The Sabrina Zohar Show - 143: How to have AUTHENTIC self love and Date Yourself

Episode Date: June 6, 2025

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My name is Sabrina Zohar, and I am your host. Hello, friends, welcome back to another episode. I love my solo time with you guys. And truthfully, I'm doing more solos moving forward. Love my guests, don't get me wrong, but I really enjoy my time with you guys, and I think that's just what resonates. So I'm so excited for another episode. And as some of you guys know, I released a new course with Britt Frank, my bestie neuropsychotherapist, brilliant fucking friend, who has gotten me out of more dark times than I can count. And all about self-love.

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Let me know what you liked from the episode, what you want more of. I am here to support you guys. And as always, follow along on the socials. Subscribe on YouTube if you want to watch or just follow along in the Supernizzohar show on Instagram or TikToksbrina.Zohar if you want more short form content. All right, babies, without further ado, let's get right the fuck on into it, shall we? Hi, friends. Hello, hello. Guys, we're getting down to it. This is the second to last episode in this room, which is so fucking insane to me. I mean, when I started the podcast, it was a phallic-looking mic in the living room of my old apartment in my kitchen.

And I really was just like, I have something to say and I'm going to say it. And it's evolved and grown into this beautiful space. But so much has happened in this room. that I am personally ready to let it the fuck go. We have had a nightmare with our landlord. Like it has been, I mean, every time something bad happens, you're like just add that to it. And it's been so frustrating and such a struggle, but also a space for me to grow and to learn and to evolve. And I'm grateful. I'm grateful. I'm grateful. You know, don't worry next week, you guys will hear me probably get all sappy in this room. But I'm grateful for you guys. I'm grateful for the community that we've built. And I've really started to come back home to myself. And it's interesting. I've been in therapy for a long time. I'm a new therapist. And the question

everybody asks me is, well, what was different? The version of you last year to the version of you this year. Or the version when you started who you are now. And I was like, what's different is I had something to say then that I hadn't. I've spoken my truth. I've spoken out and I've gotten love and hate hate hate, right? Like, the pendulum swings. Now it's coming back home to me. Right. Like, I'm creating different content. If you follow along on my personal Instagram, like, I'm doing get readies with me. I'm doing date night outfits. I'm doing hair and makeup tutorials because I want to support and I want to have fun. If I'm really trying to support you guys, it's not just me chastising or giving you all this advice, how else can I show up for you guys? And for me, that's fun. I worked in fashion. I have a clothing line, software. Like, this is my bread and butter. It's what I love to do. So I'm really fucking excited. And when we move, we have a nicer new studio and we're really going to elevate. And it's going to be a lot more solos and more me. And I'm just really fucking excited. I'm excited to connect with everyone that's here. And I am, you know what? I owe you guys an apology. I'm sorry if I abandoned you when the name change happened. And I was so focused on how can I keep everybody. I lost myself and everything along the way. And so this is the moment. These are the moments where I'm starting to say goodbye. I'm starting to mourn.

I'm starting to feel, but I'm also getting ready for the growth and what's coming. And that to me is really all that. That's why I wanted to talk about self-love today. Part of self-love isn't just doing a bunch of face masks and bubble baths. Those are beautiful. I love me a bubble bath. But that's not how you love yourself. How you love yourself is a multitude of different ways.

Again, that's why Britt and I created the course. It doesn't matter whether you're single or in a relationship. We want to support you guys. And I hear you, the amount of people that are commenting saying they want relationship advice, all these episodes are now going to combine those. So you don't have to just be single to be here. And if you're in a relationship, fuck yeah, congratulations. So let's maybe for a second redefine self-love beyond the aesthetics and the affirmations. Like again, it's not just a spa day. It's a psychological reorientation. Because what is self-love? It's really the ability to be on your own team, right? Especially when you're dating or your relationship and that challenges your worth. Because if you say like you love your but you keep chasing people who don't choose you. You tolerate fucking crumbs in the name of potential and maybe they're going to show up or you lose yourself in the chase of the connection and or fuck, talk about chase for the connection more about you lose yourself when you're in a connection than this is the episode for you because today we're going to get in it. And I'm going to

