The School of Greatness - How To Embrace Your True Strength, Turn Your Pain Into Power & Create A Legacy

Episode Date: June 13, 2025

Leave an Amazon Rating or Review for my New York Times Bestselling book, Make Money Easy!Three legendary figures reveal how fatherhood and family transformed their relationship with success and purpose. Matthew McConaughey shares the moment his relationship with Camila gave him courage to turn down millions in romantic comedies, leading to his Oscar-winning transformation, while confessing he wrote down 10 life goals at age 21 - including winning an Oscar before he was even acting. Kobe Bryant opens up about learning fundamentals after scoring zero points an entire summer at age 11, then using psychological warfare to elevate teammates and dominate opponents. Terry Crews delivers the most vulnerable story, describing his 30-year journey from an abused child in Flint to beating up his father at age 30, only to discover revenge solved nothing. Each man discovered that true strength comes not from individual dominance, but from the courage to serve something greater than themselves - whether through committed relationships, team excellence, or breaking generational cycles.Matthew’s book GreenlightsMatthew’s kids book Just BecauseKobe Bryant Dear BasketballTerry’s book Manhood: How to Be a Better Man-or Just Live with OneTerry’s audiobook Tough: My Journey to True PowerTerry’s kids book Terry's CrewIn this episode you will learn:How writing down your goals creates an invisible contract with your subconscious that works for decadesWhy the fundamentals beat natural talent when you commit to daily practice over yearsHow committed relationships give you more courage and creativity in your career, not lessThe psychology behind using work ethic as a weapon to mentally break down competitionWhy revenge fantasies destroy your soul even when you get the payback you wantedFor more information go to https://www.lewishowes.com/1784For more Greatness text PODCAST to [phone]More SOG episodes we think you’ll love:Matthew McConaughey – greatness.lnk.to/1422SCKobe Bryant  – greatness.lnk.to/691SCTerry Crews – greatness.lnk.to/1258SC Get more from Lewis! Get my New York Times Bestselling book, Make Money Easy!Get The Greatness Mindset audiobook on SpotifyText Lewis AIYouTubeInstagramWebsiteTiktokFacebookX

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this episode on the School of Greatness. Where do you think your life would have been in that year? Had you not had the loving committed relationship child as well first child? Where do you think temptation would have led you? Or do you think you would have made the same decision with the sand on the ground? Or was it having a committed conscious loving relationship and partner and teammate that allowed you to have the courage to act with that line in the sand? Well, the only reason I pause here is because I'm trying to wonder how little of credit to give

the relationship because I'm not going to say it's 100% but it's up there. The relationship having her and now about to become a father which was the only thing I ever wanted to be had great resonance for me. I one, had a relationship which gave me just singularly with Camilla gave me more the license and courage to fly. But now I'm going to become immortal, so to speak, with a child coming into the world. That's the one thing I ever dreamed of being become a father. That's at the top of my list since I was a kid. Now I'm like, well, this is what I'm doing. This part of life is always taking precedent

before anything I did since got famous. Won this or won that. My career was always in front of a Hollywood career. Always. That's what I mean by JK Living. That's why Jake Just Keep Living has always been sort of a mantra. At the end of the day, they argue with that. At the end of the day, that wins out. I've always wanted to have a life that I'm leading first. And I became an actor and movie star and famous, but not, oh, I'm an actor, movie star and famous. So now what do I do? How do I live my life according to that?

No, I wanted to keep those in order. If you didn't have that relationship at that time, what do you think would have happened? That's a good question. What would have happened? You think it would have been more tempting to take the money and let me just... Yeah, I mean, yeah, the nights would have been even longer. I think it would have definitely got more wobbly. I would have really had to... I mean, I believe I could have pulled it off.

I'm glad I didn't have to find out if I could pull it off on my own. I might've run off to the monastery and still be there. I, you know, or, because I had, I look, I had very somewhat reliable temptation from people very close to me going, what's your malfunction? My brothers and family were like, what is your major malfunction? What are you doing? You own this land and the wrong, but why are you making a straight line crooked, which is lying on the allergies? Why are you making this complicated? Do you know how many people would dream to even be doing this?

And so I did have that understanding, which I bring up in the book, about being less impressed and more involved. I was very thankful. I was never disrespecting the rom-com. I was just like, I don't know, I didn't make this up, this feeling in me. You're a new season, a new chapter. There's a new chapter to come. So what would I be doing doing? What would I be doing now if I didn't have Camilla and she didn't have her first child on the way? I don't know. That 20 months would have felt like 20 years

if I'd have stuck with it. And would I have had the patience? Would I have had the fortitude? Would I have been able to stay still in the long, lonely nights where I didn't feel like I had purpose, where I didn't feel significant, where I didn't have a newborn child and a relationship to look at and go.

Because I knew then, I was like, you put time into that, you cannot go wrong. I looked at my newborn child, I looked at Kimo, I was like, you put time into this, you are in the black room. There is no debit, no matter how much. You can't overdo that. So that gave me something. If I didn't have that, no, no, no, no, no, I'm not sure. 16 years you said we've been together, right?

Yeah. 16 years. There's a lot of men that are driven men. I'm in LA, so I see this in LA where they feel like they need to be single for a long time or they need to jump from partner to partner or have multiple partners at the same time, all these different things. No judgment, no right or wrong here.

But I'm curious, what have you learned about 16 years in a relationship that has taught you about how much more successful you can be in other areas of life versus single life when you were also extremely successful, but maybe there was something missing, you know, emotionally or spiritually. Yeah. Well, I'm gonna piggyback on where you first started. I've got friends that are poly and I've got friends that are perpetually single.

To see them when they do pull it off and still have a healthy spirit and healthy body and healthy mind, I applaud it. Right on. I do, I have seen a lot of them have to, ooh, I got to recalibrate. I got, you know, I got off. I got spread too thin.

Energy everywhere. You know, a bunch of little campfires, but no bonfires, right? You can do it. I think a person can do it on their own. I think a person can do it in solitude. I think a person can do it even with a relationship with just themselves,

if you think can be done. But when you have a relationship that you're committed to, that you wanna make work, that it's part of your, and especially when you have a relationship that you're committed to, that you want to make work, that it's part of your decision, especially when you have a child that is not committed to you, is dependent on you. That goes to the top of the value system. And so career choices can go into the two hole or maybe the three hole. Now, I would argue that I got better at my career when it went to the two and three

hall and wasn't in the one hall. Really? Because I didn't, and I feared this. I was like, whoa, I was having a family and the fact that when we had kids, my wife said, if we have kids on one condition, Matthew, when you go, we go. So my family comes with me. When she said that to me, I remember going through my mind, wait a minute, I'm an artist, I'm a lone wolf. When I go to work, I'm in my Airstream all alone. It's me and my dog, maybe. But nobody else. And as I'm saying that in my head, this other little smarter voice comes in and goes nod your head and say, yes ma'am. And I said, yes ma'am. It was a great decision I've ever made. Right. Because seeing my kids or leaving before they woke up and seeing them when I got home after work

was the was a beautiful energizing reset for me at the end of the day. They filled me up with real life and made me more creative. Interesting. Going into work the next day to tell a child when you're doing something like true detective and they go what was the scene about today and you go I better tell a good parable because I can't tell them the real thing. It's some heavy R stuff, right? So I became a better storyteller in how I'd make it a nursery rhyme or something. But you're living for something, for someone else and something more.

