The Flycast - FORMAL REVEALS WHAT COULD SAVE HALO INFINITE | The Flycast Ep. 49

Episode Date: September 13, 2022

The Flycast Ep. 49 FORMAL REVEALS WHAT COULD SAVE HALO INFINITE | The Flycast Ep. 49

That's like the last chip they can play where people are going to be very interested in it for like a week. Literally it's all in. If they fuck it up, yeah, if they fuck it up and like the game's dead. All right, welcome back to another fly cast. We have a special guest today. Hey. We got formal here. Hitches.

I don't know what Hitch is doing. I think he's in Cali. Matt got bamboozled to be here. Yeah, I got ambushed to be on this. Yeah, they pretty much forced him to be on this. And on our way over here, literally a minute of. away. He was like, or we were talking about, we were like, how's this flycast going to go? I'm not going to lie. I went to a Jack Harlow concert last night. I'm fucking hung over. This might not

go too well. But we were just talking about like, what are we going to talk about? Whatever. He was like, well, Hitch will carry. I was like, it's just us. Like, we were both talking about, like, I don't, like, what the fuck is there to talk about? It's like, I don't want to talk. It was like, I don't want to talk. It was like, Hitch will carry, though. And then on the way over here, I had to break the news that Hitch is not going to be joining us today. I think he's home, visiting family. I don't know. I think he's in Cali.

Oh, is he in Cali? I think so. Could be making that out. Oh, yeah. We don't know where Hitch is. Why don't I look at my TikTok favorite or favorite of TikToks? And then we talk about the topics that I saved. We should, you know what would, what would be good would be both of us to go through our

TikToks that we like? I mean, I don't. know if we could do it here can't do it here but like go through our TikTok like I would love to see which TikToks you like compared to what I like

mine are pretty good what's like the mine are pretty good it has to juice dude is that kid's life about to be ruined no it's made is he gonna be one of those like

what happened to the corn kid and he's like locked up murdered someone I think is I think is I've been I've been seeing him in a lot of shit. Like he thinks he's famous. Well,

I think he is famous. He is famous. He is famous, no. He's probably more recognized. He is more recognizable than me. Oh, here's one. Okay, this is one of my liked ones. It says, bro, you remember being like eight, no phone, no MP3 player, completely unprepared,

just showing up to school with a lunchable, like, fuck it, whatever happens, happens today? And that is a good question. Because, like, that time period of your life, like, it's, it's, Crazy how like simple things were back then, but you were like okay with it. It's insane. As compared to now. How did, I can't even sit there for 10 minutes with like something has to be, I have to be watching something. I have to be looking at TikTok.

I have to be on Instagram. I have to be talking to someone. I have to constantly entertained. Like, do you remember that feeling? Like a feeling I haven't had since I was in school that was. like a godlike feeling was like when you knew you had a three day weekend coming up dude you know the dopamine spike like that type of like feeling just like hasn't been fulfilled since then do you ever hit a blockbuster yeah on like a friday it's like you got you have this game for the weekend yeah

dude i was talking about that uh with with my stream i was like did those little things as a kid slightly ruin us because like those type of you would get a spike of like dopamine and excitement from like the littlest things yeah and now it is so hard to find any sort like that sort of feeling like when you're a kid like especially for our generation like you didn't have to like we didn't have iPads growing up so like for the first like bit of us growing up like we could go outside and you have to go make friends with the neighbors and you have to do all that shit like I never see that anymore if I drive through a neighborhood I never see kids outside playing anymore You never see like a gang of kids with a bike

Never, dude Never like it's crazy They're just like inside with iPads Just like watching TikTok Do you remember how bored you were as a kid? Yeah but like it didn't feel like how bored I am now Dude I'm so fucking bored

I think now it's because we know that we're capable Of doing things and having fun Like if we really want to And just like not being like I mean I'll speak for myself I mean like I'm just like too lazy to go out And do said things and then

I'm mad that I'm bored Yeah But it's almost like doing those said things Isn't even like exciting Or it seems like It almost seems like it's something you should do Rather it's something that you want to do Yeah like just because everyone thinks like

Oh what do you do if you're traveling Or like going out And hanging with friends And going out drinking And it almost seems like it's more of the Like what you That's weird That's considered fun

and like what you should do. It's weird how that works. Like money can't buy happiness. Like I agree with that. But like money makes a lot of things easier. But even when you have money, like, you still want to like go do things. And like even when you do those things,

or you find like little things about it you don't like. And then it's just like, it's just crazy how the brain like. They like adapt so quickly. Yeah. And like you just get so used to shit. And then like you just get bored of things. Even if you didn't, but if you didn't have money,

you'd be like, Damn, and I wish I had some money. Dude, you get used to shit so quick. So quick. I was so, like, first moving out from my parents' house, moving into, like, the optic house, like, it was so excited. Like, it was literally, it was just so exciting. Yeah.

Then literally, like, a few months in, it's just a part of your new routine. Then you have everyone else, like, oh, my God, that's, and it is, I have to say this every time, like, very fortunate and shit to be in my situation, but like you really do just get used to it so quick. Yeah. And it's like you're so lucky to be there. And it's like, I understand that. But moving the Optic House, like, didn't get old.

I wouldn't say get old, but it's just like, I don't want to say boring because it feels like I'm downplaying some of like the best times in my life. But you just like adapt to it so quickly and you no longer get like that feeling of, I don't know, like a dopamine spike. I remember the 60-50 house lived there. Then the scuff house that was like moving into a mansion like that. Even that dude, we're like, I don't know if it's spoiled. I'm sure everyone watching we call it like spoiled, but it's like you kind of just get used to it. And then moving into an apartment by myself for the first time after the scuff house, I was so excited to like live on my own.

But it's just like. After time you probably didn't like it. Yeah. It just every. It's like everything I do. It's just after a few months, it's, I just adapt and then I get bored and... The excitement goes down. Is this a depressing?

