The Flycast - Daltoosh Got A New Job | The Flycast Ep. 188

Episode Date: April 29, 2026

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Starting point is 00:01:00 Is it harder now? Yeah. Nothing's affordable. I feel like money. Yeah. How life was easier back then? How fucking easy did our parents have it? So easy, bro.
Starting point is 00:01:10 So easy. Did our grandparents have it easier than our parents? Yes. Yeah. It's gotten just harder. Yeah. Yeah. Our grandparents had it fucking cake.
Starting point is 00:01:18 You think it's harder now? Cake, bro. Dude, a house was fucking $300 back then, bro. I mean, that's a great point. Wow. Welcome back to it. Should I have boasted. through the intro. You're on fire today, huh?
Starting point is 00:01:46 Low-key. I read the paper. I told James, I'm like, I'm fucking spitting. We just did a video over there. That was actually a fun-ass fucking video. Bose was the, what would you call it, host? Judge. You like that shit? Would you have clutched up if you were playing music?
Starting point is 00:02:03 I don't know. Some of the scenarios, I mean, maybe we shouldn't talk about it too much because James might get pissed. He gets pissed, whatever. Really? He has, like, a dope idea, and then I'll, like, vlog it and just kind of mention in everything that just happens, spoil all he won and shit. And then he gets fucking pissed.
Starting point is 00:02:21 But anyways, we got a little flycast episode today. Today's a weird one. Today's something different. We got two shmack on for like the third time this year. What's up, team? It was just kind of the, it was just been sick again. Third time. Two minds I'm telling it.
Starting point is 00:02:39 And then got the boy Bose on here. He's just gracing us with his presence. till I don't really know when Until I get a blunt delivered to me Until he gets a blunt delivered to him Which could be soon which could not Which could be later So we don't know how long we have him
Starting point is 00:02:55 Shutouts, those are awesome I miss those So it's tight Is it just like Not even weed? I'd stop smoking weed Way before I got sober Was it like a panic attack
Starting point is 00:03:06 You kinda? Oh yeah See That would I just got aged out of it Let's hear it Bro everybody said Like
Starting point is 00:03:11 All right I've gotten high Like too high to where like, I'm like, holy fuck my chest is pounding, like, my heart's tweaking, but like I'm not on one knee and shit. Oh, I kept trying afterwards. I didn't immediately quit.
Starting point is 00:03:24 What do you mean like panic attack? What happened? I never happened. I'll explain you what happened. It's actually a funny story. We're on a podcast. You might as well. I'll explain my panic attack.
Starting point is 00:03:31 It wasn't even a panic attack, really. I took a couple jebes as I typically do. I would have been smoking for probably six years, like religiously at this point. So like, I knew what the fuck was going on. I knew what I was doing. I took two jebs and was dropping into Greasy Grove on Fortnite with my five.
Starting point is 00:03:45 What's a jebe? Gravity ball. A gravity ball. Took a couple jeeps, a couple filthy, milky jeeps. And I was high, chilling, hopping, playing Fortnite, dropping into Greasy Grove. We started playing, and my headset was on backwards, because I, like, was late to the drop. So I came in and put my headset on backwards. So I go through this whole early game, all these fights. And for some reason, my brain just started spinning because I'm hearing footsteps.
Starting point is 00:04:10 But they're like... They're over here. I'm hearing gunshots, but they're over there. So I start spinning. And then all of a sudden... I'm not kidding. I am sweating from my forehead to my ankles, drenched in sweat. I keep getting dizzier and dizzy.
Starting point is 00:04:21 I go to the bathroom, pass out. My buddy wakes me up on the bathroom floor, and I'm like, holy fuck. Like you blackout or is it like a holy fuck? Like I was slowly laid out. I remember like trying to peel my shirt off my back because I was so drenched that it was sticking. And this is over like two minutes. So I like dumped sweat out. And then I passed out of the bathroom floor and my buddy was like, are you good?
Starting point is 00:04:42 And I was like, I just passed out. I was like, all right, then I got, then I, you know, tried smoking the next day, got really anxious, tried it again. The next day got really anxious, probably tried it a couple more times, got really anxious. And I was like, that's enough. What was the, I could feel that. So was it just like, because people always say panic attack or anxiety attack, but I feel like it's always different for different people. Like, you would say that was one for you? But was it like, uh, or did you just, would you say that was a panic attack?
Starting point is 00:05:09 No, I don't know what. I don't know what it was. It was like a weird sensation of like spinning. Well, I was panicking, but it wasn't a panic attack. It was just like a, like, I don't know if you've done this, but whenever I tried chew for the first time. I haven't because I've heard all the horror stories. Try chew for the first time and just fucking. Like I didn't start panicking, but I was like, yeah, I fucked up.
Starting point is 00:05:34 And then I just, I like, but I just felt like shit. Yeah, nicotine sick is diffy. Zins. It gives me that feeling. If I leave my zins in too long, it'll do that. That's why I still vape, honestly. me too because bro i was on zins and like i would put them in my pot put him in my mouth and i would just feel like shit yeah feel lightheaded i feel like i can throw up how long would you leave
Starting point is 00:05:54 them in though i don't know 20 minutes maybe really 30 minutes see i i can only do like 5 10 minutes like if 15 minutes goes by and i'm like fuck this shit is still with me i'm like i just start feeling it's like just a weird shit feeling like i just want to like lay my head down yeah but like would you so you want to consider that a panic attack I considered a Fortnite Fortnite debacle that occurred. So have you had a panic attack on weed?
Starting point is 00:06:22 No, not really. I mean, I just started getting anxious. Like, I would... Does I think you described it as a panic attack? Yeah, I mean, it might sounds like... But it wasn't a panic... I didn't just start panicking out of nowhere. Like, my brain was confused,
Starting point is 00:06:33 and I just started sweating. That would be... It was fucking nuts. See, do you ever think like... We made it out, though. But like, barely. Like, I had to get up mid-fight, mid-build fight to go, like, fucking...
Starting point is 00:06:44 I don't even, I don't even know. if I was trying to throw up or what I was trying to do, but I was fucking drenched in sweat in like two minutes. It was crazy. See, I never had anything like that. Mine was always just like fucking pure fear of like
Starting point is 00:07:01 like you know that feeling of I mean, I'm sure it might not have happened, but like say you're just chilling on your couch 2 a.m. and just a bang on the door. Like that type of feeling that it would give you like what the fuck. Yeah, dread. I know what you know. It's like a dread. full like holy fuck what the f i'm not prepared for this what's gonna happen i feel like when i have
Starting point is 00:07:21 panic attacks that's the feeling uh-huh like it's like you're being they always say it's like you're being chased by line but you're not being chased by lion yeah i don't get those like that okay that like just that that's my when i say i have a panic attack it's like that it's fucking do you smoke i i smoke every day but it's like but i have to be like in bed food he's not going to smoke i'll get food or like yeah He's not going to smoke and then go hang out with people. Right. He's going to smoke, eat.