And, you know, for Camilla and I, living for the covenant that for her and I to do what we can to stay together and keep promoting each other and ourselves in a relationship and then to have the kids. I'm living, you live for something else and that empowered me and made me better as an individual. And when I go out the door, I have more courage

because I know I've got that stability at home. Wow. Where do you think you would have been if you would have been in a relationship, you know, five, 10 years prior? Yeah. And it'd be 25 years, suppose it's 16, do you think it would have been better in your career,

or you'd made that shift sooner, or do you feel like, you know, being the lone wolf, you had its time and its place, and it's- I think it had its time and its place. I'm not arrogant enough to say, oh, if I go back and change time. I mean, I've thought about that.

I was with and dated, seriously, some wonderful women before I met Camilla. I think it wasn't the time for me and it wasn't the time for them for us to take it further, to take it as far as say, getting married or something. But I often wonder what if I felt like it was time, that I never did? What if I did? Do we meet the right person sometimes, but it's just not the time for us? Interesting.

The two plays, it's gotta be the right person and the right time for each person. But I cannot go back, going forward to mystery, looking back to science. When I connect the dots, I don't dare to go back. So if I changed 10 years earlier, I'm thinking about who I was dating, if we'd have got married, I mean, who knows?

I don't think it would have been the same realization 10 years earlier. I was a different man. I was seeing the world differently. And we'll never know, but I think it was the right time for me when this happened. And my single years were the right amount of time for me when I was there.

And those relationships before that, that ultimately ended, that was the right time for them to end. So how old were you when you met your wife? 16, 53, 40, 37. for them to end. So how old were you when you met your wife? We're 16. 16, 53, 40, 37. 37. So when you were 37, before the moment you met her, which I think you met her at a bar, a sunset.

Club on sunset. Stars Club on sunset. Club. Let's call it that morning. Don't go to many clubs. Glad I went to club this night. Yeah, it was good. Let's call it that morning or that season

right before you met her. What was it that made you feel loved then? And what is it today that makes you feel the most loved today? Okay. What does it make me feel the most loved before? Yes. Okay.

When I was spiritually strong. And look, I was spiritually strong. And look, I was, I had some relationships that were loving relationships that, or I loved the woman she loved and cared for me. And those were real. Yes. I also had a season where it was just affairs. It wasn't a bad love.

It was lust. It's fun. Yeah. It was fun. And it was, it was healthily, it was a healthy, fun transaction. And we laughed and kept it light. And that was all it was ever gonna be.

And you know, and that was okay too. I am happy to say that through most, most of that, I was able to keep someone spiritually strong. Really? How did you stay? I mean, I had no, I didn't really have trouble sleeping alone in my own bed. Cause I've had those times,

I think we all have, if we've had this single life, where there's times where if you're rolling like that, especially if it's like affairs and flirt popping around here and there, boy, all of a sudden you end up in bed alone, if it's like affairs and flirt popping around here and there, boy, all of a sudden you end up in bed alone. You can't sleep.

And you're like, whoa, wait a minute. Now I'm the company I can't stand being with. If it's only me, that would always be a trigger for me. Like, you better bend a knee and go. Go inward. Catch your breath and go inward here. So. So what made you feel the most love before you met her? What

was it? I mean, was it the success or the the chase? Was it the, you know? No, it wasn't the chase and catch. I knew what I knew what that was. I that that always felt like a stop and not a stay. To me, it was a season. I understood it to be a season. And I gave myself freedom and license to have that season as healthily as I could.

I don't think I was any more shallow. I didn't think, oh, this is all there is. I did have a dream where I thought, where I was 80 and 88 year old bachelor but had a lot of children. You did. Yeah, and it wasn't a nightmare. 88 year old bachelor, you had a lot of children. That wasn't a nightmare. I was sitting on a porch and it wasn't a nightmare. 88 year old bachelor? You got a lot

of children. That wasn't a nightmare. I was sitting on a porch and it wasn't a nightmare. Really? And I woke up from that dream not going yippee that's what I'll do. I did wake up with it going that's possible. And as soon as I said that's possible And soon as I said, that's possible. I did quit looking so hard. And when I quit looking for her so hard, that's when she came. Because before that, I will say, in my thought of, I do want to find someone to fall in love with

and start a family. I mean, every red light, bro. LA. Possible, possible, produce section. You know what I mean? Possible, possible, every, you know, you just like- Yoga class, whole foods, whatever you like. You're just checking, you know, everywhere.

And I was looking, I was leaning in, leaning in, and said, well, maybe that could work, like that script. Well, maybe that could work, you know? And then when I had that dream, it was like, oh, on spiritual sense, I was like, well, you might end up being an ADO bachelor. And if you've got spiritually, if you're spiritually strong, your relationship with God is strong, that's okay.

It didn't make me go, that's what I wanna do. But just saying that could be a reality for you. Let me exhale and I quit looking everywhere. I quit looking in the first second. It was like, and I, what happens when you do that? You become more attractive. You allow yourself to be loved. You allow yourself to see someone,

who actually you might love. But mainly you allow yourself to be someone that can be loved. And you're not selling, you're not soliciting yourself. You're not in a rush about anything. You're gonna meet somebody. You also, what you look at, you want to see how they move. How far back are the shoulders? How do they talk? What do they say in between the lines? Not what they say, what do they say in between the lines? And I remember when I saw

Camilla walk across the club that night, it was the way she moved. I saw history. I saw dignity. I saw somebody that was not for sale. I saw somebody that didn't even, that when I called her over was not happy to meet me, wasn't over, wasn't impressed with my vocation. And she knew who I was. I wasn't impressed with that.

She was about a lot more than that. So my eyes were open to seeing what I wanted and needed. And I also was able to, in that moment, completely be myself, not oversell myself. Not undersell myself. Did you feel like you needed to oversell yourself before then, even though you had all the success and the fame and the hits and the money? And I think when just to suspect it's a sped up process, you know,

especially if you're like, and you know, if it's a more of a string of short term relationships, it's like, it's not overselling. It's just like, let's skip the, let's skip a lot of the real stuff. Let's skip a lot of the, you know what I mean? Come on, we're just here, we're laughing. We're having a good time. You know what I mean? And that's all, that's all both in this for, so, you know, so you speed up the process a little bit. So I don't know when you say, what did I love? It wasn't my fame. Did I feel more loved if my movie did well and more people came up and was like,

that was great? Sure. Sure. But that was never my top source of affirmation of feeling love. Did I feel less loved? Movie bombed or people were like, I like, sure. But that was never my main thing. The source of my lack of confidence or lack of significance. It was, maybe I was spiritual. And then I always had, look, I always had family

at this time, being my brothers and my mom and stuff. There was always that, that I knew was 100% reliable. But mainly I say spiritual. And then your follow up question to what, when you feel more love now. Yeah, when do you feel the most love now? Oh, the good night group hug with my three kids

and my wife after we've just talked about what our day was like, what we're looking forward to tomorrow. And we've had a few fun disagreements and somebody said something real honest that they didn't have the courage to say maybe a week before. And for the first time, noticed that if they shared that

they weren't gonna get in trouble, that they were just going. And to see them grow and going, you got the courage. Me and, didn't feel like a dad, no, me and your mother giving you a place to feel like you can go. We had, I did like her and my heart hurts cause she doesn't like me.