Is this a depressing podcast? Holy shit. That's literally... Why am I so fucking bored? People, some people, like people, back when I was a crackhead and taking hundreds of MGs, there were certain kids that were not taking hundreds of MGs but they're still on with me

all the time like to playing Fortnite or H1Z or whatever game and it's like there's still to this day they're still like gaming like they can still sit down at their setup they can still game like do you think you would I just I don't know what it is

I mean I am fucking 30 I am fucking 30 yeah like they're going they love it I'm saying you game hard. Oh yeah Like hard. Insane.

The minimum I got to a rate where it was a minimum like 72 hours. Like it was I guess that could probably ruin it for me. Yeah. For sure. But like I don't know.

It's just like thinking back to when I was like playing like what was the first system you ever played? I think first I don't really remember the game but I think Sega Genesis maybe oh really I think mine was n64 yeah and 64 would be the first one that I feel like I like fell in love with like when we were growing up like the Xbox is the PlayStation's were coming out while we were growing up and then the Xbox lives came out and the PlayStation Plus is whatever the fuck it's called and it's like

those like changed the game like like the moment like you could like stay inside and play with your friends across the country is like insane to think about compared to what you had to do before you had to literally like bring a controller over to your friend's house and like play madden together or something or halo and it's like that time period like it was just so new and like so such a journey we felt like we're all going on together where we're just like exploring I guess it was like the first time and literally human fucking yeah history that these like electronics that can just occupy you for hours and hours and days and months and years. Yeah.

Actually came out. It was literally we went through the first phase. Like the Halo 2 crack. Like Halo 2 was cracked. Dude. Funny shit. The shit. Dude, I did every.

I wish I was older when that game. It might not have been good for me. But I was like, when was that? 2000. I don't know. It was probably like, 2014 or something. Started grinding Halo 2. but that game was like

and of course like my mom you could only play a little bit you can't just fucking pull an absolute bender and grind it but I loved I got so all I wanted

I just wanted to get home from school and play dude so like my brother my brother was the one that had the Xbox and the Xbox live so and he was in a different room and like

he would never let me play it like he was playing it so like dude it was so annoying I had to like dude for like a while I would just like go into his room at like 2 a.m. And he was asleep and I would just like ask him if I could play. And like on the off chance he says yes.

Like I just play in complete silence. Like no mic, nothing. Just playing team snipers like high or anything. Just having so much fun at 2 a.m. Where is this feeling? And then get off at 4 a.m. And be like, God, that was so fun. Like you like can't sleep.

You're like thinking about everything. I'm like, oh my God. I should have fucking. I should be nicer to him. Like where where the fuck is this feeling at? It's just gone. I'm chasing it. Man, where is it?

Is it because we've just grown up, though? I don't know. Is this what... I wonder if... I mean, I still enjoy video games a lot. Like, if I like the game, I can play the fuck out of a game. And especially if it's competitive. Like, it's just like, after a while, you just get so bored if it's not, like, fulfilling your desire.

Yeah. And then you just resent it. And it also sucks for me fucking... Actually being, like, pretty good at something. and then now I go back to that game and I'm just like, I'm so bad. Like, yeah. It's such like a buzzkill

just being fucking garbage and trying to go back and play the game that I used to love. And I mean, it is different now, but it's just not what it used to be. I wonder if our parents have, like, we look back of like Halo 2 or Xbox or whatever.

To be honest, it didn't, when we were growing up with, Xbox or n64 it almost didn't matter what game we were playing we just love playing a fucking video game yeah dude I wonder if in like that it would just like spark or fucking dopamine it didn't matter what we were playing just any amount of time we got on it it was fun we loved it we'd look back at it and it's like wow those those were good times maybe there is something else like that we just don't know because we haven't really like what our parents do they look back at something I think my parents lives were way more boring that mine was like but I wonder if they like found something like I wonder if they have like we think of our childhoods and we think of like video games almost like Xbox whatever yeah like I wonder if they have something what the fuck could it be school they had to have something though like there had to be some drugs maybe drugs I don't know there had to be fucking something maybe just like the satisfaction of working hard and getting a job like that could also just be just

be like, is life better more simple to just like sort of have one girl, settle down, have kids, living the same. Like everyone, I don't know if it's the same for you, but everyone I know,

like still pretty much lives in Maryland and West Virginia. And it's like they, everyone sort of grew up. Like, let me put it this way. Got a girl, kids. So you have a dog. And like,

a lot of people frown upon giving dogs human food because like you're showing them what another world is like, like, that could be compared to us, right? Like, in the Xbox is the human food. Yeah, that's a, so, like, but, like, dogs are, I mean, that's kind of a bad example just because dogs are, like, so pure. I think it's a good example. Really? Okay.

Well, yeah, like, like, when you don't have so much temptation to do all these things, because you haven't experienced much, like, you might just find, like, bliss and just doing nothing, like, or just, like, little things, you know, like fixing up the house or, you know, painting something or whatever. yeah I mean it is nice think about because like what what's gonna be like in a hundred years you know say humans do make it that far and where technology's going like the VR world is gonna be like a whole new experience

and that's gonna be what they're like kind of experiencing as their Xbox you know I saw um what was I gonna say I was I gonna say something about that but I saw a dude playing VR basketball fucking just like there where he makes all the three No, it was like a dunk Like this dude was in like On a VR basketball court There's just like a few people shooting

Dunkin and stuff He's like all right show me something And this one kid's just going crazy Like his little like VR stick figures Just running like windmill like 360 Fucking And it looks fucking It actually looks sick

And I was like what is happening in this fucking world Have you ever seen Lily Ready Player 1? I'm not gonna lie I tried to watch it, but like 20 minutes and I got bored. But I heard that it's like a must watch. I need to like actually try. Yeah, no, you should. Because it's, I mean, it's like right up your alley.

And like, it's just like shows you what like VR could be. And it's a pretty fucking cool like world. And like if it gets to that point, then the whole game has changed. And like you'd rather, then you get to the point where like you'd rather just be inside playing that. Is this not this why are we not treating this like virtual reality like is this not the craziest virtual reality ever? No, because it's not much you can do. I feel like you can do anything though. No definitely can't.