Starting point is 00:07:51 I need to be in my safe space. Because there's half the time I smoke now, it turns bad. Like, it's like a, but I'm just so, I'm an addict to where I, anything but being sober. What? You're a fake addict. Fake sober. I'm fake sober for sure. And a fake addict.
Starting point is 00:08:10 What's going on? Pick a lane. He's not. Am I faking, though? Pick a lane. I don't know. I'm kind of, but I'm fake soap because I'm. I'm real addict.
Starting point is 00:08:18 But it's just like you're fucking like. But I'm not full blown doing it. Because you're fake soap. You fuck? I mean, I don't know. I don't know where that puts me that. But that is the,
Starting point is 00:08:34 that is the purgatory. That is the boat that I'm in. You're like what, smoking out of a bowl? Yeah. Like a little. I'll do like one little, then I go lay down and I see where it takes me because sometimes it just,
Starting point is 00:08:46 it doesn't. ever get like crazy weird but it'll just get like I'll just start overthinking everything like fuck I haven't even uploaded a video in a week and a half I have a video that's been sitting here five days I'm a fucking loser and then like I'm sure like what I'm gonna show my face tomorrow I haven't done shit like my confidence I just lose all confidence and I'm like got a flycass with tush what the fuck are we going to talk about I suck at podcasting I can't wait to stop podcast like my brain starts like going into that sort of spiral like Right when I fucking smoke.
Starting point is 00:09:19 Sounds fun. But sometimes it is fun. Half the time, it's not fun. But I definitely, like, have to be my six days. You like to roll those dice. Like, I'm literally... I don't really like to roll the dice, but it's just anything but soap. Right.
Starting point is 00:09:31 Like, I don't really... Because I obviously have been smoking every day for fucking forever. Every day all day. Forever. It's not... Like, I don't have, like, I don't tweak or anything, but, like, let's just... I don't smoke in my crib. Sometimes on the balcony, so I, like, go to the garage.
Starting point is 00:09:45 I pay for it. Why do you do that? Because your neighbors? Yeah. Well, at first I didn't know. I feel like the balcony would be fine, though. I didn't know at first that, bro, like every fucking vent on my floor is connected. Like, if someone's cooking and comes right into my crib, I could smell everything.
Starting point is 00:10:01 And I'm assuming the whole time, I was just hotboxing people's crib. Stanky. Yeah. So I was like, I'll be respectful. They just came up and told me, like, we know you're smoking. Like, we know it's you. Just please stop. I was like, all right.
Starting point is 00:10:14 So I go to the garage that I pay for is like one or two cars in there. and I swear as soon as I start getting like high as soon as I start feeling high I'm like someone coming up is that the security guard I just start thinking about everything that I don't know why you do that to your like you won't even go on your balcony I will but like if my neighbor's doors cracked it's like the and it's wind is blowing over there like
Starting point is 00:10:34 it'll go it's start you start playing disc golf smoking the park dude people smoke all the time and awesome see now that now I can see that and just walking and smoking throwing some plastic yeah see but you've never had like you'll go to your garage and I feel like everyone gets those feelings of oh shit is that the security guard or like I used to have that that's just any time I'm publicly fucking smoking it's literally like the whole time I'm thinking like the worst shit like oh my god it's that a cop car like just think about the dumbest shit you start thinking about
Starting point is 00:11:02 like everything you've the stupidest wish you would have did I'll be I'll see a reflection off my glasses and be like what the fuck see but is it all stuff in the present or do you like get into your head sometimes it's like oh no no I get in my head sometimes but I should I did this. Yeah, yeah, all the time. All the time. The past 15 years of everything I could have, should have. Holy fuck, I wasted so much time.
Starting point is 00:11:25 I'm 30. Am I going to have kids? Like, how do I not have a wife yet? Yeah, I'm in the, dude, fucking 34. About 500 thoughts in five minutes. Holy fuck. How old are you, tush? 30.
Starting point is 00:11:38 Kids? Soon? No. Maybe. You don't want kids? I don't know. You seem like the type that not want kids. I don't right now.
Starting point is 00:11:45 I don't at all right now. Why? Fuck that. Because I'm too selfish. You want to enjoy your life. Yeah. But then you just, you get your girl pregnant and she fucking deals with it. And you're a deadbeat.
Starting point is 00:11:58 I'm not a deadbeat. You show up when it matters on birthdays. You pay for the house. No, I won't have a kid until I know I want to have a kid. And it's not right now. Child support. Fuck that. I don't get how people just have kids.
Starting point is 00:12:12 Do you like other people's kids? Popping them out. I like him in. doses, but I don't love kids that much overall because they don't, because the kids suck. I agree. Simple as that. They do. Some people
Starting point is 00:12:23 like other people's kids, though. I like them in doses, like they're cute and they're fun. And they'll be fucking weird in the comments. And then they shit and cry and then the whole dinner's ruined. But even just any, any age from like one to fucking 12. They all, I hate that. They all suck in their own way.
Starting point is 00:12:39 They suck in different stages. Yeah. Really? You hate all kids? No, I wouldn't say I hate all kids. I'm just uncomfortable. and I don't like them. I just ignore them. I mean, yeah, that's what I do. Like, I'm never, like, holding the baby.
Starting point is 00:12:55 I'm not shit talking to three-year-old. Yeah. Fuck you. You're not getting arguments with the three-year-old? No, not yet. I will if they chow. I don't, yeah, I don't. Kids are fucking, no, I have no, I have genuinely no interest right now.
Starting point is 00:13:10 Like, I'm financially stable, and, like, I'm still too scared to have a kid because I'm, like, I don't, like, providing for a kid's crazy people are so much less financially stable and just slinging babies it's like what the that's what i'm saying if they're figuring it out then like you're good what do you i know but like babies don't need much man but but or maybe i need everything yeah actually they need everything i might be wrong of that one like i can yeah fuck that it's the most terrifying prospect of those you even said like you don't or you i don't think you said you want a baby now but it's like you're almost are you 30 or almost 30.
Starting point is 00:13:48 Damn. I got like two, three years. 30, don't have kids. Two, three years till what? You're 32. But are you like... I gotta have a baby. No, you don't.
Starting point is 00:13:57 You got time. That's how I feel. Well, I can't be... I don't want to be fucked. Especially, my balls might be fucked. I've been on TRT for years. Nice. Do you think there's still a way to save my kids?
Starting point is 00:14:09 I don't know. I'm no scientist. I gotta figure that out now. They say smoking, right? I mean, if... No. Like a whiskey. FIFA.