share with you guys too like ways that I show up for myself. It's so funny, I have one of my clients and I love her and every time we talk to be like, okay, I don't like this feeling, but I'm sitting with it. Okay, now what? Now what? Now what? Now what? Now what? And I'm I always have to remind her, I'm like, do you think that's loving yourself? Do you think being like, okay, what's next? Okay, how can I be done with this? Do you think that's how you love yourself? Let me ask you this. If your partner treated you like that, would that be how you needed to be loved? Probably not. That's not how I needed to be loved. But for years, I did the like, okay, can we just be done with this? Like, why do I keep feeling this? And it's so interesting because I'm writing the book now. I'm almost done,

which is fucking insane. But I, and like, let me just tell you, this thing's amazing. Like, I've shown it to a few people that are like, Holy fuck. Like, holy fuck. And with it, as you guys know, like, I've been struggling just in my own mental health. Like, hi, I have some anxiety. It was welcome to the fucking show. And I couldn't really understand, like, what is happening. And it wasn't until I asked my mom about a memory for the book and she shared what happened after. And it was a key that unlocked, holy fuck. It made so much sense. And you guys will read it in the book. But it made so much sense as to where the panic and fear comes. And then I was going through my session. And I'm sitting there and Masha keeps. saying, oh, you love yourself, really? Okay, you love yourself. You're being there for yourself. And she's like, but yet, how are you showing up for you? How? Genuinely, how? And I was like, well, I'm here and I'm doing this and I'm doing this. And then I hit me. And I was like, oh, my God, growing up, what was my point of contention? Nobody sees me. Nobody hears me. Nobody's worth I'm not worth investing in. And guess what I was doing to myself. I was nickel and diming myself. I was saying, well, no, no, no, I can't spend money on that. I can't do that. I can't do this.

Telling my little, you're not worth it. You're not worth it. And obviously, there's difference between like not having the finances. Like we're not fucking living under a rock versus making excuses out of fear. Yeah, no, I have the finances for therapy. Like if I need to see somebody or, you know, that's my priority. If I don't have that, then what's the point of having money? What's the point of having a career if you're not going to be able to take care of yourself? And it all just kind of hit me of, wait a minute, if I want to show myself love, doesn't mean I have to go and spend a ton of money. I'm not something I'm saying, but I need to invest in myself. That means I need to show up for myself in different ways and not be frustrated and not be annoyed and not be, God, God, how do you keep

feeling this? You're going to just keep perpetuating the same shit if we don't stop that loop. So I want to start with what real self-love is not. Before we go into how do you show up? So self-love isn't just a feeling. It's literally a system. So the psychological concept here is that self-love equals the combination of self-respect, self-trust, and self-protection. Why do you think I always say when you guys are like, oh, overthinking is a protective mechanism. It's like, yeah, because you don't trust yourself. If you trust yourself, then when you make a decision or you think something, you're not going to second guess and sit there and ruminate and spiral and do all that. You go back into that default mode network. That's just, okay, let's just do the same thing.

And then, of course, you activate the salience network. And the salience network is like, oh, let's find more of this because I'm being rewarded for these thoughts. When I have it, spike goes up. I get the dopamine release. Oh, yay, this is what they want. And so what we want to look at is like we want to have a system of internal checks and balances that show up when you're choosing who to date or who to be in a relationship with. You're deciding how much to give. You're determining when to walk away because it's really important. When we look at the neuroscience of it, your prefrontal cortex, as you guys know, it's the rational thinking boundaries and gets all that shit. That gets overridden by your limbic system, the emotional, the attachment when you don't have internal safety.

