Live Like a Girl with Dr. Mindy Pelz - Redefining the definition of beauty - with Diane Kazer

Episode Date: August 24, 2020

// E P I S O D E   S P O N S O R S  Dry Farm Wine is our Sponsor for today's episode. Get a bottle of wine for a penny! The Detox Market is our Sponsor for today's episode. Get 10% off your first order today!  // R E A D Y • S E T • R E S E T This episode is all about finding the self-love key to unlock your body's innate intelligence, heal your symptoms, and transform your life.   Diane Kazer is a pro soccer player turned Functional Diagnostic Nutrition Practitioner, Courage Coach, and Holistic Beauty Expert. Diane has been through many health struggles and with empathy and fierce leadership, is your go-to girl to break through anything, no matter what you've tried or what you've been told. In this podcast, we cover:  Waking up to America's beauty standards in the media   Understanding the five love languages and speaking your truth   Shame can be central to a woman's body – it's time to reprogram our minds   How breast implants could be the reason why you're not feeling well  Discovering the toxic truth about breast implants and overcoming breath implant illness  Why Botox could be aging you   Overcoming toxic beauty and joining the non-toxic beauty revolution // R E S O U R C E S   M E N T I O N E D Diane Kazer Cleanse Heal Ignite Killer Breasts Book // F O L L O W Instagram | @dr.mindypelz & @theresetterpodcast Facebook | /drmindypelz & /theresetterpodcast Youtube | /drmindypelz Please note the following medical disclaimer: By listening to this podcast you understand that this video is for educational purposes only. It is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice and should not be relied on as health or personal advice. Always seek the guidance of your doctor with any questions you may have regarding your health or medical condition.  

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steps that help you tap into your own internal healing power. The purpose of this podcast is to give you the power back and help you believe in yourself again. My name is Dr. Mindy Pels, and I want to thank you for spending part of your day with me. Okay, resetters, I have an incredible interview for you. So I want you to meet my next guest, Diane Kaysar. She has an incredible story of toxicity that every woman needs to hear. She is, her story starts with the fact that she actually was a professional soccer player. She was a competitive athlete who became a bodybuilder and then decided to get breast implants and became very sick, very quickly. And what I want to point is, out in this interview and why I want you to hang in there through the whole interview is that her story is actually many women's stories, whether you got implants or you are using beauty

products that are toxic or you've had Botox. She goes right to the root of the mindset that is leading us to toxic beauty and the toxic beauty products that are leading us to our health problems that we are now considering to be normal. We're labeling as menopause and weight loss resistance, but they all started from a culture that has encouraged us to look a certain way. And this is such a powerful interview, don't you think, Jess? Yeah. Well, especially for this time, I think, of our life where everything, I mean, media is so big. We're stuck scrolling on Instagram and comparing ourselves to other people, especially as women, especially. especially as young girls that have access to, you know, this amount of information that we have

available to us now. Yeah, she talks in here about like all the programming that happens to women that make us for that, that I would say force because we not even are subconsciously make us make decisions around our health that are dangerous because we're trying to look a certain way. And we don't even realize that like I had my own ahas in. listening to her talk. Yeah, just the programming of what we're supposed to be like or what we're supposed to act like or what we're supposed to look like and that we start to talk ourselves into this like mythical ideal person rather than addressing our own, like what we individually want, what we individually want to do how we feel about ourselves. Yeah, we've lost touch.

We've lost touch. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And so I, you guys really, this is a, is an interview that I feel like every woman should hear. Definitely if you have a daughter, every mother of a daughter should hear this. You know, I wish I had had this conversation when my daughter was really young because the programming piece of toxic beauty is so important. And she's very vulnerable. She's very real. And she'll explain how this programming really led her to make decisions that that got her very sick. So, and then she'll talk about how she started to unwind that and how she's on a healing path. So, you know, if you're in menopause and you're struggling with your hormones, if you're weight loss resistant, if you're having trouble sleeping, if you're like out of answers for

what is going on with your health, this is one of the more comprehensive podcasts we've done that will help you start to put your own puzzle back together. So Diane Kazar, this was a, incredible. So enjoy resetters. I hope this touches you as much as it touched us. Okay. Let's start with this question. I actually didn't know this about you and I've had several conversations with you that you were a professional soccer player. Yeah. Did I miss that part of your story? Is that it's not something, I mean, it's part of the bio, but it's not something I'm like, oh, hey, I was a pro soccer player. it's a big part of why like your personality too like something pisses me off and I think I want to go slide tackle the source of the toxic information or you know the push for vaccines I'm like I want to go slide tackle Bill Gates so hard so oh gosh yeah yeah yeah so it's definitely a big part of my journey still that competitive athlete that wants to like win against the dark yeah so and just to fill in our our listeners we are going to dive into toxicity like I can't wait to pick your brain about beauty toxins and we're going to talk about, you know, the process of getting breast implants

and getting them out. But what I love is really the person that went through this journey is so important for us to all to get to know. And as an athlete myself, I was a collegiate tennis player. And I actually wanted to be a professional tennis player. And I got lost somewhere along my dream and didn't end up doing it. But what I do know is that the mindset of an athlete, is a really interesting mindset and you never lose it, even when the athletics are over, you keep carrying that, like you said, that competitive, driven mindset and it shows up in other areas of your life. And don't you think? Yeah, I mean, it's another, there's a shadow and the light side to it as there is everything. I don't like to label things as good or bad because

that's really a judgment of our ego and how we were raised and perspectives and personalities. in projections, but shadow or light, like a shadow decision that I made to compete, air quotes, was to get breast implants because I was a bikini competitor and I was 10% body fat and I didn't have anything. I was looking down going, oh, I don't look like a woman anymore. So that was kind of a shadow side choice that I chose to betray my body to fit into this what other judges would deem as perfectly shaped or symmetrical, you know, sexy, beautiful, whatever the case may be. But I still found the light side in the end of it with the message that I got for my breast implants, which the message I got from spirit was, do not remove your breast implants until you have

learned the lesson that you got them to teach you. Interesting. Interesting. So, okay, we're going to dive into the breast implants in a moment, but I have to just point out that the athletic body typically isn't one with large breasts. So if you were a pro soccer player, like when you were playing soccer, having large breasts just in general was probably not to your advantage. Would you agree? Yeah, I was probably about that time. And I'll be totally candid throughout this whole interview about, you know, I have pictures. Yeah, I have pictures of my book of what my breasts look like before and then what they look like with breast implants and then after because a lot of women are

really programmed to want to look like what we have been programmed to want to look like is what is defined. But yeah, as a as a as a professional soccer player, as an athlete of all kinds, I was about 34cish, but they were sagging and they were like they were falling up kind of cleavage just coming apart. And then they were gone when I was an athlete, 10% body fat, 135 pounds, 5 foot 7. And so yeah, as an athlete, it's like we're not really taught that in our programming. that it's okay to have smaller breasts as an athlete. We're taught that, you know, you need to look like a woman. And a woman has double D's.

