The Knowledge Project with Shane Parrish - #83 Brian Koppelman: What Really Matters

Episode Date: May 12, 2020

Writer and director Brian Koppelman discusses his career ups and downs, dealing with fear, and learning to live a meaningful life. -- Want even more? Members get early access, hand-edited transcripts, member-only episodes, and so much more. Learn more here: https://fs.blog/membership/   Every Sunday our Brain Food newsletter shares timeless insights and ideas that you can use at work and home. Add it to your inbox: https://fs.blog/newsletter/   Follow Shane on Twitter at: https://twitter.com/ShaneAParrish Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

You know, there's a line in billions where Bobby Axelrod is making a speech to all of Acts Capital. And he says, in the great expanse of time, we're already dead. And that's something that I believe, right? If you look at the great expanse of time, we're not even a dot. The dot is already over. It's already in the past. And so we may as well be super connected to the fact that we're here and alive right now. Hello and welcome. I'm Shane Parrish, and you're listening to The Knowledge Project, a podcast dedicated to mastering the best of what other people have already figured out.

This podcast and our website, FS.blog, help you better understand yourself and the world around you by exploring the methods, ideas, and mental models from some of the most incredible people in the world. If you enjoy this podcast, we've created a premium program that brings you even more. You'll get ad-free versions of the show, early access to episodes, transcripts, and so much more. If you want to learn more now, head on over to fs.blog slash podcast or check the show notes for a link. Today I'm talking with writer and director Brian Copleman, who's the co-creator of the Showtime show Billions and whose film credits include Rounders, Osum's 13, and Solitary Men. We talk about the writing process, pushing through fear, living a meaningful life, meditation, and so much more. Brian's ability to hone in on what really matters will have you thinking about your life differently.

It's time to listen and learn. This is unlike any other podcast I've ever done. I'm normally one of the people that does the most intense research, but we decided to do this like 45 minutes ago. So we're just going to have to spit all this. Yeah, I'd wondered because I know how research heavy you are and all the stuff that you do, how, you know, whenever I read a post of yours, I feel not just a substantial brain behind it, but I feel that you've worked on your point of view. and I wondered how you were going to research in this compressed period of time because I'm a podcaster too

and I find it really hard unless I'm quite familiar with someone's work to do it on short notice but you did tell me before this that you watch my show and you might know some of my stuff so maybe it won't be as difficult. We'll figure it out as we go to listen

these are these are interesting times and they demand new ways to attack things. I totally agree. I love billions, huge fan. Thanks. One of the things that did strike me, I did a little bit of Googling before, is that you're a big fan of meditation. How did that get started? I am. I practice Transcendental Meditation. I meditate twice a day for 20 minutes. Well, I've long tried to find ways to outsmart the part of my brain

that wants me to give in to doubt and fear in all areas of my life, right? The part of my brain that makes it hard to sit down and do the work because it tells me that probably am not as good as I hope I'll be and I'll never be able to capture the feeling I have on the page or when I shoot it, the part of my brain that could keep me up at night with fears, particularly in a time like this. and so a long time ago when I was 30 I'm 53 now a long time ago when I was 30 and I was in an acute stage of writer's block and really feeling like I wasn't going to be able to ever access the part of myself that was the most alive and do work that mattered to me I found morning pages as described by Julia Cameron in the artist's way and that worked not only as a solution to my writer's block but kind of as a sab for me. many of these kind of issues. But over time, and that continued to work, and I do that every day,

but over time, I found myself jousting more frequently with the physical manifestations of anxiety than I would have liked and started searching. And the more books I read, the more people I spoke to, it seemed meditation was an answer. I'd always been worried about whether I'd be able to. I read David Lynch's book, Catching the Big Fish. And he talks about, the way in which meditation just calmed those voices and enabled him to do his work. I'm a big admirer of lynches. I was concerned about TM, Transcendental Meditation, about the sort of legacy of the cult of personality parts of it from the 60s.

But the more I looked into it, the more I spoke to people, the more it seemed that the tool of this practice of meditation would be useful. And so I went and I took lessons and learned how to meditate. And I've been doing it for close to 10 years now. You said you do it twice a day. When do you normally do it? So I wake up the first thing in the morning. I make coffee.

I meditate and then I do morning pages. That's my routine every day in my life. And then in the afternoon, somewhere between three and seven, I'll do the second meditation, and it's 20 minutes each time. The afternoon one, I'd say I'd do five out of the seven days a week. There are times that I miss it because we're shooting the show, and I haven't planned my day well enough, but I'm much better off. The people around me are better off if I make it a point to do it.

You mentioned sort of part of your routine, and is there anything else in that routine before I ask you what morning pages are? Well, those are the main things. I take each part of that, the coffee I take seriously, the meditation and the morning pages. And then pre-billions every morning included a long walk, too, of a couple miles to my office, and then I would walk home at the end of the day.