So think about like lizard brain when we go into the limbic part of the system. The amount of times, I can't tell you how many emails, because, you know, if you guys want to ask advice or a question, you can purchase one and I send you back a video and it's really tailored private. That way nobody ever finds out about what's going on. I can't tell you how many emails I get of, well, DMs too, I just don't answer them, but how many emails I get of, you know, I met this person and it's been three weeks and like they came on really strong and then and now they want to text me more and I don't feel comfortable and I'm feeling really like, oh, is it just because I can't receive love? It's like, no, that's not feeling safe. How can you feel safe with somebody you just fucking met. How are you just all of a sudden going to be like, wow, I can disarm, I can share my triggers, I could be vulnerable, I can be, I don't fucking know who these people are. I don't how these people are. And that's why I want to go over this, because when you don't have the internal safety, that's what you know you should walk away, but you don't, that cognitive dissonance. And I mean, you want to talk about a time where I fucking knew that this person wasn't right for me and I completely overrode my guttos thing about this morning. I was dating this guy,

I'm not going to say his name, I feel inappropriate doing that. There's this guy in Brooklyn. And I'll be honest, you just had a big dude. He was just really hot. Not even, he wasn't even that hot. He was just really good in bed, like really fun. And truth be told, like, I never enjoyed my time with him. Like, I remember I'll never forget. I had, like, in New York, I had Airbnb my place and I was like, hey, do you want to go away?

Like, you want to do something? I have to get out of the house anyways. And so we went upstate and we had like a decent time. I wouldn't say it was the best. And like, I remember he dropped me off home and he posted on Instagram saying the view was amazing. The company was above average. And like not tagging me or anything, but just being like that he had a great weekend. no mention of me. At this point, we had been dating for like three months. And I remember sitting

and where they're being like, I feel dismissed. I feel small. I don't feel like he had met my family. We had like gone out. We were seeing friends. And instead of me stopping and being like, hey, this doesn't feel right, like I just kind of was like, oh, but he's here and he likes you and he's showing up. And it's like it wasn't working for me. I wasn't actually showing up for myself. I saw this as, oh, you're dismissing me. You're putting me down similarly like my dad, right? Like we have a nice time. And then the next day I piss you off or I do something. That's familiar. I didn't. listen to my gut the entire time that my gut kept saying, this is not your person. You don't really like this person. But because if I listen to that, I'd have to acknowledge, you're right, that doesn't

align with me. Oh, I have to take up space. That means I'm choosing myself. That's fucking terrifying. You choose me. You come and tell me you like me. Or I've been in relationships like that, too. You're so focused on, okay, I'm in a relationship now. And then I get those emails every day of like, I'm super fucking anxious now. I'm questioning if they're going to leave me. It's like, because this shit doesn't go away. The shit doesn't just disappear one day because you're like, okay, now I'm in the relationship. No, no, no, loving yourself and choosing yourself, dating yourself, being with yourself is how you're really going to understand. And it's like my client that I was saying earlier that every time she's always so focused on like, how do I make this go away? And it's like,

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SuvW, German engineered for all. So we had an audience question. Someone said, I say I love myself, but I still go back to people who hurt me. Why? The reality is, I don't know your traumas, your triggers, your history. I don't normally answer why questions, but I would say, reframe that I don't like, as Britt Frank always says. But like, on paper, that's because your nervous system hasn't caught up with your values yet.

Real love isn't just cognitive. It's truly embodies. So you have to build the habit of choosing yourself under stress. That's why it's like, oh, yeah, I'm really good when I'm regulated. And then when I'm not, I'm a fucking nightmare or I keep doing this. It's like, well, yeah, that's like saying, when things are good, they're good, but when they're bad, watch out. And it's like, well, that's going to cause peaks and valleys. And self-love isn't just standards, right?

