The Flycast - Daltoosh Got A New Job | The Flycast Ep. 188
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Is it harder now?
Yeah.
Nothing's affordable.
I feel like money.
Yeah.
How life was easier back then?
How fucking easy did our parents have it?
So easy, bro.
So easy.
Did our grandparents have it easier than our parents?
Yes.
Yeah.
It's gotten just harder.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Our grandparents had it fucking cake.
You think it's harder now?
Cake, bro.
Dude, a house was fucking $300 back then, bro.
I mean, that's a great point.
Wow.
Welcome back to it.
Should I have boasted.
through the intro. You're on fire today, huh?
Low-key. I read the paper. I told James,
I'm like, I'm fucking spitting.
We just did a video over there.
That was actually a fun-ass fucking video.
Bose was the,
what would you call it, host? Judge.
You like that shit? Would you have clutched up
if you were playing music?
I don't know.
Some of the scenarios, I mean, maybe we shouldn't talk about it
too much because James might get pissed.
He gets pissed, whatever.
Really? He has, like, a dope idea, and then I'll, like,
vlog it and just kind of mention
in everything that just happens, spoil all he won and shit.
And then he gets fucking pissed.
But anyways, we got a little flycast episode today.
Today's a weird one.
Today's something different.
We got two shmack on for like the third time this year.
What's up, team?
It was just kind of the, it was just been sick again.
Third time.
Two minds I'm telling it.
And then got the boy Bose on here.
He's just gracing us with his presence.
till I don't really know when
Until I get a blunt delivered to me
Until he gets a blunt delivered to him
Which could be soon which could not
Which could be later
So we don't know how long we have him
Shutouts, those are awesome
I miss those
So it's tight
Is it just like
Not even weed?
I'd stop smoking weed
Way before I got sober
Was it like a panic attack
You kinda?
Oh yeah
See
That would
I just got aged out of it
Let's hear it
Bro everybody said
Like
All right
I've gotten high
Like too high
to where like, I'm like, holy fuck
my chest is pounding, like, my heart's tweaking,
but like I'm not on one knee and shit.
Oh, I kept trying afterwards.
I didn't immediately quit.
What do you mean like panic attack?
What happened?
I never happened.
I'll explain you what happened.
It's actually a funny story.
We're on a podcast.
You might as well.
I'll explain my panic attack.
It wasn't even a panic attack, really.
I took a couple jebes as I typically do.
I would have been smoking for probably six years,
like religiously at this point.
So like, I knew what the fuck was going on.
I knew what I was doing.
I took two jebs and was dropping into Greasy Grove
on Fortnite with my five.
What's a jebe? Gravity ball.
A gravity ball.
Took a couple jeeps, a couple filthy, milky jeeps.
And I was high, chilling, hopping, playing Fortnite, dropping into Greasy Grove.
We started playing, and my headset was on backwards, because I, like, was late to the drop.
So I came in and put my headset on backwards.
So I go through this whole early game, all these fights.
And for some reason, my brain just started spinning because I'm hearing footsteps.
But they're like...
They're over here.
I'm hearing gunshots, but they're over there.
So I start spinning.
And then all of a sudden...
I'm not kidding.
I am sweating from my forehead to my ankles, drenched in sweat.
I keep getting dizzier and dizzy.
I go to the bathroom, pass out.
My buddy wakes me up on the bathroom floor, and I'm like, holy fuck.
Like you blackout or is it like a holy fuck?
Like I was slowly laid out.
I remember like trying to peel my shirt off my back because I was so drenched that it was sticking.
And this is over like two minutes.
So I like dumped sweat out.
And then I passed out of the bathroom floor and my buddy was like, are you good?
And I was like, I just passed out.
I was like, all right, then I got, then I, you know, tried smoking the next day, got really anxious, tried it again.
The next day got really anxious, probably tried it a couple more times, got really anxious.
And I was like, that's enough.
What was the, I could feel that.
So was it just like, because people always say panic attack or anxiety attack, but I feel like it's always different for different people.
Like, you would say that was one for you?
But was it like, uh, or did you just, would you say that was a panic attack?
No, I don't know what.
I don't know what it was.
It was like a weird sensation of like spinning.
Well, I was panicking, but it wasn't a panic attack.
It was just like a, like, I don't know if you've done this, but whenever I tried chew for the first time.
I haven't because I've heard all the horror stories.
Try chew for the first time and just fucking.
Like I didn't start panicking, but I was like, yeah, I fucked up.
And then I just, I like, but I just felt like shit.
Yeah, nicotine sick is diffy.
Zins.
It gives me that feeling.
If I leave my zins in too long, it'll do that.
That's why I still vape, honestly.
me too because bro i was on zins and like i would put them in my pot put him in my mouth and i would
just feel like shit yeah feel lightheaded i feel like i can throw up how long would you leave
them in though i don't know 20 minutes maybe really 30 minutes see i i can only do like 5 10 minutes
like if 15 minutes goes by and i'm like fuck this shit is still with me i'm like i just start
feeling it's like just a weird shit feeling like i just want to like lay my head down yeah
but like would you so you want to consider that a panic attack
I considered a Fortnite
Fortnite debacle that occurred.
So have you had a panic attack
on weed?
No, not really.
I mean, I just started getting anxious.
Like, I would...
Does I think you described it as a panic attack?
Yeah, I mean, it might sounds like...
But it wasn't a panic...
I didn't just start panicking out of nowhere.
Like, my brain was confused,
and I just started sweating.
That would be...
It was fucking nuts.
See, do you ever think like...
We made it out, though.
But like, barely.
Like, I had to get up mid-fight, mid-build fight
to go, like, fucking...
I don't even, I don't even know.
if I was trying to throw up or what I was trying to do, but I was
fucking drenched in sweat in like
two minutes. It was crazy.
See, I never had
anything like that. Mine was always just like
fucking pure
fear of like
like you know that feeling of
I mean, I'm sure
it might not have happened, but like say
you're just chilling on your couch 2 a.m. and just a bang
on the door. Like that type of feeling that it would give you like
what the fuck. Yeah, dread.
I know what you know. It's like a dread.
full like holy fuck what the f i'm not prepared for this what's gonna happen i feel like when i have
panic attacks that's the feeling uh-huh like it's like you're being they always say it's like
you're being chased by line but you're not being chased by lion yeah i don't get those like that
okay that like just that that's my when i say i have a panic attack it's like that it's fucking
do you smoke i i smoke every day but it's like but i have to be like in bed
food he's not going to smoke i'll get food or like yeah
He's not going to smoke and then go hang out with people.
