The Flycast - Deciding The Greatest Streamer of our Generation | The Flycast Ep. 127

Episode Date: December 1, 2024

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I have one of these cameras can see the feet. Can't really twist my feet sitting down. Are you still like Seth? Why does Seth sit like this? Well, it's weird as I sit the, like, I'll sit like this sometimes. I just, like, I've seen shit where like I'm like this. And I'm like, what the fuck? Like, how does no one call me out?

Probably imagine just the worst quality. Or worse. Yeah, like, worse quality audio on the mic. Oh, my God. That's how you start your days now? With the Kendrick album since it dropped. I actually haven't been listening to a lot of music. Because my mom's been here, so I haven't been listening to a lot of music.

But I'm not going to lie. I feel like shit today. I mean, we got some things to talk about, I guess, but if we can get through it. Why? What's wrong with you, man? What's wrong with you now? What's wrong with you? By, uh, just fucking shit.

shitty ass it's just my stomach my stomach's just all fucked up we haven't made it 45 seconds in and we're already talking about I've been eating shitty for like the past week it's great the more I stream the more the less

I want to do anything else yeah yeah that's crazy that explains your past four years yeah yeah no not like whenever you and James are talking shit they're not streaming yeah I get what you're But now this past, I mean, I guess I wasn't doing too bad last week.

But let's just say, let's just talk this past weekend. You have been grinding. You've been grinding the streams out though. Yeah. Trying to. It's, I mean, it's fun when they're going well. It's fun. It is fun when they're going.

When they're not going well, it's not fun. It's not fun at all. And I think there's this dude in my chat, shout out Tilo. That dude's been dropping pawn. I'm so like, Tilo's a bomb driver. Bro, like, trust me. Thank you. It's funny because when you don't stream, Tilo comes to my chat.

I think he bounces. I think he just, he loves the green wall, I guess. But yeah, shout on Tilo. But this past Saturday, we, there's, we went to an engagement party. And of course, everyone's like looking at us. When are y'all next? When are y'all, y'all having a kid? Like they have a kid.

They just got engaged. They're getting married next year. You're like March. And everyone's a couple. And then they're just all, we're like the only couple not married. It's just all eyes on me. I'm just like,

I don't even know you people. And they're like grilling me. Could you imagine you start free? You actually start freaking out like that? What the fuck? Like, who are you people? But like they're, I mean,

they were coming at me, but it was it was all fun. I didn't know to, I mean, we've been dating a little over, two years and the amount of times people are asking about no that's that's all it takes just two years and year i two years is probably long now i sort of is it at our age two years to two years we're talking about like getting getting engaged or something after two years i was asking me

about rings like a year and a half end really i was like whoa whoa what i didn't know that was like yeah no i learned it i learned she taught you think about matt matt's been dating for what what year you you on Matt? Ten years. But I mean, I, I mean, that's the standard. Yeah, I thought that was. I thought we dated for 10 years like Matt. Yeah, and then we get shit together.

Alexis would, like, when we were like three years in, like, we were talking about people. Because like Castro, Castro dated for like six years or seven years before you got engaged. I feel like when it starts really young, those are always like the. It's the really young ones. Yeah, yeah. And so I said something. When Castro got engaged, I said something. I already had the engagement ring.

But I said something. I was like, yeah. You know, I think it's, I think Castro waited the perfect amount of time. Like, you know, seven and a half years or something like that. And the dog. Uh-uh. The look she gave me? Yeah. Oh, no, no, no. And I was like, I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. I think I'm in the same boat.

I think I'm in the same boat. I mean, you, you're, you're damn past it. It's been barely over two years. I think a year and two months. Y'all have a house. y'all have gone through good times you all have gone through really bad times y'all have gone through children the animals oh but that's our children oh yeah you all y'all have bounced around to three different places now yeah we've kind of lived i mean i've lived at three different places yeah all lived the fucking life

it does seem like it i feel like a ring for you is just like i was kind of saying that cherry on not not cherry on top it's just like when i was talking to her friends i was kind of saying that i was like it does seem kind of long but in my head I'm always thinking like two years doesn't I don't know I guess that's just the standard these days at two years you sort of start thinking about it

for our age which like we have we have been thinking about it too like I think last pod we were talking to Seth we were talking about kids and shit and we are sort of I mean we don't really care about having a whole wedding and are you going to have like a wedding wedding

no probably not her family's in Chicago her family's in Chicago and my family's in North Carolina just make everyone fly out to Italy we've talked about not doing that so we'll probably just have like I don't know like a few people

going to a place ourselves having like us and the animals getting married and then maybe doing like a party yeah somewhere I want it I try to convince her to do a surprise wedding which is just like we invite a bunch of people and were like, hey, we're having like a, like a engagement.

Oh, really? Like an engagement party. Everybody comes in and then we're like, surprise, this is the wedding. Like, I wanted to do that, but she did. It still wouldn't work. Girls are just different. It just doesn't. It doesn't.

They care about the memories, the coordination. It doesn't solve the where our families are in two different places thing. Yeah. So, yeah, we've had those talks a little bit. I mean, I didn't think two years. I feel like, no, I think. I think we're at a good space. And she's always like, I need a, I need a ring.

I need kids. She's talking about like freezing her eggs and shit because she's, I think she's 29. But yeah, it's just all these talks. But anyways, went to an engagement party this weekend. I've been eating shitty food for like, probably like five days. But on Saturday I went to an engagement party, drank for the first time. And I don't even remember. And I mean like drunk drinking.

but like drank for the first time in months and it was just like I don't know what it is anymore maybe it's just like maybe it's being around unfamiliar people and then we went to Pete's piano bar and I was just like

it's just not it's that place is just not my thing it's just very uh I don't know just not white but yeah so not my you know not my style but um

yeah I was I've drank. I probably had to have like 10 to 12 drinks around in like six hours. And I feel like when I say that, it sounds like a lot, but I felt sober the whole time. And I haven't even drank in forever. Like on our, we pregame, of course, before we go anywhere because we're both like social anxiety, weirdos. So we pregame and like the first, my first drink, first like two drinks pregame, I was like, what the fuck? I think I'm like drunk already.

Then we like we were there, we get there, and then we start drinking more. And I kind of feel it go away. And then we get to Pete and I like get another drink. And I'm just standing there. And I'm like, holy fuck, I'm sober as shit. But I'm like six drinks deep. And then I just started feeling like uncomfortable.

And I ate so much food that they had like something shitty in the morning. Sushi and fried rice at the dinner. and then all these drinks and I just felt sober standing there I don't know I just felt like I didn't get that whole night I felt like I didn't get like the good drunk and I was kind of like I was kind of disappointed by it

because usually that's what you chase after but I didn't want to shove more drinks down my fucking throat just to feel that but and I was so after that and then of course go home meet order McDonald's just absolutely destroying my stomach and then of course woke up yesterday feeling like shit but it was so weird that whole night like I just didn't get that good drunk feeling and it almost now I'm like is am I just done with alcohol I mean probably not if I

end up going somewhere or someone has something I'm going to end up drinking but that night I was just like damn that did not just empty I've had some you know it's bad where that happens but I'm like, that did nothing for me. It's bad when you're drinking and you're like, man, this is just a bunch of calories for no reason. Yeah, there was every, there was no like, yeah, there was no, like, positive. There wasn't any, like, positives about the drinking. Or you get, I just didn't get that good feeling. I also get, like, when I get too drunk, it, like, ruins my week.

Not even, like, a day. Like, it ruins my week. Well, what was weird is I had 10 to 12, which is, like, if anyone else has 10 to 12, it's like, they wake up, puking, or like they, they're fucking drunk. What is 10 to 12?