Once we started making the show, it became much harder to do the walk in the morning, So I still do cardio exercise, but I have to figure out how to get it in every day. I can't necessarily add that in, or I just have to get up at 3.45 every day, which I'm not quite able to do. What does it mean to take coffee seriously? Well, it means grinding the beans freshly in the morning. I'm not obsessively crazy about it, but I love the smell of coffee when you grind it. So I usually will grind it in the morning.

And I used to only do French press, but now for some reason I'm in the phase of making drip coffee. But I will grind it right that. You know, I want to grind it. I want the kitchen smelling of coffee. And then I want to make the coffee. Talks me about Morning Pages. So I imagine you've had other guests in your 79 or 80 episodes here who do them. Morning Pages are a technique.

I've seen versions of it in various sort of creativity classes, but Julia Cameron really codified the way that I do it in her seminal book, The Artist's Way. And the way Cameron describes them is the way that I do them exactly. That is three longhand pages. You must use, you know, pen or pencil. You just keep your pen going. You don't try to write. You're just, you're not you're not crafting sentences, you're not thinking about paragraphs. All you're doing is moving your pen across the page until you fill three pages. And it has this incredibly magical effect. It, for me, anyway, it tips whatever is in my subconscious onto the page. It frees me from whatever's stopping me from being productive.

Doesn't happen immediately. But after a month of doing this every day, even three weeks, you will find that not only is it easier to produce work, but you're just slightly lighter in the way you move through the world. I would say I've bought Cameron's book for 100 people, maybe 20 of those people actually took the time to do the book. Of those, more than half ended up publishing work. that they'd been unable to produce before that.

Do you write about the same thing every day, or is it just literally like stream of consciousness, whatever comes in? No, it's stream of consciousness, man. And there are people, business leaders who do it and educators who do it and artists who do it. No, it's whatever is on your mind. But I will say this, Shane,

you might find yourself writing about the same thing for three or four days in a row. And that thing might then teach you something about something you need to deal with in your life. And you reveal a lot about yourself. You reveal yourself. How did you overcome fear? You mentioned fear earlier.

What were you scared of? Well, listen, we all have these existential fears, right? All these fears are some kind of a replacement for the idea that we're here for a short time. It's the human condition. But then these fears manifest in different ways. And people who want to do what I do, and who feel that somewhere in them, there's an artistic impulse. Or even if you're somebody who works in an office and you know that if you work from the most

creative part of yourself, that means you're going to take risks. That means you might put an idea forth that hasn't been thought of in your firm before. You might get laughed at. Your idea might not, you might reveal to yourself when you finally manifest it, oh, crap, this wasn't actually a good idea and the fear of not being special of not being good enough can be crippling to people and the truth is what i've discovered is that's all just stuff it's what stephen pressfield in his book war of art calls resistance but the to me as soon as i get past it and start doing the work i remember that the result the extraordinary

Internal result doesn't matter at all. I've been cured so many times of whatever's ailing me just by the doing of the work, by engaging with this question inside of me, by getting, listen, in these times, I'm never going to talk about a writer or an artist being brave. But there is something of an internal fortitude that when you find a way to engage it, you just come out the other side, a better figure. come out the other side, a better version of yourself. And look, these are fears all of us have. All of us, or most of us anyway, I don't want to, I guess, not all this, but most of us are afraid of exposing that part of ourselves that we hold most dear for fear that it will be rejected. But the artist has a duty to risk that. And it's a duty to risk it so that you're able to be better.

For me, what I finally realized, Shane, was that if I allow. allowed these creative impulses to die, it would be like a real death. And like any form of death, it would be toxic. And this toxicity would ooze out of me onto those that I loved. It would make me a worse father, a worse husband, a worse friend for the bitterness and jealousy that I would allow to grow in me. And I realized that as soon as I allowed myself to do the work, all that stuff went away. It dissipated. And I knew after Amy and I had our first child that if I wanted to be the kind of father I wanted to be, and this is 23 years ago, if I wanted to be the 24, the kind of father I wanted to be, if I wanted to tell my children that they should chase their dreams, then I had

to. Or I'd be a liar and I'd become bitter. And a bitter father is not really the ideal version of fatherhood that I had in my head. I want to hear more about living your dreams. And sort of like you mentioned earlier, anxiety, walk me through how you convince yourself to live your dreams. Like is there, is that just diving into the work or is there, is there more to it? Well, as I say, for me, it was an acute moment, right? It was an acute moment when I realized, fatherhood's really important to me. I'm going to be bad at it. And that quickly, I was able to shift.