Starting point is 00:14:17 Look at Snoop Dogg. He's probably got a feel. Not to assume because I wouldn't assume that. I mean, I would be fucking I never even had it. What if you had a kid though
Starting point is 00:14:31 and it was like, because people will be saying this and I don't know if they're coping. Are people coping when they're like it gives them purpose? Yes, I know. They've never loved anything more. Their life has been
Starting point is 00:14:42 the best thing ever was having that kid. I don't want to let go of the independence and like the selfishness that I have. I know if I had a kid my life would turn for the better like fulfillment wise and purpose wise like I wouldn't have to question like what I'm doing or who I am like I would just be the dad
Starting point is 00:14:59 and that would be my role in this world is to be the best dad I can be and that would feel good and taking care of my kid would feel good all of it's good but also on the other side of the coin is I don't want a fucking kid I want to keep traveling and golfing and doing whatever the fuck I want
Starting point is 00:15:12 because it's sick and I'm scared of having children because I'm a pussy. both things are true once that kid starts boiling getting ready your life is over pal more traveling your life is over the baby mama cut short yeah your life goes out the window yeah I don't know don't you just chalk it up to the wife can take care of it as long as you're like people do that isn't that crazy people just leave yeah oh my god that's horrible
Starting point is 00:15:40 that that's literally that is kind of insane it's insane people will have a kid and just leave And never meet the kid. Like never meet the kid. Now I'm out. They leave. I don't know. It's actually kind of sick. It's got to be like an IQ thing.
Starting point is 00:15:54 You got to be a real piece of shit. Like it's for that to not fuck with you forever. See, that's what I don't get. Like, how can you just move forward and not have like... It's got to be fucking with you for a little life. Something to make it feel better. Like, they just continue to just, like, they have no kids. Yeah, it's deep.
Starting point is 00:16:13 What about like seeing them on every other. weekend or something. I mean, that's how I'm, that's how I was. That's how I was too. Like every other weekend. Sometimes they'd back to back. Well, that's just divorce. Would your mom talk shit about your dad? Nah. Really? Not really.
Starting point is 00:16:28 Because he would always, like, give money and shit. So it was like, he wasn't really, he wasn't like a, like he supported every day and it bought me batch for baseball. Oh, he's that shit. So. Yeah, I mean, kids, people used to have kids at fucking 16, 17, 18, 18. Average age to have first child in U.S. average age of first time mothers in the U.S. was 27.5 in 2020.
Starting point is 00:16:48 This age has been. What about fathers? Can you do fathers? You do first time fathers? It's probably the same. Probably 29. So it's gone from 25 to 27 in a decade, 15. This spring, denim gets a softer, lighter update.
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Starting point is 00:17:27 moment. Old Navy's drapey denim wide leg. 31. Damn, the average age of a first-time father in the U.S. is approximately 31 years old, having risen from 27.4 in the early 1970s. That's not as crazy as what I thought.
Starting point is 00:17:44 It's too hard to have a fucking kid. nowadays. Especially as a dad. Is it harder now? Yeah. Nothing's affordable. I feel like money. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:17:55 Life was easier back then. How much how fucking easy did our parents have it? So easy, bro. So easy. Did our grandparents have it easier than our parents? Yes.
Starting point is 00:18:03 Yeah. It's gotten just harder. Yeah. Yeah. Our grandparents had it fucking cake. You think it's harder now? Cake, bro. Dude, a house was fucking $300
Starting point is 00:18:12 back then, bro. I mean, that's a great point. Jobs paid well. It's a great point. Everything was affordable. Yeah. Everything was way easier. I'm pretty sure I knew my mom's salary.
Starting point is 00:18:25 I could be wrong. But I thought she was making like 55 to like 60 some thousand. But it was her two kids like single bomb. We had a town home. But like I'm thinking of, I'm pretty sure our rent back then for a town home, three bedroom townhome. pretty nice area. I'm pretty sure it was like $1,200. Yeah, I'm pretty sure that's...
Starting point is 00:18:50 That same unit now? It's got to be close to like... Close to 3K, probably. 20K! I know that's still a decent amount of money. 20K? But it's not the same. Like, how do you gauge it in terms of like...
Starting point is 00:19:06 Look from 2010 to 2024? Yeah, what am I? Like, the effectiveness of the dollar, the strength of the dollar, or inflation? Can you like... Can you count? or graph this with inflation, how much it would actually be worth now? Can you look at that? Can you do that?
Starting point is 00:19:20 Look at this fucking guy. Matt Craig's my... I would say like 150K. Counting for inflation. Buy a fucking house for 20 grand. But what do you think their salaries were? The average... Yeah, can we do salaries as well for a 1972?
Starting point is 00:19:38 Yeah. Average salary in 19... They were living back then. They were fucking each other, doing drugs. home prices are really fast inflation for six years It's not like it doesn't show actual inflation But that's if the home prices Went at the same rate as actual inflation
Starting point is 00:19:52 You gotta think about this too Women weren't working back then either They were staying at home They were taking care of kids Like you can provide for a family They were chilling They were chilling They were chilling
Starting point is 00:20:01 They were taking opioids And just fucking cooking And then we'd come home And our dinner was cold And we'd hit them It was a fucked up age You know I don't condemn it
Starting point is 00:20:12 But it was just It's the American Dream, baby. What was the average salary for a man in, like, 1972? Gotta be, like... Because there was only single income, and they were chilling. 175. They were chilling. Especially if you were, like, a fucking pilot.
Starting point is 00:20:28 Just multi... You were like a... Multi-thousanary. Multi-thousanary. That bought right there. It's got a lot of money. Yeah, I want to see what the house price costs, average price of a home in 1972. That was already there.
Starting point is 00:20:43 to salary. I mean compared to salaries well. I mean, it's gotten... I'm trying to find a good graph. I can't find a great one here. Just the average salary in U.S. by... Oh, okay, I see what you're doing. We're getting out of the nitty-gritty.
Starting point is 00:20:56 We're going to figure this... I just want to see how bad we have it. We have it so bad. Our lives are so hard. I knew it wasn't me. It's this fucking system that's fucked me since birth. Wait, so what was that?
Starting point is 00:21:13 salary. Yeah, just look up. 19792 salary. And then the price of the home is what? Let's see. Watch this. This is a home price versus salary. What the fuck?
Starting point is 00:21:28 Oh, my God. For a rego-dego job? Wait. This is the 30s. They had World War II happening right now. We're good. So people were making more than what a house costed. Well, that was in the 30s.
Starting point is 00:21:41 We don't count that. As an Avril Levine. That means average. I mean like how are motherfuckers buying houses? Wait, why did it get so fucked up at like 1960 or like 19... Where's 2008? 60. Here it is right there.