10 to 12 drinks. Oh, oh, 10 to 12. I thought 10, I thought, I thought, you said it like it was a brand. Like I had like,

I had a 12th tequila. I had a glass of 10 to 12. No, I was like, because I probably had like 10 to 12 drinks within like a six, seven hour period. Yeah.

And that, but I just did not feel drunk ever. And then obviously ate like shit. Order McDonald's home or when we got back. And then the next day yesterday, I felt like I did not. leave the bed all day. I woke up.

You're hungover. Fucking shit. I was hung over. I was like, I didn't even get the good parts of this shit. Like, and I just, now I feel like shit. When you tell drinking stories, I kind of see, you ever seen, what is, what is, what is, what is what is this movie? Wolf of Wall Street.

You ever watched it? You know the, the scene and he was like, yeah, I made it home, even though I was drunk. I mean, I drove home. And then he actually. And then he goes and sees his car the next day. That's kind of how I feel like. you are when you're drunk you're like i didn't even feel it at all but then if you looked at videos of yourself i think that's been yeah you're just i mean that was probably i think that's the old

me like that's the old me for sure that's that's you that's the old me for sure this was not one of those cases like i jett like i was just standing there like i am too sober to be in pete's fucking piano bar right now then we went home and the next day i wake up and i'm just like hung over my stomach hurts that of course just like didn't leave bed all day yesterday um obviously didn't stream

so I just felt like a loser I was like man fuck alcohol I'm about a diet start and I was telling myself Saturday night because I was eating I was eating everything

we had McDonald's I was like diet starts tomorrow then I woke up that was for Sunday then I woke up yesterday I was like I feel like such shit like there's no diet starts Monday

so now the diet starts today but I was just I just felt like such shit and it's it's it's it's almost like it's alcohol just carries over days and days now even even today I was I think the old me would have canceled today I woke I woke up at pre hex pre 10 a M pre hex crash out yeah pre hex crash out I might have canceled today but but uh yeah I don't know I'm just I'm just feeling the effects from it been eating like shit i feel puffy my like i don't know just all feeling i'm off my routine but uh i guess we'll be back at it this week man yeah i'm retired from drinking hell yeah i feel like the noise gate's weird on this i don't know if it is can you hear me when i do

i mean i can barely know anyway um so thanksgiving was yesterday sorry now i'm no no now i hear static now i hear static we're good We're good. We're fine. We're fine. Thanksgiving was yesterday, but we're pre-recording this. So what are your plans for Thanksgiving? We're just going to stay. I mean, I always end up just staying here. I'd never do shit for Thanksgiving to be honest. We got a... Like when I wasn't in a relationship, I just didn't even like think of the day. Really? Like I just would fucking smoke weed and lay on my couch. Like I didn't even think of Thanksgiving or getting a meal. But like since being with with Michelle, I'll at least make it. uh we'll get a turkey and whatever yeah yeah yeah so you don't do you don't do anything with family when i lived at home yeah but i'm not gonna fly home for it it's just to i always the flight sucks yeah i always flew then i got to rent a car drive an hour and a half

to fucking angersdown it's just a whole i guess i didn't always fly home no because because i remember having thanksgiving at the scuff house did you have it when it was i think it was like me Aaron, Pommage, Spratt Pomage's X. Yeah, I was there. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I was there. We had our own little Thanksgiving. Yeah, that shit was kind of fun. That's kind of fun.

It was kind of fun. I mean, I'd be, I mean, we're going to end up doing our own little Thanksgiving dinner. That'll probably be about it. Hex invited anyone. Like, if you ain't doing shit, you can come over here. I was like, I almost want to go over there.

My mom and I, it was either last year the year before that we went over to sets to watch the football game yeah but then it got to a point where like they were they were playing like family games and so my mom and i looked at each other we were like all right like let's not intrude but really because no and they know it was not like them thing like they were like we're gonna go do this set's family here you two over here just it wasn't like that like we didn't want to play is was hanging out with us and stuff but i was just like uh i like i don't want to i don't want to but i feel like uh i feel like uh i feel like uh i feel like it's changed a lot since then because that was that was a long time ago because i think it was i think

that was two years ago yeah it was two years ago because last year last year i went home and had my vegan plate i tweeted i tweeted i tweeted something like not a better plate on the timeline and it was just vegetable i i love thanksgiving food i'm gonna stuff my fat face for sure oh my mom and i got uh tacos tacos yeah for for thanksgiving yeah oh yeah what do you do in this year? year. Tacos. No, we got tacos. My mom's here, yeah, yeah.

You got tacos for this year? For this year, yeah. What kind of tacos? Is that like a thing? Like Thanksgiving tacos? Or you just decided, what do we want to fucking? Like season beef, like cheese. Like you, are you going to make it yourself?

Yeah. Oh, okay. And have a whole little. How long is she staying here for? She's going back like, she didn't want to fly back right after Thanksgiving. So she's going back like Monday. or something like that i think jr go to a um football game or something yeah so ECU playing here ECU u and t you know the the local college north texas the green college yes um they they joined

ecu's conference this year and i was like what and i remember thinking about that uh whenever it happened and the first time we play them we play away which is here so it was 20 minutes away right My mom just comes down here and we go 20 minutes away. Was that sort of the whole plan? Yeah, she comes out here. Yeah, she comes out here. She stays until Thanksgiving and then. How was that?

It was dope. Dude, I, I've been an ECU fan for a long time, but every time I've flown back home to go to a game, I always fly back for the big ones because I don't want to watch. I don't either want to watch them lose really bad or win really bad. I want to watch a good game. Got to be like shitty team versus shitty rival. Right. Exactly.

Yeah. I flew back for like the NC State game and and the Cincinnati game. And they always lose. They've lost every time. I've flown back five times in the last. Did they always have a shitty record? I mean, we're seven and five right now. Seven and four right now.

So we're like, we're not. I thought they'd be like four and seven or some shit. Nah, I mean, EC is weird because it's, it's, yeah, yeah, anyway. It's a school that doesn't have as many resources as every other school in the state. So sometimes we're really good. and then sometimes we go through droughts or really bad. And like optic.

Like a lot like optic. A lot like optic. That's why when I attribute my, my optimism towards like optic teams. Like we'll be back. From being an ECU fan. We'll be back. Because people, because I view optic fans kind of like cowboy fans

or like or Patriots fans where it's like, if you don't win the Super Bowl, you're bad you're bad and i come from an era where it's like if you make a bowl game yeah you're good yeah that's what i come from you place top eight you're one of the best in the world exactly exactly top three you're like holy shit they talk about this forever yeah the the like staple season in easy you history is from 1992 and they made it to the beach bowl and they just like nothing sense they just beat nc state in the peach bowl and like that just beat nc state in the beachable and like That was, that's like the,

oh, yeah. That was their own nats. That was their own nats. And every other, every other team is talking about like conference championships and national championships, making it to the playoffs. And ECU is just like,

yeah, we, we had one crazy good year 30 years ago. Oh. But yeah, they, they came down to here. I finally got to,

I say all that to say that I finally got to see them win. So I haven't seen them win at home. North Texas. Yeah. Dude, it was crazy. They went down. down 21 to zero and I was like it's happening again just like oh and six I would check I would have been oh and six in person the last six times I've seen them or the last yeah six times I'd

see them but then they had a crazy car you all the only fans in the no place there's other ECU fans bro I don't know what happened with North Texas because the stadium's beautiful but dark there was nobody there like nobody and and ECU travels pretty well like the ECU fan was like these two fans was they were probably like half as loud as the UNT fans and they're from North Carolina like

you know what I mean like they travel especially going to Texas I feel like just football in Texas it doesn't matter who you are yeah like people are going to support where they're from or where they go dude but like when you think about that kind of surprises me when like whether it's UNT or like

like Texas State or Rice or SMU. Like, there's not a lot of fans for those colleges. I think I actually... I think that she was popping. Texas is popping. Like, in Austin, the Longhorns. Yeah.