I mean, watch Baywatch. Watch family Anderson. Come on, girls. Yeah. So true. It's so true. And, you know, so I was a tomboy growing up, and I played Little League and was the only girl on the Little League team.

And I just loved sports. And I actually chose tennis because the only role model out there that was feminine and athletic was Chris Everett. Remember Chris Everett? And so as a young, impressionable, like, you know, 10-year-old, which is about when I decided to choose to pick tennis and not be the tomboy that played Little League, is I was like, well, she's beautiful. She's like feminine, and she is an athlete. So why don't I pick her? And then fast forward to the World Cup when we were actually at the finals of the World Cup with Brandy Chastain and Mia Hamm, where they won. And I remember having this moment of looking at these incredibly athletic women that were also incredibly feminine in the way like I looked at it. And then Brandy takes off her shirt and shows, you know,

her bra. And I'm like, oh my God, if I had grown up with that as my role model, you know, I probably would have played soccer. I would have done something different. But I do think there is, there is something about mixing the athlete with the feminine that wasn't around in younger years, but is now more prevalent. And I don't know if you feel that. Yeah, I totally agree with you. There's, I think we're swinging that pendulum, right, because I'm 41 right now. And I played against Brandy Chastain, too. Oh, did you? Yeah. He's my son's soccer coach. No, wait. Like right now? Yeah. So I actually, I actually interact with her a lot. I'm trying to bring her on the podcast,

but she's the nicest human being. She is so emotionally intelligent, and she is just a frickin rock star when an athlete. Yeah, she is. She was older when I was playing and I was younger. I played with Megan Rapino, too, who most people know is like the number one score in our women's World Cup team now.

I played with her for about six years. So I had the fortunate gift of playing with a lot of these really high-class athletes in California, Northern California, where you live. I was in Sacramento. And so I was in the Bay Area all the time. That's where I was playing against Brandy, actually. And so, yeah, when my mom was a child that was 40 years ago,

there wasn't a whole lot of sports for women. And so there was like this transition point, and you were part of that, Mind, because you're like 10, what, 10 years? Yeah, I'm 10 years older than you. I'll be 51 in October. Yeah. And so we're both Libres. It sounds like maybe you had that.

Nice. Yes. Best zodiac sign out there. Yes. the transition where you were, so you're in the 50s, I'm in your 50s, I'm in my 40s. So you were the transition point where women just started to play sports. And so it was more of the manly role in the athletic capability, agility. And so you guys really paved the way for us to step into the role of athlete and it being more acceptable. And then the layer after me, who's

making Rapino, it's like, wow, talk about empowerment to be anything that you want to be in there instead of it just being like a super, you know, really butchy masculine thing is that I noticed there was a lot of that. When I played pro soccer in Germany in Hamburg for the Bundesliga, there was many women there that, you know, appeared like and moved like masculine energy. And so, yeah, I think right now it's not just because you play sports that you're masculine. You can still be feminine and strong. And this is like that warrior archetype energy that I believe that we need right now for women to step up, especially the times that we're in. Absolutely.

Oh, my God. That is such an insightful moment because I never looked at it that way. It was like my decision, 10 years before you came into the sports world, you know, was if you want to be athletic, then there you probably, you know, where does the feminine fit in? Then your generation comes in and it's like you can be athletic and feminine. And now the generation, what I'm hearing you say is like, you can be whatever you want. You can be feminine, you can be masculine, you can be a badass woman who is a great athlete,

and you don't have to have a persona that's necessarily feminine or masculine. You'd be whatever you want, which is really cool that we're moving to that place. So, okay, so tell us you left soccer and then you went to bodybuilding, which I'm not going to lie. like, what was I thinking? What? Like, that has to be the, like, talk about cutting your ego down. Like, what is it like to be a bodybuilder and what attracted you into bodybuilding? Yeah, it definitely was a lot of ego, I would say, extremes, highs and lows.

When you're a competitor, there's just this drive within you that wants to always be the best. And I think that that's what also makes me a powerful coach, too, because I can see where someone and feel where someone is holding back. And I have the emotional sense and the empathic skills to know how to nudge them. Do they need to be nudged this way or this way? Because everybody's motivated and inspired, you know, those four different types of personality archetypes. There's the driver, there's the amiable, there's expressive,

and then there's the analytical. And I learned that as a financial planner. 20. So it's like, how do people like to be inspired? Instead of doing it your way, you observe them and help to motivate them. So when I sold my financial planning practice at the age of 29, I moved down to Southern California, Orange County. And oh my God, I just moved away from there too, and I moved to Sedona, Arizona. Oh, my God. Talk about culture shock going from Orange County to Sedona, you know, you go from this super competitive plastic competing needing to be seen to super spiritual and connected with the planet and really wanting to do what's right to save

Mother Earth, our home and being outdoors versus drinking and competing and being on yachts and things. So there is this, there was this pressure, like the sense of pressure that I felt around me. And I'm not blaming it on that because I caved into it, right? It was like you are a product for your environment. So my environment was, I've always wanted to, you know, continue on my athletic ability. So I still always played soccer. I ruptured my Achilles 10 in last year at the age of 40, which I saw you in the boot. So right after I remove my breast in, so I think it. Oh, interesting. I know. I put in my book, too, because when I talk about a lot of this stuff in my book, Killer Breasts, which many will put some links below you guys can get. Go ahead. No, I'll put links in

because this is a book that needs to get out to people. Yeah, and Mindy has, you know, you guys get that book and you get a ton of bonuses and stuff and included in that. So, you know, don't just buy the book for Amazon. Follow Mindy's link. I ruptured my Achilles Senate about six weeks after I remove my breast implants. And we could talk about that later as a little side note because there's a lot to hear about this.

But when I moved to Orange County, I still wanted to stay athletic. I've always been a gym rat. I love the gym. I like, that's my meditation. That's where I like to go inside and just, that's my me time. I don't go there to be seen and compete. I just go there because I, I feel like it channels my inner strength and manages my brain and my mental acuity, my sharpness,

my, I get a lot of downloads, spiritual downloads that I can share, creativity, dopamine, narapine, all the things, you know, serotonin. Totally agree. And it's underutilized. So I went there. I started going to a gym. I started personal training again because I've always done a little bit that on the side since I was 17.

And I got my body to this place where I was like, wow, I got really strong here. Like, what happened? And I was training with this guy who trained a lot of the actors for the movie 330. What is it called? It's really strong warrior guys. And I thought, what can I do with this body? I'm really strong. Do I do a competition?