Starting point is 00:21:58 Ooh, big one right there. Big jump. Wait, so let's let me... Can you go back to the beginning a little bit where it's like 1960-ish? Okay, right here. So when pro, you were making the same salary as you're... Like, this is probably... The average salary?
Starting point is 00:22:16 could cover the price of a home? Like a home in this area, like, well, it's like 750K. 600K, like 600K and they're making one fifth of that. So it's like a salary of like, I don't know, 180K.
Starting point is 00:22:31 Everyone was rich, respectively. Yeah. Yeah. Everyone was cooking. Everyone was making good money in comparison to what a home cost. And like, who's profiting from all this?
Starting point is 00:22:44 This is average home price in first? Yeah. And that is... 656. That's the average salad. Bro, my house costs like 400. I bought a house in 2023.
Starting point is 00:22:56 That's the average salary in Frisco? It's like a household income. Dual income. I'm actually surprised it's not higher. But, I mean... That's a good amount of money. That's high. For both wages, I thought it'd be a little higher.
Starting point is 00:23:12 I mean, you have to factor in regular people. In Frisco. Regular people with regular jobs. Not every... Everyone can be an influencer, you know. Love this. Yeah, because we're just, I'm just rich as fuck. I can't believe that, bro.
Starting point is 00:23:24 They really did have. A grandparents had it good. My grandma had the same. This shit don't make sense to me. My grandma bought, my grandma lived in the same house her entire life. Like she, it was like, wow. Let's see if my grandma died at like 96, 96 years ago. go what would that be?
Starting point is 00:23:48 96 years ago? Yeah. So it'd be like 1930? I mean, something like that? Sure. So in 1930
Starting point is 00:23:57 my grandma was raised in this house she was raised in it and she ended up living there and then she had kids and then the kids moved out and she still, she was in that same house for like 70 some years,
Starting point is 00:24:08 70, 80. I don't think her entire life but like 80 years. So my grandma had that fucking house when it was like worth $10,000 and they see, Still didn't have the shit paid off.
Starting point is 00:24:18 I don't know what the fuck we're doing. What? Or I guess the Smiths. The freaking Smiths. Yeah, I remember my mom was talking about like how the mortgage, because I mean, I think back then they set up a mortgage to where like, you'll pay this much for this son. Then like inflation and shit.
Starting point is 00:24:34 And I think she just kind of got like fucked with it. But I'm just thinking like, how was that house not paid off? Paying five a month for 10,000. Five a month for 50 years. Yeah. But it's like, how was that not paid off? way back then. That shit is crazy, bro.
Starting point is 00:24:50 Help we get on this. I don't know. Do you want a house? We're talking about, we're talking about kids. Do you want a house and settle? You're in a relationship. Uh-huh.
Starting point is 00:24:59 Do you want a house or? I have a house. You live in a house right now, don't you? Yes. But it's your sister's house, right? So are you just renting? I'm just renting it. Okay.
Starting point is 00:25:09 Do you want to own a house with your girl? I want to own that, but bitch won't let me buy it. I'll probably buy it eventually, but I don't know if I want to settle in Texas, so I'll probably move. And buy a house? Probably. Is that the goal? Not high-rise, tush, luxury?
Starting point is 00:25:24 No, no, no. Very much, no. What about you both? I mean, yeah, but like, I don't want to live in a house. I don't want to live in a house by myself right now. Like, I would enjoy it. I'm sure I'd have. That was almost me.
Starting point is 00:25:37 But, like, I don't know. I would have been depressed as fuck. Because we had a house, and then we broke up. I moved out immediately within like a week. Um, but then I was thinking like, fuck, the, the amount I'm paying in rent was the mortgage. So I was like, I could be, I could have been a house owner for bed, nice ass house. I do think you should have did that just because you were already in it. Like, it's different when you go and I should have, but like lifestyle wise thinking about I was a 40 minute drive from Frisco.
Starting point is 00:26:09 With traffic to Dallas, it's 30 minutes. With zero traffic, it's still like 20 to 25. like it was uh not that i was in bum fuck but it just would not have been i would have been depressed as no no i feel that like getting into the city after a breakup gave me like shit to do like it was just super convenient to go do stuff meeting people in the elevator and shit i actually know people in my apartment complex now like i would have been depressed as fuck if i would have stayed in that house i know you know like most of the people in your building i mean not most but like a decent amount
Starting point is 00:26:45 I know some, but like I don't talk to everybody. Nice. Yeah. Nice. A few of them. A few of them, huh? I mean. That's like three.
Starting point is 00:26:55 No. Yeah. Taking them down. Actually, it's not the first time I've done that. You're running to him in an elevator. I had a fire milf my old building. I took them. Wait, what about us?
Starting point is 00:27:06 I just said, I don't give a fuck. No one's going to ever find her. I had a fire-ass milk in my building. That you were fucking with? See, is it ever? I don't know. I kind of fucked up. Because sometimes it's just awkward.
Starting point is 00:27:19 It's just awkward if you, like, hook up with someone. That's why I try to do it. And I think they liked me more than I like them. And I had to, like, start ignoring them. But then I would, like, see them all the fucking dime. Bro. And now it's at a point where we'll walk past each other and, like, not even say anything. I'm like, this is so weird.
Starting point is 00:27:35 Or be stuck in the elevator with each other. It's all fucked. I had this. I've been inside of them. This girl might have been in a night you don't speak. Yeah. It's insane. I mean, at least just, like, keep it, like,
Starting point is 00:27:45 Like, uh, , cordial. Yeah. Corridgel. Keep it cordial. Now it's just weird. Keep it cordial.
Starting point is 00:27:51 I had this girl. So I get in the elevator in my building and a girl is in there, a blonde girl. I'm in just on my phone bullshit waiting for the elevator go down. She's like, is your name Marcus? And I'm like, yes. She's like, oh, I saw you on Hinge. Nice.
Starting point is 00:28:07 What? She's like, uh, if I see you on there, we're going to match, right? So I'm like, all right. I get her information, whatever. A week later. She's with a guy. Like, Like her.
Starting point is 00:28:20 Now it's there in, no, no, no, they're serious. He must live with her. Now I'm seeing them all the time. I said, I said,
Starting point is 00:28:26 I said, what up to her one time? They were like, on the first floor. I said, how you're doing? She's like, hey, Marcus.
Starting point is 00:28:31 I saw the dude turned around and look at her. Like, fuck you know him. The fuck you know him. Yeah. But I just, I'll leave her alone now.