It's what you do when they're tested. So if you consistently tell me I want consistency, I want safety, I want depth, like, that's easy. The test of self-love is what do you do when someone gives you the opposite? When someone doesn't choose you, when someone says you're being too much, you're too fucking sensitive. I just want to go with the flow. Do we go back into the faun, into the limbic, into a past pattern? That's okay. If you do, you're a fucking human.

None of this is ever to berate or belittle anyone that's listening. It's really just to be like, oh, fuck. Okay, maybe I do do that. Well, okay. And so a tool you can use is standard verse pattern. So I want you to write down your top three dating or relationship standards. So whatever those could be, then I want you to write down the last three patterns you tolerated. So if your standards are like, I'm only going to be with someone who speaks to me with respect.

Okay, then either if you're dating or if you're in a relationship, I want you to write like, and have I, what's the last, has my partner also done that? So which one is running your love life? Is it the vision or is it your nervous system defaults? Because this is where cognitive dissonance lives. And I know we say two conflicting thoughts, but the cognitive dissonance lies between what we say we want and what we settle for when we're dysregulated, lonely, or hooked. I have been in relationships because I am so scared of walking away. Because again, if you walk away, even my ex, the biggie, the biggie one of like, I'm never going to accept this. I don't want to date my father anymore. And then I was with him, for a year and a half. There was a cognitive dissonance. I knew I deserved better in my gut,

in my soul, but my nervous system and the patterns I had were like, nah, this is, that's way too much work, babe, because it takes a lot of consistency. It takes a lot of repetition and it takes not just momentum, but what are you doing with that momentum? Are you showing up every day in some capacity? Because realistically, like, how much you love yourself or not is going to change the way you date. I actually watched this real. I'm trying to get this guy on the podcast. I really like him. And he's like this, I can't remember his name. I've just like seen his stuff. And he's just like very straight, fast talking. And he was at a conference and this woman says, why does this guy keep coming back to me after he ghosts me and after I tell him my standards and what I'm willing to accept? And the guy just

looks at her and he goes, because baby, you keep fucking answering. He was like, do you think that we don't see? Which is what I've been fucking trying to tell you guys. You don't think that people can pick this up when you say, well, that's my boundary and then you fucking do it anyways, that people are like, this person doesn't actually validate them. They don't take themselves seriously. Because if they did, then they wouldn't be holding themselves like this. Imagine if I kept saying, guys, like this is who I am and I'm showing up like this, but then every time someone came and said, I talked too fast or I cursed too much that I was like, oh my God, okay, I need to change. Oh, my God. And started freaking out.

You'd be like, oh, so she doesn't mean what she says. She doesn't say what she means. She's not really, those aren't aligning. And that's going to change the way that you date or have relationships. Because when you don't love yourself, when you don't stand for something, you fall for fucking everything. So self-love makes you selective without needing to perform. Because the reality is when you're grounded in self-worth, you choose you. You're not fucking auditioning.

Without self-love, dating, or your relationship will become performative. You're going to people please. You will over function. You're going to curate your texts, your tones, your outfit, your timing just to be chosen, which is why I fucking hate the black cat golden retriever nonsense. You want to listen to it? Good luck, Godspeed. Let me know how your dating life is that you're trying to be this version of yourself that you're not.

It's not old McDonald. Like, we're not just talking about these are humans and complex emotions and nuances. They're not a tomogachi. It's not my avoidant this. These are people. And when you're showing up trying to be something, I used to do that. I wanted to be the cool girl. I wanted to be the girl with no needs. I didn't want to be too much. I didn't want to pressure them. And what did I do? I did what they did I did. I did tell you how many times like a dude would send a sexual photo and I'd be at work. This is when I was like 22. And they'd be like go to the bathroom and send me something. And I instead of being like, fuck you, I'm doing. I was scared. I was scared that they weren't going to choose me. And so I would do you want to hang out or hang? And then all of a sudden they would. I'm doing. I was scared. I was scared that they weren't going to choose me. And then I would be like shit. And then you'd be like, so do you want to hang out or hang out? And then. And then all of a sudden they would answer and I'd be left there hating myself and being like, go, but mad at them, right? Like, they made me do this and you made me do this. It's like, no, they didn't. No, they didn't. They made a request. I made a choice. You get choices. If you want to be seen, why don't you start