Right.
He's going to smoke, eat.
I need to be in my safe space.
Because there's half the time I smoke now, it turns bad.
Like, it's like a, but I'm just so, I'm an addict to where I, anything but being sober.
What?
You're a fake addict.
Fake sober.
I'm fake sober for sure.
And a fake addict.
What's going on?
Pick a lane.
He's not.
Am I faking, though?
Pick a lane.
I don't know.
I'm kind of, but I'm fake soap because I'm.
I'm real addict.
But it's just like you're fucking like.
But I'm not full blown doing it.
Because you're fake soap.
You fuck?
I mean,
I don't know.
I don't know where that puts me that.
But that is the,
that is the purgatory.
That is the boat that I'm in.
You're like what, smoking out of a bowl?
Yeah.
Like a little.
I'll do like one little,
then I go lay down and I see where it takes me
because sometimes it just,
it doesn't.
ever get like crazy weird but it'll just get like I'll just start overthinking everything like
fuck I haven't even uploaded a video in a week and a half I have a video that's been sitting here
five days I'm a fucking loser and then like I'm sure like what I'm gonna show my face tomorrow
I haven't done shit like my confidence I just lose all confidence and I'm like got a
flycass with tush what the fuck are we going to talk about I suck at podcasting I can't wait to
stop podcast like my brain starts like going into that sort of spiral like
Right when I fucking smoke.
Sounds fun.
But sometimes it is fun.
Half the time, it's not fun.
But I definitely, like, have to be my six days.
You like to roll those dice.
Like, I'm literally...
I don't really like to roll the dice, but it's just anything but soap.
Right.
Like, I don't really...
Because I obviously have been smoking every day for fucking forever.
Every day all day.
Forever.
It's not...
Like, I don't have, like, I don't tweak or anything, but, like, let's just...
I don't smoke in my crib.
Sometimes on the balcony, so I, like, go to the garage.
I pay for it.
Why do you do that?
Because your neighbors?
Yeah.
Well, at first I didn't know.
I feel like the balcony would be fine, though.
I didn't know at first that, bro, like every fucking vent on my floor is connected.
Like, if someone's cooking and comes right into my crib, I could smell everything.
And I'm assuming the whole time, I was just hotboxing people's crib.
Stanky.
Yeah.
So I was like, I'll be respectful.
They just came up and told me, like, we know you're smoking.
Like, we know it's you.
Just please stop.
I was like, all right.
So I go to the garage that I pay for is like one or two cars in there.
and I swear as soon as I start getting like high
as soon as I start feeling high I'm like
someone coming up is that the security guard
I just start thinking about everything that I don't know why you do that to your
like you won't even go on your balcony
I will but like if my neighbor's doors cracked it's like
the and it's wind is blowing over there like
it'll go it's start you start playing disc golf smoking the park
dude people smoke all the time and awesome
see now that now I can see that and just walking and smoking
throwing some plastic yeah see but you've never had like
you'll go to your garage and I feel like everyone gets those feelings of
oh shit is that the security guard or like I used to have that that's just any time I'm
publicly fucking smoking it's literally like the whole time I'm thinking like the worst shit
like oh my god it's that a cop car like just think about the dumbest shit you start thinking about
like everything you've the stupidest wish you would have did I'll be I'll see a reflection
off my glasses and be like what the fuck see but is it all stuff in the present or do you like
get into your head sometimes it's like oh no no I get in my head sometimes but I should
I did this.
Yeah, yeah, all the time.
All the time.
The past 15 years of everything I could have, should have.
Holy fuck, I wasted so much time.
I'm 30.
Am I going to have kids?
Like, how do I not have a wife yet?
Yeah, I'm in the, dude, fucking 34.
About 500 thoughts in five minutes.
Holy fuck.
How old are you, tush?
30.
Kids?
Soon?
No.
Maybe.
You don't want kids?
I don't know.
You seem like the type that not want kids.
I don't right now.
I don't at all right now.
Why?
Fuck that.
Because I'm too selfish.
You want to enjoy your life.
Yeah.
But then you just, you get your girl pregnant and she fucking deals with it.
And you're a deadbeat.
I'm not a deadbeat.
You show up when it matters on birthdays.
You pay for the house.
No, I won't have a kid until I know I want to have a kid.
And it's not right now.
Child support.
Fuck that.
I don't get how people just have kids.
Do you like other people's kids?
Popping them out.
I like him in.
doses, but I don't love kids
that much overall because they don't, because the kids
suck.
I agree.
Simple as that. They do. Some people
like other people's kids, though. I like them
in doses, like they're cute and they're fun. And they'll be
fucking weird in the comments. And then they
shit and cry and then the whole dinner's
ruined. But even just any, any
age from like one to
fucking 12.
They all, I hate that. They all suck in their own way.
They suck in different stages. Yeah.
Really? You hate all kids?
No, I wouldn't
say I hate all kids. I'm just uncomfortable.
and I don't like them.
I just ignore them.
I mean, yeah, that's what I do.
Like, I'm never, like, holding the baby.
I'm not shit talking to three-year-old.
Yeah.
Fuck you.
You're not getting arguments with the three-year-old?
No, not yet.
I will if they chow.
I don't, yeah, I don't.
Kids are fucking, no, I have no, I have genuinely no interest right now.
Like, I'm financially stable, and, like, I'm still too scared to have a kid
because I'm, like, I don't, like, providing for a kid's
crazy people are so much less financially stable and just slinging babies it's like what the
that's what i'm saying if they're figuring it out then like you're good what do you i know but like
babies don't need much man but but or maybe i need everything yeah actually they need everything i might
be wrong of that one like i can yeah fuck that it's the most terrifying prospect of those you even
said like you don't or you i don't think you said you want a baby now but it's like you're almost are you
30 or almost 30.
Damn.
I got like two, three years.
30, don't have kids.
Two, three years till what?
You're 32.
But are you like...
I gotta have a baby.
No, you don't.
You got time.
That's how I feel.
Well, I can't be...
I don't want to be fucked.
Especially, my balls might be fucked.
I've been on TRT for years.
Nice.
Do you think there's still a way to save my kids?
I don't know.
I'm no scientist.
I gotta figure that out now.