You know, I saw that there was a chance that by doing this work, I would free myself. And I'll say it happened so quickly. as soon as David and I started writing our first movie, we had no contacts. We had no thought that we could sell it or that we'd make a movie out of it. But the moment I was waking up earlier, going into a room, generating pages,

I started walking straighter. I started, as I say, moving more lightly through the world. And I have found that whenever I talk about this, I get hundreds of letters from people who realize that they're in the same bind I was in and that they hear this quiet voice and they've been scared to let it out. And as to the root of where the fear comes from, I don't know. I think it's primal.

But I do know that if you can somehow manifest it, you will feel better long before the world recognizes it. So living my dream, I don't translate that into when I got to make the movies. I really translate that into when I started to be able to identify myself as a writer, as a creative person so that as long as I decided I made a decision that as long as I wrote every day I was a writer I didn't need someone else to say it I needed to do that work and if I did it I could tell it to myself and if I could tell it to myself I was that thing maybe he'd have part of your identity yes I didn't quit my job I'll say one thing that I think is crucial is I think

sometimes sort of taking huge drastic action that's external to the actual project or external to the actual mission is dramatic and it feels great in the moment but it turns out to be another way of self-sabotage right i must quit my job in order that i may paint well that's not true all you need to do if you want to paint is paint i remember saying to my dad who's a businessman and a successful businessman who worked closely with artists but wasn't one i remember saying get screwing up the courage and saying you know dad i really and i figured we'd be having a conversation that would last hours you know i said i just have to tell you uh i really think i i need to you know uh boy how can i say this gee i think i need to be a writer and he just looked at me and he said well son if you want

to write right right and as you know as simple uh and ideas that it's totally true it's like well you don't need to do anything except right so i got up earlier i literally just got up an hour earlier and you'd be amazed what you can do if you get up an hour earlier i'm going to use writing as an example but anything you want to do applies to this one page a day even if you take off sundays is 300 whatever 10 about 310 pages in a year one page a day you can write a page in a half hour so that many pages is a novel that's three screenplays it's an endless amount of short stories and you can apply that to sort of anything that you're interested in doing you have a a game in your mind code a little bit every day right you want to be someone who figures out

how to choreograph modern dance working it for a half hour a day record yourself doing your thing like to me uh we can all find a half hour there's there's nobody who can't wake up a half hour earlier i see a lot of people who their dream is right in front of them they know exactly what they want in life be it a relationship an opportunity a project that they want to work on that they're dying to work on this thing. But then they start like negative self-talk and they sort of like convince themselves they can't do it.

Sure. Talk to me a little bit about your response to that. How do you think about that? Well, a lot of that is like result thinking. Well, I think about it this way. One, you have to calculate less. You have to calculate less. The more you try to game this stuff out,

the more it becomes clear, the odds are against you and you can't win. But most folks have accomplished something great were kind of just unrelenting in their belief, forget their belief, unrelenting in their determination to do it. And momentum is an incredibly powerful tool, as is inertia, an incredibly powerful force, right? so I just think commit to doing something for a few days and then commit to doing it the next day

and then suddenly you have this kind of momentum that thrusts you forward that's beautiful talk to me a little bit about the writing process how do you go from idea to fully finished movie or show I'll back up a little bit I'd say anyone who really is interested in this stuff, the way you figure this question you're asking me out is by watching movies and then reading the screenplays or watching television shows and reading the teleplays. And with the internet, it's really easy to get access to those things. So I start, David and I, my partner is my lifelong best friend. We do all this stuff together. And we usually start with a world that,

fascinates us. And so you'll go, okay, well, this world of hedge fund operatives and United States attorneys, this seems like a big, fascinating, very specific world with insular language and customs that would be fun to dive into. And from there, we'll start to do research to see if it is a world that we find as fascinating as we think we find it. So which means, reading a bunch of stuff, doing first-person interviews with people, using whatever connections we have. So if I know somebody who knows someone who works at a hedge fund, to get to go visit the hedge fund or meet the U.S. attorneys, spend a lot of time doing that so that we feel like we can get our arms around what the world is. And then it's time to figure out who the characters are.

So you have a lot of conversations about the kinds of people who are drawn to this world. You're doing a lot of journaling about this. You're doing a lot of thinking. about what would bring you into the world the right way what are forces to set against one another and so you start to really think about who these characters are what made them who they are and then you start to think about a story structure that would bring these forces into opposition because you need conflict sort of in every scene of a screenplay or teleplay so you then start thinking about that and you begin to do character descriptions which you'll write up and then you'll start to outline

a version of a story that might work then you'll revise that outline and then once you kind of are outlining it and revising it, we use index cards and really then start to take the outline and break it into beats which are sort of the flow of scenes

and then you break that down into scenes themselves that kind of add up into the beats of a section of the thing and at a certain point you have a completely beated out outline with a lot of detail for every episode of billions let's say an episode of billions

the teleplay is 60 pages the outline from which we worked is usually 20 pages so you have a 20 page document that's every scene a bunch of dialogue and what's happening in the episode from there you'll have sort of

what the scenes are about and then you're just writing the dialogue the most fun part of it is when you're actually taking that outline and turning it into scenes themselves That's the part where your hands are going wild and you're sort of, you're working from the freest part of you. The outlining is the most arduous, really sort of grinding on story and how to make the story better and how to create conflict and not settling and second guessing. But once you have the outline, then you're free to sort of, that's the part that's like jazz.