seeing yourself? I'm working on that. Starting to validate. Yeah, this is who I am. And I'm fucking stoked on it. I'm not going to try to change it. I'm not going to try to be something I'm not. Because if I try to be something I'm not, then I'm just falling with the crowd. And part of being a thought leader and part of being something different and unique, whether that be by yourself or with a group, is that you're not scared to lose people because you're more scared of losing yourself. And when you're not scared to lose people because you're more scared to lose yourself, the game will fucking change, the game of life, not literally the games that you play with people. But my life has changed when I started choosing myself and not being waiting for other people

to validate me. I still have those people reach out. I had somebody the other day. I haven't spoken to this person in three since 2022. When I invited him to my party and he didn't even answer, all of a sudden messaging me like, hey, how you been? I knew it. I looked at Ryan and I was like, what is he fucking want? I'm like, it's opportunist from L.A. Oh, good, good. Oh, you know, I just left my mom's book launch. You know, you guys should connect. She'd be a great podcast guest. And I was like, there it is. I haven't spoken to you for three motherfucking years. But instead, what if in the past, when I really wanted to be chosen, I'd be like, oh my God, absolutely. Yeah, yeah, connect us. I looked her up and I was like, this doesn't work with our audience. I'm like,

there's nothing that aligns. You're like, I get to be selective and say, no, thank you. And if you don't invite me to say, you know, that's cool, then you aren't here for me. You were here for what I could do for you. And it's the same even with everything I'm doing now, with the podcast, with my Insta, with my socials, with everything. If you're not here for me, that's okay. You have every right to be like, this doesn't work for me. But that doesn't mean I need to conform and contort and bend and become something for other people to like me. Because for everyone that's here now, for all of you guys that have fucking been here with me, whether it be from the beginning or from today, welcome. That would be me going against you. Imagine, let's put that into reverse.

Imagine you're my inner child. And you're telling me, but I love who you are. I'm here for you and I'm going, God, shut the fuck up. These people aren't. We need to get them. I'd be turning my back on you. And that would be such a grave to surface. So I said, how do I stop trying to prove I'm worthy on dates? It's totally normal.

But you stop proving when you believe you're already enough. Because believing that, like, truly believing that comes from showing yourself you'll choose you even when someone else doesn't. So again, we have a part of the brain called the ventral vagal state of the nervous system. So that's the calm connected zone. curiosity lives, right? That's when you're regulated and you can start to challenge things and get curious of like, what's coming up for me? If you're in fight or flight, freezer fawn, you're trying to control the outcome instead of actually exploring the connection. So when you're so caught up on,

are they choosing me and you're not even stopping to say, wait a minute, do I choose them? Do I like them? Do I take up space? Like, it's okay to be alone. I again, one of my client's message the other day and she's like, I'm just feeling really lonely. How can I make this go away? And I was like, maybe you stop. Maybe you invite those parts of you to say, what are you trying to tell me? What are you trying to protect me from? What do you need for me? How can I show up for you? Oh, you think you need to run the show?

I'm sorry, baby. You don't. You're only a child. That's what I'm here for. So I want you to do, there's a tool I love to call. It's called the Am I Performing or Participating? It's an inventory. So after a date or with your partner, I want you to ask, did I show up as me or did I show up as a

version of me designed to be liked? Was I observing them or was I just trying to impress them? I have done this. I have changed who. was. I have changed how I've dated. I have changed and become the chameleon. Even with my ex, the biggie, when we were together for a year and a half. I wanted to be a different, because I looked and I was like, okay, well, the way that I was in all these passings didn't work. So let me try something different. And it's the same as the like sleeping with someone, do this, do this, don't do this. It's like,

I'll go fuck. Do whatever the fuck you want to do. Stop. You're not a child. You don't need other people's fucking permission to live your life. You need yours. And every time, I tried that. I tried to do the, okay, I'm going to wait five dates with this guy. I'm going to wait 10 dates with this guy. And it all ended up being the same because I wasn't being authentically myself. I was doing it to control the outcome, not because we were genuinely connecting or not. Again, I'm not saying you have to do any, you don't have to sleep with anybody. But when you stop and say, oh, wow, I'm doing that to control. I'm doing that to have an understanding what's going on.