They say smoking, right?
I mean, if...
No.
Like a whiskey.
FIFA.
Look at Snoop Dogg.
He's probably got a feel.
Not to assume
because I wouldn't assume that.
I mean,
I would be fucking
I never even had it.
What if you had a kid though
and it was like,
because people will be saying this
and I don't know if they're coping.
Are people coping when they're like
it gives them purpose?
Yes, I know.
They've never loved anything more.
Their life has been
the best thing ever was having that kid.
I don't want to let go
of the independence and like
the selfishness that I have.
I know if I had a kid my life would turn
for the better like fulfillment wise
and purpose wise like I wouldn't have to question
like what I'm doing or who I am like I would just be the dad
and that would be my role in this world
is to be the best dad I can be
and that would feel good
and taking care of my kid would feel good
all of it's good
but also on the other side of the coin
is I don't want a fucking kid I want to keep traveling
and golfing and doing whatever the fuck I want
because it's sick
and I'm scared of having children
because I'm a pussy.
both things are true once that kid starts boiling getting ready
your life is over pal more traveling your life is over
the baby mama cut short yeah your life goes out the window
yeah I don't know don't you just chalk it up to the wife can take care of it
as long as you're like people do that isn't that crazy people just leave yeah oh my god that's horrible
that that's literally that is kind of insane it's insane people will have a kid and just leave
And never meet the kid.
Like never meet the kid.
Now I'm out.
They leave.
I don't know.
It's actually kind of sick.
It's got to be like an IQ thing.
You got to be a real piece of shit.
Like it's for that to not fuck with you forever.
See, that's what I don't get.
Like, how can you just move forward and not have like...
It's got to be fucking with you for a little life.
Something to make it feel better.
Like, they just continue to just, like, they have no kids.
Yeah, it's deep.
What about like seeing them on every other.
weekend or something.
I mean, that's how I'm, that's how I was. That's how I was too.
Like every other weekend. Sometimes they'd back to back.
Well, that's just divorce. Would your mom talk shit about your dad?
Nah.
Really?
Not really.
Because he would always, like, give money and shit.
So it was like, he wasn't really, he wasn't like a, like he supported every day and
it bought me batch for baseball.
Oh, he's that shit.
So.
Yeah, I mean, kids, people used to have kids at fucking 16, 17, 18, 18.
Average age to have first child in U.S.
average age of first time mothers in the U.S. was 27.5 in 2020.
This age has been.
What about fathers?
Can you do fathers?
You do first time fathers?
It's probably the same.
Probably 29.
So it's gone from 25 to 27 in a decade, 15.
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31. Damn, the average
age of a first-time father in the U.S. is
approximately 31 years old, having
risen from 27.4 in the
early 1970s.
That's not as crazy as what I thought.
It's too hard to have a fucking kid.
nowadays.
Especially as a dad.
Is it harder now?
Yeah.
Nothing's affordable.
I feel like money.
Yeah.
Life was easier back then.
How much how fucking easy did our parents
have it?
So easy, bro.
So easy.
Did our grandparents have it easier
than our parents?
Yes.
Yeah.
It's gotten just harder.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Our grandparents had it fucking cake.
You think it's harder now?
Cake, bro.
Dude, a house was fucking $300
back then, bro.
I mean, that's a great point.
Jobs paid well.
It's a great point.
Everything was affordable.
Yeah.
Everything was way easier.
I'm pretty sure I knew my mom's salary.
I could be wrong.
But I thought she was making like 55 to like 60 some thousand.
But it was her two kids like single bomb.
We had a town home.
But like I'm thinking of, I'm pretty sure our rent back then for a town home, three bedroom townhome.
pretty nice area.
I'm pretty sure it was like $1,200.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure that's...
That same unit now?
It's got to be close to like...
Close to 3K, probably.
20K!
I know that's still a decent amount of money.
20K?
But it's not the same.
Like, how do you gauge it in terms of like...
Look from 2010 to 2024?
Yeah, what am I?
Like, the effectiveness of the dollar, the strength of the dollar, or inflation?
Can you like...
Can you count?
or graph this with inflation, how much it would actually be worth now?
Can you look at that?
Can you do that?
Look at this fucking guy.
Matt Craig's my...
I would say like 150K.
Counting for inflation.
Buy a fucking house for 20 grand.
But what do you think their salaries were?
The average...
Yeah, can we do salaries as well for a 1972?
Yeah.
Average salary in 19...
They were living back then.
They were fucking each other, doing drugs.
home prices are really fast inflation for six years
It's not like it doesn't show actual inflation
But that's if the home prices
Went at the same rate as actual inflation
You gotta think about this too
Women weren't working back then either
They were staying at home
They were taking care of kids
Like you can provide for a family
They were chilling
They were chilling
They were chilling
They were taking opioids
And just fucking cooking
And then we'd come home
And our dinner was cold
And we'd hit them
It was a fucked up age
You know
I don't condemn it
But it was just
It's the American Dream, baby.
What was the average salary for a man in, like, 1972?
Gotta be, like...
Because there was only single income, and they were chilling.
175.
They were chilling.
Especially if you were, like, a fucking pilot.
Just multi...
You were like a...
Multi-thousanary.
Multi-thousanary.
That bought right there.
It's got a lot of money.
Yeah, I want to see what the house price costs, average price of a home in 1972.
That was already there.
to salary.
I mean compared to salaries well.
I mean, it's gotten...
I'm trying to find a good graph.
I can't find a great one here.
Just the average salary in U.S. by...
Oh, okay, I see what you're doing.
We're getting out of the nitty-gritty.
We're going to figure this...
I just want to see how bad we have it.
We have it so bad.
Our lives are so hard.
I knew it wasn't me.
It's this fucking system
that's fucked me since birth.
Wait, so what was that?
salary.
Yeah, just look up.
19792 salary.
And then the price of the home is what?
Let's see.
Watch this.
This is a home price versus salary.
What the fuck?
Oh, my God.
For a rego-dego job?
Wait.
This is the 30s.
They had World War II happening right now.
We're good.
So people were making more than what a house costed.
Well, that was in the 30s.
We don't count that.
As an Avril Levine.
That means average.
I mean like how are motherfuckers buying houses?
Wait, why did it get so fucked up at like 1960 or like 19...
Where's 2008?
60.
Here it is right there.
Ooh, big one right there.
Big jump.