then you're free to improvise, then you're free to go, because you have a base to return to and because you know you can always rewrite if the scene is, it goes on out too far away from what you were thinking and it doesn't work, you know how to rein it back in, back to this outline. That's fascinating. Do you notice gaps in the outline when you're trying to like actually fill it in? Yes, but you don't notice that until you've really written all the scenes. So then, right, you notice that in the outline phase, but once you're through the outline

and you really grind it on it. When you're writing the scenes, you'll write all the scenes, then when you put that back together, absolutely, you read the whole thing and you go, oh, this section here is boring, or this section goes too fast, or, oh, these three scenes,

we've got to put something between them to create more attention. But that's all the fun, I mean, that's all the most fun part of the thing. Do you test these before you run them, or is it just you guys? Test them how? Like, do you give them to people

to look over the script, be like, does this flow? Does this make sense? Do you feel what we're trying to get you to feel? Yeah, sure. On Billions, we have a writer's room. Yeah. How does a writer's room even work? Like, I'm pretending I kid. No, we're, you know, David and I are the showrunners. So we run the writer's room. We have a group of seven other people in the room with us. And we all talk through this outline stuff of the episodes. So we work together and get the outline into what we think is pretty good shape. We then share that outline with our whole writer's room team. They give us

notes. We then incorporate the notes that make sense to us. Then we share it with Showtime. Then Showtime gives us their thoughts. They're incredible partners. They leave it to us to make all the decisions. But their questions are great because they haven't been in the writer's room so they don't know what we're planning. They know the arc of the season because we've told them that ahead of time, but they don't know what each episode is going to be. So they might get it and say, oh, this is great. we don't understand what happens there when Axe talks to Taylor. Was Axe playing a game or did he, you know, they'll ask questions that then allow us to refine what we're going to do.

Then we don't turn the outline back in, but we take their questions and bring those into when we draft the actual teleplay. Does the economics at all impact how the story gets played out? economics of the show in any show? Well, sure, you have a budget. So if you're the showrunner of a TV series, your responsibility is to tell the story that you want to tell within the amount of, with using the resources that you're given.

So at the beginning of the season, our line producer really deals with the finances. We'll talk to Showtime. we'll talk to us, we'll together all figure out, well, this is what we think, you know, they'll say, this is what we feel like you guys should have this year. We'll talk it through, and then we'll make the show for that amount. I mean, that's part of the job, right? We are in a business partnership with the finance year, and they give us a tremendous amount of creative freedom, and our responsibility is to make a show that really works for us

in our audience, and that works for them financially, them being Showtime financially. We take that obligation really seriously to them, you know, because they're entrusting us with this. You know, that's a real thing. Does Showtime have any say in how many seasons this goes for, or is that totally up to the creative process? No, that if I guess it, no, I'd say it's a, by this point, five seasons in, it's a conversation, but they have ultimate authority.

Tomorrow they could say we're done with billions. That's completely, I mean, they're the financiers. They're putting up all the bread. We could, if Dave and I want to stop, we could stop, obviously, and that would be that. But we love making the show, and we don't want to stop. And it certainly seems to us that Showtime doesn't want to stop either. I don't think you should stop. Just my humble opinion.

Thanks, man. What's the difference between a show in a movie when you're writing and creating it? In writing and creating it, we don't really think of it very much different. the businesses are different and on television now you can make the kinds of stories that we like to make and that we've made throughout our career they're harder to make in movies now but i mean look at this time right now shame i don't know what the future of the movie business is who's going on movie theater right now movies exist on streaming platforms now so i think these things are all becoming one thing pretty quickly just some stories tell better in two hours and some tell better in 60 or 80 or 100 that's really interesting i mean one of the things when i thought about that question was i would think that going into a movie you sort of like you know the arc you know how it ends whereas with a show that's multiple seasons you might not really know how it ends you're sort of exploring it as you go you ought to know though something about how it ends i find it's hard

to tell a story if i don't have some idea of where these characters are going to end up it is true that for a movie you absolutely have to know it and for a television series you don't absolutely have to know it but it's useful to know it and look david and i are trained our training really is in movies so we do think in terms of story in terms of beginnings middles and ends and we absolutely had a few possible endings for the series in mind pretty early on and we definitely knew how the first couple seasons we're going to to end. And I'll tell you, we cannot start writing a season of the show without knowing how the season ends. You have to be able to plant stuff. You have to be able to set the characters off on