Texas A&M. Texas Tech. There are so many, bro. I don't know. Like, there are popular teams in Texas, but I feel like I could be wrong. But I think when it comes to Dallas-Fort Worth area, I think the Cowboys are number one. I think high school is number two. I think people care more about high school football here in Dallas than college football.

I'd be right. Because, dude, have you seen the high school stadiums around here? Can you look up that? I forgot what high school. It's called. I know there is, weren't there documentaries and shit on Texas high school football? Dude, there's a high school. There's a high school stadium here that seats 30,000.

Like, I'm thinking when I was in 10th grade. If there was a camera crew following our football team, I'd be like, the fuck. Like no way, no reason. Like, they're just built. But don't, don't high school teams around here, like draft. Look at that. What high school is this?

Jackson's Allen. Allen, yeah, in Allen. God. Look at that stadium. How many does it see? A capacity, 18,000? Dude, that looks more than 18,000. But, I mean, look at,

is never wrong so yeah there's there there are uh there are some insane high schools don't they like true not draft but don't these high schools like find other high schoolers from fucking anywhere and like try to recruit them i'm sure oh dude isn't that like that's what you got to do to have like the best team yeah i think like obviously fucking middle schoolers obviously NFL does that to college right and you got to in college kids recruit high schoolers. But now these high schoolers, these are probably multi-million dollar athletic departments. They've, they're recruiting middle schoolers. They have to be going around to middle

schoolers and recruiting because there's no way you build a multi-million dollar facility. Because I feel like in middle school, I was a dog. Like I, like if I would have played middle, if I'm playing middle school football like high school people would have been looking at me like oh this dude's got potential but once i hit high school everyone else started growing and i was just kind of like this skinny dwee yeah like video games and there was just like no way like i would get fucking destroyed playing against people like this dude i went i went back um whenever shawston did a little documentary

segment on uh on tst for the raleigh for the raleigh um tournament um did he i don't know if I saw that. Yeah, it's really good. I mean, Charleston's fucking the goat. But we went back to our high school, the high school that Blake and I went to. Damn, I need to watch that.

Blake and I went to. And it was the first time, I mean, obviously, I'm a fucking 31 year old man. First time I've been in a high school since I graduated. I can't,

we never did, we never did like anything in it. Yeah, we never like shot anything in like a gymnasium or anything. It's the first time I've been in a high school since I graduated. So I'm walking around. It was so weird. It is weird.

Everything's smaller than you remember. And then we get, and we happened to be able to walk in because it was a college, or it was not a college, it was a high school basketball night. It was Friday night they were playing basketball. That was a basketball game. And so we're walking in and I just peeked in the gymnasium and dog, the high school basketball team. They're giants. They're all 16 to 18 years old.

don't make sense. And they're six foot five. Humans are just... And I was like, what? Everyone's just evolving. I don't remember that. I don't remember multiple six foot four and up people. Six foot five and up people.

On my high school team, we had one guy that could dunk. Yeah. Like just the total average fucking... I bet I go back now and it's just like six for six, six seven. They're alley-ooping. I don't know what's going on. Hagerstown. But it is, it does almost seem like these kids are just evolving.

Yeah, I don't know. There's like, um, I saw this one dude. I mean, he can't play, but he was so tall. He was like seven, eight or some shit in high school. But he was like one of those like so tall. He like can't even fucking move. And he has like scoliosis or something. But people like, I mean, I guess there's always sort of been like that's what

Wilk fucking chamberl. Wilt was the first to evolve this shit. Will Chamberlain when he was playing in 1963. This is my high school. What? That's your high school stadium? Yep.

Rich ass man. Where? Oklahoma? Yeah. What the, dude, I was like, I was like, why are we looking at a college stadium right now? You, I wish. Wait, how many people graduated in your, in your class?

Like, 1,200? Damn. I don't even, I couldn't even tell you how many graduates. I think we were like that. Try to Google South Hagerstown High School Gymnions. Yeah. South Hagerstown. Mine is imagine nothing past the goals.

Like that's just empty. Dude, that is... And then the sides are just like a few bleachers. Dude, that is about the size of ECU's basketball stadium. Yeah, there's us. Hell, yeah. Yeah. Hey, H-town, baby.

No, that's what, I mean, that's what, that's what Wakefields look like. Like, I, like, that's high school. That's high school. That is high school. No, this Oklahoma, Texas shit don't make sense. Wait, Matt, did you go to a bunch of games? I went to like maybe two the whole

time. Like on the bottom left picture or the bottom middle or the middle. Yeah, left. That's what I remember. This might be me playing. Like, no one's even really in the stands. No one gives a shit. That's the girls varsity team. So I don't think...

No, I'm right there. But this is what I remember high school. Yeah, yeah. Like just. Oh, dude. Enclosed. Ten sets of bleachers on each side.

Yeah. They're still not even halfway filled up. Yeah. But that's what I remember. I'm playing it. Yeah, I remember I'm playing the, on the, the, the, the, the, the football field and the soccer stadium is the same field. So like, we would, we would play a game on Thursday night.

And under the lights and everything, it's, you know, 7 p.m. I'm high. and in the bleachers is just like maybe 30% full 20% full yeah all family yeah all family and girlfriends it would be nice and then the next day the football team plays and it's just fucking packed yeah just slam what do you want for your say your future children would you want do you want to be involved as like a sports dad of course I want to be involved like you're going there every Friday it's fucking packed he's at an elite school absolutely absolutely but I I it's weird because I also want like like my uh my cousin uh just had a kid and my cousin

when I was a when I was a when I was a kid when I was in high school he was a rock climber really good rock climber like was in high school when he was in high school he was a crazy good rock climber and um like and then uh like like I think he was like ranked at one point like he had I don't I can't really remember but he would go to tournaments and stuff and like place well and stuff like that. And he just had a kid and his kid can climb. His kid was like climbing up the, we went

to a Mexican restaurant, he's climbing up the wall. And I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa. And I'm like, bro, if that was my kid and I had a history in rock climb, I put that kid in rock climbing right now. Yeah. Like, let's not worry about soccer and football or basketball. Let's put him in rock climbing.

I feel like that's what like Halo has taught me. Like I, the, I feel like Halo taught me this is what you need to do. Like you don't just get on when you feel like it and play and expect to be better and compete with some of the best. Like there's a strategy to it. There's a, you know, you have like, so if I find my kid being really good at something when they're super young, I'm like. Yeah, we have to do that. You have no idea what's about to happen.

Exactly. That's what I feel like. But Monday through Saturday, we got shit to do after. school. If I have, if I have a girl and she's like doing somersaults at the age of zero, I'm like, you're going in, just comes out. Like, you're going in gymnastics. Let's not worry about softball or soccer. I mean, she starts kicking her Barbie heads around. Even if it's soccer. Playing piano. Get him a fucking. Exactly. F.L. studio. Yeah. If she can, all of a sudden, she sings, she's, she accidentally sings on key. I'm like piano. Like, we're going tomorrow. Yeah. That's,

And I, you're now an artist. That's, that's kind of how, I will be making your TikTok and right now. I don't know what, I don't know, like, like when, uh, you see all these, like baby reveals and like when it's blue, the dad starts, like, hiking the ball or like, they're like, oh, he's my little linebacker. Yeah. I'm not going to be like that, but I'm going to, I'm going to probably see what they're best at and try to.