Wait, so let's let me...
Can you go back to the beginning a little bit where it's like 1960-ish?
Okay, right here.
So when pro, you were making the same salary as you're...
Like, this is probably...
The average salary?
could cover the price of a home?
Like a home in this area, like,
well, it's like 750K.
600K, like 600K
and they're making one fifth
of that.
So it's like a salary of like, I don't know,
180K.
Everyone was rich,
respectively.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Everyone was cooking.
Everyone was making good money
in comparison to what a home cost.
And like, who's profiting from all this?
This is average home price
in first?
Yeah.
And that is...
656.
That's the average salad.
Bro, my house costs like 400.
I bought a house in 2023.
That's the average salary in Frisco?
It's like a household income.
Dual income.
I'm actually surprised it's not higher.
But, I mean...
That's a good amount of money.
That's high.
For both wages, I thought it'd be a little higher.
I mean, you have to factor in regular people.
In Frisco.
Regular people with regular jobs.
Not every...
Everyone can be an influencer, you know.
Love this.
Yeah, because we're just, I'm just rich as fuck.
I can't believe that, bro.
They really did have.
A grandparents had it good.
My grandma had the same.
This shit don't make sense to me.
My grandma bought, my grandma lived in the same house her entire life.
Like she, it was like, wow.
Let's see if my grandma died at like 96, 96 years ago.
go what would that be?
96 years ago?
Yeah.
So it'd be like
1930?
I mean,
something like that?
Sure.
So in 1930
my grandma was raised in this house
she was raised in it
and she ended up living there
and then she had kids
and then the kids moved out
and she still,
she was in that same house
for like 70 some years,
70, 80.
I don't think her entire life
but like 80 years.
So my grandma had that fucking house
when it was like
worth $10,000
and they see,
Still didn't have the shit paid off.
I don't know what the fuck we're doing.
What?
Or I guess the Smiths.
The freaking Smiths.
Yeah, I remember my mom was talking about like how the mortgage, because I mean,
I think back then they set up a mortgage to where like, you'll pay this much for this
son.
Then like inflation and shit.
And I think she just kind of got like fucked with it.
But I'm just thinking like, how was that house not paid off?
Paying five a month for 10,000.
Five a month for 50 years.
Yeah.
But it's like, how was that not paid off?
way back then.
That shit is crazy, bro.
Help we get on this.
I don't know.
Do you want a house?
We're talking about,
we're talking about kids.
Do you want a house and settle?
You're in a relationship.
Uh-huh.
Do you want a house or?
I have a house.
You live in a house right now, don't you?
Yes.
But it's your sister's house, right?
So are you just renting?
I'm just renting it.
Okay.
Do you want to own a house with your girl?
I want to own that, but bitch won't let me buy it.
I'll probably buy it eventually, but I don't know if I want to settle in
Texas, so I'll probably move.
And buy a house?
Probably.
Is that the goal?
Not high-rise, tush, luxury?
No, no, no.
Very much, no.
What about you both?
I mean, yeah, but like, I don't want to live in a house.
I don't want to live in a house by myself right now.
Like, I would enjoy it.
I'm sure I'd have.
That was almost me.
But, like, I don't know.
I would have been depressed as fuck.
Because we had a house, and then we broke up.
I moved out immediately within like a week.
Um, but then I was thinking like, fuck, the, the amount I'm paying in rent was the mortgage.
So I was like, I could be, I could have been a house owner for bed, nice ass house.
I do think you should have did that just because you were already in it.
Like, it's different when you go and I should have, but like lifestyle wise thinking about I was a 40 minute drive from Frisco.
With traffic to Dallas, it's 30 minutes.
With zero traffic, it's still like 20 to 25.
like it was uh not that i was in bum fuck but it just would not have been i would have been depressed
as no no i feel that like getting into the city after a breakup gave me like shit to do
like it was just super convenient to go do stuff meeting people in the elevator and shit i actually
know people in my apartment complex now like i would have been depressed as fuck if i would have
stayed in that house i know you know like most of the people in your building
i mean not most but like a decent amount
I know some, but like I don't talk to everybody.
Nice.
Yeah.
Nice.
A few of them.
A few of them, huh?
I mean.
That's like three.
No.
Yeah.
Taking them down.
Actually, it's not the first time I've done that.
You're running to him in an elevator.
I had a fire milf my old building.
I took them.
Wait, what about us?
I just said, I don't give a fuck.
No one's going to ever find her.
I had a fire-ass milk in my building.
That you were fucking with?
See, is it ever?
I don't know.
I kind of fucked up.
Because sometimes it's just awkward.
It's just awkward if you, like, hook up with someone.
That's why I try to do it.
And I think they liked me more than I like them.
And I had to, like, start ignoring them.
But then I would, like, see them all the fucking dime.
Bro.
And now it's at a point where we'll walk past each other and, like, not even say anything.
I'm like, this is so weird.
Or be stuck in the elevator with each other.
It's all fucked.
I had this.
I've been inside of them.
This girl might have been in a night you don't speak.
Yeah.
It's insane.
I mean, at least just, like, keep it, like,
Like, uh,
,
cordial.
Yeah.
Corridgel.
Keep it cordial.
Now it's just weird.
Keep it cordial.
I had this girl.
So I get in the elevator in my building and a girl is in there,
a blonde girl.
I'm in just on my phone bullshit waiting for the elevator go down.
She's like, is your name Marcus?
And I'm like, yes.
She's like, oh, I saw you on Hinge.
Nice.
What?
She's like, uh, if I see you on there, we're going to match, right?
So I'm like, all right.
I get her information, whatever.
A week later.
She's with a guy.
Like,
Like her.
Now it's there in,
no,
no, no,
they're serious.
He must live with her.
Now I'm seeing them all the time.
I said,
I said,
I said,
what up to her one time?
They were like,
on the first floor.
I said,
how you're doing?
She's like,
hey, Marcus.
I saw the dude
turned around
and look at her.
Like, fuck you know him.
The fuck you know him.
Yeah.
But I just,
I'll leave her alone now.
I don't.
Yeah.
I'd be happy.
I haven't gotten any little.
Any large piece like that.
But there,
there's definitely some weird.