Starting point is 00:28:37 I don't. Yeah. I'd be happy. I haven't gotten any little. Any large piece like that. But there, there's definitely some weird. Sometimes you shouldn't shit where you sleep
Starting point is 00:28:47 Where you eat or sleep You're gonna eat or sleep And you don't want to eat where you shit Try not to come there either Yeah You don't want to come where you shit You don't want to come where you shit You don't want to come where you eat
Starting point is 00:28:59 And you don't want to come in your food either Yeah so I'm trying to take a Trying to not do that anymore I delete but I don't know what I'm gonna do To talk to a female these days I deleted hinge Dude I don't I honestly I really don't know what to do
Starting point is 00:29:13 See, I don't know how you found your girl after being sober. Hinge? Oh, yeah. But like, all right. So, like, not to be in your business, but like, are you went on a date, obviously, to get to know her. Where'd you go? How did it progress from there? Was it a nice dinner?
Starting point is 00:29:28 Can you break that down for me? Casual. Yeah, we went to a nice dinner. We chatted. She was super chill and, like, funny, which I didn't know was possible. Did she drink on the day? Yeah, she had a glass of wine. Okay.
Starting point is 00:29:42 She had a glass of wine. She's really pretty. My type for sure. We just chatted. Had another date. Banged. Or was the next date? Just my place.
Starting point is 00:29:54 Just came over. Oh, shit. And then we just started hanging out. Like, it was super natural. Like, our personalities mesh, like, very well. She's super chill. She accepts your fucking weirdness? Yeah.
Starting point is 00:30:05 Yeah, I mean, we just... Psycho brain. We just blended quite nicely. We have good. Our personalities, our senses of humor. bounce off each other. She makes me laugh,
Starting point is 00:30:16 so I appreciate that. I make her laugh. Yeah, it's impossible. For a female? I didn't know it was possible. You're absolutely right. Yeah, it just worked. She's great.
Starting point is 00:30:26 Yeah. She's awesome. It's almost like, is it luck? Luck. Or is it the universe? You got yourself straight. It's the universe blessing you would say. Yeah, I don't know.
Starting point is 00:30:35 Who's to say? But, yeah, I got lucky. She's fucking incredible. Do you live together? Yeah. We have for like four months. I've never really four months live together for four months
Starting point is 00:30:46 I mean I met her like last February so that was kind of quick on the moving scale the move in timeline I guess like was that a conversation though you're like you want to move in no her roommate was kind of fucking her over
Starting point is 00:30:59 the time her lease was ending so I was like did you want her to move in? She was popping I was like yeah why not I mean I was like helping her out a little bit and I was like let's just take the steps see how it goes worst case we break up and she moves out my issue is in the beginning
Starting point is 00:31:12 I get like, not obsessed with the girl, but if it's a girl I like, I'm kind of like on her ass of like, I want to hang out every day. Yes, that's exactly the way I am. If I like you first day, you can move in. Yeah. Well, I don't know about first day, but like you can come back later. You can come here every day, keep some clothes here. 100%.
Starting point is 00:31:30 I like that. Same way. But when it comes to down the line, maybe a year down, I saw you at a party one time, or not a party, but like a night out, you were too drunk. how you know this guy who's that name popped up on your phone why are you facetiming him saying happy birthday motherfuckers in the league
Starting point is 00:31:51 I'm like I don't like I start holding fucking grudges and then suddenly I don't want your presence every single day I start I feel like I like once we move in it's almost like I start losing interest I got to change I do a 180
Starting point is 00:32:11 I'm pretty shit When it comes to I think at the beginning I'm like the best boyfriend I say all the perfect things I comfort them when needed I'd let them you know Express themselves
Starting point is 00:32:24 And I just I say everything Fucking perfect And I show up I'll do flowers Let's go out to dinner I'm showered all the time My sheets are clean vacuum Bare minimum shit
Starting point is 00:32:36 Yeah Yeah You're the man But I'm the fucking man but then down the lawn I just I kind of turn into a piece of shit dirty as fuck not like from a hygiene
Starting point is 00:32:48 standpoint but start giving her attitude I'm not in a good mood anymore I'm back to my real self you're not waking up happy anymore you're back to yourself so like faking like sometimes there's this girl not that I'm like talking to
Starting point is 00:33:03 but there's this girl I'm trying to pick my words wisely here and where I was going to go with that. There's a girl I hang out with sometimes now, but I'm trying to think of even where I was going to fucking go with that.
Starting point is 00:33:23 What were you talking about? Because I didn't want to, I kind of want to stop myself because I feel like the internet's going to figure this one out. What do you mean, figure it out? Piece it together. They're just going to piece it together and like who it might be.
Starting point is 00:33:40 So anyways, we'll just move on from that. I don't know. I feel like whenever I move in with a girl, I do become like a piece of shit. I don't know if y'all relate. I never really lived with a huge fucking worst. When I see a girl that I like,
Starting point is 00:33:55 I'll make it a point to be like, all right, when I see her like, I need to smile. Hey, what's up? Yeah, you get complacent. A relationship is hard work, pal. I know. Relationship is work. For show.
Starting point is 00:34:06 It takes two to tango. It takes effort from both parties to make. make that shit fucking work. On yourself and on each other. What was your longest relationship? Probably the high school one. I've only had three. High school one.
Starting point is 00:34:21 Yeah, I had a high school sweetie. Just to college. Three years. Yeah, it was like two years and like on and off for like two years. Yeah, mine are always... Mine are like four. Two and a half. Four?
Starting point is 00:34:32 I only had two. I only had two girls, two girlfriends ever. Four is deep. And then another four piece and a four piece. it is you haven't been in a relationship for a while huh as it has something came close yeah there's been a lot of times but like like you think you're in love bro i don't i don't understand the brain i really don't yeah it happens fast seven dates in a row seven dates in a row i'm not doing that for nobody one two dates maybe three i'm not i'm not hitting or not even
Starting point is 00:35:08 Any signs of nothing? It's over, done. I already got time for it. I went out with this girl like six times, bro. Finally, on that, the last time, she comes over, we fuck, she leaves, everything's cool. She got what she wanted.
Starting point is 00:35:25 Like, staggering. It started spacing out the text. There's the sex. That's what it was. No, it couldn't have been. Couldn't have been that. I made it a purpose. Like, when the time comes on performing.
Starting point is 00:35:38 Takes fucking six, seven dates. I would always have the deal closed before the first date, like vocally. Really? Yeah, dude. Really? I'm not going on a date without getting laid. You fucking kidding me? Wait, how would you word that, though?