I'm doing that because I want to get validated from other people that, look, I'm not doing it wrong. It's like, all I was doing is just remimicking trying to be what my dad wanted me to be and never succeeding because who he wanted me to be doesn't exist. I'm not her. And that's okay. But when you try so hard to be something and get the approval, you end up being fucking shattered at the end because you're like, wow, wait, I'd rather be rejected for who I actually am than who I pretend to be. Because self-love is going to end your addiction to potential. And I know, I know, you guys are all about the potential. I hear this every day of like, he has the potential. She has the potential. And it's like, but are they that right now? You've been dating this person for like six to eight months, but you're not seeing that. So what are we doing? It's a difference between growth minded. Like when Ryan and I'm dated, when we would have an issue, I'd bring it to him and I'd be like, oh, wow, like he handled that really well.

We would grow, and then we would grow, and then we would grow. That's not dating potential. That was dating who it was in front of me. Oh, he's growth-minded. Awesome. Not. Oh, but I know that if he goes to therapy, he could be great. It's like, what?

Without self-trust, you're not dating people. You're dating their fucking fantasies. You're drawn to emotionally unavailable people because it gives you a project to solve, which equals control. And I hate to say it, but you're also emotionally unavailable then. If you're consistently dating people that it's the episode that we had a couple of weeks ago. or, no, at this point, a couple of months ago, of when you're emotionally and available, the reason you're going to date emotionally and available is because that feels safer, right?

If you're like, oh, well, they're emotionally unavailable. They don't share their feelings and emotions and stuff. It's like, what are you doing? Are you taking up space then and saying, no, thank you? When you love yourself deeply, you no longer chase the potential. You only invest in reciprocity because you know you actually fucking deserve that. That's why I made the pullovers for the merch that say, don't believe everything you think. And your anxiety is lying to you because those are two aspects that I don't.

need to forget. There was a two aspects of life that I want to hold on because I can't believe everything I think. Feeling and facts are two different things. So someone said, why do I feel attracted to emotionally unavailable people? Well, because a part of you is emotionally unavailable. It's safer. Emotionally unavailable, it feels like home if you grew up with the unpredictable. It's familiarity. It's not chemistry. And that's just a reality because there's a part of your brain called the hippocampus and it stores emotional memory. So if inconsistency equals love growing up, your brain is seeking it as a signal for connection, even when that's harmful. because it's familiar.

I hear this all the time, like, oh, well, they can change. And it's like, okay, right now, right now, tomorrow morning when you wake up, don't do your routine. You would forget within five seconds. You would wake up and probably forget because you're an autopilot. Your brain's like, hey, they're exhausted. They don't have a lot of bandwidth. Okay, just shut down, just do what they do, do what they always do, go back into the familiar, we'll be safe. But that's not actually keeping you safe.

It's just a pattern. And that's literally what the whole book I'm writing on right now. So it's really fun to be able to come back to it. But I want you to do something called the Fantasy Detox. I want you to list the quality. that you're drawn to in unavailable people. Then I want you to ask, do I actually want these traits or do I associate them with love because that's what I had to earn growing up?

So for me, like, I dated the potential all the time. I would date these guys and it was whitewashing because there was one thing that I liked about them. That was it. They were all of a sudden great. And if they didn't choose me, it's because there's something wrong with me. It could never have been because maybe there's a issue with this person or maybe they're not actually available or maybe they haven't done any work on themselves.