To be able to, for a child to be able to say that to you. It's like, okay, we're doing something right. There we go. That's a feeling of love to have an honest talk, not just about all of the happy times, but about the stuff that sucks in my kids' lives as well. And even from my wife to share it and it not be like, da-da-da-da.

Right, right. To be like, yeah, we're going through this. And one thing we know is we're going through it together. That's right. That's beautiful. That's beautiful. One of the things that you talk about in the book in the last couple of pages was this list of goals that you wrote down.

One of them. Isn't that wild? 10 goals in life, 1992. 1992. One of them becoming a father, and number two, finding and keeping the woman for me. The woman for me. Yep.

And you had 10 of them. I'm curious, how important is it to write down our visions, our dreams, our goals in order to manifest what we want in our lives? Because this whole book is a journal of you writing down everything. And all 10 of these, you've accomplished all of them and you're still accomplishing and living into them. So how important is it to write down our dreams, our goals, our values in order to manifest and attract them? I think it's a lot more important than we give it credit for. Look, writing things down it seems like this old-fashioned sort of archaic

things. Type it. It's on the screen. Put it on a Word doc. Save it, put in a folder. It can be lost back there to actually write it with the hand. Is a different kind of objectivity you get because it's come out of you, you've put it down, now you're looking at it, it's outside of you. It's freed up now, it's alive, it's moving. Now, more so than having that goal by your bedside every night, which can be good.

But to write it down, if you're writing down true goals, they become written in your body, whether you know it or not, in your subconscious. It's a way to get it into your subconscious. To write it down, now it's out of me, it's on a page, a way to get it into your subconscious, to write it down. Now it's out of me, it's on a page. I'm objectifying it now, I'm looking at it. So now I'm having a dialogue

where before it was just Socratic, but now I'm having a dialogue and it starts to reciprocate. Those 10 goals, I wrote those down in the top bunk in the Dell House, University of Texas, 1992. My roommate was Monty Wills. I remember the night I wrote him down. Wow. I never looked at him again. I found those and writing this book and found out that, oh my gosh, all 10 you actually did and four you're still doing. That's crazy. I never looked at him. 30

years later you found them. Yeah. That's crazy. But they all happened. They all happened. I don't think they happen if I don't write them down. I don't think. They do. So that practice of writing something down that you into or that you want or that you yearn for and to add to it or subtract from it along the way if you want to or just write it down, fold it up, tuck it away so you can find it 30 years later when you go want to share a journal or write something about it.

Like I did. I don't think it happens but then just go back and see the invisible contract I made myself. Oh my gosh I love that. Because obviously I did because I mean I those 10 people go, you've done all 10. I said, well, no, I'm in the middle. I'm still maintaining for it. But I have engaged. Some of them I've just done. But I am in full engagement with all of them. And... Well, it's an invisible contract until it becomes a physical written contract.

Right. But it's with yourself. I guess it becomes, there's an invisible contract until it becomes a physical written contract. Right. You know, and it's with yourself. And you see it becomes there's an invisible way. It becomes subconsciously non-negotiable with yourself. And here's the interesting thing on this. I don't know. Is this the exact image or is this a recreated image? No, that's it. This is a photo of it or you signed it.

Yeah. And that's what I think is actually really important because you did create a contract with sell. Right. You signed the goals at the bottom. You have 10 goals in life, 9192. Yeah. And that's what I think is actually really important because you did create a contract with self. Right. You signed the goals at the bottom. You have 10 goals in life, 9192. And at the bottom, you signed it.

And I think that's really important in creating this contract with self is putting your name on something that you write down from the ideas in your mind into paper so that you can actualize this in life. And I think that's what's beautiful. You were like, what, 20 years old when you did this? 2021, and folks, anyone who thinks so, that sounds like Mike Tyson talking about Mike Tyson when he's himself talking about the third person.

Do it, don't worry, sign your stuff to yourself. You know what I mean? Just write to yourself and sign it. It's a great practice to do. You are then getting a third person objective view of yourself. So you will have a better chance of subjectively creating those and activating those things and having them happen. One of the things in here, number seven, stay close to mom and family. I know there was

a period, I think you said six or eight years where you pulled away from your mom. I think you're still close with your brother, but you pulled back because she was kind of loving the fame and it was making it about her as opposed to supporting her son. So that was something that kind of came and went and you danced with, but now it seems like you guys are in a great place. She's living with us four years now. She's 91.

And then also you had number eight, won an Oscar for the best actor. How do you at 20, 21, write down a goal of winning an Oscar when I think- And I wasn't even acting at that time. That's nuts. You didn't even do the first movie yet? No.

Why did that come in your mind? Why was that even a thought, a dream, a goal? So this is, I believe, right after, soon after I had called my father to say, I don't want to go to law school anymore, I want to go to film school. Now I'm looking back. And he said a great line back to you.

He said a great line. He said, don't half-ass it. Don't half-ass it. Which was three or whatever, four, however many words it is, the best words I've ever heard from the man who I ultimately really wanted my ultimate approval from. And he didn't gave me, he gave me a lot more than approval with that line.

Kicking the backside privilege, freedom, responsibility, kick, go do it. And I suppose, no consciously, but probably subconsciously too, there's things that I've done where I wanted to let something slide and those words came up and I was like, uh-uh, no way, uh-uh, that'd be half a** in it. So those words have lived with me. I decided I wanna go to film school. And I went back through these journals and I find something like that, I was like,

dude, you always wanted to be an actor. Oh, interesting. Like, dude, you always wanted to be an actor. Oh, interesting. Like you just wouldn't admit it. And I remember always being sheepish about someone go like, well, you just want to, why don't you perform? I'm like, nah, I don't, I don't, I don't. Something about it and I had felt fraudulent then. Something about being behind the camera to go to director school, learning story felt

like, well, that's my, I'll sneak in the back go to director school, learning story felt like, well, that's my, I'll sneak in the back door too, actually, right? But that's the better way. And I'm glad I went that path. But I think I wanted to, and I'm talking about my buddy Rob Binler, who I bring up often in this book about it.

He was like, yeah, you were wanting to, he reminded me of talks we'd had late night. And he was already at NYU film school. He was like reminding me, yeah, you were already wanting to at this time when you first went to film school. So I write that down to myself. I'm not afraid to write it down to myself,

but I'm afraid to say anything like that out loud. I'm not, I'm afraid to even say I would, I'm interested in going into acting at this point. Wow. But yet I write down, I wanna win I want to win an Oscar for Best Actor. Wow. So when you saw this paper, you had already won these goals. You know, for the first time after, I guess, close to 30 years, you'd won it, I think, I don't know, six, seven years prior to that. Yeah. What did that feel like when you read this

and you saw Win an Oscar for best actor? Oh, I read it, I was like, ah, are you kidding, get out of here, Camilla! Check this out! Are you kidding me? Wow. And then I went, whoop, right back to the night. And I remember sitting in the top bunk.