Sometimes you shouldn't shit where you sleep
Where you eat or sleep
You're gonna eat or sleep
And you don't want to eat where you shit
Try not to come there either
Yeah
You don't want to come where you shit
You don't want to come where you shit
You don't want to come where you eat
And you don't want to come in your food either
Yeah so I'm trying to take a
Trying to not do that anymore
I delete but I don't know what I'm gonna do
To talk to a female these days
I deleted hinge
Dude I don't I honestly
I really don't know what to do
See, I don't know how you found your girl after being sober.
Hinge?
Oh, yeah.
But like, all right.
So, like, not to be in your business, but like, are you went on a date, obviously, to get to know her.
Where'd you go?
How did it progress from there?
Was it a nice dinner?
Can you break that down for me?
Casual.
Yeah, we went to a nice dinner.
We chatted.
She was super chill and, like, funny, which I didn't know was possible.
Did she drink on the day?
Yeah, she had a glass of wine.
Okay.
She had a glass of wine.
She's really pretty.
My type for sure.
We just chatted.
Had another date.
Banged.
Or was the next date?
Just my place.
Just came over.
Oh, shit.
And then we just started hanging out.
Like, it was super natural.
Like, our personalities mesh, like, very well.
She's super chill.
She accepts your fucking weirdness?
Yeah.
Yeah, I mean, we just...
Psycho brain.
We just blended quite nicely.
We have good.
Our personalities,
our senses of humor.
bounce off each other.
She makes me laugh,
so I appreciate that.
I make her laugh.
Yeah, it's impossible.
For a female?
I didn't know it was possible.
You're absolutely right.
Yeah, it just worked.
She's great.
Yeah.
She's awesome.
It's almost like, is it luck?
Luck.
Or is it the universe?
You got yourself straight.
It's the universe blessing you would say.
Yeah, I don't know.
Who's to say?
But, yeah, I got lucky.
She's fucking incredible.
Do you live together?
Yeah.
We have for like four months.
I've never really four months
live together for four months
I mean I met her like last February
so that was kind of quick
on the moving scale
the move in timeline
I guess
like was that a conversation though
you're like you want to move in
no her roommate was kind of fucking her over
the time her lease was ending so I was like
did you want her to move in?
She was popping I was like yeah why not
I mean I was like helping her out a little bit
and I was like let's just take the steps
see how it goes worst case
we break up and she moves out
my issue is in the beginning
I get like, not obsessed with the girl, but if it's a girl I like, I'm kind of like on her
ass of like, I want to hang out every day.
Yes, that's exactly the way I am.
If I like you first day, you can move in.
Yeah.
Well, I don't know about first day, but like you can come back later.
You can come here every day, keep some clothes here.
100%.
I like that.
Same way.
But when it comes to down the line, maybe a year down, I saw you at a party one time, or not
a party, but like a night out, you were too drunk.
how you know this guy
who's that name popped up on your phone
why are you facetiming him saying happy birthday
motherfuckers in the league
I'm like I don't like
I start holding fucking grudges
and then suddenly
I don't want your presence
every single day I start
I feel like I like
once we move in it's almost like I start losing interest
I got to change I do a 180
I'm pretty shit
When it comes to
I think at the beginning
I'm like the best boyfriend
I say all the perfect things
I comfort them when needed
I'd let them you know
Express themselves
And I just I say everything
Fucking perfect
And I show up
I'll do flowers
Let's go out to dinner
I'm showered all the time
My sheets are clean vacuum
Bare minimum shit
Yeah
Yeah
You're the man
But I'm the fucking man
but then down the lawn
I just I kind of turn into a piece of shit
dirty as fuck
not like from a hygiene
standpoint but start giving her attitude
I'm not in a good mood anymore
I'm back to my real self
you're not waking up happy anymore
you're back to yourself
so like faking like sometimes
there's this girl
not that I'm like talking to
but there's this girl
I'm trying to pick my words
wisely here
and where I was going to go with that.
There's a girl I
hang out with sometimes now,
but I'm trying to think of even where I was going to
fucking go with that.
What were you talking about?
Because I didn't want to,
I kind of want to stop myself
because I feel like the internet's going to figure this one out.
What do you mean, figure it out?
Piece it together.
They're just going to piece it together
and like who it might be.
So anyways,
we'll just move on from that.
I don't know.
I feel like whenever I move in with a girl,
I do become like a piece of shit.
I don't know if y'all relate.
I never really lived with a huge fucking worst.
When I see a girl that I like,
I'll make it a point to be like,
all right, when I see her like, I need to smile.
Hey, what's up?
Yeah, you get complacent.
A relationship is hard work, pal.
I know.
Relationship is work.
For show.
It takes two to tango.
It takes effort from both parties to make.
make that shit fucking work.
On yourself and on each other.
What was your longest relationship?
Probably the high school one.
I've only had three.
High school one.
Yeah, I had a high school sweetie.
Just to college.
Three years.
Yeah, it was like two years and like on and off for like two years.
Yeah, mine are always...
Mine are like four.
Two and a half.
Four?
I only had two.
I only had two girls, two girlfriends ever.
Four is deep.
And then another four piece and a four piece.
it is you haven't been in a relationship for a while huh as it has something came close
yeah there's been a lot of times but like like you think you're in love bro i don't i don't
understand the brain i really don't yeah it happens fast seven dates in a row seven dates in a
row i'm not doing that for nobody one two dates maybe three i'm not i'm not hitting or not even
Any signs of nothing?
It's over, done.
I already got time for it.
I went out with this girl like six times, bro.
Finally, on that, the last time,
she comes over, we fuck,
she leaves, everything's cool.
She got what she wanted.
Like, staggering.
It started spacing out the text.
There's the sex.
That's what it was.
No, it couldn't have been.
Couldn't have been that.
I made it a purpose.
Like, when the time comes on performing.
Takes fucking six, seven dates.
I would always have the deal closed before the first date, like vocally.
Really?
Yeah, dude.
Really?
I'm not going on a date without getting laid.
You fucking kidding me?
Wait, how would you word that, though?
Because I feel like the times I get laid, it's like when I just play it, smooth as fuck,
but it's like, we're going to go here and drink.
Then we're going to go over here, drink some more.
I would already allude to it so heavily in text, and I'm pretty witty and fun.
so I can get my way in there.
I could kind of have it pretty much
locked in and then we're going to go
on a date. It's not implied that we're going to have sex
but we're going to have sex. See, I've had other people
say that. You know, probably
going to have sex. Other people have said that before
as well. Like they
know, like, what are my
boys? What was it?