Do I, you know, do outdoor trail events? Do I do like a warrior, whatever that's called a warrior training? And he said, oh, you can start doing some competitions. And I said, oh, okay, well, what does that look like? And before you know what, I was sponsored by metrics and I was doing big bodybuilding competition as I qualified for nationals. And then I just allowed myself. I allowed myself to get sucked into how I needed to shape and mold and cut and mask and fit into this space that says, here's what defines beauty. Here's what defines strength. Here's what defines a first place

winner. And I lost myself, Mindy. I lost myself. Yeah. In bikinis and blingy bikinis, clear heels, standing on stage, the lights, I lost myself. I have so much to say on that topic. I, you know, I did the opposite move. I grew up in L.A. I actually grew up in Malibu. I always say that I was blessed to grow up in Malibu. And then I got a tennis scholarship to go to University of Kansas.

So to go from L.A. to the Midwest was like, whoa, this is totally different. And when I was done with school and moved back into L.A., I looked at L.A. with New Eye. and I had a very similar experience as far as I had an aha moment. Like if I stay here any longer, I am going to start to live what I would call an outside in life. I'm going to care more about my car. I'm going to care more about my looks.

And so we actually, I met my husband at the time, we gravitated up to Northern California because I was like, I need out of this environment so that I can ground myself. So I totally hear you in that story. I'm like, oh, man, I know that culture. And I can't even imagine adding bodybuilding to that where nobody cares about your spirit. Nobody cares about what kind of a person you are. You are just being judged 100% on your body. Yeah.

And that would eat anybody up. Yeah, it did. And it did. And that thing is, is I allowed it. And I'm grateful for it because I don't believe that we can know what to do in this life and who we really are until we learn who we're really not. So that allowed me to strip away the layers of who I thought the world needed me to be so that I can get needs met, which are, you know, approval, love to be seen and to really be a part of something. Including the listeners into this whole story, it's just because this is a story about my bodybuilding and my soccer, this is a journey about us all. This is a story about how we all shift shape and surrender and people please to fit in so that we're not abandoned.

that someone will just love us and someone will just see us as beautiful or tell us that we're beautiful because right now it's a very tumultuous and seemingly unsafe world and we just want to be safe. You know, primally as women, we just want to feel safe. We want to feel secure. We want to be loved and know that we're acknowledged for the effort we're putting into the work we're doing in this world. And I got it there, but it was very superficial. It was very short term. And it almost killed me. Yeah. And thank you for making that point because I think if you're listening to this to understand that for Diane, it was about, okay, I'm competing and then I decided to get breast implants, which again, we'll talk about in a moment. But for other people,

I will tell you as a 50-year-old woman, several of my friends are like, I'm getting Botox, I'm doing, I'll get a facelift if I need to get a facelift. Like, I will do anything I can to slow the aging process down. And I feel like it's, as women, we are. We are more powerful than that. We should show up in a bigger way than just look at me. I'm beautiful. How about we show up in a way of look at me? I'm capable of so many things. I'm capable of contributing to the world in ways beyond my beauty. And then if I want to be beautiful, I can be beautiful too. But I feel like for women more than men, we are really taught that our biggest asset is either our looks or not our looks. Do you feel like that's true? I don't know how much I'm going to let to talk about this stuff and you can edit it out later if you'd like. Go for it. Okay.

You know, conspiracy theorists and people throw out that term and it's just annoying to me because a lot of things that have been talked about are actually happening. There's something called MK Ultra and you could look that up. And it is an actual system program design where they take famous leaders in the field of entertainment, like TV, shows, movies, magazine ads, performers, makeup artists, and anything and anywhere in between where women are young women. It starts at a very, very young age, are taught to idolize. You know, Miley Cyrus and Taylor Swift and Christina Aguilera and Britney Spears. At a really young age, Disney brings them up so that we young girls are idolizing these women. And then we're like, oh, well, that's what beauty looks like, right?

And then these women, so if we're five and they're 10 or 15 or whatever, we look at them and then they're 10 years ahead of us. So when we're 10, like you said, right, they're 20 and they're starting to mature and they're independent and they're starting to shift their shapes because they're paid to a lot of money to. And they have surrendered their soul so that they get paid a lot of money in order to, shape shifts so that we then idolize them. And there's a lot of research on this. So you guys can go down a pretty steep rabbit hole to see how a lot of this happens. Yeah, I totally believe it. What did you say

it was called again? M.K. Like Michelle Kaser. That's my name, Diane Michelle Kayser. Again. MK.K. Ultra. And, you know, like Lady Gaga and people, they end up having their own makeup lines. And then in these makeup lines, they're extremely toxic ingredients. And their face, are they spend two hours on one image and these magazine ads, but we don't know these things. And we look at J-Lo. And I mean, I'm not saying these people are terrible people, but it's just, it's been their choice to be the stage for what is beauty. And we are so afraid of dying, so afraid of aging that we literally, like you said, we will go to the extremes and poison our body dying to be beautiful and to be dropped dead gorgeous. And it is, it's literally,

programmed into our pineal gland. And so all we're thinking is, I need to look like that. Look at how much fame she gets. Look how much money. Look how much attention. That must be the formula. So I got to keep up. And it costs us a lot of money and it costs us our life and our health. And it's not even a conscious decision because it's been implanted through media. And so you, like I can cry listening to that. It's, you know, one of the most enlightening experiences for me has been raising a daughter and really making conscious choices of how I wanted to raise my child. I didn't want to, I wanted to make sure I didn't always give her praise for, oh, you look so beautiful. And so I read a book early on when she was young that was said something along the

lines of the same things you're saying, where remember our children are watching like Cinderella. and in Cinderella, they say that you're waiting, that, you know, literally she's waiting for the prince to save her from the evil step sisters. Yes. And so the book went on to talk about, like, if you have a daughter, talk with your daughter about, like, do you need to wait for the man? Why was she doing that? I remember Sleeping Beauty having a conversation with my daughter and saying, I wonder why she can't

wake up without a man. It seems like maybe there would be another way to wake her up just to start to create different implants. into her brain. And she had this, right, no pun intended. She still has this gorgeous blonde hair and she had it when she was really little. And we would be in the market and people would stop and go, oh my gosh, your hair, you're so beautiful, what a beautiful little girl you are. So she kept getting all this reinforcement.