I mean you'll get in trouble, but you can kind of do whatever you want. Like if you look at like GTA role play for example like just like flying planes. And if they do something bad they get put over by a cop who's also having fun being a cop. I can't just be a cop right now if I wanted to be You can't just like pull up to the airport And fly a plane Yeah like it's just There's a lot of shit out there that

We've seen now that Can provide like happiness like that But I actually have no fucking idea where I'm going with this Um I don't know I guess I guess that feeling that we're like chasing Is just like

It's just like it seems so gone but like I'm I kind of want to like explore things in the world like in the next 10 years, you know? Yeah. And see if I really like something else. Like, is there a part of you? Because your last fucking 10, 15 years is like pretty much been video games.

What's like a part of you that, like, what do you want to do outside of that? What is? Dude, I've been in this so long that I don't know what I would want to do. Like, I don't want to go back to school. Fuck no. So like, at this point, it's kind of like, this is it. like the video game thing is what I chose to do and I'm kind of just like in it

and I could stay in it forever you know like um obviously there's a streaming thing there's the travel yeah like traveling's cool don't get me wrong like traveling puts puts your I feel like traveling's cool with the right

with a like cool group of people yeah when you do it enough times you get a real perspective on what's going on in the world like I'm from Orange County like growing up I figured that's how everywhere was and then I got a harsh reality when I went to you know like Providence Rhode Island or you know wherever and like you see all these other cities and you and it gives you like a real

perspective on how things are and then you start growing from that and then like because I'm not going to events with my parents like these are just thinking I'm experiencing on my own like with my team I guess but I'm on my own and I go home with like a changed person and then like you do that enough times and like I don't know you feel like you have a good grasp on how the world actually is It's kind of crazy Like how it's like Travel to other countries Have I?

Do you even care about traveling? I mean like I do Um It would just depend Would you ever do it like by yourself or would you want to? No I would never do by myself I'd like tell myself like no I'd be that guy like I could like move to a different country Backpack across the country

Yeah But no that would get fucking You'd be like three days in and be like Why the fuck did I do this? Literally like sitting in your motel Yeah That you're paying like 16 bucks a night full in Thailand.

And just like, holy shit, I'm bored. Yeah. Like, on your phone looking at TikToks. Yeah, just like doing what you would do at home, just in another country and just pissed that you're there. Like,

that's where I'm at in life is fucking, I'm definitely, and I say this all the time when stream, I feel like I say this a lot. But, I mean, maybe it's age. I'm fucking,

I just turned 31. But it's like, what is, I feel like the past year or two, I've been, maybe past like three, years I've been going out for the first time in my life but it's like already I'm pretty much over that yeah like everyone I don't know how people like in LA do this all the time like the I mean like

they get bored of it too the Jake Pauls and the I don't the whole you top of the YouTube community it seems like they're always doing this shit like all this stuff like going out I'm over it um really just doesn't interest me and I don't I'm literally at my, I think I'm at my midlife crisis. I think you're having a midlife crisis. I'm not fucking, like, I don't care about video games. I do, I don't even like playing video games. I do kind of, I was telling you this, I think in my place, but it's like, I don't

really mind streaming. I don't want to be an entertainer, like an on-camera person for the rest of my life, or, I don't know, I want to find something else, but I don't really mind streaming. Streaming's kind of fun. I'd sort of just like vent and try to have fun with it. it but I don't know I'm sort of at the point in my life where it's I don't really want to play video games like it just doesn't especially I think I think Addie fucking if I if someone gave me 60 MGs right now because that would probably hit me hard I would I would all I'd want to do is play

video games it's fucking weird how it works but I don't know I think I fucking ruined it for myself pulling 72 hours shifts I mean yeah sleeping eight hours doing another 72 like It's insane. Feeling like I'm going to. Surprise you survived that. Dude, it was bad. That's insane. I hadn't.

I had, it was bad. Like, I would, I remember, like, I'm up for a few days. My hands are killing me. And it's like, oh, just get off then and go in, like, eat, chill out, maybe pay attention to Junior. He hasn't eaten three days. I'm just kidding. Well, it was bad for both me and Junior. Like, no, junior, we'll get food tomorrow.

fucking I just got a match. I'm playing the same fucking people at 7 a.m. I'm getting tea bagged. I'm talking. I would get in arguments with kids. Like, I was, I was a menace. I was in, like, a discord with all these kids, like, always talking shit to them.

Anyways, what was I, like, where was I going with this? Build your game. Video games. Or, being in my apartment. Sometimes my hands were hurt so bad from playing so much. Like, in between, between I would set up a big bowl with ice water and like in between matches I would just go put my hands in there and it would hurt so bad but I'm like I and then I'd pull it out and it was like a not an orgasm but like I would put my hands in it would hurt so fucking bad and I pull them out and it was like a rush it was like a high it was dude what the fuck I would do some of the weirdest shit like shit like that I would lit I had a literal fucking dumpster set up a my I mean not a literal dumpster but literally just food on food set up but like like sometimes

you would like you would like have ice cream on your chest go to bed and just like wake up I've woken up with ice cream on my chest because I would like get done with my gaming session take just like take a Xanax get my door dash fucking one time I ordered door dash and it was sitting out there for like a I think I fell asleep at like midnight woke up at like 5 a.m and it was like fuck my door dash I was like maybe it's sitting outside. I ran outside. It was raining. My fucking DoorDash was like my chicken tenders and fries were like wet and I still

fucking ate some because I was just fucking starving at 165 pounds. Oh my God. That is insane. Yeah, I fell on to sleep with just eating ice cream. Crying every single night. Really? Why are you crying? I would purposely cry.

Like I would play me and my ex's old song. Oh my God, dude. And just like, but it's like, I didn't, I don't know. Because like I don't. What the fuck? I knew that's what we had, like, we're in, it wasn't gonna last. Like, it's not like I was like, that's the one they got away. But it was like, I don't, I just literally want to feel something?