Yeah, I don't really, I don't know if I have a thing where I'd want them. I'm trying to think of what my, if I could pick something, what would it be? Maybe basketball. Oh, if I could pick something. If I could pick something, it would be football. What position? Quarterback. Quarterback.

Yeah. I mean, that would be. It would be great, but it would be. I bet that shit's so much pressure. Being a quarterback or a pitcher. Oh, no. Basketball, you're sort of like, there's not really pressure on anyone besides maybe like the star of the team. Yeah.

But to have like a, is it, is goalie like that? And soccer is there pressure? I mean, yeah, there's a lot of pressure when you're a goalie. But like, if it's a penalty kick, all the pressure is on the kicker, not on the goalie. Right. Like no one, no, if a, if you make the penalty kick, like, no one's blaming the goalie. Unless it. I feel like that's got to be a stressful life, though, if you're a pitcher or, wait, what was the other one?

Or quarterback. That's got to be a lot of pressure for a year. young kid. I think a kicker. You're the face of your high school sport. It's pretty much all on fucking you for the most part. Dude, did you see the Washington Cowboys game yesterday?

I don't know if you watched the commanders. Yeah, yeah. No. I've heard something about it. So, dude. So it's a close game. I think it's a three point game.

One of the Cowboys guys drops the kickoff return and then picks it back up. does a 360 spin and runs it all the way back. So now they're up by 10. No, no, no. Now they're up by seven. So somehow it was, regardless, that's what happened. Now it's a seven point game.

I might be missing this up. But into the game, it's a seven point game. 30 seconds left. Cowboys get the ball back. Cowboys get the ball back with like a minute and a half. They get, it's four and out. They have to punt it with like 20 seconds left. The, they first play.

Washington throws it touchdown. So now it's a one-point game. The Cowboys are so funny. Now it's a one-point game. It's like watching fucking Optic in Halo 5. So now it's a one-point game with 30 seconds left.

They just kick the extra point. Misses the extra point. The commanders. The commanders missed the extra point. So then they kick the they kick the onside kick. Cowboys guy grabs the onside kick, runs it back for a touchdown.

So now they're up by eight. If the Cowboys guy goes down right there, they just, they win. But he ran it to the end zone. So now they have another chance to win. But then they failed the Hail Mary. But this is how I felt it like recess. You were this guy at recess? Yeah.

They're going to go hallway. Nate shot sub-athons over. It's finally over. God. Tartas signing on and his ass is on. Even though I would tune into a stream all the time. I don't know why I said thank God. No, I think subathons are funny because it's always on.

It's just always there. Nate Shot might be the greatest subathon person that you could have. Yeah. That dude is next. I clicked that subatathon stream so many times. And every single time I clicked, I was like sucked in into whatever he was saying. Dude, he's doing. Dude, every time you watch a stream,

Or when you're a streamer and you're looking at other streams, you try to take, like, what are they doing the best? What can I pull from what everyone else is doing? And I don't know what it is about Nade stream, but like, you click on it and you're like, I don't know if I can replicate. Right. Like, he's just being him.

Yeah. And I'm like, damn, I don't think I'm that entertaining. He's being, yeah. Like, I don't think I can sit there and talk about my dick that much. And it's be entertaining. Yeah, I can't do it. Like Scump, I feel like, scumps always like,

every time you click Skump stream, it's positive vibes, smiling, laughing, but also amazing gameplay. Right. And like, he's always in a good mood. He's never,

like, it's like that kind of. It's like a, it's just like a nice environment to throw yourself into. If you want to be in a good mood, have a happy day, you throw it a scump stream,

you'll be all right. Nate shot, you throw one. I don't know what vibes people are searching for when they click a nature. Dude, me neither. His vibes.

Because his vibes are so like, I mean, it's just entertainment. It's not even like a type of vibe he has. It's just like pure entertainment, man. That guy is the greatest. And maybe I don't watch enough streamers, but I saw, I think it was like, was he fifth?

Fifth, most subs. Fifth most subs on Twitch. No, when, when, like, King Yap. Natal, damn near almost convinced everybody else that like, what happened to him?

him early on in his career was a fluke. Like he, he doesn't, he never talks about it confidently. He's never like, you know, like, I ran shit back in the day. He was like, I got lucky. I got lucky and started at the perfect time. You know, just everything kind of happened and, you know, but like he is proven over the past three months when he had started streaming full time again that like he's one of the best to do this.

So like. It's crazy how it like hasn't gone away. It's, it's completely. different content than what he used to make. I mean, he used to make gameplay live commentary call a duty videos and now he's streaming full-time 24-7 always on and it's

and people are still, he's not keeping fans, he's gaining fans. So there's something to be said about that. I wish he would talk different bro. I wish he would talk more more confidently about his his career. Imagine doing the race to prestige, but it's only you.

Like, it's just, I'm just, I don't want to talk. I'm not, I'm not in a good mood. I didn't sleep well. And it's like, sure, let me wake up. We'll get into it. Then you get into streamer mode. But then eight hours later, it's like, all right, I'm kind of tired. And then the streamer mode goes away and you turn it, kind of turn it off, turn off the stream.

And then you go to sleep. but it's like he just it's always on and there's just there's a select few i always wonder and i saw like hasan was at the top and i'm like sounds too i think and i've never watched this stream so i don't know what they do but but it's also the most political time of the year yeah so it makes sense but like he's always been a top stream i don't know what he did like i don't know if he has this like it factor but there's certain there's a select few that like just have the energy in like like Kai what Kai does

how the fuck is he not just breaking down mentally bro I would be so socially exhausted I got to socially exhausted at Pete's piano bar for three hours I was so ready to go home but I just like stay there because it was like my girlfriend her friends bro when I check when I check like I mean the subs help subs help a lot that definitely refreshes some dopamine

when I when I check like uh you know like House of Highlights or academics or whatever. Like those like people, the Instagram accounts that just tweet like whatever's trending. They'll or post whatever's trending. They'll post like clips from Kai's stream, whether it's like little Dickie said something newsworthy or Cizza said something newsworthy. And they're all on Sky stream. And then people in the comments would be like, what does this guy even do? And I'm like, what?

He's working harder than every other streamer. Tenfold. I got to give up on that whole thing of like, okay, well, here is what he does. I just don't even. I'm not going to tell you. I don't know. You just don't get it. You don't get it.

You're like, I don't know, man. Like, what am I going to? If it was like, if it was someone that didn't like always have something happening, like if it was like, like, Aidan Ross or Hassan or somebody like that where people probably genuinely don't know why they're so big. But like, every time. you see a clip of Kai, it's, he's with, he is doing something that is propelling all of streaming forward. So like, how do you not? With Kai, you don't say that. Yeah, you could say it about other people and I would at least be able to kind of comprehend what you're talking about. But this guy is insane.

Oh, Kai is next level. It's, it's just his energy that he, dude, always has. In the, in the Mafia thing like think about think about I don't even know I don't watch it but I don't even like what what even is what is what is mafia mean like what is it might just be his like stream that's his thing his BTH or something

can you can you go to Twitch see if Kai Cynette's live right now and see what he's doing he might be straight he might be sleeping he's had like little dicky little dicky Snoop Dog Denzel Curry yeah this part even him sleeping, bro. I don't think

he sleeps with a mask or earplugs or anything, but he has fucking Spider-Man, the NPC Spider-Man up here just talking the entire time. My sleep, I would lose my mind. I couldn't even do it. At RTP,

just the fact of hearing people like, yeah, thank you for the five gift. You would never be able to do this. It's like 11 a.m. and I'm hearing like Seth, like, clap a little bit or like just talking to chat. I'm like, I can't. I'm laying up there like, I fucking can. can't sleep like this. Is he out of character?