I don't think. St. Patrick's Day weekend or some
shit. And Bose, you know
him. But he was like talking to some girl on a dating app
and he was like, yeah, they're going to be.
going to meet us here.
Like, you can talk to the friend if you want.
I'm like, okay, whatever.
I don't really give a fuck.
But then he was saying, like, he's already, like, he was like, I'm going to end up
chilling with her and then we're going to go to my place.
And, like, you know, this is, like, guaranteed for me.
And I'm like, how do you, like, know this already?
Like, what are you saying in fucking, my hinge conversations or, like, dating app conversations
are like, usually, actually, if I find them really attractive, I'll get their Instagram,
start liking shit, start flirting a little bit,
and then set up like a date.
But it's like that's it.
Like I don't have, we don't have like conversations.
Like we don't have conversations before our first date.
The first date is for the conversation.
It's like we don't, I don't know how to set up like a guaranteed fuck
from just words on like the talking stage on hinge.
No game.
I mean, I guess so.
Like I always feel her out
The first date
See what she's like
If she's like if she's if she's
My kind of girls are baddies though man
They're hard to
I'm hey I'm downtown
I know you live down here
You want to hang out
I'll stop by
If she tells me that
I know exactly
Stop by
Why would you want to come over
Her first day
Coming for a cup of tea
Yeah
Like
So I don't want a date
And another date
I'm like
The fuck
Like I'm carrying
I'm carrying the
I'm carrying the convos
At the dates
I'm paying for the shit
Picking your fucking ass up
Dude
What the fuck
Oh my God.
I've gone on like multiple dates with some girls
And it's just like bro, what am I fucking do?
You remember I'm waste?
You remember I catch the girls that I sent the shots to?
Nice.
Strong play.
Well, no, it was my birthday too.
So I was like, fuck it.
I love that play.
So, uh, should have sent them two.
I sent them like four.
Oh, nice.
So I ended up following one of the girls on Instagram.
We, I asked her out like, hey, she actually hit me up, which is weird.
That never happened.
She was like, hey, what are you doing this week?
Random DM.
I got hype as hell when I saw it.
I hit her back.
Yeah, it's a big week.
First of all, we go to Uchi.
The shit is like $6.50 at strike one.
Strike two, bro.
She brings me to this random house party.
There's a DJ inside of the house party.
It's like a three-floor like town home.
We're chilling.
Do you do, do I'm thinking.
Is it a night?
It's going good.
Yeah, night's going good.
We linked up with Hunt.
Like, it was going good.
randomly during the party she's like yeah um i think you should probably leave my exes about to come
uh that's fucking like it doesn't get worse than that like i don't give a fuck like i'm not worried
anything's gonna happen but like why would you invite me here if that was a because she's fucking
low IQ brain dead like bitch hard like what the fuck i'm like bye yeah oh even when i take a girl
somewhere. I'm like, all right, let me think of places
where I am not seeing anyone
I know. That's exactly how I think.
Like, if for, like, not only
for my sake, but for like her sake too.
Like, just so it's not
like, I don't want fucking
a girl to come. Hey, how you
doing? Like, I just, who
was that? Like, I just don't want
and, like, I'm thinking about you.
But it could go in your favor, though.
Like, if you,
if you run into one of your tens that you were with.
I mean, maybe. You know what I'm saying?
Got tens.
Depends how you like them shaped.
I ain't gonna lie.
Shout out the flame.
He doesn't got me together a few times.
But one time we were at a barn, Illinois,
I'm talking about no-ho's a whole night.
He's like, when we leave here, the first two girls we see,
we're taking them back home.
I'm like, all right.
Mike was like decent at that somehow.
You had to see what I landed with.
Mike took something decent.
Yes.
And I had to take the out.
I've seen Mike pull some decent girl.
Like, people wouldn't think it's fucking weird.
I still don't get it.
Yeah, Mike's,
Mike's,
then.
I mean,
this was back when he was,
like,
in really good shape.
But I,
I guess they fuck with a beard or something.
He's also,
like,
very,
like,
he's not afraid to,
like,
go up to girl.
Yeah,
he'll get denied.
He just doesn't give a fuck.
It,
like,
doesn't compute in his brain that,
like,
this is embarrassing.
Like,
he just doesn't care.
Fuck,
yeah.
He's had some,
Mike's through the assist to me a few times.
I ain't gonna lie.
He's a good...
A wing man.
Yeah, good wing man.
He is a good wing man.
He's, you know, he's done one or two for me as well.
How long have we been yapping about women?
A long time.
Fuck, you guys want to talk about.
You can change it up.
30 straight.
But how far are we in?
Okay, we can talk about...
What the fuck?
50 minutes already?
We can talk about...
We're flowing.
Holy shit.
Is that what good conversations like?
Yeah.
Is this my first.
first good combo over the year?
I know the optic pod
ain't gonna do it.
Challenger
fucking Huffman.
Dude,
check out this clip.
Are we fucking sick of it
by now,
man?
Just made the real shit back.
But last time we had a,
I think it was the last time
we did a pod with tush
on the fucking Marygo
or the Ferris wheel.
Ferris wheel.
Ten minutes of it got cut out
because I think we were talking about
like, was it like cummy tummies
and stuff like that?
That got cut?
The best places,
the nut or something.
I don't remember what exactly it was
But yes, some shit
But I think like the 10 minutes we had fun
I think it got cut out
What the fuck?
I remember Hitch mentioning it to it
But speaking of douche
I want to see
I saw
Is it a big deal of what you were just
Recently on
And what is the XQC clip?
Oh is that the pops?
Oh yeah, that's what I want to
Oh yeah so like how'd the golf thing come about
Yeah what is that
I couldn't tell if that was a big deal or not
I think it was a big deal or not
I think it was a big deal on paper being on the golf channel just straight up.
Like that's a cool fucking thing.
Can you bring up what the event was?
It's called Grass League.
Yeah, I did some broadcasting on the golf channel.
For me, it was cool.
Like, it certainly meant a lot to me to be on the golf channel.
Like, I wish my grandpa was there to see it.
Like, I've been a golfer for a long time.
And to be on the golf channel was, like, really fucking cool to me.
So there is a golf channel.
There's been a golf channel.