And every time somebody would say that, I would jump in and say, and she's really smart too. And she's an incredible athlete too. And she's really creative. Like I would just put another thing out there so that it didn't get her brain. It warped. But man, when you raise a daughter, how society wants to do exactly what you just said. And if you're not conscious of it, now you've got somebody who's in their 20s or their 30s,

and they're still looking for that outside validation and suffering because they don't realize they were conditioned to look for it. Yeah, absolutely. And I think this is such a big point. part of the work that I do with my clients. And it's the reason why we have so much healing where women have tried, you know, and you hear this all the time too, Wendy, or Mindy, it's like, I have done everything. I've done the labs. I work with all the doctors. I've done all the things, the detoxes, the cleanses, the supplements, all the things, right? I've meditated with monks and caves and whatever. They've done extreme things. And I applaud you all for your persistence.

what a lot of people have not gotten, and this is by no one's fault of their own, is how to sit with yourself and really question, how is I programmed? You may have heard the love languages, and there's all different kinds of things that you could research. I start that with my women as like, let's get some awareness of who you think you are and who you think you need to be, in other words, you're programming. Right. And then as we dive deeper with the work that we do with them, they get to discover and uncover through cleansing all the toxins and trauma, chisling those all away, and finding out the core of who they really truly are in their heart and their soul and the mission that they came here to serve in the world. And then they can feel free because

they're chiseling away little prison bars every time. I have a whole image that I share. It's the 10 prison bars of the perfection prison, I call it, which is how we've all been programmed. And I admit, one of the greatest challenges that I've overcome in this lifetime is that I got a lot of praise when I was younger from my father and also being a professional athlete and then a bikini competitor. I was always thinking to be the best. So I got a lot of praise. I got a lot of praise as a young child and my love language became words of affirmation. Yeah. Might too. Yeah. Yeah. And you tend to give what you want, right? Yeah. So true. You give what you think that others want because you project that that's what they want because that's what you want.

because that's what you want. And then you look through the lenses of your own eyes and project that onto others, assuming that that's what's going to make them feel good. But some people see words of affirmation as seductive. And so maybe there's as touch. Those five love languages are really fundamental thing that I walk with my clients with their partners

to apply it then to their children or then to their people that they work with, their bosses, or parents. You don't just give people what they want or what you want. You give people what it is that makes, them feel good. And so words of affirmation becomes mostly women, mostly women like words of affirmation, and then men become touch usually. But then, of course, there's the other ones too in there. And so I became someone who felt loved when I was getting words. And so I got programmed that way.

And I've done a lot of work to not only just accept that, that's how I was programmed and that's okay and that's not my fault, but also to express that in my partnerships or whomever that, hey look it feels really good to me just to be praised for something i've done good that i'm trying to do to help you and to teach people to express gratitude and to see the things in life that they may not have even noticed of like the flower on that tree maybe you're just too filled up with a fight that you had or what someone's not doing for you and you can't even see the flowers so it's starting to understand yourself and communicating what it is that your love languages and your needs are so that you're not trying to prove yourself all the time and just getting that food that you're not realizing on how your program, it's okay. It's all okay.

There's nothing wrong with you. You're not broken. You're a program this way. And that's all right. You just communicate it to people. And then that's how you find your matches in life. And that's what it is. You speak your truth, speak your voice. And maybe the thyroid disease goes away, wink, wink. Right. Well, but I love what you said about women and going back to let's look at your programming before we start to teach you how to detox or before we start to teach you because the way that I've phrased it before is a lot of people will come to alternative health. But when they come, they bring the mindset of conventional medicine. In conventional medicine, it's one problem, one diagnosis, one pill. And if that pill's not working,

I try another pill or I try another doctor. When you come over to alternative medicine, it doesn't work like that. And you just gave me another layer of like, let's look at your programming, because I can give you all the supplements you want. I can teach you the fanciest diet, but I can teach you how to fast. But if you're programming is that you need to look like you're slowing the aging process down or you need to have bigger breasts or your waist needs to be a certain size, then that needs to be handled first.

I think that was just beautifully said. That was amazing. Wow, thanks, Wendy. Yeah, so tell me how there's a story. here about how you, it wasn't just the bodybuilding that made you want to have breast implants. It wasn't just the programming, but there was a trigger. There was a photographer that made a comment to you. And I think we all have those moments that you make a conscious decision because somebody says something to you. Talk a little bit about that. I appreciate that. That's such a powerful experience. You know,

those moments that are the ones that you hear someone say something and you either say it to yourself inside or you say it out loud like I did. It's like, oh, that didn't bother me. If you have to say that it didn't bother you, then oftentimes it means that it really is. And so I was like, oh, screw you. So what he said to me, I was out at my very first photo shoot when I became bodybuilder and I at that time was 10% body bad. And I was all proud of myself. I was just getting ready to do my first show. 10%? Hold on a second. Not healthy. Did you have a period? Did you have a period with 10% body fat? No, you know, you know it was stupid back then too that I was doing? And I'm not saying I was stupid. Notice that I'm not shaming myself. I just didn't know better. Ladies,

please hear me out when I speak like this because I don't want you to continue to talk to yourself the way that you've been taught to talk to yourself, which is 90% of our thoughts are limiting beliefs and self-sabotaging. So this shame root is the deepest one that we almost address. I was doing depo provera at the time, which is a birth control and it's progesterone, our official progesterone. And I didn't have a period for like eight years. I thought that was so cool. Not so healthy for you. Yeah. So I wasn't ever appearing for a long time anyway. And then I got a Morena IUD, five-year IUD, and that felt like it was going to kill me. Took that out in two weeks. Then I got the 10-year IUD, the copper IUD. I kept that one in for about four.

four years until I was noticing my health decline. So I have a lot of history with a lot of bees. And there's 10 toxic bees in our lives, birth control, Botox, breast implants, you know, with a bully within, beauty toxic products. There's all kinds of things. I talk about this in my book, too. And I will in my second book. Because the emotional component of this whole journey is what a lot of women don't realize. But anyway, I'll go back to my point here, is that I was at this shoot and definitely not having a period. And he's like, Diane, if you want to make it in this industry, you're going to need double Ds. And I was like, double Ds. Uh-huh. I was like double Ds. I don't even know what that looks like or feels like. And I was like, hey, okay. And I just said okay or something.

I let him keep taking pictures. And then he said it again. And then I ignore him again. And the third time he said it, I swore. Can you just shut the front door and just take the pictures, please, I really want to feel comfortable here. And by that point, I was feeling very uncomfortable. I was probably really rigid. I was not feeling appreciated for my body the way that it was. And I text message to my cousin and said, hey, I'm in the forest of this location. I'm not really sure about this guy. I finished the photo shoot, but what never finished is that seed, that weed, that I should say, that got planted in my ego and made me feel inadequate. And I started looking around and I started noticing that the women who were winning their pro cards or who were on the

cover of oxygen, because he said that if you want to get in the cover of oxygen magazine, you're going to need double Ds like the rest of the women who are competing. And obviously, if I was secure within myself and loved my body as it was, I would have been like, screw you. And it really wouldn't have bothered me. Yeah. But it did. And so I would also like to add to that that I don't think this guy's a bad person. He's also been programmed to, you know. That's a good point. Men have I've been programmed that women that are hot and sexy are the 36 2436. Some guys like the duck lips now. And you guys, this is no, I'm not judging anybody with this because I was this for a long time.