I don't, it's gotta be something like that. Like I genuinely enjoyed crying. Like a good cry every now and then it's good. A good, I love a good cry, but this was every single night. That's kind of Every single time I lay down to go to sleep I would like play our old song And I would cry

And it felt so good It was like a high I like wanted to cry I was like oh I'm crashing Let me cry That's a no That's a new fucking high And you just pass out

Pass out Ice cream OHS wake up Fucking juniors just like Help me Juniors are fucking starving No I'm kidding Junior Junior had it fine

Okay don't think I'm Doing some animal cruel at these shit Junior got his food he had his water But Back to how much I hated life Yeah that's what I was fucking doing Like there was times

I would literally like Up for like I'm telling you I would do Playing 72 hours Straight I would even like eat in between Like games and shit But I would play nonstop

72 hours straight I would sleep 8 12 hours What do you feel like when you get up for after the eight, 12 hours? I would feel terrible. Like I would stay up 72 at least. Sometimes it'd be like 100. Dude, what?

Literally it'd be like Friday. And the next thing I know it's like Monday and I'm like, I need to sleep. Oh my God, dude. That is insane. And then I would just be like, like especially if I had a lot of Addy, I'd just like, I'm just going to go to sleep whenever I wake up. Like I'm just going to re up. And then sometimes.

I would wake up and I'd take like 150 just to like get me, just to let me get up and go shower. I was like, all right, let's see if this like gets me awake. Sometimes I'd fall back asleep, wake up, take more again. I'm on like 300 before I even get out of the fucking bed. Jesus fucking Christ. There was times I would literally, I don't really know why, but like sometimes I would get so sad. And this was during the pandemic. So it's like everyone was sort of secluded.

and was doing their own thing no one's like questioning like where's this like everyone's locked it it was the fucking lockdown or whatever right so people don't even know you're just doing this yeah people don't even know what I'm going through but I'm just in like up for days

I've taken so much I'm on Zanz fucking like having showered in three days and I'm like I would just like not collapse on the floor but it's just like I'm so I'm just so sad that I literally just like lay on my kitchen floor and just like curl up in the feet of it

What the fuck Do you see him laughing at this? I'm pouring my heart up No I'm kidding No I mean like I just didn't talk to you during this time period Like we weren't really in contact at all during this time period I look back no it's I have no like that's insane Literally on my kitchen floor surrounded by trash And junior

Still trying to smack me for food I'm like I'll beat you after this fucking game Get off me Oh, just kidding, everyone. That's not something... I love Jr., it's my favorite. But literally, I'd be on my kitchen, my hardwood kitchen floor,

surrounded by trash, up for days, in the fetal position, just crying. That's insane. It was bad. It was really bad. I almost look back at it. I mean, I would never... Haven't touched...

Then I went to rehab. Haven't touched a pill since. But, I mean, I still... I can definitely tell... I mean, I'm just a fucking addict. like how do you go from like that extreme of taking drugs to like like I get rehab is rehab but like are you in rehab the first couple days thinking like this and like I got to get out of here in the first few days I was like I was like I was sort of freaking out on like the nurses like how

I was like you're just like talking back to you guys not realize like I was I'm taking Zanz every single day you guys put me in here there were no TVs in the rooms that's insane nothing to do no five are there no TVs in the rooms I don't know Because the first rehab, I went to rehab twice in like nine months. But the first rehab I went to, there was a TV in the room. So it was like, it was pretty chill. But this, this other place, the last place I went to, only had a TV room to where like, people would sort of have to gather in the room and watch TV.

Just watch whatever's on. Like pick movies or whatever. So this is my first few days in there. I'm freaking the fuck out. I haven't had a Xanax. My social anxiety is crazy. like I'm sweating in my sleep can't sleep literally I had insomnia for like the first

two and a half weeks it was really bad like falling asleep at like three or four in the morning and then they you have to get up at six that's insane yeah it's they gotta do your blood pressure then you have to get a breakfast and it's like it's I mean looking back it doesn't seem that bad but in the like looking back now it seems like that was actually kind of fun like I met some of the funniest people but yeah the first few days

I was sort of like freaking the fuck out on the nurses I'm like how the like literally I'm coming off Xanax fucking I can't sleep you guys aren't you guys are giving me the pussy's fucking drugs like I don't feel anything I'm getting nothing from this I can't fucking sleep like I'm in my room

just by myself my heart's beating like I'm sort of having like I want to say a full blown panic attack but it was almost like a like like it like sort of your heart like sort of scares you and it makes you like sit up and it's like Jesus fucking Christ like and I'm just like I have to get up I can't just fucking lay here then I'd like sort of it was really only one night I sort of I wouldn't say yelled at them but I was like dude I like I need fucking something like okay well we'll talk to your

the psychiatrist in a moment I'm like and then you got pissed from now I'm like piss you fuck do you mean just give me something like you guys aren't They were giving me some little shit pill, but it doesn't like when I'm like that down. If there's one thing I will say, I don't think they accommodated me correctly for how fucked up I was. Like they, I feel like they sort of treated me like, I don't know. I mean, they see all types of super bad patients, but it's like just what they did for me, I was way too uncomfortable the first like two weeks. Like they- How long were you in there? 30 days.

30 fucking days. No phone. No TV. Just me and a bunch of fucking addicts and alcoholics. That is crazy. Yeah. But looking back at it, it was kind of fun. Yeah.

I mean, it's definitely good that you went. Yeah, definitely. It's definitely what I needed. I think me being as down bad as I would, like, rock bottom. Fucking, like, blew through any money I had. Like it was that was literally the last straw didn't like didn't go home for Christmas and then went to rehab on like the December 28th Like heck's heck's expenses fucking Christmas with his family and then just like two days later takes me to rehab I remember during Christmas I ordered like door dash and I was like this is like what the fuck is going on

I'm literally on Christmas don't even give a fuck that it's Christmas yeah and I'm like ordering DoorDash. Just searching an... Jesus fucking Christ. I'm like, this is the end. Like, this... I'm done. Like, I don't know.