Yeah, for quite some time.
is that the same channel like the masters and shit or no most big golf tournaments aren't on the golf channel it's just a bunch of golf bullshit on the golf channel most of the time just like filling air time is it a youtube channel or is it like an actual like a yes there's an espn bn bnc disney channel and golf channel yeah but most of the big tournament broadcast will be like on nbc and like shit like that because of tv rights so you know how it goes but yeah i was doing some commentary for grass league it's a competitive par three league they're like
like a two-year-old league.
So it's early on, but they're growing.
And there's a lot of money floating around in it.
And it was tight.
Got to meet a lot of cool people, got to do some commentary work.
Everyone said I did a good job.
So I felt like I did a good job.
I felt pretty fired up on it.
I'll be going back if they invite me, which I think they will.
So it went well.
I had a good time.
The event was awesome.
People were great.
And it's golf.
You love golf.
I love golf.
Got to play some sick golf as well.
Were you being yourself?
Were you trying to throw in like some jazz of humor?
Or was it like a professional?
I mean, it's golf channel, bro.
You can't.
Yeah.
Can't say anything bad.
Right.
It's a goddamn golf channel.
Did they make sure you knew this?
They knew it, but like, yeah.
Yeah, I mean, they said it to me and I was like, yeah, I'll be good.
Like, yeah, I'm not going to fucking slip a joke in.
It's going to be crazy.
But yeah, I can still be funny without saying fuck.
Yeah.
So I was being myself.
I slipped into it nicely.
It was pretty scary at first.
So, okay, let me just get, because I didn't see any clips or it.
Yeah, I wish I could find a Vod to, like, go back and look at it, but.
So what was it?
I can't find it.
I think you need, like, the.
Yeah, I don't know how to look at a golf channel Vod.
What was your, when was it your time to get on camera?
So they would have, mid-golf?
They would have three people on the desk who were doing the main commentary, and then I would be out in the field, like boots on the ground, either standing by 18 green or 18.
T. They would toss it to me.
Production would be in my ear. Like, hey, Tush, we're tossing it to you in 8, 7, 6, 5.
And then, like, it would cut to the broadcasters talking.
They would, like, throw me a question or throw it to me.
Whatever they say, I would kind of have to just, like, make up something on the spot, compound my answer off of that.
Spiel for, like, 15 to 20 seconds.
So it's not like you, like, interviewing someone.
I did, I did do some player interviews.
I did some fan interviews as well.
a little bit of like interviews and then there's also you just on the field.
Yeah, like, commenting about,
what's going on down here.
Pretty much just like a vibes guy.
Okay.
Yeah, but like some of it I could premeditate.
Like I'd have to come up with questions for people that I interviewed.
So I'd have to like.
See, that's hard.
Yeah, I'd have to come up with the questions and like remember them and like not choke
when it comes to me because the camera goes live and I got the mic and like I got to ask like
two, three questions and not choke.
Yeah.
And not like be scared.
Live is.
So it's tough.
I mean, it wasn't too hard.
Like, I was scared as fuck the first time that it was coming to me.
Because I was just standing on a T-box for 12 minutes, just waiting.
And I was like, oh, my God, my family's watching.
My girl's watching.
I posted it on social media.
Like, people are watching.
Like, I'm going to be a golf channel.
I might fuck this up.
Like, my heart was flying for the first time it cuts me.
But then after the first rep, I was like, all right, I did fine, settled in, got the hang
of it.
By the end of it, I was chilling.
Nice.
Do you feel like the old you would have to drink for situations like that?
Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. For sure.
How do you... I don't know. Because even myself, like, if I was in your shoes there, I feel like I would even want to, like, give me fucking three shots.
Right. I mean...
Like, being sober doing that.
It came with reps. Like, it's been so many reps of just, like, facing stuff that I wouldn't be able to do before without drinking or with, like, I would do it while drinking, but I've had to do it without drinking for,
so many times so like i'm just getting better at it over time have you ever done anything like
that before not like a not as formal as the golf channel like that's elevated shit that's like real
shit right there yeah big deal uh but like it i mean it kind of just it's still a live stream like i've
done that a thousand times yeah more than a thousand was this the i think last time you were on the
flycash you were talking about because we're talking about being done with streaming sort of what next
and then i think you i think you might have mentioned like
I should call it a job.
Was this, this, that thing?
Probably, yeah.
Maybe.
Or maybe not like a job, like a full time, but like an opportunity to do just work.
Yeah, I think it might have been.
Not on stream.
Yeah, this is very much part time.
There's only three events per year.
It's going to continue to grow.
Hopefully league still gets funding and investment and stuff like that.
But like I got paid, you know, a little bit of money to be there.
But the money like pales in comparison to like the handshakes I made.
the impression I made, like just getting my face out there,
doing a good job on the broadcast.
Like, that was a big step for what the future could hold for me.
Because I'm still young.
Like, I could end up being a golf broadcaster on CBS
15 years from now if I keep this up.
Holy shit, there he is.
Let's watch it.
Holy shit, there he is.
Shit.
I just want to see what the vibes were like.
This is on the YouTube stream.
And they call you tush?
and Lamson of the New York Bluebirds.
You guys just posted a nasty round.
You're the leaders in the clubhouse.
How are you feeling?
Feels awesome.
I mean, we really, really got it going today.
We started off a little slow yesterday.
It was tough.
And then today we just, like, really freed it up.
And it was a great day.
It was awesome.
I love that.
Leaders in the clubhouse right now.
How fun is it to play in a scramble tournament?
You got your boy.
He's got your back.
Is that freeing up a double belt?
You're a production belt.
There's a production belt.
I thought my guy too, she had the swaggy double-belt on.
Hymns really did save you.
Comfortability's there, and it's just nice to play for each other and play well.
Very nice.
Well, thank you guys.
Congrats on the great round.
Thank you.
Nice and quick.
Yeah, that was on the YouTube stream.
Do they feed you a question?
No.
No, I got to come up with a question on the spot.
It's all kind of a flow.
Do you know those guys?
Are those pro golfers?
I mean, like, they sent us like a big document with all the players and, like, stats about them, but it's just fucking too much.
My brain doesn't work like that.
Yeah.
Like, I picked up what I could, but it's mainly on the fly.
You have to remember their names when you are.
I'm here with this and this.
You have to remember two first and last names and, like, two, three questions.
So I was like, like, here we go.
Fuck, I hope I don't blow it.
I could choke on one name and then I'm going to choke on the questions if I choke on the name because I'll just start stumbling.
So it's kind of spooky.
It's kind of spooky.