their quest, knowing the way in which that quest is going to resolve. What do you know as a professional storyteller about the cornerstones of a good story that we don't know or we can't see well i think you do know actually i think people get bound up when they have to you know if you have to go make a speech if one has to make a speech and knows that they want to tell a story in that speech they might get really nervous because suddenly they have to write and some teacher told them that there was a form they had to adhere to and that was unnatural for them but if i put you in a coffee shop or a bar and you had to sit down with somebody and it was important for you to make them laugh or for you to keep them engaged. And I said, Shane, tell them a story that you know

people always react to. You would tell them that story and that story would have an inciting incident, the moment that it comes alive, it would have a beginning, a middle, and an end. The middle of it would probably build to some sort of a climax. There would be some sort of a resolution, and that's all the same stuff that's happening when we're telling a story professionally. I guess we're probably better at recognizing or more practice, not even better, at recognizing the stuff that gets in the way of that. But we all know how to do all of this stuff. It's all just about getting comfortable with it. It doesn't mean everybody has, I'm not being falsely humble, that doesn't mean everybody has the same utility with language that I have. That

utility with language is hard one. It comes from years of reading and writing and thinking about language. So now at a certain stage in my life, that's something that I have a great deal of control over. But that's really just sort of like a tool that I'm using. Anybody, all of us pretty much know how to keep someone else interested if it really matters to us in the right kind of story. Now, maybe it has to be the right audience. Like, you know, people go on dates all the time and sometimes you'll sit across the table from somebody and it just flows you're just able to connect on a wavelength and tell the story so and someone else could sit there in the same story might fall flat that doesn't mean you don't know how to tell it it just means that wasn't the

right audience for the story so finding you know figuring out how to get in the wavelength of an audience is again that's also something that all of us do in life i've i'm just a professional at that knowing how to do it in a fictional context is there a difference between so somebody who started in movies and then writes TV shows and somebody who started in TV shows and then writes movies? There is in a few different ways. One is that television writing is a career path in that people can come up through writing rooms. You can get a job as a writer's room assistant if you're in a writing program in college potentially or a film program, film a TV program. And then if you're in a writer's room, you can kind of learn what that means to contribute ideas in a writer's room. and work your way up the system,

and you can not count on that progression happening, but it's a progression that can happen, and it is a career path. Being a movie writer, you really have to survive by your wits. There's nothing holding you in place. There's nothing, there's sort of no safety harness. You're just floating out there,

trying to come up with the next good idea, trying to get hired, trying to sell the next spec script. I think it forces you to become an original storyteller in a way that being a TV writer coming up through the system does not. And I think it gives you an edge when it comes to being in TV coming from this other world. What are you so interested in the world of hedge funds? Was it the power dynamic between ultra wealthy people and sort of the people that are supposed to regulate them? It's the fact that walking among us were these nation states.

But that you mean billionaires. Yeah. Like their own, yeah, their own effective nation states. They are. Yeah, it's exactly right. I mean, these are people with armadas of ships and fleets of aircraft and people who will walk around them with armaments. and there's sort of nothing that they can't accomplish in a way that they want to. I mean, you would just look at the United States presidential campaign,

and the way billionaires, although they didn't win, the way billionaires were able to influence the process. And so we looked at these nation states, then we looked at these people in law enforcement, these United States attorneys who were like kings, because they have this tremendous amount of discretion as far as what they're going to prosecute when and how. And we looked at these as immovable forces we could set against one another. And that it would allow us to have a really almost a Shakespearean type of construct to tell the story.

But we'd been fascinated by hedge funders for a very, very long time. David and I started trying to write about them eight years before billions ever happened and almost did a project about them at HBO, and the last minute didn't happen because of the financial crash of 2008. And so it had long held our fascination that there were these people with this kind of outsized power and influence that most Americans weren't really aware of.

And we were also interested in why people with great wealth were held in such fascination, Why, this is long before Trump was president or even running for president, but why these characteristics like verbal acuity, a kind of thin, facile intellect, and a kind of raw charisma were standing in for real qualities of character like generosity, empathy, kindness, true intelligence, and why that first batch of characteristics seemed to capture the imagination of so much of the populace. We noticed it, and we wanted to put figures on the screen who would embody some of that

and see whether people would be able to get past just merely rooting for them to understanding that they ought to look at them with a bit more of a jaundiced eye. One of the things I love about billions is that there's a lot of points where it's really hard to tell the good guys from the bad guys. Yes. And I find myself rooting for Bobby and Chuck at different points. Yeah, well, for sure. Because the other thing we realized was a lot of these prosecutors, we looked around at people

like Giuliani and Chris Christie, and we saw that. that there were people using these positions of the public interest for their own personal good. So yes, they would do things that were for the public good, but at the same time, they were serving their own career ambitions. And when you notice that, and you notice that these people would go from a position like for the public good to running for office,

and they would campaign on things they did when they were in those offices, it made us see that those people, although those are the traditional heroes of television, series, that one ought to look at them sometimes with a bit of a jaundiced eye, too. And we wanted to put this whole thing of power, money, and influence and the legal system on display so that viewers would be forced while rooting for these people, while laughing at the funny lines, while noticing their charisma and power and fearsome intellects, they would also have to ask themselves where the moral culpability lies.

