you know funded it. Okay yeah yeah. And then we got a dog, my little baby Humphrey.

Okay so you guys have a dog, have a dog together or how? What happens with like the dog when you break up? Well this is a juicy ghost. Apparently he's got a new girlfriend. It's only been three months. Yeah, but that's not my question. My question was about the dog. You wanted to drop that in.

No, no, it's relative. He has a new... No, no, so the dog, since the supposed new girlfriend has been in the picture, there has been no communication about wanting to see the dog at all since the new new girlfriend has been in the picture, there has been no communication about wanting to see the dog at all since the new girlfriend has been in the picture. Okay. So the dog is fully mine now.

Okay. And if you would like to see him, his mom has a brother as well. Where are you going with that? I don't know. So if you want to see him, we can see him. Okay, so. Wait, we're doing it.

I'm just gonna drink. Cheers. Okay, cheers. Love you. The dog basically has now just become yours. Has that always been the case or did you kind of before use the dog as a bit

of a thing to see him? Yeah. Thank you. Humphrey. Um, it would be, but I think it was mutual. We both wanted to still see each other. Here I go again, off on a tangent. London is a huge factor in.

Your relationship? In a relationship. Yeah. I think. Did it make your relationship bad? Do you think? Yeah. Cause that's why we sort of migrated on the weekends to the countryside. It was

great. Oh, so you migrated in the weekend to the countryside in the week you were here? Yeah, exactly. Okay. So And that didn't help at all the relationship? It did. Yeah, it did. Yeah, but I think my insecurity and my yeah, I think I was just extremely insecure. And that sort of completely affected the relationship. He could have been doing everything right

and I still would think he'd be doing something wrong. Do you think that's because at the start he broke the trust? Yeah, no, I'm continuously thinking about the relationship. Yeah, but when it's broken at the start, it kind of is hard. And then if it keeps going, all the different things, that you kind of remember everything.

I feel like women remember a lot. I will remember everything that's ever happened and I will bring it up. If something pisses me off, it will be coming up in the file. Yeah, you're like, all right, let's go to clause. Let me 2021. Outside raffles, I saw you do a little bit. You did this. And then in 2022 you did this. Exactly. Do you think men do the same thing? Yes. You think men do the same thing?

Oh yeah. I did something wrong at the beginning and it was two, three weeks in. And that's been used against me forever. And that was his excuse for every single time he did it to me. Okay, yeah, that's not fair. Yeah, I'm gonna leave that one there. So you broke up after you guys had a house together and you like, all that. So why do you think if you said that it got a bit better escaping to the countryside, why do you think that you actually had a breakup? I... Or how long were you in the country before you had a breakup? Like three years or two years? Or?

Probably two years, yeah. We're doing it all up together. And it was so nice. And I think, like we'd go out for the day, you know, the hut on the Isle of Wight. And it was like, we'd go out for the day and we'd go there and we'd just get, you know, really pissed. And we'd have friends there and it would just turn like,

I was super looking over my shoulder every two seconds and then I'd be like, what's he doing? And he would be being inappropriate, everybody's whispering in my ear being like, this is so unacceptable. But then I'm like, but I know him, it's fine, I'll move past it. Always trying to figure out the best thing

and then it would go back home and then it would just explode and it would just be so bad. Do you think when you, like the other people's influence was the hard thing being like, oh, that's not okay. Because obviously nobody else is in the relationship with the only you two are, but it's actually, it's quite easy to have other people say things and then you'd be like, oh my God, yeah, that's not okay.

Yeah, I'm quite a receptive listener. Like I'm like, gosh. Okay, I need to bring that up now. Yeah, yeah, because things stay on my mind and if I don't say something, then I'm very stubborn. If it's on my mind, it will be spoken about and discussed. And I'm very good at like sort of discussing things. However, when you're pissed off and you're drunk and you-

No, but when you drink as well, it also comes out in the wrong way. Completely. Even if you're slightly annoyed, it boils and then it comes out really bad. Who is this girl? Like, what are you talking to? But again, it's relative.

I'm sure everybody's gone through the liking of the girls' photos, half naked bikini photos. For me, that was the very beginning thing. And I was sort of like, that's a boundary that I actually didn't realise I have, but that is like, you don't do that. And then every time- How did you bring that up? At the start, how did you bring that up that you didn't like that? Screenshot and be like, what the fuck is this? Yeah, I feel like most people do that.