Starting point is 00:35:53 Because I feel like the times I get laid, it's like when I just play it, smooth as fuck, but it's like, we're going to go here and drink. Then we're going to go over here, drink some more. I would already allude to it so heavily in text, and I'm pretty witty and fun. so I can get my way in there. I could kind of have it pretty much locked in and then we're going to go on a date. It's not implied that we're going to have sex
Starting point is 00:36:16 but we're going to have sex. See, I've had other people say that. You know, probably going to have sex. Other people have said that before as well. Like they know, like, what are my boys? What was it? I don't think. St. Patrick's Day weekend or some shit. And Bose, you know
Starting point is 00:36:34 him. But he was like talking to some girl on a dating app and he was like, yeah, they're going to be. going to meet us here. Like, you can talk to the friend if you want. I'm like, okay, whatever. I don't really give a fuck. But then he was saying, like, he's already, like, he was like, I'm going to end up chilling with her and then we're going to go to my place.
Starting point is 00:36:49 And, like, you know, this is, like, guaranteed for me. And I'm like, how do you, like, know this already? Like, what are you saying in fucking, my hinge conversations or, like, dating app conversations are like, usually, actually, if I find them really attractive, I'll get their Instagram, start liking shit, start flirting a little bit, and then set up like a date. But it's like that's it. Like I don't have, we don't have like conversations.
Starting point is 00:37:15 Like we don't have conversations before our first date. The first date is for the conversation. It's like we don't, I don't know how to set up like a guaranteed fuck from just words on like the talking stage on hinge. No game. I mean, I guess so. Like I always feel her out The first date
Starting point is 00:37:37 See what she's like If she's like if she's if she's My kind of girls are baddies though man They're hard to I'm hey I'm downtown I know you live down here You want to hang out I'll stop by
Starting point is 00:37:46 If she tells me that I know exactly Stop by Why would you want to come over Her first day Coming for a cup of tea Yeah Like
Starting point is 00:37:53 So I don't want a date And another date I'm like The fuck Like I'm carrying I'm carrying the I'm carrying the convos At the dates
Starting point is 00:38:00 I'm paying for the shit Picking your fucking ass up Dude What the fuck Oh my God. I've gone on like multiple dates with some girls And it's just like bro, what am I fucking do? You remember I'm waste?
Starting point is 00:38:13 You remember I catch the girls that I sent the shots to? Nice. Strong play. Well, no, it was my birthday too. So I was like, fuck it. I love that play. So, uh, should have sent them two. I sent them like four.
Starting point is 00:38:26 Oh, nice. So I ended up following one of the girls on Instagram. We, I asked her out like, hey, she actually hit me up, which is weird. That never happened. She was like, hey, what are you doing this week? Random DM. I got hype as hell when I saw it. I hit her back.
Starting point is 00:38:39 Yeah, it's a big week. First of all, we go to Uchi. The shit is like $6.50 at strike one. Strike two, bro. She brings me to this random house party. There's a DJ inside of the house party. It's like a three-floor like town home. We're chilling.
Starting point is 00:38:55 Do you do, do I'm thinking. Is it a night? It's going good. Yeah, night's going good. We linked up with Hunt. Like, it was going good. randomly during the party she's like yeah um i think you should probably leave my exes about to come uh that's fucking like it doesn't get worse than that like i don't give a fuck like i'm not worried
Starting point is 00:39:15 anything's gonna happen but like why would you invite me here if that was a because she's fucking low IQ brain dead like bitch hard like what the fuck i'm like bye yeah oh even when i take a girl somewhere. I'm like, all right, let me think of places where I am not seeing anyone I know. That's exactly how I think. Like, if for, like, not only for my sake, but for like her sake too. Like, just so it's not
Starting point is 00:39:40 like, I don't want fucking a girl to come. Hey, how you doing? Like, I just, who was that? Like, I just don't want and, like, I'm thinking about you. But it could go in your favor, though. Like, if you, if you run into one of your tens that you were with.
Starting point is 00:39:56 I mean, maybe. You know what I'm saying? Got tens. Depends how you like them shaped. I ain't gonna lie. Shout out the flame. He doesn't got me together a few times. But one time we were at a barn, Illinois, I'm talking about no-ho's a whole night.
Starting point is 00:40:12 He's like, when we leave here, the first two girls we see, we're taking them back home. I'm like, all right. Mike was like decent at that somehow. You had to see what I landed with. Mike took something decent. Yes. And I had to take the out.
Starting point is 00:40:29 I've seen Mike pull some decent girl. Like, people wouldn't think it's fucking weird. I still don't get it. Yeah, Mike's, Mike's, then. I mean, this was back when he was,
Starting point is 00:40:37 like, in really good shape. But I, I guess they fuck with a beard or something. He's also, like, very, like,
Starting point is 00:40:42 he's not afraid to, like, go up to girl. Yeah, he'll get denied. He just doesn't give a fuck. It, like,
Starting point is 00:40:48 doesn't compute in his brain that, like, this is embarrassing. Like, he just doesn't care. Fuck, yeah. He's had some,
Starting point is 00:40:54 Mike's through the assist to me a few times. I ain't gonna lie. He's a good... A wing man. Yeah, good wing man. He is a good wing man. He's, you know, he's done one or two for me as well. How long have we been yapping about women?
Starting point is 00:41:07 A long time. Fuck, you guys want to talk about. You can change it up. 30 straight. But how far are we in? Okay, we can talk about... What the fuck? 50 minutes already?
Starting point is 00:41:18 We can talk about... We're flowing. Holy shit. Is that what good conversations like? Yeah. Is this my first. first good combo over the year? I know the optic pod
Starting point is 00:41:28 ain't gonna do it. Challenger fucking Huffman. Dude, check out this clip. Are we fucking sick of it by now, man?
Starting point is 00:41:36 Just made the real shit back. But last time we had a, I think it was the last time we did a pod with tush on the fucking Marygo or the Ferris wheel. Ferris wheel. Ten minutes of it got cut out
Starting point is 00:41:47 because I think we were talking about like, was it like cummy tummies and stuff like that? That got cut? The best places, the nut or something. I don't remember what exactly it was But yes, some shit
Starting point is 00:41:58 But I think like the 10 minutes we had fun I think it got cut out What the fuck? I remember Hitch mentioning it to it But speaking of douche I want to see I saw Is it a big deal of what you were just
Starting point is 00:42:11 Recently on And what is the XQC clip? Oh is that the pops? Oh yeah, that's what I want to Oh yeah so like how'd the golf thing come about Yeah what is that I couldn't tell if that was a big deal or not I think it was a big deal or not
Starting point is 00:42:24 I think it was a big deal on paper being on the golf channel just straight up. Like that's a cool fucking thing. Can you bring up what the event was? It's called Grass League. Yeah, I did some broadcasting on the golf channel. For me, it was cool. Like, it certainly meant a lot to me to be on the golf channel. Like, I wish my grandpa was there to see it.