And where we are all culpable in allowing all this to take place. How do you feel that you, and I don't mean this in any negative way, but how do you feel in creating a character who's a billionaire and, you know, borderline skirts the law that people root for? You've made him so likable. Well, Damien Lewis makes him incredibly likable. He's phenomenal. The answer to your question is, why are, why were Mark Cuban and Donald Trump the two most popular reality stars? Now, Mark's a friend of mine, and I really like Mark, and I think he's a good person. But why are those, why were those figures the subject of so much fascination and adulation?

It would do us no good to make a mustache twirling villain out of acts. The way to raise the question for people is for acts to have as much personal charisma, charm, intelligence, verbal acuity, self-justification, self-mythologizing as possible, but then show him doing absolutely terrible things that we all believe people in power would do so that you have to ask yourself, why am I rooting for this guy? who should I really be rooting for? What does it mean that I'm rooting for him? What does it say about our culture? What does it make me ask myself about where I'm placing my loyalties? How should I act differently in my regular life? Now, look, we're primarily trying to allow you to be entertained, to have a good time watching our show, to laugh. But we definitely want these questions to linger. And it's much more effective to, to us anyway, to create a guy who would fool you in life on the show. I'd rather someone who would fool you in the real world because maybe in watching it and asking yourself that question, you won't be fooled as easily in the real world next time.

We here in our country put somebody in office who's utterly incapable of managing this pandemic, utterly disinterested in managing this pandemic, except as to the way in which the pandemic redounds his judgment on him. He has no empathy and no critical thinking skills in this area. But what he was a guy who portrayed himself as rich and sat on a gold throne and Americans were fooled. And so I have an obligation to put an even better version of that guy on television, or various versions of that guy, right, acts is way smarter than Trump and way more personally engaging. But you have to put people like that on TV so that the audience will be forced to ask themselves the question. That's a good way to put it.

Can you take me behind the scenes a little bit into your favorite scene and walk me through it? Or a scene. I won't ask you to pick your favorite child. Yeah, it's more just, I can't look at the show that way. You know, I'm so in it when I'm making it. I can tell you that there are episodes that I think are particularly special, you know, where different themes rise to the top. I'm always interested in what other people respond to.

And I think when the show is finished, it'll be easier for me to sort of catalog things in the way that you're asking for. That makes sense. Is it, like, what keeps you from being a perfectionist? Like, how do you know when enough is enough? Because you sound like the type of person who, and I'm just guessing, so correct me if I'm wrong,

it tends towards perfectionism. well the like we do have a time there's time pressure that's but yeah we're crazy perfectionist david and i will work on a cut of the show meaning editing the episodes i mean right up until the last moment that we can before they take it out of our hands well i would say this i would say being a perfectionist in this regard is useful but we do have to deliver the show by a date certain each time so that that is a guardrail against sort of insanity what keeps you going like with all the success you've had like what keeps you motivated to wake up in the morning and just sure keep going after this work makes me the work makes me feel it does make me feel alive you know it's the same

reason i do my podcast the moment is i made the decision when i was 30 that i was going to follow my curiosity and the things that fascinated me. And as long as I'm doing that, I feel like a version of myself that I want to spend time with. For me, I think that in anybody's career, you got to take care of your family. You have to make money. I'm not a Pollyanna-ish idealist in that way. But if you can find a way to do work that makes you feel fulfilled, it's really easy. A part of keeping at it becomes much easier. Listen, it's, it's a lot of. It's a hard business, my business, it requires a tremendous amount of commitment a lot of time. But the rewards are outsized too, Shane, right? The rewards in terms of people telling me

how much they dig the thing, you know, the sort of feedback I get, the financial rewards. I mean, all of it is outsized to, especially considering I just love doing it. So what keeps me going is all of it, man. I mean, it's much harder to ask somebody. who's, you know, riding the back of a garbage truck every day, what keeps them going, which is, of course, what keeps them going is the need to put food on the table and take care of their family and the sense of a job well done and all that other stuff. But someone who has the opportunity to do what I do who wouldn't want to keep going, I have a hard time relating to.