Is he out of character right now? Can you turn it out? He's like, he's been doing this like thug mode shit. Where he's just like always send the end where he's like, I don't give a fuck. Like just always send it saying the end we're like trying to kind of like talking shit to people. Is Kai miced up while he's sleeping? Probably. That was him coughing.

Could you imagine me? Miked up? You should. It would actually probably like bang. Okay, so he's not even He's not even in character anymore Yeah, I don't know why He like kind of gave up on that

But but I'll sit here and watch I think I've watched more of this than the actual stream I've watched more of this guy than the stream But I always usually tune in around this time Yeah And he's funny as fuck too He is hilarious I've seen clips of him being like

Like he's he's like doing it's like Thanks for the resub Like in the Miles Morales voice And then he'll be like Yo can y'all start fucking stuff And I won't work for this motherfucker like Like, I'm like, damn What he said, stop something?

No, he said, can you start subbing? I'm trying to make money off of this. I don't work for this dude. Yeah, I wonder, I wonder what his cut gets or what he's probably, he's probably getting some. He's probably getting paid. This is a crazy thing to be hired for. There was also this drummer dude. I don't know if he's still there.

Yeah, it was like gift 100 subs, drum solo. He'll start drumming. Dude, if I was. Look, how close the drum set is to his bed. If I'm. I don't know if he's wearing like earplugs or anything. I don't think so. You heard about,

wait, I don't know how we're sleeping, bro. Do we talk about the Emily CC girl? Did we talk about her? And something. We've talked about her in other stuff for sure. That shit was fucking crazy too. But yeah,

if you guys don't know, this girl, Emily CC streams live 24-7, I guess, for like what, past how many years? Say like two, three. Three years. Yeah, yeah.

She got interviewed or whatever by Kyson. I guess Kisenet's team found out she's like basically permanently live. No, no. He was on. He was on stream with Benny Blanco. And he was like, how long are you going to be doing this? And he was like until like until the timer runs out. He was like, what?

That's insane. So you could be doing this forever. And then he said something like yeah. And then he said, well, who's the longest? Who's been streaming the longest? And then his old chat told him it was this girl. Yeah. And so then they found her on the.

on the stream. And then since then, her stream has popped the fuck off. Yeah, she hit like 15K subs, I think. Yeah. 14K subs. I mean, that's so sick,

though. Good for her. Because I wonder how many subs she was at. Kaysana gets Qudy Cinderella in a call with Emily C.C. and invites her to stream to the streamer awards for the first time. Emily has been live for the last three years.

That's fucking dope. That is sick. Good for her. Also shout out Qie Cinderella. A lot of people, a lot of people throw dirt on that fucking award show, but to create an award show

and for it to get as much notoriety as it has gotten is fucking difficult. As someone who likes to host events, I can't imagine the pressure of a fucking award show. Yeah, I don't think I could ever do something like that. Too much going on, too many avenues, too much pressure, sponsors.

And then these high tier creators, you need to make comfortable. No one is... Security. It's a... Imagine you're doing a category with four... Best Halo player. You get six nominees.

Five people and five people's fan bases all are pissed. Yeah. It's not about who wins it. It's about everyone that loses. It's her fault. She rigs them. It's insane. And how does this chick win this?

Yeah, fuck that. No way. No way do I want to do that. The Kendrick album. What did you think? Um, it's not enough. I mean, let's just say what it is. Oh, God.

The, I'll, no, I'll tell it. First off, let's not even talk about any, just the Kendrick album. Let's just talk about the Kendrick album. Nothing else is relevant to it. Yeah. You dropped an album. Yeah. I put it on.

I think I was like scrolling and I saw your tweets. I was, I was driving. So I think I just got a haircut. But I saw your tweets. And I was like, what the fuck is? this and then I see another tweet about Kendrick chopping. I'm like, oh, it's hitched tweeting about new Kendrick or something. I thought maybe like

a song. So I go to Kendrick and Spotify and I see a whole album. I'm like, oh, fuck. I'm like, here we go. And I'm like, all right. So I play the first song and let me remind myself what song this was. The first song is fucking incredible. I played

Wacked out morals. Yeah. That song. Wacked out murals. Murals or morals? Murals. Wacked out murals. But this. came on. I started, I think I was driving my girlfriend's car. I started blasting her.

Dude, the beat. I put the windows down a little bit. The beat is terrifying. When the beat comes in, I can cut some of this. Yesterday somebody whacked out in my mural. That energy of make you niggas move to Europe. But it's regular for me.

That shit is hard. He started coming in. I was like, like, I was sitting in my car like this. And then I put the windows down. I cranked it even louder And then he like starts going in He's just he's talking shit that I want to hear him Talks shit

He's just talking his fucking shit And after After this song The song was ending Was about to end I typed up a tweet Kendrick I think I tweeted like

I forgot how fucking hard Kendrick is But I didn't tweet it yet I was like I'm only on song one I was like let me just wait I played song too And it was like The catchy song or the popular one I was like I've already heard this

I'm gonna just skip it Then I played like Luther with Siza I'm like whatever man At the Garden I'm like whatever I played a few more songs and I'm just like I was like I was like damn I thought

I thought it was gonna like get me Like I thought the album I thought after song one I was like, I was like, I was so ready for this album. I was like, yes, I was like, I forgot. Like, as much as I am, I was a Kendrickator just that certain moment of time. Bro, the amount of times I listened to damn,

the amount of times a Kendrick song would come on. Good Kid Mad City. And like, I'll be like, holy shit, I forgot about this. There's this, I think he has a song called like Mama from like, uh, what is it, black? What the fuck's his album? Pimp's, the Pimp of Butterfell? fly.

Black. Black pimple butter. But like there's a song on there I think called like Mama and it's just I'm like this is the fucking really shit. And I was playing that on stream just the other day. So when this album came out, I was, I promise I was not looking at it. Like I'm not trying to shit on it. And trust me, I'll say it after this.

But I was not trying to shit on it. But I had that tweeted out that I forgot how fucking good Kendrick, how hard Kendrick goes. But then like five, six, seven songs in, I was just like, damn, maybe not. I was like, I'm not really, I don't know, it just, it lost me. It just, like a song would play and I wouldn't care to play it back. And I'm not trying to shit on the album, like just listening to it. You might have to run it. Yeah, I wouldn't have running it back because I have only listened to it once.

Because reincarnated is incredible. Heart Part 6 is incredible The Heart Part 6 Might be one of my favorite The hearts He's ever put out I'm gonna for sure have to listen again Because I don't want to unfairly

But there was a few songs where I was like I fuck with this TV off TV off is better than Squabble Up And Squabble Up is the one that everybody wanted Reincarnated I was doggazing TV off is that the mustache Yeah it's that one

But Everybody got a good and it is it's a good different style of music because people be putting out sort of like the same shit yeah yeah yeah yeah he he's definitely going full west coast it seems like he's going full west coast on the album which i which i like and i appreciate yeah i like i'm not west i'm not a west coast guy i'm actually an east coast guy so i don't care

yeah that much but no i i like the sound i i thought it was a good album, but I just, I'd listen to it. And then, um, you think you're, you're, you think you're, you think you're tainted by the, by the beef. Not in the sense, not in the sense of how you view his music, but how you view music at all. Well, I even say this, to prove a point, I even would, I was saying, I've been saying this about Drake. I haven't liked the Drake album in, I didn't even like Scorpion. but like before that I haven't even liked the Drake album since like 2017

and I don't maybe it's just me it's not just you maybe it's just me getting older or something the 21 Savage album was good her loss album was probably the most I've listened to a Drake album even like her loss I was like I just don't like I'm like yeah it's a pretty good album but like I just don't I don't care it doesn't have it doesn't really have me by the

like I kind of just I don't know I think it I think it's just me with music. I don't. The artist that I grew up with their new shit, I'm just like, yeah, but this ain't that old shit. You're unk now. Even Drake shit. Like I haven't really fucked with a Drake album since like 2017, 2018. It's like dark lane demo tapes maybe, care package maybe. But those are all old things, right? Well, that's 2019, 2020.