Yeah, I didn't really care at the beginning. And then I was like, this is actually really inappropriate. Like it is like, why do you need to like like you may see it but you don't need to tell them that you're enjoying it. Yeah you can have a wank over it in front of you. I don't want to know about that shit. Like just don't like it. Exactly. It's not that hard.

Don't put your finger on the double tap. Exactly because girls I'm sure you're aware like if a guy in a relationship starts like your booby pictures I don't know you obviously don't post them, but like if you're in a bikini, whatever that I don't like that. I take it. I don't think you should be doing that. No, because you look at the guy and you're like, wow, you're that's like, I'm posting a provocative photo. But then I'm also in the other, I've been on the other side of being like, whenever I've posted like something, maybe like a bikini picture or something, not that I really do. But whenever I personally, I think it's a bit like, whenever I've posted like something maybe like a bikini picture or something, not that I really do, but whenever I personally I think it's a bit like, oh, I do it more

actually for girls. Yeah, me too. And also to feel good in my own myself because I'm like, I'm similar in this space that I was really not confident in everything for so many years, probably when you first met me. And then, and then like, now, I've worked so hard at trying to like, feel good in my body that if I feel really good in a photo, I'm gonna post it. Absolutely. I am doing it because I'm like, I want people to like, like my friends, I have a lot of guy friends as well. I'm like, I'm in a good place. Like,

I'm really excited about life and where life is going right now. I'm going to post a photo and I feel good in it. And if I feel good, my friends like fucking post it, like do it. I'm going to post it. And I don't need some sleazy man with a long-term girlfriend liking my bikini photos. Please, please stop. Yeah, it is just bad because the girls that are single, if they're either like, oh, I could sneak in. Or you're my reserve for when I break up with my girlfriend.

Like you're on the reserve. That's what I always think. I'm like, oh. Yeah, you're like lining the ducks up. That's what it makes me feel like. Yeah, so I'm still thinking about you, don't worry. And it's like, I don't want you to think about me. But that's how I feel.

They might not be thinking it. No, no, no, but I agree. I feel like a lot of people would agree with that. Wait, so how long ago did you have this breakup? November, end of October. Fuck, I didn't realize it was that close. That's quite close. Yeah.

It's extremely close actually. Shit, I'm bored. But I swear I saw you and you... Let me tell you, let me tell you, let me tell you. We might have to pause. Pause, pause, pause, pause, pause, because that would be fucked. Okay, now that we have a little pause to work out the timeline.

Oh yeah, timeline. You broke up in an undisclosed date because we don't need to give that. Thank you. Because obviously you kind of built a life together. Like, you know, having a country house for me, that screams like adulting, you know. Forever.

Yeah, a country house, a dog, that's like the step before babies. How did that feel? You know, losing that person. That was literally the most painful thing I've ever, like that pain, oh my God. Oh, you're gonna cry, don't cry. No, I'm not, I'm not, I'm over it.

That pain, a year ago, to where I am now, fuck me. That pain, like convulsing, like, no matter how much I've been there, I'm like, yeah, werewolf vibe, werewolf shout out of my eyes. It's such a good description of what it's like. That was the most painful of pains where I would literally just be, I refused to move out at first because I was like, no, this isn't happening. And then I actually started talking to this other guy quite quickly and I really liked

him. Was that to try to distract yourself from everything? I think so, but then at the same time I was so angry with him and so distraught and I was like, how can you like, see H-E-A-T on me so many fucking times, the whole thing is just like a nutty thing to even like, yeah, and like to even imagine. Especially like when you have a dog together

and you have a house together, you just don't, you can't really understand how you could do that and then still want to be with you. Come back home to me after you've done all that shit. I don't know how men in general, and also women to be honest, like women and men cheat. Like I always learned that.

Definitely women cheat, definitely. Yeah. All right, like we always learned that, like we always learned that men aren't here, but actually women do do it too. And it's so sad because it's so normalized now I feel. Like a guy, if they cheat. It's to get their dick wet.

I mean, yeah, that is a definition of cheating. You know what I mean? Yeah, whereas women are probably not getting anything wet. Sorry, it's too. I think it's just our generation with social media, having so much access to beautiful people, and it's so easy to see what people are up to and slide in. Sure, yeah, that's a very good point, Nurture.