No, 100%.
That would be, is your main thing?
Like, I cannot choke on the names.
If I get through the names, we're good.
I mean, I would rehearse probably like five times in my head.
I think I would rehearse the first eight words just to know, just to get me going, and then I can roll.
If I choke in the first eight, we're fucked.
Yeah.
We're fucked.
Yeah.
No, that shit's fucking difficult.
That's good.
That's a good accomplishment.
I appreciate that.
Cameras are looking at you.
Yeah, do they had like two stat guys with me the whole time, a camera following me.
With production in the ear, there's a belt with an air switch and like a production button that I was like pressing to talk to production.
That was like off air.
I could just go straight to them.
I'd have to flick on.
There'd be like a three second delay.
So like when the production's counting down from three, I'd flick it on it too.
But I can't go too early because I have to let the main broadcast like toss it to me.
But I can't hear them because production's counting down.
So it's like, it was crazy.
See, but was this experience, something you were like, I could do this.
Yeah.
This could be the future of Toosh.
Yeah, I think so.
I think so.
I think it went great.
Like, people, like the two, the guys on the broadcast and page were, like, very open about how well I did.
And I think a lot of people felt the same as well.
Nice.
People probably pump up my tires a little bit.
That's a good feeling.
I feel, I'm happy I did it and I feel confident about how it went.
Well, I feel like we are seeing, I mean, we get to see it live.
No pun intended.
what is happening in your life going from,
you know, people always wonder
when a motherfucker quit streaming,
what are they going to do?
How are they going to survive in the real world?
Put the fries in the bag.
I feel like this is, yeah, put the fries in the bag.
I feel like this is a sort of, you know,
we're getting to see these steps from you live.
And it is cool to see, especially you're not just like,
doing some shit in the call of duty world
where it's like, you know, optic and call of duty,
it's all the fucking, all you fucking ever see.
Yeah.
Like we're getting to see you do something like different on a fucking golf channel.
I appreciate that.
You're doing live interviews.
It is great to see.
That's very nice.
It's very nice.
Yeah, I'm still, I mean, like, I'm happy to be resigning with Optic as well because, like, I didn't have any income for like three months.
So I was like, it's getting a little.
It's not like, it's not dicey, but like I was getting to a point where it's like, what am I going to do?
So like that phone call came in.
I'm resigning with Optic.
I think hopefully like this week or something like that.
So that'll be great.
So that's money.
And it's not like I really need it.
too bad, but, like, it was getting to a point where I had so much free time.
You don't want too much free time.
No shit gets bad.
Shit gets bad when you get too much free time.
So, like, that's a confidence builder to know that, like, someone values me enough to
stick their neck out for me to the golf channel and be like, hey, this guy's going to be good.
And it's not an easy fucking task either.
No, it was.
This on camera, live, working with a production in your ear, coming up with a question.
Like, what you're diving into is an, is a beast of its own.
Yeah, facts.
That's why I tip that because it's like, I know you like golf, but it's still like a big deal.
That's a big job right there.
Thanks, bro.
Thank you.
Appreciate the guys.
That's a big boy job.
Yeah, hopefully it pans out.
I don't want to, you know, I'm happy with how the first event went.
Obviously, it's not full time at all right now, but I have faith in the league.
It'll continue to grow.
There's a lot of money floating around there, and I think it'll continue to get bigger.
And hopefully I'm a, I'm a person they continue to invite back.
So we'll just have to see where it goes.
But right now I'm just happy with how the one event went.
And I'll just, I'll keep it at that.
Yeah.
Hey, we believe in you, man.
Thanks.
And I know the flycast viewers do.
I know all of Optic loves you and all their content.
So excited to see where it goes.
Me too, man.
I like seeing people dive into like something else.
Something new.
Something outside of Optics.
Something outside of Call Duty.
Something outside of so it's cool seeing you do that.
Right.
Seeing you do that.
Yeah.
And for those at home, I was lost for like a good three years there.
I didn't know what I wanted to do.
Even though I was streaming every day, it's still like, crushing.
I was still lost for a while.
So, I mean, for me, I had to let go of streaming for something else to find its way to me.
And it did pretty fast, which was crazy.
I don't know if it was like some universe shit, but like I really felt it in my nuts to be like, I got to let go of this streaming stuff.
And like two weeks later, I get a phone call for that.
Yeah.
Which is not a full replacement, but like, I think it was the universe being like you did the right thing.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I think so too
Would you say
So far it's been
Your life is life and mental
Or is in a better state now
Diving into something else
And letting go of
Yeah dude
Streaming well
Like actually severing myself from it
Not just taking like a one month break
Knowing I'm gonna go back to it
Because then when you go back
You just feel like an even bigger piece of shit
And your-dirty
Yeah and your numbers are even lower
I've already left y'all so many times
Like I'm fake as fuck
You don't even truly
Fuck with me
because why would you
I'm gone again soon
it's so
streaming is just not good for you
unless you're crushing
because I want to start streaming again
but then I'm like dude
but if I start streaming again
like one what am I going to stream
two
I do love my community
and I fuck with the people
that fuck with me on stream
they've held me down for so long
there's been so many times
I've gone back to streaming
and I'm like dude
this is going to blow
and then like
it's a little be old
we make something happen
and it's happened
so many times
and it's like
they truly
hold me down, but it's just, I don't know, it's at a point now where I'm like, I got to, instead of like trying to figure out how am I going to survive the next year or two, I got to start thinking like, okay, but five years down the line, where am I going to be? Like, I got to start thinking about five years down the line, like, where am I going to be? Like, what steps do I need to take right now to, like, if all of Optic goes away of like, what do I need to do right now to fucking give myself?
self a place.
Yeah, it's an overwhelming.
It's an overwhelming thought, that one.
Yep.
Scary.
Yep.
Yeah.
Life can be a little scary sometimes.
Pretty scary.
Even for a spoiled loser-free gamers.
Definitely.
That's right.
And, you know, we all go through it.
We all go through it in our own different ways.
That's right.
Defect.
But, all right.
I think that's going to do it for the Flycast.
Thank you guys for joining Pose.
Thank you for hopping on.
It was just going to be me and Touche today.
Yeah.
I don't know.
You clutched up, man.
It's just always nice having a nice.
having another fucking set of eyes ears and mouth.
Another vibe to vibe.
Another body, baby.
But yeah, that's going to do it.
Matt Craig.
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