I was just done. But I guess it fucking worked out for me. But pretty much came down to the decision of me just being done. Rehab fucking helped. It was nice. It was nice being around

people because there's some fucked up people. People that you wouldn't even think are fucked up the amount that they were telling me they drank or it's like some normal ass dude is like shooting a heroin and like no one really knows

and just like their people it really it's sort of like put in perspective and I really should start going to like AA meetings again but it like being in those type of environments puts into perspective like how bad people really have it.

Like these people were fucked up and like some people had families and there's full-blown alcoholics and people's this one dude's like blood pressure so i would have uh he was like he's scared to have seizures every single night and like they have to give him certain shit and like nurses have to like watch him and it's just like that's crazy because he just like can't stop fucking drinking that's crazy uh that is crazy yeah what was the point of all that so yeah rehab worked out for me or i guess do you think that when you guys that when you got out of rehab and you started getting tatted and shit

like do you think like what made you want to get tatted because I've known you for a long time? I've always wanted to get tattoos but it was I was always just like gaming like I'm not fucking really leaving the house but I've always wanted to get tattoos but then once I got like sober because I was actually like sober sober

for at least a few months afterwards there was probably like four or five maybe four or six months or something like I didn't drink obviously you see me here with a beer today. I'm fucking hungover. So this is helping me get through the podcast.

And I just keep fucking going on about something. I can even tell with alcohol. Like when I drink it, I'm like I'm a fucking addict. Like, even last night, like,

didn't plan on going out at all. Was invited to a concert with this girl I liked, this girl I've been hanging out with my new bay. but I didn't want to go out and I was like fuck it if we're going out like I really do have like social anxiety whether like people are always like

really? And I was like no it's it's bad. Like I'm not being out in the social environment it's like not comfortable. I need a drink or something like get to her house literally probably took like I don't know just took a bunch of shots just to go out and I'm like

and I'm very aware of it now because like the shit I once went it's like I will never let that happen again. But so like if it's a random night of me going out, I try to be aware of it. But it's like, dude, I can go through this whole like bottle. Like this is I'm a, I mean it does run in my fucking,

it runs in my family hard. But it's like, damn, I'm, it really like, it's like, damn, I'm a fucking addict. But to go back to what you're saying, Yeah, I think once I was sober I was just fucking bored So Let me put this way

If you say your whole left arm Wasn't tatted right now And like Do you think you'd be as bored as you are Do you think you'd just be trying to like get tatted Like was it was a tattoos just like Truly just being that bored And you had enough time

I mean I I've always I've always like the aesthetic of tattoos I've known since I was like a kid Like I'm gonna eventually like have a fucked out of tattoos but the only reason I started getting them was because I was bored What did it feel like Like I know it hurts

But I'm saying like what did it feel like After you're done with a session Like did you have like kind of a high from that Like you're just like The first time yeah That sort of went away But the first time It kind of was like

Like I've heard some people be like Getting tattoos is like therapy for me Right Like I just got one like a few days ago Or like almost finished with this arm I'm sort of gonna do that elbow days ago. I think two days ago.

Like we like this, like this part. Does it look darker actually? Like it looks like fresher. Yeah. Like yeah, you like touched up since stuff, finish this. Still got to do the elbow.

You're gonna do things on your legs? That's what I'm gonna, I think on the 16th, I'm going back and I'm gonna get the, this prayer from rehab. And I'm gonna get that tattooed on my leg. It's called like the serenity prayer. Do you know how it goes?

Like, God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I've heard that before. It's a good quote. I think I'm going to get, I might put that on like a scroll or some shit. I don't know. I don't want just like the tax. Right. You want it to be on something.

I want like a declaration of independence type of paper. Yeah, something. And like, I don't know. Get that. Probably on my leg. I thought about getting it on my leg or on my back. I don't know. Do you have anything on your back right now?

no that's a pretty big canvas yeah but it's so fucking expensive yeah this guy's not that bad but the girl i get it from it's so fuck like she does like great work she's very good at what she does but it's like she's pretty slow she goes like really deep like her shit's like really dark so it just takes more time takes more ink takes more money and she's just expensive it's so fucking expensive like how long did that take your left arm I really don't know I would say like maybe like

if I was the guess I'd say like 10 or 12 hours which is like it's a long time to be tatted yeah it's like I'm trying to think of it like three different probably like three four hour sessions

to like finish this and it's still not fully finished we're still gonna like go in and like shade all these open spaces um but yeah it's a it's a process. Some people say it's fucking

like therapy for them. Yeah. But at this point it's like bro, after I got my fucking nips tatted, I'm like this is not therapy at all. I hurt so fucking bad. Like I tried to convince myself like I'm into this too. Yeah. Yeah. Like I'm that like I can take this like this is like the pain

it like brings up endorphins. I like yeah like I can tell your nipples. This ain't nothing. And that's sort of how I feel with the arms now because after I got my nips fucking Rib chest, ribs, stomach, middle of the neck. It's like that shit. It's literal torture.

The nipples were literal fucking torture. Yeah. The only time in my life, I felt like I was going to pass out from pain. Damn. I mean, I don't really know when else I would, like, feel pain like that, but it was fucking insane. That's pretty wild. Like, nothing fucking compares. Have you been riding a motorcycle?

Or do you have a motorcycle? Yeah. No, not for like a month. It's just fucking sitting there. I thought I was going to be a bike dude. And then I put and then I like I'm tatting. I got bought a fucking bike. Summer's coming up. And then literally got it in like June. And then like bought a helmet and shit. But it's like you kind of you're supposed to wear like gear gear like a full geared padded jacket pants boots. but I would just go with like a t-shirt jeans which I'm like at least I'm fucking wearing jeans