I am not judging my former self either. I'm very kind to my former self because I was just doing my best. And I'm stronger now because of it. So yeah, when he said that, it only took a couple weeks before I started literally, air quote, shopping for boobs looking around at what. look proportional in women's body and asking them questions, do you have saline or silicone? And did you go under the muscle or over the muscle? Who was your doctor? How big are your breasts? How do you feel about them? And I eventually decided to get boobs. And I thought, I was high on life

for a good month. I was like, wow, everybody looking at me. Oh, people looked at you different. They did. But they looked at me with the attention of wanting me for a different reason other than looking at me like a goddess. But back then, it was any attention. And I was, I wasn't very secure with myself. So it was like, and you'd think differently right. I was a pro soccer player. You think that I would be so confident. But I was in one area, but not in another area.

So I really learned self-love through this journey because I sold my body out to be what I thought that men and the competitive world needed me to be. Crazy. And I almost got to say, I got really sick from the very moment I had my breast implants. Crazy. What's it like to shop for bibs? How do you pick, how do you pick them? I just have the ones God gave me. I actually, I have a friend who I love and adore and their son wanted to transition into a woman.

And she was over at our house a couple months ago and she has such a good attitude. She said, I never thought I would be vagina shopping with my son. I was like, I have no, my heart goes out to you. I have no idea what that experience would be like, but I applaud you for being so open and walking through that journey. So I have no idea what it would be like to pick your own boobs out. Yeah. It's so cool. You're pulling these things on the surface because people are wondering. And what I was doing is, the first thing that I was doing is, okay, looking at the woman and how they fit in her body and if it looked real or not or if they look too big and obvious. And then, you know,

if I felt really comfortable. I'm like, can I feel kind of how they feel? Like, do they, because I wanted to feel they felt like they're fake. You have like samples? Like, are you touching them on other women? Or like they have samples in the, in the doctor's office? Yeah. So like people who are my friends, I was comfortable asking, can I feel, you know, how these feel and how they, and I watched how they moved on the woman. Because I didn't want these big cantalopes just chilling over my heart. Yeah. So when I went to the doctor's office, I actually said I went in there and I wanted 350 cc's. But it's some research on proportions and things.

And then I got convinced into, which this is where I pedestalized a physician and surgeon to know more than I did, which is a part of the prison bar to talk about is putting people on a pedestal that you perceive no more than you. And as a result, you sell your own wisdom short. So she said, no, you probably need like 500 if you want to fill in this cleavage and, this and that that I said about my goals. And so she showed me the difference in 350 and a 500 when I felt them. And she's like, this is salient. This is silicone. We don't really use saline anymore. We mostly use silicone. And this is 10 years ago. And so I said, okay, you know, 500, that makes sense. I still like friends that were guys that were trying to convince me otherwise. But I was so hell-bent

on forming this cleavage because I got shamed in my high school years that my cleavage was too wide. I got shamed that my breasts were. One was bigger than the other one. And so really the biggest weed plants began in high school when I was shamed by men for not having these perfectly proportionate breasts that they see in Playboy or wherever else. Crazy. Like cleavage. Like why is cleavage like held up as the gold standard is crazy? Yeah. It's definitely a lot of porn addiction out of all of this brainwashing. And a lot of people are struggling with that. And a lot of people are struggling with that in their relationships too

because it desensitizes the true meaning of lovemaking. Yep. So, okay, so you got talked into the 500s. And the day of the surgery, are you elated? Are you scared? Like, you're going to go in with a, you were a C cup and you're going to come out a double, did you come out of double D? At the time, it was more like like a,

wrinkled, I had more of my breasts were not filled up. So, you know, they measure C cut based on your width as well. Right. So I was probably more like a B just because I lost so much volume. And I was really excited. I didn't tell my mom. I felt like I was hiding, which that sucks, because I don't like to hide from anything. And if I'm hiding from someone, and I teach my clients this too, we don't hide from other people. We hide from, these stories of who we think those people want us to be or need us to be to get approval. And so I was hiding this part of myself, which is really me hiding from another part of myself because one part of me was not happy with another part of me.

So I didn't tell my mom. I told my dad and I went in and had a friend drive me in and had a friend pick me up and take me home and then I had some friends bring over soups and things. And I was on the stairmaster a week later. happily or you were pushing yourself onto the Stairmaster? Because I've seen people with plastic surgery, they can't move for like weeks. And I think, oh, nothing's worth that. No, it's not.

I really abused my body for a while. And I was still really, I had my mind fixated on being the best first place, when in a championship game, which was really that same mindset that I carried over from soccer onto the bikini stage, the bodybuilding stage. And I met some really amazing people. that journey. So it wasn't a bad experience. It was just bad because of what I was making it. And it was the judges and the politics and the drugs, the bodybuilding drugs, the steroids, the diuretics, the at-burners. I mean, I could tell you stories for days about all the things

that I did in a short period. The second show that I actually qualified for Nationals for, I hadn't started cheating yet with my breast implants or trying some of these other things. but just when you see what you see about these women who are bikini competitors or on Instagram, and I'm not saying all women, it's not a blanket statement, but for many of them, I know a lot of them, I've worked with a lot of them, and a lot of them have done heroin and won the pro card. They have done really extreme drugs in order to win, and they get so addicted to these drugs, but really they're addicted to the character and personality and archetype of who they think they need to be, which is this strong woman who has made it.

They're seeking some kind of approval. So for me, I wasn't even in the world of all of that when I went into my surgery. I wasn't aware of that. I was just doing what it took. And then, you know, from that point moving forward, a week after I got surgeries, that was when my health decline began and I had no idea and I never would have thought to put anything together, which is why I wrote this book. So, you know, again, my brain is like, I have so many things.

thoughts. I feel like I'm having a discussion with somebody that I've been dying to have a discussion with and I didn't even realize it. And let me tell you what showed up for me as you were talking is in our resetter world, we've got all these people that are fasting and they're losing large amounts of weight and they're doing incredible. And one of the discussions that's come up amongst my team is like, we should do more pre and post pictures of people who have had really great success. And And I'm realized just now, as you were talking, I'm like, I really hate pre-imposed pictures because of the reason that you just talked about where I want people to be healthy because they feel amazing on the inside. I don't want people to be healthy and feel good about themselves

because they can put up a pre-imposed picture. I want them to feel good about themselves because they have more energy and they like how they fit in their clothes and their self-esteem goes up, not because they're getting accolades from the outside world. And I teach my resetters like throw the scale away. Let's use the blood sugar reader because that outside validation is like a drug that you can, that you are addicted to. And you could spend your whole life not getting unaddicted from it. So how do the world teach you differently? I mean, now you literally overnight are walking around.