But you are that dream for a lot of people, right? Like you're financially successful. You're outwardly successful in terms of recognition and creating something people value. and then you get to a point where you could walk away and sail off into the sunset, but you keep going, and I love that. Well, I think it's really important to say that a long career in Hollywood has a lot of ups and downs. I mean, in 2013, I thought I was drummed out of the business. David and I wrote a movie that completely bombed at the box office.

It was a disaster on Rotten Tomatoes. We were involved in a high-profile project that was going to be on HBO and it never happened. We got fired from it before it even begun. And we had a movie agent call us and basically, tell us it's possible that our career was over. And it was out of that that we started writing billions. And so I had those conversations with my wife in 2013. My wife Amy Koppelman is a filmmaker too. And I remember having a conversation about whether we'd have to sell our apartment and downsize and how we were going to look at it. We were not living extravagantly.

We've never lived extravagantly. And I remember really feeling like this might come to a crashing halt. And then I remembered being 30. And I remember, and I remembered the only way to gain control of this is to control the stuff that I can handle, which means showing up again and starting to write again. And so that was 2013, and by 2015, we were in production on the pilot of billions and able to sort of shift into this other gear. And so I never take it for granted that it's going to continue. I'm responsible about the money. Amy and I are responsible about the financial part of it so that I won't be in a position where I have to sell my apartment ever again, I hope. But I have absolutely been right up

against it because of my commitment to this particular career. And, you know, the whims of a town like Hollywood can absolutely go any which way. So one has to love this work enough to withstand it. Did that put a lot of strain on your relationship with Amy? No, that's the luckiest thing in my life is that, like, we married, we each married the right person for us. So, no, we were in it together. We're really lucky in that way. We were too young to make a rational decision. Shane, like, I was 25 and Amy was 22 when we, I guess I just turned 26 when we got married.

Like, oh, no, I was 25 and then I turned 26, I guess 20 days later. But we just happened to pick the right person and we just fit. And we have incredibly on it. I'd say a lot of people's favorite episode of my podcast is the one that Amy was on. And it was when her movie, I Smile Back, was coming out. And we had a great combo about all this stuff. And I would say it's a real great peek into a functional marriage that has withstood whatever disappointments from the outside by sort of being together. That's amazing.

It's really good to hear. It's so lucky, dude. It's just super luck. What have you learned, I would say, maybe in the last 20 years, sort of about living a meaningful life? Well, it's something I think about a lot. This is where you get into trouble talking about this stuff. But I think it's because it's nothing novel, right? It's a life that involves doing work you think is meaningful, being good to as many people as you possibly can, contributing in whatever ways you can. in a societal way. And I try to do all that stuff the best I can.

I mean, for Amy and me, raising our kids was the single most meaningful thing. By far, it's the thing that gave our lives meaning. That and doing work that we cared about. I mean, that takes care of a huge, a huge part of it, right? And then trying to be there for as many people as you can in whatever way you can. Again, that stuff is, it's basic. and I think in different phases of your life you can do different parts of it

you can do more of it you mentioned being there for other people are you there for yourself like in what ways do you need to put your own mask on first to power you to be there for other people say more about that what do you mean your own mask like how do you take care of yourself to give you the strength and energy

to take care of other people well I think that goes back to like the stuff we talked about like meditation and morning pages and exercise I mean these things which are hard to yourself to do. They are, they sound like just received wisdom or something, but the thing is that they work. I guess the only other thing is like the way the Tibetans talk about it, you know, contemplate your death. That makes a lot of things very clear too, right? If you really try to understand the concept of death, it does help clarify a lot about the concept of life

and how you should live. But it's mostly simple things. I mean, oh, well, one thing for me is eating well. If I eat well, eating and sleeping, those things are really important. Eating well and sleeping well, meaning not eating too much like, you know, sugar and flour. Talk to me more about the death.

Do you talk to yourself about this often? Is it like spontaneous? Is it like scheduled? Is it... Again, if you go back to the podcast to do with Amy, we talk about it a lot on there, it's just having an understanding of the finite nature of life. And A lot of that comes from reading, right?