Starting point is 00:42:41 Like, I've been a golfer for a long time. And to be on the golf channel was, like, really fucking cool to me. So there is a golf channel. There's been a golf channel. Yeah, for quite some time. is that the same channel like the masters and shit or no most big golf tournaments aren't on the golf channel it's just a bunch of golf bullshit on the golf channel most of the time just like filling air time is it a youtube channel or is it like an actual like a yes there's an espn bn bnc disney channel and golf channel yeah but most of the big tournament broadcast will be like on nbc and like shit like that because of tv rights so you know how it goes but yeah i was doing some commentary for grass league it's a competitive par three league they're like like a two-year-old league. So it's early on, but they're growing.
Starting point is 00:43:28 And there's a lot of money floating around in it. And it was tight. Got to meet a lot of cool people, got to do some commentary work. Everyone said I did a good job. So I felt like I did a good job. I felt pretty fired up on it. I'll be going back if they invite me, which I think they will. So it went well.
Starting point is 00:43:45 I had a good time. The event was awesome. People were great. And it's golf. You love golf. I love golf. Got to play some sick golf as well. Were you being yourself?
Starting point is 00:43:52 Were you trying to throw in like some jazz of humor? Or was it like a professional? I mean, it's golf channel, bro. You can't. Yeah. Can't say anything bad. Right. It's a goddamn golf channel.
Starting point is 00:44:02 Did they make sure you knew this? They knew it, but like, yeah. Yeah, I mean, they said it to me and I was like, yeah, I'll be good. Like, yeah, I'm not going to fucking slip a joke in. It's going to be crazy. But yeah, I can still be funny without saying fuck. Yeah. So I was being myself.
Starting point is 00:44:17 I slipped into it nicely. It was pretty scary at first. So, okay, let me just get, because I didn't see any clips or it. Yeah, I wish I could find a Vod to, like, go back and look at it, but. So what was it? I can't find it. I think you need, like, the. Yeah, I don't know how to look at a golf channel Vod.
Starting point is 00:44:36 What was your, when was it your time to get on camera? So they would have, mid-golf? They would have three people on the desk who were doing the main commentary, and then I would be out in the field, like boots on the ground, either standing by 18 green or 18. T. They would toss it to me. Production would be in my ear. Like, hey, Tush, we're tossing it to you in 8, 7, 6, 5. And then, like, it would cut to the broadcasters talking. They would, like, throw me a question or throw it to me. Whatever they say, I would kind of have to just, like, make up something on the spot, compound my answer off of that.
Starting point is 00:45:12 Spiel for, like, 15 to 20 seconds. So it's not like you, like, interviewing someone. I did, I did do some player interviews. I did some fan interviews as well. a little bit of like interviews and then there's also you just on the field. Yeah, like, commenting about, what's going on down here. Pretty much just like a vibes guy.
Starting point is 00:45:30 Okay. Yeah, but like some of it I could premeditate. Like I'd have to come up with questions for people that I interviewed. So I'd have to like. See, that's hard. Yeah, I'd have to come up with the questions and like remember them and like not choke when it comes to me because the camera goes live and I got the mic and like I got to ask like two, three questions and not choke.
Starting point is 00:45:47 Yeah. And not like be scared. Live is. So it's tough. I mean, it wasn't too hard. Like, I was scared as fuck the first time that it was coming to me. Because I was just standing on a T-box for 12 minutes, just waiting. And I was like, oh, my God, my family's watching.
Starting point is 00:46:02 My girl's watching. I posted it on social media. Like, people are watching. Like, I'm going to be a golf channel. I might fuck this up. Like, my heart was flying for the first time it cuts me. But then after the first rep, I was like, all right, I did fine, settled in, got the hang of it.
Starting point is 00:46:15 By the end of it, I was chilling. Nice. Do you feel like the old you would have to drink for situations like that? Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. For sure. How do you... I don't know. Because even myself, like, if I was in your shoes there, I feel like I would even want to, like, give me fucking three shots. Right. I mean... Like, being sober doing that. It came with reps. Like, it's been so many reps of just, like, facing stuff that I wouldn't be able to do before without drinking or with, like, I would do it while drinking, but I've had to do it without drinking for,
Starting point is 00:46:51 so many times so like i'm just getting better at it over time have you ever done anything like that before not like a not as formal as the golf channel like that's elevated shit that's like real shit right there yeah big deal uh but like it i mean it kind of just it's still a live stream like i've done that a thousand times yeah more than a thousand was this the i think last time you were on the flycash you were talking about because we're talking about being done with streaming sort of what next and then i think you i think you might have mentioned like I should call it a job. Was this, this, that thing?
Starting point is 00:47:27 Probably, yeah. Maybe. Or maybe not like a job, like a full time, but like an opportunity to do just work. Yeah, I think it might have been. Not on stream. Yeah, this is very much part time. There's only three events per year. It's going to continue to grow.
Starting point is 00:47:41 Hopefully league still gets funding and investment and stuff like that. But like I got paid, you know, a little bit of money to be there. But the money like pales in comparison to like the handshakes I made. the impression I made, like just getting my face out there, doing a good job on the broadcast. Like, that was a big step for what the future could hold for me. Because I'm still young. Like, I could end up being a golf broadcaster on CBS
Starting point is 00:48:03 15 years from now if I keep this up. Holy shit, there he is. Let's watch it. Holy shit, there he is. Shit. I just want to see what the vibes were like. This is on the YouTube stream. And they call you tush?
Starting point is 00:48:21 and Lamson of the New York Bluebirds. You guys just posted a nasty round. You're the leaders in the clubhouse. How are you feeling? Feels awesome. I mean, we really, really got it going today. We started off a little slow yesterday. It was tough.
Starting point is 00:48:34 And then today we just, like, really freed it up. And it was a great day. It was awesome. I love that. Leaders in the clubhouse right now. How fun is it to play in a scramble tournament? You got your boy. He's got your back.
Starting point is 00:48:45 Is that freeing up a double belt? You're a production belt. There's a production belt. I thought my guy too, she had the swaggy double-belt on. Hymns really did save you. Comfortability's there, and it's just nice to play for each other and play well. Very nice. Well, thank you guys.
Starting point is 00:49:03 Congrats on the great round. Thank you. Nice and quick. Yeah, that was on the YouTube stream. Do they feed you a question? No. No, I got to come up with a question on the spot. It's all kind of a flow.
Starting point is 00:49:17 Do you know those guys? Are those pro golfers? I mean, like, they sent us like a big document with all the players and, like, stats about them, but it's just fucking too much. My brain doesn't work like that. Yeah. Like, I picked up what I could, but it's mainly on the fly. You have to remember their names when you are. I'm here with this and this.