Social media is a huge aspect to that. Yeah, because you could just light the photo, and that's saying to the girl, oh, I think you're pretty. Exactly. And then she could slide in, or if you slid in, even with like a high emoji, it's like. It's like liking stories as well.

The girlfriend will never know if you're liking a girl's story. I have somebody, yeah, I might actually put his name in here because it's fucking bad. Go on, tell me. And it's bad. So he has had a long-term girlfriend for like, I'm talking seven years. He, every time I post a photo of my face

Oh my do you know my ex best friend used to date him Yeah, utter horrible, no offence to him, horrible person because he's had a girlfriend for a long time and for years not just once years He'll like my photo every single time I'm in it. So like I post my dog, but like, doesn't get anything. I post a view, doesn't get anything. As soon as I'm in it, which is quite rare now, that I put something up, he'll like it. But it's so weird.

And I'm like, get a job. Like, it's weird. It's uncomfortable as well because they think, oh my God, they must love it that I'm giving them a touch. We don't fucking like it. No, I just think it you're a scumbag. Yeah, it's filthy. It's actually gross.

And I also feel really bad for the girl because I'm like, your guy is an actual dirt bag. And it makes me sad. And if I was close to the girl, I would say something, but I don't know her, she's not my friend, she's nothing, like, to be honest, if I ran into her in the street, maybe I'd say it, but it's not correct for me to go out of my way and message.

But if I'm one of them, I know that there's probably about 10. And I'm like, I'm just like, come on. Why, you're a pussy, number one. Why, you're a pussy, number one. And also you're a pussy, number one. You know why? Because you won't break up with your girlfriend, but you obviously don't respect her.

It is respect, which is complete lack of lust and sexual. Obviously everybody finds somebody attractive, but I don't think it's possible that somebody could just be with one woman and not have the urge to be with somebody else. You don't think it's possible that somebody could just be with one woman and not have the urge to be with somebody else. You don't think any men do that? Honestly, that's your opinion.

I'd say probably about 8% of the whole population of men. And that is fucked. And don't call it a woman. That's generous. That's very generous. No, I know that is generous. I don't think so. But I do find, I think that the human brain,

human, human, human brain actually doesn't allow male minds unless they've just been, unless it is just a societal expectation where men just have that belief and that's just what they've grown up with. I don't know. No, but I don't think if they, if they had a sister, they wouldn't want it for their sister. They wouldn't want it for their sister. Yeah, they wouldn't expect it for their sister. They wouldn't want it for their sister, but they still do it. Yeah, they wouldn't expect it for their sister.

Exactly. So I don't think so. I feel like there are very few good men, but I feel like men maybe have too much opportunity now and they just can't help themselves. Exactly, it's opportunity. Do you think alcohol aided the breakup? Yeah, I'd say it's definitely a huge part of it.

Then we stopped drinking as much and limited it to one day a week and then kind of got a bit bored of each other. Fair, fair. It's hard if you start off doing one thing and then you stop doing that, I think. We were connected by going out and having a fucking sick time and like enjoy each other's company. And then when you take away that, I think. We were connected by going out and having a fucking sick time and like enjoying each other's company.

And then when you take away that, we loved each other's company and we loved like the wholesome vibes, but we just didn't. You needed some other simulation. It was just like, I'm not, don't know this, but the sex was shit. And I literally say pump, pump, pass out. And, and then.

Oh my God, that's hilarious. So you said that you were a bit rocking up and down And I literally say, pump, pump, pass out. And then I know. I'm so sorry. You said that you were a bit rocking up and down and up and down. How did you actually decide that I've had enough? You know, I don't want to do this anymore. Or was it like a mutual thing of you both were just tired of the arguments, tired of everything?

I think it was kind of mutual. I would say so. I didn't have the strength to end it because I was say so. I didn't have the strength to end it because I was so attached. When you come from a fast-paced, fun TV show and you are expected to be on there for continuing it and then it just goes silent and then your relationship turns to shit. And you're like, what's my purpose? And then my purpose changed into him. Yeah. And that to me is crazy to look back on

because I'm like, I have so much to give. Why was I even considering that as my purpose? But you also, I feel like as a woman, you wanna do that too. You wanna take on the nurturing role. And it is quite, it is nice. Because if you are getting things in return of like feeling like wanted and stuff,

you do do that. Yeah, for sure. Setting your priorities in order and making sure that you have like your own goals and like purpose is really important because that can be controlled and dictated by the other person very easily. That's some advice. When you said at the start that you would write down things, how did you learn how to do that and

like know that that was a good thing or that was just like intuition? You were like, I'm going to jot down these points so I don't forget them? Or? Just because I block out so much from like trauma, I think it's trauma, that I would just forget things. So I had to write them down so that I didn't forget them. And I needed to remind myself, if this happens again, this, this, this happened, I could go into so much trouble. Did you put that in like a diary or something or notes?