No, no, no. Automatically because they were nice and one night that. was it. That's why I kept dating potential because I wasn't sitting with myself saying, how do I actually feel? Wow, I'm feeling really lonely or being honest with myself. I'm feeling really lonely. I'm feeling really sad. I'm feeling, right? And that's, again, the self-love course that Brit and I have goes way into depth, way more into this. You have tools, you have concepts, you have things that you can actually revert back to. So that way you can show up for yourself more than just like, you listen to the podcast. You're like, okay, next. I don't want that. I want you

guys to start implementing this material, whether it be with me or your fucking therapist, I don't care. And self-love is the ultimate act of self-protection. You leave sooner because you no longer gaslight yourself. Most people, they don't lack the intuition. They lack the self-trust to listen to it. That's why I keep fucking saying you don't overthink because you're trying to just protect yourself. You overthink because you don't trust yourself. When you love yourself, you don't wait for the 15th red flag to realize. You don't rationalize misalignment. You don't stay because you don't want start over, some cost bias. You leave because staying would mean betraying your fucking self. You leave because you know that this is not the best that you can fucking get and this is not all you

you deserve. You deserve more than breadcrumbs. You deserve more than bullshit, but you need to fucking believe that you deserve more. It can't be me telling you that. Because you will continue to allow what you think you deserve. You let people love you and the ways you think you deserve it. Look at the relationships you have, your friendships and your family. Come back to me and tell me that they're treating you like this. Why? Because you're not setting boundaries, because you're not standing up for yourself. I don't care again, whether you're in a relationship or not. There are people that are going to be invested in the unheeled version of you. So someone asked, how do I know if I'm walking away too fast or actually protecting myself? Which is a really valid question and something that I think is really great.

The thing is, is self-love doesn't react. It responds. So if your decision is bringing relief, even through grief, that's rooted in love, right? That's being like, wow, okay, I made this decision. It might hurt, but I do feel better because I just don't. like that person was for me. If it brings panic, then it might be rooted in fear or avoidance. So if you're like freaking the fuck out or everything is, but I missed my shot. And what if they were this? What if they did that? That's like, that's you avoiding being like, what do I actually need for myself focusing on them? Because when you focus on them, that's why I'm saying, my anxious folk, all of my anxious attaches being like, what I'm emotionally available.

I really want a relationship. It's like, no, no, you're not. When you focus on them, why didn't they choose me? What do they want? Why don't they like me? Why aren't they doing this? What's wrong with me? How can I get their attention? You are self-abandoning focusing on them. That's avoidance. You're avoiding looking up what's coming up with yourself. Same with avoiding people have anxiety. They just shut down and go inward because they don't know how to process or speak about it. My anxious folk, neither do you.

I'm sorry, neither do you. A lot of the times you guys don't know how to deal with this or handle it, and that's okay. I'm not chastising anybody. But when something doesn't seem like it adds up, why are you focused so muching on them but not about yourself? And then I want you to do this. There's a tool I love. Would I want my future self to thank me for this? I want you to imagine three months from now.

Would your future self be proud that you left when you did? Or would that future self be exhausted because you stayed to avoid discomfort? Because you didn't want to actually leave. I've made so many hard decisions. In hindsight, they were the clearest expressions of self-love. Like, every time I've broken up with a partner that I've stayed way too long, that's me saying, I love you. Like in Sex and the City, I love you, Richard, but I love me more.

Because you're saying, I'm not going to stay in this just because I'm scared to hurt you, or I don't want to be alone. It's like, I'd rather be alone than in bad company. And you know that you really love yourself when you're no longer afraid to be alone. I'm not. I love Ryan to the moon and back. And I'll say this all the time. Like if we ended tomorrow, I'd be sad, but I would be like, I'm really grateful for that.