But it is older songs that he put out. So like that would make sense. is honestly never mind the like yacht party one I actually really like this one but it's like all of them or you like a couple of them like a couple of the songs I'll play the album and just like it can go through really but it's a different style

of music it's not it's like a this is the type of music that you hit play and can just let it her loss didn't really give a fuck I liked her loss for all the dogs didn't really give a fuck um for all the dogs had a few songs like I listened to it and then I just don't play

it again. Yeah. For all the dog's scary hours. That's kind of... I don't know. Is that just how music is? Maybe that's just where... So I don't even want my...

Like, you think, oh, you're only saying that because you're a Drake fan. You're only saying that about Kendrick's album because you're a Drake fan. No, I've been saying that about... Before the beef even happened, I've been saying that about Drake's albums. Like, when he releases something,

it's like, I'm just not even excited. When was the last time you loved an album? It might just be that's just gone for you. Because I think people put less care into their albums nowadays. Because... I think it's a different style of...

I don't know. We got to wait on Jay Cole, I think, to see if I can... Bro, say what you want. Love an album. When it comes to the big three, Jay Cole is still the most talented rapper. Same, bro.

He's still the most talented. I am more excited. And actually, Kintrich actually talks about it in his first one. He said, fuck the double on time. or the um uh something he says fuck the

he basically says fuck the double entendres and the technical part of rap i just want you guys to feel the shit yeah and like and which i felt i felt that i felt that and literally he says that on the first album or the first song and so then i kind of like just stopped thinking because i have a very bad tendency to listen to hip hop and if if somebody hits a multi-syllable and they don't hit it the next time I check out. I completely check out of the whole. And Kendrick does that a lot.

Kendrick does not have very, besides his black hippie stuff, he doesn't have very, like, intricate rhyme patterns. His flow isn't always like in the pockets with the syllables, rhyme. Exactly.

Like, he's more of like delivering a message. Yeah, he's more of like a... Saying what he wants to say. Which is why people love him so much. And I very much enjoy his songs as well. but I am I lean more heavily into that like technical like when you hit that pocket I don't want to go too far like with fucking ASAP rock or Eminem's you want to Jay Cole and I want to do jay Cole is the perfect pocket yeah it's just dude his like I went back and I listened up because I listened this whole album and I was like I was like man like this whole album is it's good and it's really good but but but what?

Why don't I like love it? And then I went back and listened to Port Antonio, I think is what it's called, the J. Cole song. And I was like, it's because I love this shit. Like, this is the type of rap that I like really love. And if you say that and you're like, I don't really enjoy this style of rap, people will call you like a hater. Like you don't understand hip hop or like, I'm just like, I just don't. Like in Squabble up when he goes, Rang van get the fuck off my face. I just want to do one got to say.

I was like, why? man why there's a lot of why i mean i'm gonna just say this there was times Michelle was in the car with me and we were finishing up the album and she would look at me and be like because he'd be like why you got me right like i don't even know the voices he fucking does but he does so many different voices yeah so many and so it's just it's uh i think there's just a certain time and place to listen to it i i'm well i well understand how amazing of an artist he is because I mean I'm sure he

He made this fucking album He probably wrote damn near every word on the album I'm sure But then like I was sitting There was like a few songs in a row where the chorus Would simply just be repeating something Squabble up Squabble up

Like there was a few songs like that And then I thought for a second I was like this dude does not make a chorus Like he there is nothing I'm gonna be repeating on these Yeah But that being said people are going to be Like, do you like No face by Drake?

No face. No face. I don't like the no face. I don't like the song. The rapping in it. I don't really like super repetitive. Like if you say some, if you repeat some shit, yeah, that's fine. But like, I don't know, eight bars of you saying four different words.

It's like, damn. Yeah, I mean, the art part of him like doing different voices and stuff. I understand the artistic and switching it up. And I think for a little bit he was trying to be like Pock. that reincarnated I'm almost positive that's what he means by reincarinated He's the reincarineate

Which I feel like it's I think that's kind of weird But I'm not I mean again I mean it's West Coast West Coast I get it But yeah

Just as an album in general I played it I wasn't mad at it The beginning got me fucking hyped up And I was super Super excited to like feel something Because that first song I felt something

Like it gave me like chills. I'm putting my window down. I'm blasting. I'm like, this is the Kendrick that I fuck with. But then as the songs went on, I just kind of, um,

and I'm not saying it's bad. I'm not saying it's just I, the songs played through and I didn't really have a, an itch to like run the album back. Like I played it all through once. I will definitely be, I'm just where I'm at. I definitely,

when I leave here, I'm gonna, I'm gonna listen to it again. The heart part six is probably my favorite Kendrick song. because dog in a long time it's kentric lamar you got to listen to it a few times and then you'll start be like oh my he said dude in the heart part six he's he like talks about it's basically about his come up and about how like pg lane starred or like uh uh the fuck was he t d e dd is that what it is fuck how did i forget uh top dog and yeah t d e like his transition to first like coming into t t

and then starting PG-Lang and like all the people that he like started with and like to come up and stuff and it's it's fucking incredible and like how he got to where he is now it's literally it's it's a very storytelling but it's also like the bars are really good that the beat is incredible and uh that's like one of my favorite kendrick songs in a long long time because it's no it's not a lot of the yeah i don't even know how to like do impersonation of him but that's that's that's a this stuff I'm not really the biggest fan of. Let me find the song that I really like. There's elements, I mean, not to bring it back to Drake, but there's elements of Drake when he gets into his super Canadian ting. Go-out of the 8-pageing, chich-ch-ch-ch-ckels. I'm just like, R's in vs and O's. I don't really play no tic-tac-a-tow.

Went through high and lows. We see men last night, they froze with his own cameras, was no post. Just like, man, that time of chada. Yeah, like when he does that? The thing, man, won't put on a font. Yeah, like when he... I like that.

But I can easily see why people are like Yeah Like really, Drake That's the thing about Jay Cole He never, he pretty much He's just Jay Cole He's just Jay Cole But like this song

Let me I love this country Mama Like I thought I didn't know shit The day I came on And then I realized I didn't know shit

the day I came home. Like that type of, I love this type of getting tricked. You see that fucking Andrew Schultz caught astray? It wasn't about Andrew Schultz, I don't think. Wasn't it? Or maybe it was. Never let a white comedian talk about black women.

I think something like that. I thought that was about the Gary. There's like a Gary something. That Gary Owens or something? I thought it was about him. Oh, was it? But he has like a black wife. And he makes, he's a white comedian.

and has a black wife and makes sort of like black jokes about that type of stuff. I don't know. Or maybe it wasn't him. Or maybe it was an Andrew Schultz shot. I don't know because Andrew Schultz does like to talk about whatever the fuck he wants to talk about. Oh, this guy. Oh, this guy. What's that fucker's name?

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I've seen this guy. He does talk about, he talks about black people a lot. Yeah. But I- Gary Owen. Yeah. Do you know a black comedian talk or white comedian talking about black?

He said it. If that's the law, that makes me a criminal. That's really funny. I wonder if Andrew Schultz has said anything about it. Wait, Andrew Schultz. I've seen the academics clip. I don't really care about academics though. Yeah, I don't either.