We'd just come from the arcade, me and Monty Willis, our roommate, he was in the bottom bunk, I was in the top bunk. We'd just come from the arcade, me and Monty Wills, our roommate, he was in the bottom bunk, I was in the top bunk. Like a two Thursday night. I'd been journaling, I wrote in this little journal and I remember that night. Other people were actually going out for a late, we'd been out kind of partying, other people went to the next party and I decided to come home and sort of buy it. I love the top bunk. I can brush my teeth, why not? Put them to shores, got a bed, got a cover set up there and I had a little window right here and I had my little diary on a little window seal with a pen. Bunk bed. Yeah, that we made. We made these bunk. We were

the first bunk beds in the Dell house and pulled over and I wrote it. And I think I even had a form of a headlamp. I even had headlamps. I loved headlamps. I still do love headlamps. And written that and I wrote that down. Wow. Curious. If you didn't create this contract for yourself, do you think you would have accomplished all 10 of these goals and dreams for your life or would some of them maybe fall through the cracks because you didn't create that, turn the invisible contract into a physical written contract and make it real? I don't know I mean I have to believe that writing them down subconsciously led to me actually. I knew what they were. I couldn't recite it to you because I never looked at me actually. I knew what they were. I couldn't

recite it to you because I never looked at them again. But I knew what they were. Who was more influential for you, your father or mother? Both were influential at different points. Yeah. Right. My mom was there on a daily basis. My father was really influential at a really critical time where I had a summer where I played basketball when I was like 10 or 11 years old. And a very prominent summer league in Philadelphia called the Sunny Hill League. Where my father played, my uncle played,

and they were like all time greats and stuff. Bo Chamberlain played in the league, Earl O'Promer in a row played in the league. And here I come playing and I don't score one point the entire summer. Really? Not one. How old were you?

11, 10, 11. You're playing against other 10, 11 year olds? Uh-huh. You didn't score once. Not one. Were you in the game? I was in the game. How'd you not score?

Cause I was terrible. Really? Yeah. That happened. At 10, 11 years old, you were that terrible. Awful. I mean, I, you know, and I had these big knee pads on because I was growing really fast,

I have socks all the way up here, and I had like the high top feet. Skinny, yeah. Like skinny as hell. And I scored not a free throw, nothing, not a lucky shot, not a breakaway layup, zero points. And I remember crying about it and being upset about it, and my father just gave me a hug and said,

listen, whether you score zero or score 60, I'm gonna love you no matter what. Now that is the most important thing that you can say to a child. Because from there I was like, okay, that gives me all the confidence in the world to fail. I have the security there. But to hell with that, I'm scoring 60.

Let's go. And from there I just went to work. I just stayed with it. I kept practicing, kept practicing, kept practicing. Is that when you think the mentality of hard work started to come in for you at that age when you failed so miserably I guess that summer? I think that's when the idea of understanding a long-term view became important because I wasn't going to catch these kids in a week. I wasn't going to catch them in a year. Right. So that's when I sat down and said okay this't going to catch these kids in a week. I wasn't gonna catch him in a year, right? So that's when I sat down and said, okay, this is gonna take some thought All right, what I want to work on first. All right shooting. All right, let's knock this out

Let's focus on this half a year six months. Do nothing but shoot right after that All right creating your own shot and you focus so you start I started creating a menu of things When I came back the next summer, I was a little bit better, right? I'm not you mean like I've got my jump shot from 15. I came back the next summer, I was a little bit better, right? And I came back. A menu being like, I've got my jump shot from 15, I've got my eight away. Yeah, I got my jump shot from 15,

I got my three point shot, like just open shots, not miss open shots, right? Be able to shoot it with speed, because those kids are so much more athletic. And then the next summer I came back, I was a little better. The summer came back, the next summer I was a little better. I scored, you know, it wasn't much, but I scored. This is 12, 13. 12, 13. And then 14 came back, the next summer I scored. It wasn't much, but I scored. This is 12-13. Then 14

came around, back half of 13-14 years old, and then I was just killing everyone. And it happened in two years. I wasn't expecting it to happen in two years, but it did because what I had to do was work on the basics and the fundamentals. They relied on athleticism and their natural ability. And because I stick to the fundamentals, it just caught up to them. And then my body, you know, my knees stopped hurting. I grew into my frame. And then your athleticism, once you have the fundamentals, the hard work, the mindset,

and you tack on the athleticism, it's game over. Exactly. Then it was game over. Wow. So from 13, you're good average still? I was good, I was good. And then about the end of my 30, right when I was turning 14,

I became the best player in the state. 14. So from 12 to 14, you went from scoring zero to being the best in the state of all ages. But it's simple. If you do the math on this, right? If you're thinking about how often kids are playing Alright, I'll tell this to my to my daughter and my daughter's team as well that I coach

It's a simple thing of math if you want to be a great player if you play every single day Two three hours every single day or course of a year. How much better you getting most kids will play Maybe you know an hour and a half two days a week Right will play maybe you know an hour and a half two days a week right put a math on that it's not it's not going it's not gonna get it done we get it done right so if you're obsessed with obsessive obsessively training two three hours every single day over a year over two years there to celebrate you make quantum leaps man just doing a summer camp for two weeks you see a difference I remember playing basketball.

You see it. You get a lot better, you come back more confident playing on the playground with guys who used to beat you. Yeah, and I tell the parents of my team, I said, it's when I say your kids are gonna become great basketball players. They're like, really? Yeah, it's not.

It's math. It's it. Show up every single day. Show up every single day, do the work. There's a beautiful story that I love from Jay Williams. I don't know if you remember Jay Williams. Where he did an interview a while back and he talked about how when he played you,

I think the first time, or one of the first times he played against you, he was like, I'm gonna show up so early to the court to warm up and practice like before anyone. He shows up at the court, I don't know if it was in LA or where it was, and you were the only one there. Already shooting free throws,

already doing your fundamentals. He goes, I'm gonna stay here until Kobe leaves. And then he was like, gosh, an hour and a half, two hours later. I gotta go. I'm tired. And Kobe's still shooting free throws, scoring like just going over the fundamentals.

And he goes, and then we played that game and you were lights out. And he came up to you afterwards and said like, dude, why were you in there for so long and how'd you do it? And he said, this is what he said, you said, so I knew you were watching and I wanted to show you that I was willing to outwork you.

Something along those lines. I don't know if you remember this. I remember it. You remember, yeah. And I thought that was so powerful that you have this mindset, but how did you develop that? I don't know if that's what you call the mamba mindset, but how did you develop that?