with bigger breasts, you got more looks? Did you get more dates? Were you dating at the time? Oh my gosh. This is such a funny topic because, yeah, I did. And that was 10 years ago before dating got even more weird. Right. Dating's dating, even in 10 years, like the difference of dating from your generation of mine is like, we didn't even have cell phones. Yeah. I mean, even the last year it's gotten more weird. And so I just like, oh, this is, a lot more hyper-sexualization. I noticed on the dating apps and I got completely off about three months ago. And now I'm with a boyfriend who I adore. Last time I did interview I was with another one who I adore too. So it's just lessons and learning and there's no shame in that. I was getting more dates. And I don't remember 10 years ago, but I do remember the last three years, a lot of emphasis was sexual energy. And, you know, I, I don't remember. I I look at my, I do love looking at astrology and I'm a Libra Scorpio and I have six planets and Scorpio. So it's a hot, fiery, passionate. And I do, and my kind of human design I look at with

clients too is that my chakra that's activated that I lead with is my safe role. And that is your feminine glands and your organs. And I call it your goddess garden. So that's my energy. My energy and life force is there. And actually, you said creativity with your resetters. which is beautiful, because create, and your daughter, creativity for women comes from that area of our body. That's the life force energy that we bring forth to give life. And so we could give life to anything that we want and give birth to anything that we want. I don't have children, but I've birthed an amazing book.

I have birthed a program. I have birthed new potentials in women that help them rebirth new potentials in themselves and their children. So it's a different way of giving back. But as far as the dating for a while, I did notice that a lot of men had a lot of that surface level sexual energy. And I've always had a lot of that from a little girl. You know, I learned my parts and how to use them when the age of six. And I cared a lot of shame about that. But now I don't.

I just realized it's a part of how I came in this world. And some kids learn early. And that's okay. So I didn't have a lot of direction, but I found it on my own. So I feel like it was a combination of my own. energy and the implants and the irony between what a lot of people talk about, especially men, when women get implants and men start to notice them, they go, oh, stop looking at those. Are you just looking at me for my breast? And it's like, well, you got breasts to be noticed.

So then I'm noticing you. And now I'm not supposed to notice you. So there's this whole paradox. Interesting. It's almost like a symbol of, are you only looking at me for my breasts? And it's still deep-rooted in this insecurity that I wasn't enough as I am. And see, I told you they're only noticing me for my breasts. And it keeps me this divide between the sacred masculine and the sacred feminine. So the moment I got them out, I started attracting different men into my life. And that's what I found very interesting that I'm finding consistent across the board with the women that I'm working with because we're addressing the deepest root, the deepest weeds of shame. Because so many women

say, I didn't get breast implants because I was ashamed of my body. I got them because I wanted to be more confident. When you hear that, Mindy, what do you hear? What comes up for you? Yeah, you're not confident that you need to work on. You've got to find other ways to become confident is the way I look at that. And there's so many ways you can become confident. Yeah. And feel loved. It's also a feel loved. They're not feeling loved. Yes. And if you, like you said earlier, if your only source of love is through the physical body, you have not learned what you came here to learn in this lifetime. You know, where soul beings express this physical body and we're a temple. it's not it's meant to be treated like a temple not a torture chamber and so when we treat like a torture

chamber how we treat ourselves and how we view ourself is how we're going to bring people into this world and we're going to teach them how to treat us based on how we treat ourselves and so when a woman says I didn't get them because I had shame about my body I got them because I wanted to be more confident here is the paradox they're blinded to the fact that they have shame and they don't want to face that because the derivative of not confident about self is feeling shame about a part of self. Interesting. You're not confident. You're carrying shame about who you think you need to be. So I think it's really about just facing that it's okay that we have shame. It's okay. And to sit with it and go, okay, I was programmed this way. I didn't come out this way.

I was programmed and go, where did I get programmed that way? Oh, okay. Then I can start to defrag my computer, because like you said earlier, you can't just add a bunch of these protocols without having the mindset as the deepest root that creates the strong limbs of the tree. So when you defrave the computer, you have an upgraded system that can then handle the new information. So that's how I look to look at the whole system. Oh my God, that's so powerful. I hope you're screaming that message from every rooftop you can find. Is that in your book? Because women need to hear that. Yeah. And you know, it's interesting. And this is why I said earlier before we started this hot is that you inspire me, Mindy, because there's still parts of me that are hiding. You know, I

have a media team and I'm still hiding parts of me out in social media. And I really feel like I, air quotes, should be screaming this from the rooftops. But for so many years, when I have divulged truth, you know, about GMOs being harmful for us, then I got death threats on social media. And then these things cause you to shrink because you're like, I'm sharing truths and what's really happening and then we get you know our voice gets cut off or you know the insecurity of not being a doctor or no one's to listen to me because this or that there's all just stories. So I'm screaming them as far and wide from the rooftop in this link that you're going to share which is where I'm interviewing 15 beautiful women who have been through this journey who have all had similar sickness

experiences and transformations on the other side where they experience sovereignty and you know talking to their former self with the advice that they're going to give. So yeah it's it's beginning and I need a team to support me to get it out there as far as I can. And I appreciate you for spreading the message. Women need to hear it. I really truly believe that like what you're saying it's so interesting because, you know, prior to this interview, I knew you as the person who had breast implants got sick, got them out, became passionate about getting toxic beauty out of the out of women's lives. But now after talking to you, I'm like, wow, there's so much more here that you need to like, you know, put out into the world that women need to hear because it is not necessarily toxic

beauty that's the issue, although it is an issue. It's the mindset that leads women to toxic beauty that can really be healed. So it's incredible. So, okay, talk to me then. You said within a week, you were sick. So you get the breast implants, you're sick. And how long does it take you before you figure out they're the breast implants. You know, there was about two weeks where you're just numbed out because you're having meds and you're like, oh, I'm feeling loopy and pretty and bumpy and robust and busty. Right, I bet. You know, and oh, I want to make a point because you said something about your previous thought

and I'll go under that. You were talking about the toxic beauty and that's toxic beauty. It's what I say below that is the toxic stories and the toxic beliefs, like how we talk to ourselves into sickness. So they're sick. There's sick ways of talking to self. So that's what led me there. So both need to be addressed.