He's like, dude. You can tell he's just so obsessed with like feeling like he's important. Dude, he's obsessed with himself. Yeah. It's fucking obnoxious. He is obsessed with him. I watch that clip. He needs to feel important.

That is his fucking main goal. He will. He's like, he's a lot like. He's like, he's a lot like, he's like, he's like, he's like, he's like, he's like, he's like, he, because, dude, in that clip of him talking about Andrew Schultz, he was like, and I actually, I actually hit up Andrew Schultz. I did. I hate him up.

And I was like, dude. Cool, man. Cool. You DMed Andrew Schultz. That's fucking awesome. Give him the Reporter of the Year award They pitch of academic sater I am

I tweet I tweeted out at him one time And I said you're a fucking weirdo Really? I never do anything like that anymore I feel like a lame when I do that That was like seven years ago I didn't know who he was I tweeted

I think it was I saw a tweet from like 2011 or something And I tweeted at Drake It was this It was about 9 a.m. Dallas. What was it? There was something he was doing in this song.

Oh, he started going like, ah. Like, Drake in the song would say a bar and go, ah. And I tweeted out of him. I was like, yo, that ah shit is not it. And I tweeted something like that. And then hopefully that was my definitely wasn't, but hopefully that was my last fucking tweet towards just spewing random fucking hate. Just talking shit.

You think he saw it? Imagine he saw it. And he didn't he never did it again You fixed it I did But now I go back I listen to 9 a.m. And I'm like ah

Yeah I can't even remember which part Oh oh oh oh I know what part you're talking about Like pause and he's Yeah But now I go back and I listen to it I'm like why the fuck was I trying Like who the fuck did I Yeah let me give tips to Drake

About how he should do his music Like what the fuck Oh my God I'm excited for Mac Miller Post How do you say that? Post Humus?

Post Humus? Post Humus? Is Post Humus for like post Humus? Like dead but they're dropping an album? Yeah. Balloonerism.

I'm actually very excited for that. I... That'll be an... Ooh, I can't wait for that album. Dude, is that his first album? Since dead? Since he died? I feel like it has to be.

I mean, they've made a few. I think they might have made like a few like two, three song EPs or something. Swimming of 2018. Damn, dude. It pisses me off so much that like he died from an overdose, but it was like a, it's not like a one night he's pissed off going manic and just takes a bunch of pills and dies. It's like he just took a usual amount for him, but there's just fentanyl in it. It's just laced, dude.

Like that, I genuinely look at that. Like that could have. easily happened to me. I was buying Adi off the streets like Alexis and I were talking about. Alexis and I were talking about that when I went to Arizona. I was like, you know, something.

I think we were talking about, no, we were talking about a little peep. And she said, how did how did he die? And I was like, you know, he overdosed her. His, his Xanax was lace with fentanyl. And she was like, God, that's just horrible. And I was like, I was like, like, actually I think about it a lot.

Like, I can't believe. Nick survived 2020. Like, when you put it in that perspective, yes. Because I wasn't. You were buying shit off of the street. Oh, yeah. Adderall off the street, which was meth.

I didn't even know these guys. Just like Snapchat. You definitely bought Adderall off the street, which was meth. And you bought Xanax off the street, which was fentanyl. Almost. Maybe. Almost guaranteed. I mean, but my body's so fucked up.

Fentanyl probably nothing. That's not true. My shit just ate that fent of. That shit's just like death in a fucking... I want to know if you mess it... What does it feel like? You've had it. You've had it for sure.

I might have had fentanyl. Yeah, because they do it to save money, right? That's the whole point. It's because it's... It gives you a lot less. Yeah, a lot less with the same sort of high. But if you use a little too much, your dad. A little too much.

But thank God, man. I mean, there might... I mean, I thought about it while doing it too. The estimated lethal dose of fentanyl is 2 MGs. Two milligrams. Yeah, you could probably... What? I wonder how many, say, bars of Xanax, 2MGs of fentanyl would be in, though.

And I wonder how what that feels like. Because when you take a Xanax, there's a certain feeling. When you take Adderall, there's a certain feeling. I wonder if taking... I just wonder what the feeling of fentanyl is, just itself. Like is it like an upper Is it a downer? I'm sure I think it's a downer

I'm almost positive as a downer Because I think that's what they lace Zanax bars with It could have been It definitely could have been Luckily I'd never I was only really taking I mean I was taking it way more than I should have

I was taking X X every day But I was only taking it To like Medicaid I wasn't I didn't like Like I was taking Adderall I'm trying to be wired I'm trying to be awake I'm trying to listen to music play Halo

I want the cracked feeling of just my brain and I haven't felt that in so long by the way just throwing that in there but what was my fucking point talking about ADHD medicine but Xanax yeah right but Xanax I was only taking

because I would do all the Adi and stuff and get wired and that was for sure mixed with like lace with meth and whatever ever else. God, I felt fucking insane on that stuff. So then when I'm crashing

or even if I take too much my heart rate's too high like I'll take Xanax or if I'm crashing at night I'll take Xanax if I want to try to get to sleep take Xanax but it was never like

I was never sitting there taking Xanax to like feel the high of a Xanax and just like not off eat food and you know do fucking nothing. was never taking Xanax to just like,

I was taking it, um, self medicately, medically, self medicating myself. To get off of the crash. Yeah, but I was never taken a lot to,

I would just, I would take a certain amount that I felt that could help me with. I think that's the problem with buying off the street. From what I've heard, I'm just a, I don't know, but is, you got to be careful with buying off the street because people like,

make the drugs and they try to save money. Yeah, use some Xanax and then a little bit of fentanyl to save money so they can stretch it farther. They probably don't even try to like they know fentanyl can will do fucking damage. So I'm sure they're not trying to like yo Johnny bought a pack from Tim and now Johnny's dead. Like they don't want that on their street name. Right. Of course.

So it's like but something's fucking up to where like I don't know if it's like measurements wrong or what. Yeah, just I don't think. They're out there trying to kill people with fentanyl. I don't know how the shit works. I don't know how the shit's so strong. But yeah, it's not something. Getting drugs off the street is not the fucking wave. For the most part, actually, it's not true.

I was going to say for the most part, mine would be prescription, but that was not, that's just not true. All of my shit by 2020 was just all off the street and just draining my bank account. There were times I felt so dehydrate. I remember just looking at, I don't have a thing. single selfie from 2020. Like I looked at my phone. I don't have a single picture of myself.

Because like I just couldn't. Like I would see myself in the mirror and I'm like, like especially like my shirt off, long hair, no care cut. I'm like this is bad. Like I made sure not to have a picture of myself. And I'm mad. I wish I did now. Just to compare it.

Hanks took a picture of you before you went in. He probably size it. Right before you went in. Yeah, it was just my love. long ass disgusting hair. Yeah, but your fucking your neck and your jaw. I was like,

what the fuck? Yeah, and I was probably like 170 heading in there. It came out 200. I wish I had saved our fucking lack of text thread. Because my text, I went back one year and looked, but my text delete after

two years or a year, something like that. I delete after 30 days. Really? I think I need to change that because I think, I think, I was running out of space, so I just did that. And I tried to go back, try to go back. And the only thing I had, the only thing I had was like right before you went in. We were texting.

But like, dude, it was months of you ignoring me. I went from like, I went from like, what's up to like, hey, I'm worried about you. I'm like, yo, hit me back. Yo, I'm mad. And then I would just be like sending you selfies. Or like, I remember I sent you like a video of my feet? Then I was out of my response would be like, like, Like, yo, my bad, man.