Starting point is 00:49:34 You have to remember two first and last names and, like, two, three questions. So I was like, like, here we go. Fuck, I hope I don't blow it. I could choke on one name and then I'm going to choke on the questions if I choke on the name because I'll just start stumbling. So it's kind of spooky. It's kind of spooky. No, 100%. That would be, is your main thing?
Starting point is 00:49:55 Like, I cannot choke on the names. If I get through the names, we're good. I mean, I would rehearse probably like five times in my head. I think I would rehearse the first eight words just to know, just to get me going, and then I can roll. If I choke in the first eight, we're fucked. Yeah. We're fucked. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:50:12 No, that shit's fucking difficult. That's good. That's a good accomplishment. I appreciate that. Cameras are looking at you. Yeah, do they had like two stat guys with me the whole time, a camera following me. With production in the ear, there's a belt with an air switch and like a production button that I was like pressing to talk to production. That was like off air.
Starting point is 00:50:31 I could just go straight to them. I'd have to flick on. There'd be like a three second delay. So like when the production's counting down from three, I'd flick it on it too. But I can't go too early because I have to let the main broadcast like toss it to me. But I can't hear them because production's counting down. So it's like, it was crazy. See, but was this experience, something you were like, I could do this.
Starting point is 00:50:51 Yeah. This could be the future of Toosh. Yeah, I think so. I think so. I think it went great. Like, people, like the two, the guys on the broadcast and page were, like, very open about how well I did. And I think a lot of people felt the same as well. Nice.
Starting point is 00:51:05 People probably pump up my tires a little bit. That's a good feeling. I feel, I'm happy I did it and I feel confident about how it went. Well, I feel like we are seeing, I mean, we get to see it live. No pun intended. what is happening in your life going from, you know, people always wonder when a motherfucker quit streaming,
Starting point is 00:51:23 what are they going to do? How are they going to survive in the real world? Put the fries in the bag. I feel like this is, yeah, put the fries in the bag. I feel like this is a sort of, you know, we're getting to see these steps from you live. And it is cool to see, especially you're not just like, doing some shit in the call of duty world
Starting point is 00:51:42 where it's like, you know, optic and call of duty, it's all the fucking, all you fucking ever see. Yeah. Like we're getting to see you do something like different on a fucking golf channel. I appreciate that. You're doing live interviews. It is great to see. That's very nice.
Starting point is 00:51:54 It's very nice. Yeah, I'm still, I mean, like, I'm happy to be resigning with Optic as well because, like, I didn't have any income for like three months. So I was like, it's getting a little. It's not like, it's not dicey, but like I was getting to a point where it's like, what am I going to do? So like that phone call came in. I'm resigning with Optic. I think hopefully like this week or something like that. So that'll be great.
Starting point is 00:52:14 So that's money. And it's not like I really need it. too bad, but, like, it was getting to a point where I had so much free time. You don't want too much free time. No shit gets bad. Shit gets bad when you get too much free time. So, like, that's a confidence builder to know that, like, someone values me enough to stick their neck out for me to the golf channel and be like, hey, this guy's going to be good.
Starting point is 00:52:33 And it's not an easy fucking task either. No, it was. This on camera, live, working with a production in your ear, coming up with a question. Like, what you're diving into is an, is a beast of its own. Yeah, facts. That's why I tip that because it's like, I know you like golf, but it's still like a big deal. That's a big job right there. Thanks, bro.
Starting point is 00:52:56 Thank you. Appreciate the guys. That's a big boy job. Yeah, hopefully it pans out. I don't want to, you know, I'm happy with how the first event went. Obviously, it's not full time at all right now, but I have faith in the league. It'll continue to grow. There's a lot of money floating around there, and I think it'll continue to get bigger.
Starting point is 00:53:12 And hopefully I'm a, I'm a person they continue to invite back. So we'll just have to see where it goes. But right now I'm just happy with how the one event went. And I'll just, I'll keep it at that. Yeah. Hey, we believe in you, man. Thanks. And I know the flycast viewers do.
Starting point is 00:53:25 I know all of Optic loves you and all their content. So excited to see where it goes. Me too, man. I like seeing people dive into like something else. Something new. Something outside of Optics. Something outside of Call Duty. Something outside of so it's cool seeing you do that.
Starting point is 00:53:39 Right. Seeing you do that. Yeah. And for those at home, I was lost for like a good three years there. I didn't know what I wanted to do. Even though I was streaming every day, it's still like, crushing. I was still lost for a while. So, I mean, for me, I had to let go of streaming for something else to find its way to me.
Starting point is 00:53:56 And it did pretty fast, which was crazy. I don't know if it was like some universe shit, but like I really felt it in my nuts to be like, I got to let go of this streaming stuff. And like two weeks later, I get a phone call for that. Yeah. Which is not a full replacement, but like, I think it was the universe being like you did the right thing. Yeah. Yeah. I think so too
Starting point is 00:54:16 Would you say So far it's been Your life is life and mental Or is in a better state now Diving into something else And letting go of Yeah dude Streaming well
Starting point is 00:54:27 Like actually severing myself from it Not just taking like a one month break Knowing I'm gonna go back to it Because then when you go back You just feel like an even bigger piece of shit And your-dirty Yeah and your numbers are even lower I've already left y'all so many times
Starting point is 00:54:39 Like I'm fake as fuck You don't even truly Fuck with me because why would you I'm gone again soon it's so streaming is just not good for you unless you're crushing
Starting point is 00:54:51 because I want to start streaming again but then I'm like dude but if I start streaming again like one what am I going to stream two I do love my community and I fuck with the people that fuck with me on stream
Starting point is 00:55:02 they've held me down for so long there's been so many times I've gone back to streaming and I'm like dude this is going to blow and then like it's a little be old we make something happen
Starting point is 00:55:10 and it's happened so many times and it's like they truly hold me down, but it's just, I don't know, it's at a point now where I'm like, I got to, instead of like trying to figure out how am I going to survive the next year or two, I got to start thinking like, okay, but five years down the line, where am I going to be? Like, I got to start thinking about five years down the line, like, where am I going to be? Like, what steps do I need to take right now to, like, if all of Optic goes away of like, what do I need to do right now to fucking give myself? self a place. Yeah, it's an overwhelming. It's an overwhelming thought, that one.
Starting point is 00:55:48 Yep. Scary. Yep. Yeah. Life can be a little scary sometimes. Pretty scary. Even for a spoiled loser-free gamers. Definitely.
Starting point is 00:55:56 That's right. And, you know, we all go through it. We all go through it in our own different ways. That's right. Defect. But, all right. I think that's going to do it for the Flycast. Thank you guys for joining Pose.
Starting point is 00:56:06 Thank you for hopping on. It was just going to be me and Touche today. Yeah. I don't know. You clutched up, man. It's just always nice having a nice. having another fucking set of eyes ears and mouth. Another vibe to vibe.
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