Even though you think, oh, I just need a detox. I just need a detox. So there's also the beliefs behind it and that bully within. So within about two weeks, I noticed tons of belly bloat. I mean, talk about small intestinal overgrowth. And, you know, full transparency, as I always like to be, is I had a little bit of belly blow before. But this is just next level belly bloat.

and it was constipation, diarrhea, which is so sexy when you're in a bikini standing on stage and all the lights are on your abs. And you're just trying to hold back a fart and you just want everybody to see your six-pack. And you're like, Al. I was going to say, you got the implants so you could compete at another level and now you've got belly blown. Yeah. And then I got 11th place out of 13. So I think that our body always knows when we're betraying it. And it we'll let us know that. And that was, my body speaks quickly. Like I get downloads from what I experience a spirit a lot. But am I going to listen to them? No, all the time. But that's, you know, I believe that our physical temple is the way that our soul speaks to us. I say self, I say that symptoms are self love

language from the soul. And it's just all trying to say, hey, something's not right. So I was bloated. I, I had bipolar bowels is what I called it. Oh my God, you got to trademark that. That's awesome. I always say like on my post, just to be cheeky because these things can be really daunting to talk about. They're heavy, right? So it's like, do you sometimes suffer with bipolar bells? Right. And it's like your bowels are doing what they're doing. I try to speak to you. So I had bipolar bowels. My hypothyroid symptoms got worse. My extremities, my fingers and my toes were really cold, got more cold. I started gaining weight. I started gaining inflammation. And this applies to all

the work that you do, Mindy, is that my metabolic function went whack. I became super carbohydrate, intolerant. I was not metabolically flexible. They had to change my diet so much around that time to try to keep the weight off. But I just believe that full time, for 10 years, I was fighting inflammation. And it was though I had this firefighter. And then, teams of firefighters that needed to fight inflammation all the time inside of me. So I literally couldn't not work out every day because if I didn't, I would have this big bowling ball shaped face, which as you guys might know, that's the sign of thyroid dysfunction, which I already had a little bit of symptoms before, but then they just exploded. So I had that for a long time. Now I could go

without working out for a week and I actually lose weight. So that's for a lot of women out there who were like, I'm having a hard time losing weight. It's you're just fighting this fire inside that something is just these ticking time. That's why this is a picture here of ticking time bombs on the cover. Oh, I didn't notice. That's awesome. Yeah. Excellent cover. Yeah. Guys can't see it if you're listening to the podcast. We'll put a clip on Instagram of it. And what she's pointed at, it's awesome. Yeah. And those little bombs, they set off all of the, this, it's like a wildfire that just continues to grow and no matter how much money you've spent, which ladies, I've spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on chiropractors, acupuncturists, hyperbaric oxygen treatment, stem cell,

PRP. I mean, I'm like Mindy, I love biohacking, but when you're biohacking with these things inside of you that every woman has a autoimmune reaction to every because it forms these shells around your implants and inside of those shells your body can never get to what's contained in between the implants and this shell that the body, this capsule, the body creates around it. That's where a lot of bacteria can drive. It's just like a root canal. That bacteria just sits up there or cavitations. It can't leave. The antibiotics can't ever get to it in calcification form. So then you end up with high tissue calcification. And then you have slow metabolism and metabolic dysfunction and fasting does help but really you can't go as deep with Mindy or me or anybody with

your programs with these in your body because your body is trying to push them out my secretary IGA which I don't know if you test this stuff Mindy but on my sole test that is the immune system gold standard. Yep. Optimal is like 1,500, 1,500 on the test that I use. Mine was 44. Wow. And I was like that's the lowest that I've seen. So because of that, I had canned. Andida overgrowth. I had parasites galore. Those are fun, especially when you take pictures of coming out of you. Good Lord. I had tons of bacterial overgrowth, not just placebo, but systemically. I had a leaky gut. I was fighting food sensitivities, chemical intolerances, people intolerances. I couldn't even stand myself. I just toward the end of it, I couldn't handle being human.

I was at the point where I was like, I want to die. I don't want to live anymore. I was 15 pounds of inflammation. I found lumps all over my breast, which was my moment. My moment was I was sitting in the sauna and I was palpating my breasts. I was feeling my breasts. And I felt lumps all over them. And they were huge. They were about an e-cup at that time. And I felt the lump terrible.

I couldn't fit in even my clothes and my bras anymore. And I said, am I dying right now? Am I, is this breast cancer? Did I set myself up to literally die in the name of beauty? and that was the moment for me that the spiritual downloads came through and I was the hot mess on the floor in my sauna. It was just sweat and tears and snot and just crying. And that was my surrender, hit the wall, break even point where I was like, if I don't do something about this now, I don't know if I can come back because these implants have been known to increase

the incidence and likelihood of depression and suicide by up to four times. A huge study of over 100,000 women was performed up to 800% increased risk of autoimmune disease, especially rheumatoid arthritis, especially by having your fingers really cold and having fibromyalgia, extremity complaints. And these are not just things that I complained of. I've had many women who wanted to die come to me and they were almost near death. And we brought them back to life. And guess what? their children, their babies were showing the same levels of bacteria, bacterial imbalance that they did. And so when we started looking at this, we went the breastfeeding that they are struggling with because women have struggles with breastfeeding, with stillbirth. I'm not saying every woman,

but a lot of them do. And that passes through the breast milk into the baby. And what you'll hear out there is that there's no known proof or scientific evidence that states that, and what those are our short-term studies, they're not long-term. They are throwing out these studies. They're They are burning them. They're discarding women who have been inside of these research groups, at least the ones who are standing to prove a point for the beauty industry, for the implants that profit from these implants. And they'll say, oh, no, 100% of women or 98% of women or whatever, but they throw out the women who didn't have positive things to say. So things are being skewed so much today. And that's what pisses me off is that the truth is not being divulge, but I'm here to deliver

truth. So that you can make your own decision on maybe what your body is saying to you. And if you have implants or Botox, we haven't even talked about that too. Yeah. And I want to talk about Botox because I'll tell you that in my circle of friends who are 50 plus, many of them dive into Botox. I want to point out that your story is about breast implants, but everything that you mentioned is and all those symptoms is a story of toxicity. Yes. And what is we're seeing across hundreds of thousands of people on our platforms is that women are getting frustrated with, why am I feeling bad?

Why am I not losing weight? Why am I not sleeping? And they're giving it labels like menopause or they're giving it labels like genetics or and what they don't realize is that toxins, whether it's Botox, breast implants, amalgam fillings, glyphosate, you know, heavy metals. They're all being stored in your tissues. And for women, it's even more dangerous because as hormones change, they come out of the tissues and they start to destroy your health.

So your story is every woman's story, so many women's stories. Yours just happen to be breast implants. And I just, I really want to hammer that point home because it's easy to listen to you and go, Oh, thank God, I didn't get breast implants. Exactly. But it's bigger than that. And talk about Botox, please, because I just, if anybody's doing Botox, please, I want you to just, it's rat poison. And it's a long-term path. It's a short, it's a short-term result for a long-term consequence. Yeah. Botox is actually something that I was doing three to four years ago before I decided that my breast implants might be the cause of it. And I didn't know that Botox was even harmful because,

and I hear you, ladies, you go out there, it's heavily marketed and it's normalized. And there's Botox parties. And especially in Orange County, I was just like, oh, it's just the thing to do. It's like getting coffee in the morning. Just do it. And I caved into that too. And so these are a lot of conversations I had to have with myself. It's like, why is this important to me? I wasn't even insecure about my wrinkles, I just thought, oh, well, everybody else is doing it. Well, okay, I guess I'll try it. I experienced even greater downfall of my health when I did Botox. And until I did the research on it, I couldn't put two and two together because no one had been talking about this. And I want to blast this as well. Botox was used, it's botulinium toxin, was used in the Gulf War to poison the

opponents and so that they would not be able to fight back. And what I mean by poison is that it freezes them. Botox is known, botulinum toxin in Botox is known to freeze and paralyze our organs. And they've said for a long time, oh, Botox doesn't cross any part of the blood-brain barrier or it doesn't move. It stays localized. Intuitively, as a practitioner, as a doctor, it's like, wait a second, these pockets of skin are not disconnected from the body. Allopathic Western medicine says, like you said earlier, let's look at this one branch of the tree and let's just focus this one little sleeve that's coming off it. That's not how real holistic healing works. So it actually does spread. It says on the label, which we're not trained to do. We just blindly trust there as well.