And when did it start? It started in middle school and high school, because a lot of the kids that I was playing against were inner city kids. And so they're looking at me as if, okay, this kid is soft, right? He's from the suburbs of Philadelphia. His father played in the NBA, played professionally. He's got it easy. He's got it easy, born on second, but you know, all this other stuff, right? He's from the suburbs of Philadelphia. His father played in the NBA, played professionally. He's got it

easy. Got it easy. Born on second, but you know, all this sort of stuff, right? And so it felt like they could try to be physical or try to intimidate me and do all this other stuff, which they couldn't, right? But now I'm saying, okay, well, you're trying to attack me. How am I going to attack you? How can I mentally figure out ways to break you down? How can I show you that? No, I have the edge, right? And so that's when it first started for me

is figuring out how to get the upper hand on an opponent that way. And what would you do to mentally break people down then? Well, I mean, you know, like, we used to have an all American camp that I used to go to. And at the time I first showed I was a sophomore. And one of the things I would do is, everybody would be at the cafeteria,

we're eating and doing all sorts of stuff. I'd just go back to the gym. I'd just go back to the gym. They'd be resting, they'd be doing anything. And they'd see me leave, right? But now you're in a tough position, because you're like, okay, I wanna be like, I'm following a kid to go work out,

but I know he's working, he's up early, and he's doing all this other stuff. And so that was my way of showing them, yeah, I may be on the suburbs, but you're not gonna outwork me. And I'm mentally gonna be much tougher. Did someone teach you that? Was that just a thing that you decided,

like I'm gonna get in people's minds? I think it's just figuring out ways to be better and to win the game. And it started as a defense mechanism because, they were the ones talking trash to me, and kid from Italy, blah, blah, blah, and all sort of stuff. It was like, okay, I can't let them,

I gotta defend myself here, right? And then it became, okay, I'm pretty witty. I can say some pretty witty things. Yeah, and in Italian. And in Italian, yeah, yeah. It's interesting, I never was physically gifted to an extreme level. I was always really good, but I was never like

the fastest or biggest or strongest. But I remember my edge was I'm not going to go party and I'm not gonna drink alcohol. So I've never been drunk still, because I was like, I need every edge when guys were out partying late at night who were better than me and drinking and showing up hungover I was like I'm gonna be more focused and clear vision and but I wasn't waking up at 4 a.m. like you so well that's interesting because like when I when I played one

of the things that I had to learn is how to get the best out of my teammates yeah and most people think it's a simple thing, you know, passing the ball. Yeah. But that's not how you make guys better. You have to really affect their behavior. How do you do that? So, you know, like, you know, I would tell guys, you got it back to backs. You know, I don't care if we're in Miami. I don't care if we're in a great city of Chicago.

You can't go out. We got to get rest. Right. Back to back games. Back to back games. Right. Monday, Tuesday. Play Monday and play again Tuesday. Guys aren't gonna listen, right gotta get rest. Back to back games. Back to back games, right? Monday, Tuesday, play Monday and play again Tuesday. Guys aren't gonna listen, right? So a few times, say, all right, we'll all go out. We'll go out together. Really?

I'll drink with you, right? But the next morning, I'm banging on your door at five in the morning. Let's go. They're not getting out. Where are we going? I hung out with you, now you come hang out with me. This is what we do, all right, let's go.

And we're at the gym, we're working out, right? We hit the bus, we go to practice, we play that night. And they're dead. And they're dead, and they're like lesson learned. Lesson learned. Take them out once. Listen, if you're gonna do that, do that, but don't let that compromise what we're here to do.

This is why we're here. This is why you're here in the first place. Yeah. And if we're gonna win a championship This is why we're here. This is why you're here in the first place. Yeah. Right? And if we're going to win a championship, we have to have that championship mentality. That's it. Work ethic.

That's it. So you got to show them, no, Colb can do that and still has the energy to get up and do this. So either I got to meet that same energy or I got to keep my butt in my room. Go to bed early, yeah. Wow.

What are some other things you did to rise the level of your teammates? What are some other ways you can, and what do you think people can do in general with the business team or any sports team? I think you have to listen, and you have to pay attention to what your colleagues or teammates are saying,

and what are certain things that drive them, certain things that motivate them, that trigger them. And one of my favorite ones, Pal hates it every time I tell this story. He hates it, he hates it. But we lost to the Celtics in 08. And it was a physical series, I mean they beat the crap out of us.

And so we go into the Olympic year, that year, we wound up playing in Spain for the gold medal match and we beat them. And so now we come back to start training camp and Powell shows up first day of training camp, I have my gold medal hanging in his locker room. Oh no. And he, I mean, like the one thing

that he truly, truly loves is his country. Of course. That is like everything to him. So it just drove him crazy. I said, Powell, listen. He said, you're an asshole. I said, listen, Powell, you lost to the Celtics. You lost to us in a gold medal match.

Let's not make this three in a row this year. Okay? Let's win this thing. And that was it for him. And he probably stepped up at a whole other level. Well, you know, pal was a phenomenon to begin with. And then for him was just stepping up to a level of physicality that we needed him to get to,

which he did. And we went on to went back to back championships. My man. How important is understanding human psychology and human behavior to work with a team as opposed to just relying on your gifts and talents? It's probably the most important thing. When you're in this culture and our society,

you can do some phenomenal things individually, but they'll never reach their full potential unless you do them collectively. And you have to figure out how to do that. And Phil Jackson was great at that. Phil, he wouldn't just coach the team or coach the game, but he'd read everything about every single player. You learn about your history, how you grew up,

how you were raised, where were you raised, you know, he'll read every interview and he'll learn about you and gives him a better understanding of what's motivating you or what your insecurities are, right? And then it just helps him communicate with you better or even push a button here if he needs to. When did you learn that it was important to understand who your teammates are, what their likes or dislikes are? Was that in high school for you or more?

No, I learned it from Phil. There was a stretch in 03 where Shaq was out with an injury. And Phil called me up to his office and said, okay, we need you to really turn on the afterburners and start scoring them off if you have to win. So I did and I wound up scoring, I think it was nine straight games, 40 plus points. Nine straight.

Nine straight games. And then Shaq comes back second to last game of that. And then Phil calls me up to his office and says, Colby, okay, I need you to dial it back. I'm like, why? Like we're winning, I don't understand. Because our goal is to dial it back. I'm like, why? Like we're winning, I don't understand. Because our goal is to win the championship. And we can get through the Western Conference

with you playing this way. But in the East, we can dominate them inside with Shaq in the post. But if you continue to do this, we'll lose Shaq. We'll lose him. His motivation, his excitement. What triggers him, right? So I need you to pull back

so we can pull Shaq forward for June. Wow. And I just looked at him like, this is one smart dude. Wow, that's really smart. Yeah, that's one smart dude, man. So I pulled it back. Wow. Yeah.