I don't know if it I mean it's better in shorts I guess and like regular shoes but then I'd wear the helmet and in Texas it's just so fucking hot it's not even like it was it was like I tried to convince myself I was like having fun and it was fun because you're on a motorcycle whatever but like it's just so hot like I go in for a we would do flycass sometimes

and I'd ride my bike over here And it's like I ride back and it's like now I'd like half to shower my like fucking ass is sweaty My fucking head sweaty as fuck like arms are fucking like sunburnt like I don't know it was I thought I was about to be a fucking biker guy for a little bit but in Texas like I thought And I thought it would be great for the summer but when it's 100 plus every fucking day so It's like even walking from where you live to the HQ I'm just like this is unacceptable literally a one minute walk yeah it's just like it's so hot dude hits you like a truck yeah it's insane this dude i really thought the motorcycle would uh it's gonna be like oh i'm driving fast in the wind

it's gonna be like cooling me off but fuck now yeah she was like stop it was so i'm like stopping at a red light and it's just like holy fuck like how are people out here enjoying this yeah but it was fun i actually have to piss really i have to piss too red too Okay Yeah, was that a Matt's not here But for those listening Went to a Jack Harlow concert last night

It was actually kind of fun I'm not the biggest Jack Harlow fan But It was all right I mean we did have Nosebleeds But it was a pretty good time Am I the only one that

It's just so anxious And like social situations I didn't not playing on drinking at all last night. I sort of got like forced into it. And then it's just like, once the ball gets rolling, I'm just,

yeah, I'm just talking to, just explaining my problems of how I didn't want to drink and I felt like you had to. I think this little bit of vodka actually did save me today. Bro, before this podcast,

like, I didn't even want to talk to you. Like, I wanted to come to trivia and just go home. I did not, uh, yeah, I did not think this would go well.

I guess it hasn't gone too bad. I haven't shut the fuck up. Anyways, what's going on with you? Orlando's coming up. There's the topic. I mean, yeah, dude, it's been so fucking long since Kansas City. It's like, Jesus Christ. Do you know the date? When was that?

Oh, no, dude. It's like five months ago. How? And there hasn't... We had the super. but like still doesn't feel like only one online tournament yeah only one

yeah what the fuck yeah I don't I don't know people ask me like would you agree that Halo's like I mean

Halo's like dying again yeah for sure I mean the numbers from I saw your stream like December it was like 100 and say 110,000

and then now it's like 3,000 yeah Yeah. But over the, over the course of like four or five months, it went down from like 100,

some thousand to like 8,000. I mean, yeah, like you can attribute that to like the cheating, the lack of like things to play for, the lack of content,

the lack of support. Like, 343 is just like really drop the ball like pretty much every possible way you can. Their pros are just openly roasting them on Twitter and they don't even have it in rebuttal so they just know it's true. It's like,

which I do get a normal. with people though um sometimes I say people like pros that like hate on the game but like they're not even they don't even like stream they don't even like do YouTube and they're just bitching about the game like as if like they're doing anything to save it or like anything to try to make it work like they're just since the game came out there's been kids that just like have just done nothing but hate on the game and say how shit it is blah blah blah I'm like bro like do you want to go back to doing whatever the fuck you're gonna do if you're not playing halo like yeah like if there's no halo it's like

would you guys not realize you're gonna be fucked like I hate that Especially in this day and age, it's like, bro, you guys have, you guys get salaries. Yeah, there's salary. Good salaries. Yeah. You can be a fucking top 12 team and you're probably making like a couple thousand a month. At least couple thousand. Yeah.

And like, I don't know. It just irks me when people that like don't do anything to save the game, just do nothing but kill it. And they don't even realize how bad that is for like the scene as a whole. Yeah, I don't really know what could save it. I think there is going to be a BR though. The forge mode will help. The... Did the...

The... The... The... I don't really know. I keep saying, like, leaks and shit, but I'm like, okay, well, where the fuck is this? Like, how are people being playing this leaked version of it? And they're, like, making shit happen. Like, can I do that on stream?

Like, I would love to do that. And then, like, the Battle Royale thing, yeah. Like, that could save... That's, like, the last chip they can play. Where people are going to be very interested in it for, like, a week? Literally, it's all in. If they fuck it up, yeah, if they fuck it up, and, like, the game's dead. So, like, we just have to wait for that time, period.

I mean like I'm a pro player in the game so I'm getting on for scrimms every day and shit but like and those are fun scrims are fun but scrims are always Yeah there's just like competitive But like a good scrimm's pretty fun Yeah but then like

If I wasn't playing professionally Like there'd be no reason for me to play though Like I don't blame everyone Like I don't blame anyone for not wanting to play the game It's like so there's not shit right now Like even the rank there's a ranking system So I guess like the game I guess aren't complete shit and like lopsided, but like the ranks are so ugly.

The ranks are ugly. It like means nothing. If you're high onics, you get play, you get putting games. So like the way they have it set up is like just try to get you games fastest, which is like cool. But I'd rather wait an extra five minutes and get a good game than have to carry, you know, like three kids that are like in platinum diamond gold and then like you're playing against platinum diamond gold. And like when I was like really high onics, I would just play with like complete shit on my team and play against like four onics as another team. on the other team and just have to carry super fucking hard and it's just that's just not like a fun

experience like that's that's how they had it yeah that's like your rank your rank was so high like offset your teammates to be low and then it had the other team the other team sort of when i was at like 2,500 onyx like the other team would be like 2,000 2200 200 2000 my teammates would be like diamond six diamond five diamond four and then it's just like literally impossible to win it's impossible yeah it's like literally impossible i'm just getting like teabag by the other team I'm just like this is like so like stupid like it's just like not fun at all yeah um not even really fun to stream like

you're starting to like the most horrid shit games ever um and i mean like they came out the rank doubles which is cool like i was having a little bit of fun with that until i played kids that are just like going like way too fucking yeah hard i feel like halo doubles in halo infinite would be fucking annoying it is like if we all had dead silence it'd be different yeah but it just comes down to like me and a trip you were playing the other night we're having fun and they put these two kids i don't even want to say their name because they were

just like so cringe and like whatever but like they were just like sound hoaring every kill they got weapons they ran back into a base and just waited for us to push yeah like not even trying to fight us just like sitting in a corner with a shock on the whole game just like literally they are playing to win yeah like there's no other option some like cod champs or some shit and it's just like Jesus fuck man we're playing twos at four in the morning like can you just like yeah so like that killed our vibe and then we got the fuck off and then haven't played two cents

but like I mean I like it they're like trying to do it right like they're trying to add stuff like team snipers cool team doubles cool but like then they add shit and I'm like who the fuck's actually playing this like the it's not it's not king of the hill it's it's it like land grab or is that a fucking playlist yeah I think it's in like big team battle it's like what the fuck who's people actually have a lot of fun in big team battle and it's fun battle yeah but it's like some other playlist like a territory's type of thing territories, something like that. I'm like, who the fuck's actually playing this?