This botulinin toxin will move throughout your body. I have had tons, if not hundred, of people reaching out to me with stories. And all of this is included in a link that I can send to where I wrote and did an article on this is that it travels to parts of your body. It travels to your heart. It travels to your kidneys. It travels to your colon. Travels to your lungs. Travels to your brain. And it will paralyze those, not completely, but it slows them down. And it starts to slow them down so much that we now have women who are super constipated. They're having urinary shock infections, chronic acute kidney infections, that they feel like they can't take a deep breath. That's the biggest thing that people report with Botox illness is that they can't take a deep breath.

I have suffered from that for a long time and I've spent a ton of money. I don't know how much money you guys have to combat the side effects of Botox, but we're talking tens of thousands of dollars making my way to hundreds of thousands with the Botox component of this. It is unknown whether the Botox or even silicone or plastic can even leave the body ever. So Botox can paralyze these organs and when you can't remove waste, which 70% of the waste that we expel is through our breath. And if our lungs are paralyzed, we're not able to breathe that well. And about 7% of it, 8% of it leaves through our bowels. Another 20% of it leaves through the sweat. And like 5% of her or so around there leaves through the kidneys. It's not possible for detox. You're

going to get sick and chronic fatigue and chronic illness everywhere, which is what half of people at least today have at least one chronic disease. That's crazy. So, and again, I hope you guys are hearing this and putting it all under the category of toxic beauty because that's something that as women, I love that we started this off by talking about the mindset that is broken that leads to toxic beauty. And if you're having some ahas, let's sort of move the conversation into, okay, how did you undo all of this? Like once you realize that the toxic beauty was really destroying your health, how do you pull yourself out of that and how do you unwind it?

Yeah, well, when I realized that Botox was a big part of my journey, I dove deep into the research, but that wasn't, you know, three years ago and I was really struggling. I didn't know better and I took so miserable that I was itching my skin to the point of bleeding in the middle of the night. and I have pictures of all of this too in my blogs and in my book. I had red puppy eyes. I looked like a raccoon and my skin. I was itching so bad on my neck that I had these big cysts and postules. And I aged very quickly in my neck because of how much I was itching it. So I fend my skin because this happened for, it went on for two years. And I went back and looked at all the records and

logs of when I did Botox, which was, I think, three or four times. And every time within a couple of weeks after was when I got really, really sick. I also dyed my hair pink. I thought that'd be fun. I got really sick from that. So I was, and I have methylation. I have double homozygous from T.HFR, which isn't like a death sentence, but just to know that your body's impaired and I took acutane when I was 18 years old twice. Oh my gosh. Yeah, your toxic bucket was so full. Yeah, it was so full. And so the beauty things that I was doing like the Botox and the breast implants, that was just the like the last thing that it just like blew up my volcano. And I erupted. So I did the two rounds of prednisone because I was miserable. And I never wish prednisone on anybody.

I helped lots of clients get off of prednisone. But that was the only thing that was working. No over-the-couners, no antihistamines, no creams, no essential oils. Nothing was working. I had to go with the big guns, the prescriptions because I was working with the big gun toxins that are man-made, right? So after all of that and the things started to clear, I got my breast implants out. I stopped doing Botox two years ago, probably. stop doing it. And I realize that we don't even have any research that says we can detox, Botox. The science thinks and so far sees that Botox won't leave the body completely, even though they say it leaves that the body in six months. Think about Botox, you have to keep going back for more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more. That costs you more,

costs you your health and it costs to your children's health with your breastfeeding and trying to have babies. So I've been doing, you know, a ton of work on detox. I infrared sauna three times a week at least. Is that what you're asking, Mindy, about the time? Yeah, yeah, like, just help our listeners if they're resonating with your journey. Like, you know, like, what did it, once you got the breast implants out, what, you know, what did the process look like? How long did it take? Did you feel better the minute you got the breast implants out? And how did you unwind this scenario for yourself? Yeah. So May 31st of 2019 is when I had them removed. And, I did do what's called fat transfer.

And if I could give you some advice on that, anybody who's listening, and this could be anybody who wants, who's still really considering breast implants, that there is something called fat transfer out there where you can have pockets of fat. I mean, this is something that everyone's, a woman's dream, right? But I also don't recommend it is to have pockets of fat removed from areas of your body, and they can move it up into your breast to rebuild them.

Women who have had mastectomy and they don't have breasts anymore, this is an option, but it does require like four, or five procedures to do it. So it does cost a lot of money. You can do fat transfers to rebuild your breasts. So that is out there too. I talk about that in my book as well. Women who are just insecure about their breasts, you can do a fat transfer if you want, but I myself did fat transfer, breast implant removal and a lift, which at first I was really stoked about. Like I saw my new breasts a couple days after and I was like, wow, they looked so great. And they were perky and my boobs were no longer, my nipples were no longer downward facing dogs, nipples pointing to the ground.

There was in the middle again. And I felt lighter. I just felt a ton lighter. I bet. It was a tough surgery. So I wasn't able to be super excited. It was very tough because they put these draining tubes in you. My parents were there to take care of me. Thank God, my angels. And it was one of the most painful experiences I've ever experienced in my life. So I talk about what kinds of procedures are available possible for you in my book. But then after that within like six weeks, I dropped 15 pounds, Mindy. Crazy. Six weeks, I went from 148 to 133.

And I was like, I feel really good right now. So I was able to start moving around again. I climbed to the top of Mount Whitney. And I took my sports for off on the way to the top. And I was like, I'm free. And it felt so good just to be me again. I felt so light. I've had chiropractic adjustments every week for 20 years. I didn't need them every week anymore because I was going to say my shoulders. You're probably holding, without all that

toxicity too, you probably hold your adjustments better. Absolutely, because my ribs toward the end were always out on the right side. I was having more problems with my right breast. A lot of women's implants, rupture, bleed, or completely, you know, maybe they'll have a little bit of a leak. Mine didn't show that on my MRI, but they, most of them all eventually bleed because that's the part, that's the process of having them in your body. So they heat them up. So I started doing a lot more physical activity. And within a couple of...