I'm not scared of losing somebody. I'm scared of losing myself. I'm scared of living a life that I'm not actually showing up for me because I lived that for so long. Living for my dad, living for my mom, living for my sister and brother's approval, living for the audience's approval. I'm fucking tired of it. I'm tired of it. Because when your nervous system is regulated, solitude isn't a threat.

It's safety. I love being alone because I know, like Saturday, Ryan was out with his friend all day. oh my God, I was the best. I love my partner, but like, I got to listen to my music on blast. I was dancing around. I did a microdose of mushrooms. I had the best fucking afternoon. And we came home. I was like, oh, good to see you. But I loved being with me. Because without self-love, being alone means it feels like you're being abandoned. Well, self-love, being alone means you're being anchored. So maybe we could try a nervous system anchoring practice. I want you to pick one solo ritual a week that brings you pleasure, not just peace. So maybe that's going on a date. Maybe that's just getting ready for just you, right? In the morning, like maybe that's celebrating a small win without sharing it to. other people. What that does is it teaches your brain that you are a source of joy, not just a placeholder between relationships. What that shows is that you are choosing yourself. Like, I make my bed every morning. Britt Frank has always said, what you're doing is you're signaling to your brain, I matter. I'm worthy of being chosen. That's why I'm saying, go to therapy, join a course, whatever. I don't care. It doesn't have to be my course. It could be anybody's. But spending money

on yourself is when you say, I'm invested. Like, I'm doing this mold detox. A lot of you guys know about it. I've spent fucking $5,000 plus on it in the last year. It's like a whole process with all the supplements and everything. You think I miss a day? Not a fucking day because I told myself, you matter. You matter all of my life. No one would spend money on me. I'd have to beg. So that's my way. Could be time. Maybe no one's been time on you. And that's what you're doing. Again, doesn't have to be fiscal. But show yourself that you matter. Show up for yourself in some fucking way. Listening right now to this podcast, showing yourself that you love yourself. I'm doing this for me. I'm not doing this to hope that I can get them or that they're going to like me or that maybe I'll convince them.

I'm doing this for me. Self-love isn't loud. It's in the same. It's in the same. small quiet choices you make over and over again, when you choose peace over panic, when you walk away and when it's misaligned, whether you're in something right now or not, when you refuse to beg for the bare minimum, you become the love of your life, not by saying it, by fucking living it. And then when someone comes along and they don't complete you, they compliment the life that you've already built, that's when you know you fucking succeeded. That's when you know. is because you're not looking for someone to come and solve everything. You say, I love my life. And it's like, you're allowed to be a lonely. You're a human. You're allowed to be like, this is kind of shitty. But I want you. If you're in a relationship right now, I want you to look at your partner and I want you to ask, do I feel fulfilled? Am I hoping that they're going to change? Because then that means I'm not loving myself would mean showing up for myself. Loving myself would mean showing up for myself would mean, maybe my music, maybe a meditation, maybe nothing. Loving myself means not validating myself means not discrediting myself. Means not discrediting myself. Means taking myself out on a date. Going for a walk by myself with just maybe my music, maybe a meditation, maybe nothing. Loving myself means not. Loving myself means not. It's not berating myself or putting myself down or saying I'm so fucking stupid.

Loving myself means making different choices. And so if you guys want to go deeper, highly suggest checking out the self-love course with Britt Frank is linked in the show notes. And if you guys need help dating from a grounded place, that's why you got the foundation course. It teaches you how to regulate your nervous system and stop spiraling and dating. And then, of course, you have the nervous system course. If you are dating somebody and you're struggling with the texting, the unknowns, the early stages, we got you. Guys, I'm so fucking grateful for you. Thank you for sitting with me.

Thank you for allowing me to share some wisdom, some love, some tough love. And thank you, as always, for being in my corner. And if you're not, that's okay, too. I respect and value and love every single person here. And I'm here for you guys. And so as always, until next time, my babies, don't forget, choose your fucking self. And you will start to see your goddamn life change. Love you, nice.