I don't fucking know. I actually do kind of like, I've always like big team battle. A fun little switch up every now and then, yeah. Dude, I went down a rabbit hole in 2020 when I was cracked off me fucking tits. I would play, it's called Cartographer. It's like a, it's Halo 2 and it like feels, like it's not like a MCC Halo 2. It's like Halo 2, Halo 2. but and there was like

I don't I don't it's called a cartographer and there's like servers and stuff and somehow people were playing it I think most of the people there were like from Mexico like for some reason there's like a big community in Mexico

and servers and shit playing it just grinding but there was a big team battle playlist and that shit was so fun I literally mastered the banshee I would bro it was literally cheating you couldn't not kill me out of the Banshee.

Really? Because I would use my controller and then when I get in a Banshee I switched to mouse and key and I would hit my little middle button to make the DPI go to like 16,000.

So and when you're in the Banshee on a mouse and key and your DPI's that high, it's literally like you can do fucking anything. Like rockets won't hit like as long as you know the rocket's coming out like you can just fuck

and there's literally no killing you. What the fuck? I went down. So what's the map? Like, coagulation? Yeah. Like the big... Blood Gulch.

What was it? The big one? Two bases. Sniper in the top of it against the wall. Yeah. Against the pillar. Yeah. Coagulation.

Playing that one? Bro, it was so fun. Yeah. Like, I went down a whole big team rabbit hole playing that shit. Literally could not kill me in the Banshee. Dude, like... It'd literally be like 15 minutes straight. When you played Halo 3 for the first time, like...

Dude. Oh, man. Yeah, Halo 2 and Halo 3 back to back were just like crack, dude. Like, first night H3 drop, what'd you do? First night, Halo 3 dropped? Yeah, do you remember? I don't even remember. I played, I really don't remember my first.

I played co-op campaign with, like, three of my locals. It was so fucking fun. Oh, my God, just, like, running around together. No one's streaming back then. Like, you're just experiencing it for yourself. You know what I'm saying? Like... I probably played, like, Team Hardcore or something.

Yeah, or, like, lone wolves or something like that. Some competitive shit. Like playing, yeah, like playing Valhalla. Like, people are man canoning and you're sniping them and like, it's just Spartan lasering them. Yeah. It's just like. Halo 3 was a good big team battle game as well. Dude, Halo 3 was so good, man. My God. So you never really got into Halo 2, right?

No, I put it fucked into Halo 2. Eventually I had the Xbox in my room, I think. Halo 2? Like, I'm sure you were too new and young, but. I would go to my locals. Holy fuck, man. I wouldn't play tournaments, but I'd go to the local land center and play because it was like, Popping. Like,

Oh, like, I don't even know if, like, do land centers fucking, I don't think so, dude.

Existing anymore. I think the one I feel like they died with like Halo 3. Yeah, pretty, or maybe died. It survived a little longer after that,

but like, Halo 2 land centers were like, dude, popping. Yeah. Like, every chair is filled the whole day and night.

Like, it's just filled, dude. It's like crazy. Yeah. Those were, I remember going to a Halo 2 tournament like 2005.

And I don't even know what I got. I didn't do that great. Who was my teammate? Dude named, like, academic. It was my first. He was good as... Did he have a K?

It was like A-C-K-ac-Demic. I wasn't really involved in, like, the pro scene until Hale's 3. Like, pro-scene is where I started getting my name out there. Yeah, and we went to the 2v-2 and Demon D was there. What? Little fucking... That's crazy. Little 15-year-old Demon D or whatever he was.

And I think they won the tournament. It was like Demon D and this kid named Fick. but yeah it was weird that's nuts demon D was like sort of like known I guess it's so fucking

it's so fucking funny thinking about it now like 15 years old he's literally five foot like three going to a Halo 2 tournament I'm showing up just like playing average

just like and then eventually like this guy becomes like my team A years later win a national championship with him yeah that's crazy like he um we used to

go to, do you remember L'Ebb? Yeah. Talent. There was a whole like Maryland, Virginia sort of crew like Defy,

Best Man, talent. Did you ever go to N.J.? No. Or there was like an N.J? Or like did they go past NJ?

I think I went to one with, I think it was me, Twilight. I think it might have been in Halo. Was it Halo 3 or Halo Reach? But I think I went with like me,

Twilight. What's it? Who was our team? Remember Scarvane? Mm-hmm. I don't know if he was on our team. But we didn't win, and I was fucking piss. We, like, we, like, got upset.

We might have lost the Scarvane. I don't know. I was like, this is fucking stupid. But, yeah, I only went to one NJ Halo. Yeah. Dude, you know, like, you remember the feeling of just, like, walking into, like, an MLG-Anaheim and, like, or just, like, an MLG event,

and you just, like, walk past a Dr. Pepper, booth there's like three different games like yeah it's like you're just like this is t squared smashing a doctor pepper chicks like dude you're just like looking around like this is the life or like this is the dream like snip down walks through it's like oh shit yeah like you just yeah it's just like that feeling is just like i'll never get that feeling back because i go to events now and it's like i mean they're cool like events now or like you're sort of just chill until you have to play yeah it's like all right we're gonna chill and at the room or something and then it's

Yeah, like, I don't know, just like You almost like can't walk around now Yeah. Because it's. Yeah, no, I usually now I just go to the pro lounge. And it's like, that's cool, but it's like Once a line gets started, it's like you're gonna be there on it. Yeah, and I'm trying to like stay focused and like, you know what I'm saying?

I'm trying to stay warm. It's not even like you want to not take a picture with someone. It's like you. Oh, if I ever have the time, I always sign. I always take pictures. It's just like. But it's almost like you some, you can't let that happen or like then align forms and then it's like.