What do you think has been the greatest challenge you've had since leaving the game? The greatest challenge. I think it's, you know, you won an Oscar, you're launching podcasts and shows and you got a book coming out. Yeah, but it's different though. Like, you know, we were just talking about it here in the office

the other day. When you play the game, you hit a game winning shot, you miss a shot, the reaction's there. You can see how people are responding to it. You can feel it. The energy is there. What I do now, you don't. Like I don't see how people are affected

by deer basketball or creating the punies and you put it out there. What I do now, you don't. Like I don't see how people are affected by deer basketball or creating the punies and you put it out there. Like I wish I could see a car ride of a family the first time their daughter hears Lily's lemonade and what she's doing, she's singing along to it. That's not there, right? So that's the challenge. That's the one thing that I miss

is being able to feed off of the energy. The instant feedback that you get from missing or scoring a shot, winning or losing a game. It's like either way you're getting a result, right? Yes, yes, that's the one thing. And I went to, because I spent a lot of time with mentors as well. I've been at Pixar and Disney Studios,

they've been absolutely wonderful animation, Disney animation. And I've talked to them about Frozen and Moana and how kids love them. And they're always like, oh, that's awesome. And they want to hear it, because they don't ever get a chance to truly see it. They're not sitting in the movie theater like-

No, no, and they don't have time to go to Disneyland and walk around the park and see how many families are enjoying the content that they've created because they're busy making the next one. Creating. Yes, yes, so that's the one thing. What do you think the biggest challenge is for most athletes after they retire? I think it's the fear of starting anew and that was certainly present for me as well.

Really? Like identity you mean? Well, it's starting from scratch, right? Because when you play for 20 years, I played for 20 years, you reach a certain level, you're like, okay, wait a minute. I have to start again at the base of a mountain and try to climb the top of this mountain.

First of all, what mountain am I climbing? I don't even know, like, what the hell am I gonna be doing? It's very scary. It's very scary. Even for you. Oh, absolutely, absolutely. And the thing that helped me actually was hurting

my Achilles because that forced me to sit there and say, okay, the day could be today that your career is over. At any time when you were playing, I mean, yeah. Now what do you do? You have these ideas about doing something with your life after basketball, but what if today is the day that you, that's it. Now what do you do?

So I had all this time sitting there with my Achilles' injury and contemplating and thinking and I said, I better get to work. That was that. What was the vision for you afterwards then? Was it to do what you're doing now? Or did you have other ideas?

Or what's the vision? I struggled with it at first. Because the first question I asked, which is the wrong question is, what's the biggest industry I can get into? Was it more money thinking or? Yes, money thinking. Saying, okay, athletes are saying you can't make more revenue when you retire. This is your source of your income is here. Saying, okay, that's a challenge. What can I do?

And I remember going for... Didn't you launch a fund or something? I did. I did. And so I started, I went for a ride and I said, okay, stop thinking of it that way. You're thinking of it the wrong way. Why'd you start playing basketball? Cause I loved it. All right. What do you love to do? Well, I love to tell stories. All right, let's do that. And then that's where it started for me. And, um, and then on top of that, it became things like,

you know, we started learning more about the financial industry and about players going broke once they retire and saying, okay, how can I minimize the chances of that happening? What are things that I can do to invest my money smartly? Also help control some of that outcome to a certain extent. And that's when I called Mike Rapoli. Mike Rapoli was an entrepreneur who built Vitamin Water, Pirates Booty, and some other companies and started learning from them.

And then from that came the opportunity to invest in body armor. Yeah. And which, yeah, which we're drinking now. It's good, it's delicious. But all that came from the injury and really having to self-assess and face that really dark room of what comes

next. Storytelling is something you're really passionate about. What's a story over your life that's been a concept theme that you go back to? Is there something you heard as a kid that really resonates with you or a book or a movie that just feels like this is me? Yeah, that's funny. Movies, there are plenty, but there's a quote from one of my English teachers

at Laura Marion named Mr. Fisk. He had a great quote that said, "'Rest at the end, not in the middle.'" And that's something I always live by. I'm not gonna rest, I'm gonna keep on pushing now. There are a lot of answers that I don't have even questions that I don't have I'm just gonna keep going It's gonna keep going and I'll figure these things out as you go, right? And you just continue to build that way so that I try to live by that all the time rest at the end

Rest at the end. What's the question that eats you alive the most that you haven't answered yet? The question that eats me alive that I haven't answered yet. Oh, but you're still looking for the answer. I'm still looking for the answer. How to tell a good story. I don't think anybody has that answer. You know, like when I sat down to write your basketball, I was like, okay, what do I want to say? And, you know And you have certain acts

and how you can structure certain things, right? The ebbs and flows of story, certain formulas that have been there since the beginning of time. But it's such an exact sign. So challenging, yeah. Right? And so that one question is really interesting.

Why do you want to tell a great story? I think stories is what moves the world. Whether it's an inspirational story, it's an informational one. Nothing in this world moves without story. You know, from the political world, sports world, nothing that we have moves without story. And so I think that is the root of everything. And if we're gonna try to make the world a better place,

story's the right place to start. You were the epitome of the tough, strong, bodybuilder football guy for a long time. And you portrayed this image in movies, TV and all these different things. Why do you feel like you had that anger inside of you and when did you realize that you needed to let it go? Well, wow that's a great great question man. You know for me, me, my world was designed around competition. Growing up in Flint, Michigan, it was in the middle.

When the auto industry imploded, I was around 10 years old. And then the crack epidemic happened at the same time. So you're talking about a double whammy on a city. And so it was very violent, lots of crime, lots of drugs, lots of gangs, lots of powerlessness is what I like to call it. Because I- People felt powerless.

Especially me. Okay. Because you couldn't do anything about it. You know, one thing that people didn't know or ever forgot is when around that time in the city, there would be smokestacks around the city and what they were doing were burning foreign cars. Really?

And I remember just seeing you walk to school and you go across a parking lot in the factory and they'd be burning a car and effigy and throwing rocks at it and you know ain't gonna have them damn you know Toyotas up in here you know because it was foreign and it just hit me about how you know the problem was the city was very resistant to change, but change is inevitable. And this is what I was going through. But it was also about competition.

It was always about, okay, it's got to be me versus this dope man. It's got to be me versus this gang initiation that they're trying to bring me into. It's gotta be me versus, you know, the grown men in my neighborhood and in my area that were always challenging me as a young man. So you had to come up and it made me very mad. Really? And growing up with an alcoholic father, on top of all that.

Big Terry. Big Terry, yeah. I was little Terry, he was big Terry. And one of my earliest memories is him knocking my mother out. And I was like, got it man, you run the world right now. Until I do.

Ooh. I'm gonna tell you man. How were you then? Oh, I was five. Oh man. I was five. But I have to tell you that? How were you then? Oh, I was five. Oh, man. I was five. But I have to tell you, I, one of the things I knew that my desire to get strong and my desire to have power and to be really, really just, I was obsessed with muscle even as a

little kid because I knew one day I might have to kill my father. Oh my gosh. He was that dude. Wow. He was just, he was unending, never bending, just constant intimidation. You know what I mean? Like fear, intimidation.

You just didn't, you know, you didn't, you never felt comfortable. You never felt like he accepted you. You always felt like something was wrong, you doing it wrong, you didn't iron your pants enough, you didn't do something enough, you didn't clean enough, you just felt always inadequate. And that was the mindset of a lot of men

in that culture, in the city at the time I was growing up. And it wasn't gonna let you, they're not gonna let you off easy, but when you ask them questions, they would never answer. Why not? I don't know. See, that blew my mind, because I was like, okay, just tell me what you want.

And they're like, well, one day you're gonna find out. Let me tell you one day. One day you'll get it. And you're like, but I'm 12. Can you like give me a clue? And man, it was, I mean, it was only after I grew up when I realized that they didn't know. So that was a kind of a cop out.