It's not very good place. But, like, I'm doing, I appreciate you reaching out. Then I disappear again for like two months. Yeah, for like six months. Yeah, that was not, uh, not I deal. The first. Also, I think I had fucking molded in my apartment. All that I think about that place was fucking disgusting.

Dude, the, the first flycast back. Because, like, I don't think people know this. I don't even know if you know this. But, like, before you went in, I got. gotten to the point where I was like mad at you. Did I ever tell you that? Before you, right? I, I, maybe assume.

Right before you went in, I was like, I was like furious. Like I would, you came in that day. You came in that day for the, um, I forgot what it was. Oh, the trivia. Trivia. And then you left and I went over to Matt and Rogers, uh, thing. And I was like, dude, I feel like I could throw up right now. I, I couldn't, I couldn't eat.

Did they think I was being weird? I was about to have a panic attack? Yeah. Everyone knew. Did you, do you remember that day, Matt? Okay. So I don't know if you, but I remember going, maybe it was Hosefo and Raj, but I just, I remember going up and being like, like, I think, like, I think I might be mid panic attack right now. Yeah.

Well, I mean, it was, it's so weird just during, I remember, I remember coming in. I had my, like, anti-anxiety med. and it was sort of at the and I've explained this story before but like once it gets to the bottom the pills sort of fall apart so I just stuck my finger in

like I just like scraped it all up and put it in and then when I got here I was like I remember walking you probably on an empty stomach yeah empty stomach for sure and then I got here and I told Hacks I was like

y'all got like alcohol or something like I don't know I'm just I'm uneasy I'm nervous like I just do not feel comfortable being here or just not me Even just being here, just living, existing. Yeah. I just do not feel comfortable.

He was like, yeah, man. And, like, obviously he doesn't know I'm sitting there, like, taking pills before I come here. Yeah. And he was like, yeah, man, just get a drink. Like, takes me back, it's a drink. I don't know, sipping it or something. Then we start, I guess the trivia was the first video. I think we did something else, too.

But, like, in the moment, I did not. Oh, it was the, it was the, you did a react. I just blacked. You didn't react with Bose and you didn't remember you were in it. Uh-uh. I texted Bose or something the next day and I was like, yo, what am I going to, where were you at yesterday or something? He was like, we did a video together. And I was just like, what the fuck?

Because I didn't even realize I blacked out until like, I mean, I wasn't drunk or anything. It was just like the combination of shit. And I even like drove home. You drove home, dude. Oh, my God. But like, I mean, I'm sure it was. Like in I don't remember anything being a problem while I was here. Yeah.

Like we did the trivia. I was like, whatever. I remember doing the, what was it? It was like a, we rated clips or something. Yeah, yeah. Clip submission. We rated them. And I remember being like kind of funny on that video and like, obviously when you watch it now,

I'm like, I was fucking out of it. And, but like nothing seemed weird while I was here. Right. Yeah, yeah. And then it's just like, boom, go home. I think I went to sleep woke up maybe took an addy played and then I think you texted me or something

and maybe you're like yo you're all right bro and I was just like I think I was just like yeah what are you talking about you said you said yeah I'm good I just I accidentally took too much you told me what you just told me I think I took like there was just like crumbs at the bottom of my pill thing and I probably ended up

taken too much yeah but then the footage came out and what's surprising it did but then the footage came out and I don't know if I ended up watching it then or if I just like didn't give a fuck and just like kept living my life but there was a time came where I watched the footage

and I was like oh my God I was like that's how I was you're literally a zombie like I thought I was like fine during I thought I was just like chill It was crazy Kind of funny And like But like going back

And watch it I'm like Oh my God I'm actually kind of glad It's uploaded Because it's like It's still up there And now all the comments

Are just like I'm here from maniac's process Yeah It's fucking Can you pull it up We don't have to watch I don't want to see it I know

Let's not watch it Let's just look at that I just don't Let's look at the comments I just want to see the comments Any Any stuff like this Even just like it doesn't

have to be druggy shit. I don't like seeing an old shit of myself. It just makes me cringe. It was a famous people. It was either famous people or famous athletes trivia. Might have been famous athletes.

Optic maniac drug trivia. There is. Yeah. Famous athletes. Jeez. Okay, we can just look at the comments now, though. God, dude.

What the fuck? You're a zombie, bro. Yeah. I guess we talked about it on on Flycast 31 we talked about it let's fucking go now we're on 130 or something I think we are on on what are

what episode are we on Matt 127 let's fucking go we're almost a hundred deep from your return fly Nick is fighting for his life in this video that bar is beating his ass yeah that was dirt that was Who watching this after finding out Nick was high as a kite?

That bar is beating his ass. See, that's just someone that knew what was happening. That was three years. That was during, oh, maybe it wasn't. Maybe it wasn't. I mean, people. People. Yeah, Nyak is either blaze out of his mind or something is going on.

My dude looked like he was in space. Fucking insane, dude. It is insane. This was one of the bad moments. And then this was, This was six months before you went in. That's the crazy part. You got worse after this.

You went on another bender after this. Yeah, no. Well, this was probably, I think I came in this time and maybe like once after. Yeah. And then, yeah, the worst has had yet to come. Yeah. With this. This was the spark.

Fucking insane, dude. It's insane. I know we talk about it a lot, but it's a big part of you. I know it's a big part of your life. Yeah. Big part of all of our lives really. Yeah, doing better now, though. Oh, yeah.

I need a back into the gym today. Streams, of course. And reading my Bible app. Hell yeah. We're back on to better and more positive things, chat. Look at where you were. You don't want to be there anymore. You got to make the lifestyle changes.

You got to take the action to change your life. it's a long road sometimes a long lonely road I feel like I'm trying to come up with some godlike speech You're fine you're fine I'm here for it I'm here for it

I say that because I got nothing I went from early flight I asked me being like there is a god And you're like I don't know if there is a god And now look at us Now look at us There's probably you can find clips out there Nah but yeah man

Just comes down to take an action It comes down to learning to sit with your suffering instead of trying to numb it all the time. It comes down to having faith in the universe that the universe works for you. And if you're religious, let it be God. But taking baby steps, man. I've quit nicotine.

I've quit caffeine. I'm almost completely sober. I think alcohol will sort of always kind of be, if I'm together with the boys or something. So I'm still fake soap, but you see where we were at, man. And we're not on any of that bullshit no more. so we're at a better place and appreciate you guys. Great.

I appreciate you. Not fucking grilling the fuck out of me for that either. For what? Like, just like how I was on that video or like, a lot of people would just like. You just never know. Surprise I didn't get attacked,

but people were just like, yo man, like hope you're, hope you're gonna do better. Yeah. And I'm like, yeah, me, me fucking too. But yeah,

like the community just didn't eat me up. Yeah. They kind of, they were like, y'all supported me for sure it's appreciated much love respect kendrick album as always kendrick album was pretty good next jdrick album solid but just any rap any rap album lately i just i don't really care to be honest it i don't care if it's drake j cole i am excited for but then it'll drop and i'm not trying to be negative but it'll drop i'll start listening i'm

like no hopefully not though i have faith j cole j cole has me excited jaco is the only rapper right now that has me excited like i don't give a fuck if drake drops another four song ep i don't give a shit kendrick decent listen off i'm gonna listen on my drive back kendrick album excited for excited for j cole though texas high school stadium's too big ecu is seven and four uh thanksgiving was yesterday it was a lot of fun bunch of hackers and ranked play um what else do we talk about today what are you going to do on stream kisonat's still crushing it and that's pretty much it. Thank you so much for watching the Flycast episode

127. Rank play tonight. Yay. Yay. Man played outro music.