It was just literally, and also I think like really authentic sort of like communication is by writing letters and I was like to him that if I'd love a little letter if you if you're fucking up and like write me a letter and tell me how you feel and actually spend time to think about how you feel and write it down and reflect on it. Like for somebody going through a breakup do you have a tip of like what they could do that would really help or that helped you or something you heard? Honestly, or nothing, it just was time.

No, I think it's so bizarre though, because if you spoke to me three months ago or a year ago, like my advice would be completely irrational. But I think you do genuinely need to take like, remove yourself from any, any situation that you could be negatively impacted by, like going out and drinking, having a fun time with your friends, within reason, cut it off at 10 o'clock, don't waste your energy having a huge bender and then getting back and then crying and crippling and wanting to cool them. And also, again, removing yourself by taking yourself to the countryside, going for nice walks, getting some fresh air. It's so cliche but it really does work. It seems like you had quite a rough kind of up and down, a bit of a toxic, super highs but then also a lot of lows. Do you regret anything that you did?

That's a good one! Yes, I do. I definitely do. I regret, again, coming from an older person now, from when I was like young, early twenties to older twenties now. If that makes sense. I definitely regret how I handled situations, how I didn't walk away from situations much sooner than I should have, and how little self-worth I had. And I regret, I don't regret the relationship because I love, I still love the fact that I had such a great relationship, such a terrible one, but yeah, that's my regrets, is my own inhibition, not inhibitions, but own shit that I did. And you, but like, it's easy to think about all the bad stuff, but there's obviously would have been good stuff that came from it too, like as in confidence, he probably boosted you in that regard a bit.

You know what I mean? For sure. Yeah. So he met, he met, he did good stuff for you as well. Definitely. And I didn't know where my journey was going. And he directed me that you got the power to start your own business, go for it. I think that's really nice to think about too.

So it's not just all of a negative thing. Obviously you've grown and you've developed into a very lovely lady. It might have been super hard. But now looking back on it, it's kind of funny a breakup because your emotions change even you said like within months, you know, from three months ago, you probably would have had a very different chat with me than you are having now. Yeah, fuck that you didn't ask me on like three months ago. It is weird, they change. And I think that's okay. Like people kind of stress about, you know,

you once said this and all this, but you evolve, you change, you get different information, you maybe just like accept it. It really depends on what stage you are. For sure. So you think you can be friends with your ex. Not your ex. Not your ex.

Not your ex ex. If it's like a situationship. Yes, if you, five years give it, and you see somebody out, he once cared about a lot. Obviously it might be a little bit of sexual energy, but friends. Do you think that that still happens after? Yeah.

Like it's actually a bit. Really? I don't know, sometimes it's for being fruit. Really? And it's like, ooh. So you think if you see an ex out, it's like a proper boyfriend, it's a bit of like, there's still sexual tension. Yeah. Really? And it's like, ooh. So you think if you see an ex out that's like a proper boyfriend, it's a bit of like,

there's still sexual tension. Yeah. Really? Not a proper boyfriend, but like a fling. Oh, a fling? Yeah, like when you had a fling with somebody and you see them and you're like, oh, that didn't end great, but look at me now, you're fit, let's go. Ah, but what if it wasn't proper?

If it was a proper, then I'd literally run a mile. Yeah, so it's... I wouldn't, I wouldn't... Close. You can't see what I'm doing but I'm scissoring them shut. So, if proper eggs, you were never having sex with them again? I knew I was gonna catch you! You caught me! You fucking caught me! You know that!

I knew, I knew you were like... Well, if we could have it like that. Yes, okay. Basically. Probably would bonk the old axe, but there we go. The number doesn't count, so there we go. Doesn't count if no one knows. Thank you so much for coming on the Makeup Diet. Thank you for helping me.

And being so vulnerable and sharing all your insights. Yeah it takes one to get out of me but here we are you made it. I don't know how you managed to get out of me. Alcohol. Thank you. You