But it made me, I had a vow with my best friend and we were about 13, 14 years old, because this was such a big problem. Like his dad would never talk to him. And my dad would never talk to me, and the older adults wouldn't tell, you know, only thing they would tell you about is how to be a pimp. You know, like, man, you want two or three girls,

let me tell you how to do it, you know. This is the game you gotta run. You know, like, that's the only thing they would volunteer. But any of the other life stuff, like what does this mean? What does life mean? What's the true meaning of this? And you ain't getting that. Go to church for that.

And the whole concept with a lot of men in that world was that if you're scared, go to church. Like, you know, church was for scared people. You know what I mean? Like, no, no, we're too tough for that, you know, church was for scaring people. Interesting. You know what I mean? Like, no, no, we're too, we're too tough for that, you know. And what was so wild is we made a vow. And we made a vow, me and my best friend, that, you know, we would, if you, I said, if you find out something before I do, promise me that you'll tell me. And if I find out anything that you need to know before you do, I'll tell you.

And we literally shook on it. I'll never forget it. I'll never forget the day we did it. Did you guys start telling each other advice or wisdom? Yeah, we were just trying to find out stuff like, oh man, check this out. This is in school and this is this and this will get you to this level

and man, we gotta start working out and man, we gotta do this. Cause we were just alone. I mean, this was in the early days of even fitness. you to this level and man we gotta start working out and man we gotta do this you know because we were just alone yeah i mean this is in the early days of even fitness yeah there was no there were no information on fitness really about how to build your build your muscles really yeah no we would get i remember ordering the books at the back of comic books where they never get sand kicked in your face and you know and i would get this little book and it had like drawings of people exercising. And then you had an old exercise or thing that was like,

it looked like a bow and arrow. And then we would just push it together and have a string and you just do that. It was like primitive, but we were like eating anything up just to improve our lives. And it was a really, the competitive culture created in me this thing.

And when we talk about rage, what we're talking about is an attempt to control things you can't control. Because what couldn't you control at that time? Nothing. Outside, I just looked and it was like, I had to do what everyone told me. And you know, my father was addicted to alcohol, but my mother was addicted to religion.

And he despised that, you know, cause again, it was weak to him. But she was living in fear. And she was living in fear. And she was living in fear. And so she's like, hey, we got to run under the protection of the church. But it was a basically as a Christian cult. I grew up in a church called the Church of God and Christ.

And it was so it was what you would call holy roller. You know, it was a lot of speaking in tongues and a lot of music and shouting and falling out and people running around and the whole thing. And I remember just feeling like I wanted that. I wanted to be close to that. Like I said, okay, this is what God is, but I never felt it. Like I was going, when is it gonna take me?

Because I would see everybody jumping and running and shouting. And I would feel like, and it was like, well, you just gotta feel it. And I was like, but I don't feel it. And no one would tell me what was going on. And I mean, no one. My mother, my mother, people in the church,

I would be asking like, when do you know how this feels? Like, is it supposed to grab you? And they were like, oh, if you don't, let me tell you, the day it freaked me out is when my pastor looked at me and he said, you don't feel nothing, you must not have nothing. Ooh, man, that's not fair. I went, what?

So it's like forces you to try to act like you feel something to fit in or belong or. Oh yeah, and now I'm bad. Oh man. And so I learned real quick. I said, man, you gotta have two lives. You gotta be this way in church.

You gotta be this. I mean, my father and mother fought constantly because of that. Yeah. You know what I mean? But it was all about, listen, everything that I do now, I couldn't do as a kid. I couldn't play sports.

I couldn't go to secular movies. I couldn't listen to secular music. I couldn't dance. I couldn't do anything. When I say nothing, I mean, I remember, I was like, what can I do? And they were like, sit down and shut up is what you can do.

And what I would do is listen to kids at school talk about the movies. They would talk about all the stuff that they saw and all this stuff. And I remember going home and drawing what I thought the movie was about. And that's where my art ability came. I mean, it was hours of like,

like imagining what this movie was. How old were you when you started drawing and being, you know? I was probably, probably six, seven years old. But I remember kids talking about things that I couldn't experience. Did anyone teach you how to draw? I learned off comic books. You're so talented at seeing your stuff. But see, you got to understand.

And then you would kind of mimic what you're so talented. I've seen your stuff. But see, you gotta understand. And then you would kinda mimic what you're... Exactly. Any comic book or anything I saw, I would just try to... And let me tell you, I had the most frustrating experiences because nothing would look the same. And it was the desire for me to make things extremely real. And I wanted it to really come to life. And what would happen is I would be satisfied with the drawing like oh man this is good and I go to bed and wake up and it would look bad again and you're talking about this for a young

kid and then it just continued where this drive and this this whole thing because it had to look better than this and it's got to look better than yours when you're talking about a world of competition, it created this excuse for your rage. You know what I mean? It created, and now, I'm gonna tell you, man, what happened for me, and especially once I hit my teen years, I started living my life like I was in a revenge movie.

Trying to get back at everyone, everything, the world, your dad. Remember the vow I made with my best friend? I made a lot of vows. And I vowed that I was going to get every person who ever doubted me, whoever insulted me, whoever made me feel slightly uncomfortable, I was gonna get you back. Wow. And I was gonna show you.

Now, let me tell you something. That is a recipe for tremendous success. You understand what I mean? People expect you, oh no, it's gonna fall. No. And also a lack of fulfillment, a lack of joy, a lack of peace inside of you. Because I was so similar.

I wanted to prove everyone wrong, and I accomplished all these goals, and I was like, but why am I still unfulfilled and angry? Listen, you- Why am I so angry? You get a lot done. A lot, man. You're obsessed.

I had extra energy. You know what I mean? Because I'm like, I would work out. You gotta understand, man, I would go in, I remember I would do this stuff where I would go workout and then I would workout until I couldn't move. And then I would rest up and then I would go and I would flex my muscles until they cramped.

And I would force my muscles into cramps. Like it was sadistic, it was masochistic. But I said, no one, I want this. I will never stop doing sit-ups. I will never, you know, again, I sit-ups and push-ups until my stomach, until I was curled over in tears. And then I go do more. Because I said, no one's gonna beat me.

You will never, ever, ever beat me. And listen, understand this, man. You know what's so crazy? I didn't even like football. Really? Didn't like it at all. But it was my way out of Flint. It was also my way to code black.

This is what I mean. To code what? Code black, meaning in the black culture, sports coded like hardcore. And it was the way the drug dealers, the gang members, everybody would leave you alone if they knew you were an athlete. Why is that? Because they said, this man, he might go somewhere.

He might do something. He might be, cause you gotta understand, walking to school, here they come. I had to fight my way into school because it was like, who you think you are? Who you, okay, oh Mr. Smart, you smart now, huh? And you're like, man, I'm, why you talk so white? All right, so what I did,

I remember developing a whole nother personality when I was out in the street. It was like, ah man, what what I did, I remember developing a whole nother personality when I was out in the street. It was like, ah man, what's up man? Ah, you know, I don't even, you know me, yeah boy. And I would mimic that just so I could fit in her ass. You wouldn't, you have ideas, you had goals, you had things you wanted, and all of a sudden you knew, you didn't dumb down. Wow.