Yeah. it just gets out of control fast So in the moment it's like it's also just like awkward And it would be like no I can't Unless like you have to buy it It's like no I can't like I gotta go But yeah Walking through is not the

I wonder if that happened to like Walshey and all of them For sure dude Walsh was like The guy I didn't really notice back then But I'm sure there were like Autograph fucking sessions and shit But I wonder if like

he would ever did our phones even do this back then in like 2008 did we have phones taking pictures we had to have right flipped phones and shit really shit um

you can take picks I wonder if people were like taking picks it was wash fuck yeah I remember like 2004 2005 I think it was your first event Charlotte 2007

first event in 2007 I teamed with cloud it was me cloud anthrax in Clouds local named Control X death we got last round am which like

I mean at that time it was like damn You make it out of AM that's like a thing Yeah making it out of AM back then We made it out of AM back then was like damn You go back to Xbox Live and talk shit to people Yeah You know I think like Demon D got like 17th or something

That event and everyone was like holy shit Like what who the fuck are these guys There's like Demon B-Rizzle Lancer And Frozen Shock Fun fact Frozen Shock made up the name Believe the hype Um

Stole it Mine now Uh huh Merch Selling well All these shit He's gonna see this fucking trade market

Steal it Like when you would watch a team At an MLG event Like when I went to MLG in 2009 Like I got knocked out Like I made out of M But I got like 30 second Like we lost whatever

But like I was like rooting For like teams to go far That like Do you remember when power was like an Australian team and they got top 16 to Anaheim. I remember watching the feature station match and their top 20 playing for top 16 against, I don't remember for the playing against,

but they're gonna against like, give me my money or something shit. And Halo 3, 2009. And it was a big deal for them to get top 16 because like, I mean, getting top 16 is like, yeah, for sure as well. And like just like watching, like, or even watching like Dynasty,

which was like APG Destin, Enable, I think, and someone out Mad Max maybe. And like they're like making the push for top six, like, you know what I'm saying? It's just like, you're just like, You're just like root you root to see something cool. Like watching like Warriors beat fucking straight ripping and Warriors beating triggers down. It was just like such a cool like, I don't know.

Because you know, you just know like that to be you one day where you're like finally breaking into it and like doing the shit. And like fast forward to now it's like, damn. Like I never thought my career would take off the way it did. You know, like I knew I was good. But like I've won a lot. You fucking went from what did you place? I remember I played you at one of the we got third I think we beat you for like top four or something

I think you guys got top six yeah we got top six like the first three events reach was it you Ryan new blaze and break that was our Dallas team break yeah break and then we replaced Ryan with goofy and then you drop Ryan for goofy yeah suck with break yeah break and Blaze

for Columbus we got top six again then went to Anaheim yeah it was Anaheim third but I was on believe the hype we got top six again I wait no yeah yeah yeah when we went to Anaheim we got top six the first time then we went to rolling got top three yeah yeah yeah pretty good but yeah I know you beat me at one event I think you might be me at Columbus for top four before that event what was your best before you got top six what was your 30th like I went to Anahom 2009 and I took a top 32 to fucking this to top six yeah because I mean I took a two year break I like did high school like you know did all the party and I did all the party and I went to like I'm 20th like you know did all the party and I was like I was like I was like I was a part of it. I was like you know I was like I was a part of it. and stuff that was like really fun and I was like I'm never gonna play Halo again I went to an event I did my thing like I made out of am so I'm gonna be proud of I guess I never thought I'd play halo again and then um yeah reach came out and then I got a shot I remember before we teamed you I I don't know what it was it might have been like a playlist or a ranked game or whatever in fucking

reach and you were just you were shitting on me every time I was like I can't fucking kill her And then I think afterwards you like sent me a fucking smiley like G G G's. And I'm like, it was at a point where it's like I wanted to be like like fuck this kid. But it was like like hold up. I don't see what this fucking kid. I'm like hold up. Something's fucking going on here. Like this guy was literally playing it perfect every single time like never choking any kill like literally playing it perfect.

And I was like, I got to hold up. I got to have this kid to save you. Yeah. Hold up. I need this this might be just what I need We almost won with that roster Raleigh we lost game five to

Instinct in the winters finals Like we could very easily Me you destined and reliable Yeah we could have won with that roster Like we were top three We went game five with instinct Like showing out We just got shit on Bavre Creek

Yeah You know Fucking The I don't know if there's a player like this In any other game But Blaze How weirdly

Good He was the best like casual player like he was the most like casual player but it was just somehow he was literally the best player that people have seen in a while Raleigh Blaze was insane

It makes like I don't think People don't there's no one else To like compare that to No one has ever been This sort of like Like he's like pulling to main stage listening to music while he plays Literally on main stage like listening

With his iPod plugged into his mix amp Like just like just like And he's like sitting like me right now when he plays. Yeah, he's got an Elmo hat on. Yeah, Elmo hat. Like Cookie Monster hat. Destroying. Just shitting.

So weird, dude. Yeah, people don't understand how good that fucking guy was for like a few events. It was absolutely insane. And he had like the weirdest play style. He was so like selfless. So selfless. But like he was somehow just dominating. Like it's not like he was pushing up and fucking.

The rally event, it was like watching like fucking. It was like watching like fucking. Shotsy play like before Shotsy you know it was like watching Shotsy play but it was like before there was like really a Shotsy play style real comp real competition that Shotsy was playing like he was just fucking running through people and it was like but Chatsy is like you look at him like a little god no one was looking at Blaze like a little God he was just like he was a god after that event yeah at that time yeah after Raleigh but then we never shot again so the hype slowly dead down yeah that event

was just like crazy dude yeah it just fucking he had like a like two good events and then he had an insane event like one of the best individual performances like literally in the halo history and then he just like after that it's sort of just i think it was like it's hard to play like that every man i mean you can't like what the fuck um i guess you got to go scrimmed don't you yeah yeah literally in 10 minutes yeah all right y'all it's been another episode of the flackass episode 392 because we're so consistent appreciate you all watching Matt Craig play the outro music please peace out guys