If you read a lot, which I do, you come to see that this theme of, when I talk about the human condition before, right, the fact, there's this great singer-songwriter named Slade Cleaves, S-L-A-I-D-Cleaves, who has a song called Cry, where he says, everything you love will be taken away. And if you walk through life with the knowledge of that, that everything you love is going to be gone someday. For me, it makes me love harder. It makes me aware of how fortunate I am to be present in this moment, talking to you here, knowing that the people I love are breathing and living and thriving. And it makes me want to be more expansive, more giving, and more connected. Because, you know, there's a line of billions where Bobby Axelrod is making a speech to his whole, all of Acts Capital and he says in the great expanse of time we're already dead and that's something

that I believe right if you look at the great expanse of time we're not even a dot the dot is already over it's already in the past and so we may as well be super connected to the fact that we're here and alive right now. It's also empowering to help you go after what you want. Yes. Right? Like to live your dreams. Well, to help you focus on on what that means. What do you, what you want? I think a lot of people don't even consciously think about it. And then unconsciously, they just sort of go about like, what do I want today? What do I want today? And then they wake up. Yes. And you're at the end of your life. You sort of like realize that, oh, these things that really matter to me at this point, I didn't see earlier. Sure, Shane. That's the gift.

of the morning pages and meditation. Do you meditate? Do you do any of that stuff? I do. I'm not as ritualistic as I want to be about it. I often do it before bed. Yeah, that's great too. But sometimes I'm so exhausted, I just fall asleep, right?

Yeah, I just think like those things allow you to check in and allow you not to get in a situation where, like you said, you're just chasing sort of short-term endorphin hits. And look, all of us chase short-term endorphin hits sometimes. All of us go through periods of time where we are going after the more thin pleasures than the thicker, deeper, richer pleasures. So you can't hold yourself out to a standard that's impossible to achieve either. It's not that I'm not also fall prey to those other things.

We all do, right? I'm not a Tibetan monk. I'm not sitting out in the woods. I'm engaged in the material world. But I just try to also have an awareness of what that means and of what's important at a deeper level. And I think times like this, like what we're all going through as a society right now with COVID-19, coronavirus with social distancing, it's a great time to practice getting in touch with that stuff. It's a great time. And I'll say the work that I have done personally really pays off in a time

like this because I'm able. And again, it doesn't mean I never freak out. It doesn't mean I never get anxious. Of course, I do. I'm a human being. But it does mean that I have certain tools I've stoked to be prepared to deal with it. I want to talk about two things where we brought this up. That was beautiful. I want to go into failure. You mentioned you had a box office failure. I think it was 2013. How did you think about that? Did you think about that as like, you know, a certain percentage of movies are going to fail? This happened to be one. Or did you walk away from that going like, oh, like I failed. I need to do something different. Like how did you, how did you think about that situation? Every, no, that was a really brutal, I mean, that was a brutal

blow part of that was that in the making of that it was a very difficult fraught filming process or process if you'd prefer and it um was i knew the movie was going to be bad and so i was waiting and waiting for it to be released knowing it was terrible and i did really get a call from a film agent basically saying your careers might be over you might not be hireable unless you find a way to write yourself out of this. And so it was cataclysmic, man. And it required all those resources. I'd started meditating a couple years before that,

which was incredibly helpful. But it was jarring. You know, I used to walk across Central Park to go to my office, and on a normal day, crossing the park would take 25 minutes. And I'd say in the shadow of that movie coming out, I was walking so slowly, it would take me like an hour and 20 minutes to get through the park because I was just so beat up and miserable.

But then you start to do things. I started my podcast in the shadow of that. I started making these vines that were called six second screenwriting lessons where I was talking to people about giving themselves permission to do this creative work. And I was really talking to myself and trying to remind myself that I didn't need some authority figure to tell me I was hireable that I had a career. You know, these are lessons we have to relearn over and over again, man. They're not, I wish life were so simple that once you made a distinction for yourself, you were able to just cue to it. But the truth is we get knocked off course by life's events. And if we don't remind ourselves of first principles consciously, we can just drift.

So you have to remind yourself of first principles and then you have to lock down again and then you have to move forward. I love that. Talk to me about reading. You're a big reader. What are you reading now? I'm reading a wonderful book right now that's not out yet. It's about ostensibly about Tiger Woods, but it's about a lot more than that. It's written by this guy named Michael Bamberger, who's a great writer. Bamberger wrote this incredible book about a Mike Chalemelan's making of Lady in the Water, and this book is about how Tiger put himself back together to win the Masters.

And it's just a beautiful book. And then I just asked Twitter for a bunch of book recommendations, and I think the next book I'm going to read is a novel called Ohio, but I'm forgetting the author's name right now. Are you mostly reading fiction? I rotate. I rotate between. nonfiction and fiction what appeals to you the most of it the tiger woods story is it the

comeback after failure is it the like what draws you into that story as a person well we could have a whole podcast on tiger woods but tiger's sort of an obsession of mine he's my I always say my my favorite sports team is the next but tiger woods is my second favorite sports team and I do find the fact that he was able to marshal his resources one more time in that way. It was just stunning. Also, my son was like two when Tiger won the first masters, and it's just been a, it's something that ties my father,

who's 80, me and my son all together. When Tiger's playing well, we're all talking to each other, we're all connected. I mean, it's a great magic of sport. That's a great way to end this. Thank you so much, Brian. I really appreciate you taking the time. Thank you, Shane.

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