They were like, wait man, who you think you are? Remember, everything's a competition. Yeah. So you think you smarter than me? No man, no, I'm just, but here I was, this artist, drawing, really trying to excel, had ideas, had visions, being a creative person. You played music too, right?

Yeah, I was a flautist. That's crazy. Listen, I hit that. I was able to do that in church. Wow. Oh man. But see, this was another thing about the religion thing, which was nuts, is that, you know,

here I was, just, you know, I was here I was, I was a pleaser. I became a pleaser. It was like, all right, please my mom, whatever. Please the alcoholic dad, whatever you want. Here's another beer, whatever. And my mother, what I decided was I was gonna be the best kid in the church. But then my church was a cult.

It was crazy. Because a lot of it didn't make any sense. And it really hit the fan when my pastor, we found out my pastor was selling drugs and using drugs out of the pulpit. He had several girlfriends in the church. I mean, everything imploded. And everyone thought this guy who was so

upstanding, you know, because this thing, even with religion, is that, you know, everybody starts out with great intentions, you know. And then power and success and money and people praising you, you got to learn to really stay humble in the face of success or fame? Exactly. How have you managed that? I mean. Well, for a long time I didn't. Really?

I'm just re-enreal. You know, there's two Terry Crews. And there's two experiences. You know, the competitive Terry Crews was not humble. Competitive Terry Crews would look humble so that you could be lulled into sleep so that I could destroy you. Wow.

I'm just telling you, man. When was this up until? Oh my God. I mean, we're talking 2010. Okay, wow. You know, and I was an intense dude, man. You understand. I knew, I said, this is how I work.

You were intense or still? Well, I'm still intense. I'm still intense. They have a level of intensity. You know. My thing was, man, I knew how to manipulate. Really? What was the strategy? Well, I would look at whatever scene it was and what the rules were. And I knew how to play the game.

Wow. But it was always to beat people. To be number one, to be a little bit of a loser. and what the rules were. And I knew how to play the game. But it was always to beat people. It was always- To one up to be number one, to be a little bit better than or- Always.

I mean, it got me through the NFL. Of course. I mean, dude, it goes a long way. Like I said, I didn't even like football. But that way of life, the NFL was like, come here. We like you. Right. You know what I mean? Oh, you gonna be good.

They say, the phrase I've heard before is that the best soldiers know how to check their morality to the side, keep it away. Because you're a good soldier. Don't think about what's right or wrong. Don't really get that out of your psyche. What's good and bad. And now, yeah, now you can do whatever we need.

And I determined that I was gonna be that dude, like whatever it took. And you gotta understand is that this kind of mindset is very rewarded. Of course. It's very, you know, I was tough. I was, you know, in this rage, but also I could turn it on to the point

where I could beat people up. Like I could start, I started to defend myself. You know, I got from being a little kid to being a big teenager, to being, to what they say, he's got a little neck. You know what I mean? Like when you get some traps and you got, they're like, whoa, okay.

Gang members think twice. You know what I mean? They're like, all right, all right. Because again, everything's a challenge, right? To an exhausting level. Was there ever a point where you felt like you were strong enough and big enough to beat up your dad?

Well, I did. How old were you? I was 30 years old. Really? I got to understand the context of what happened. My father, you know, I was already, I just started my acting career and I just got a show. It was a TV show called Battle Dome.

I retired from the NFL. And again, I was around 29, 30 years. No, I was 30 years old. So I took my family home for Christmas and I told my father. Back to Flint. Back to Flint from LA. And I told my father, do not act up, man.

Because this is the thing about holidays for alcoholics. Oh man. It's the worst about holidays for alcoholics. Oh man it's it's the worst man I mean they go right back it's all the bad memories and they need to placate and they need to medicate with alcohol and I said man look my kids have never seen this my kids never came up in this and at the time I had three girls and I said dude do not act up. Okay. He said, I ain't gonna do that, man. Ain't no wrong with you. You know, I don't know what you're talking about. So I take him

home and me and we all over there. Everything's going fine. My wife and I are headed to Detroit to hang out with some friends. So it's about a 45 minute drive. We're about 10 minutes into the drive and I get this call from my aunt. And she's like, Terry, your father hit your mother. Oh. I said, what? Oh man.

And what happened, he knocked her tooth sideways. It was hanging out of her mouth. And I mean, he hit her right in the mouth. Oh man. And then I found out, Lewis, he did it in front of my kids. Oh no. And they were all privy to this.

Something that I vowed. Your trigger went in deep. I said, take the kids. Oh my gosh. Over to Aunt's house. I said, just leave them there. I dropped my wife off, I drove over to the house and I'm looking at them and I met with them.

I'm like, hey dude, didn't I tell you? And he was like, oh, that's cute. Pow! And I mean, let me tell you something, man. I don't know how long the beating happened. Oh my gosh. I don't know. Cause you black out.

I black out. And when you get to that level of rage, I know that feeling. You don't feel anything, you don't think anything. It's a... You know what, even... Ooh, I'm getting... Just thinking about it, it was so like...

Because all I could remember was being like five years old. Wow. And feeling so weak and powerless as he was doing this five years old. And feeling so weak and powerless as he was doing this to my mother. And we just had to take it. I was like, I can't, what can I do? He's a giant, you know what I mean? I can't do anything.

And man, now I'm 30 years old. I'm posted, I fell. I've never had an injury, I'm ready years old. I'm posted, I fell. I've never had an injury. I'm ready to go. And you got 30 years of pent up rage. 30 years. And resentment. And I beat his ass all over that house.

Wow. And Lewis, let me tell you man, I felt nothing. At the end, I thought this was it. I thought this is the revenge I've been waiting for. I told you not to do it. This is it. Now you're gonna get everything for all. Terry Crews is gonna blast you.

And when I was done, I remember, I beat him from the bottom, all the way, bottom of the house, all the way up to his room because he was trying to run from me. And he ran into his room and I bust the door down, man, and still kept beating him, right? He's on the ground in tears, bleeding, tears, the whole thing.

I'm sitting on his bed. Just looking at my hands and I'm like, I'm just like you. It didn't work. It didn't work, man. It was supposed to work. What were you hoping to feel? I mean, release. There it is. I said it right.

You're supposed to feel justice. You're supposed to feel like this, now the score has been settled. And when I say living life like a revenge movie, I mean it. But you gotta understand, that stuff is better than sex. You look at a movie like that, you're like, man, yes, get them back one at a time, like yes. And here I was, I was living it. I was like, this, yes, get them back one at a time. Like, yes. And here I was, I was living it.

I was like, this is man on fire live. You know what I'm saying? This is like get back city. This was a payback. And I was like, nothing. Nothing. And I was like, I'm done. And I left.

And I never went home for 10 years. Really? 10 years. And my mom went right back to him. Didn't change any of the home situation. Didn't fix not one thing. And I was, I just remember going through all these issues and all this stuff like, oh my God, like, I lost it, man. I just remember going through all these issues

and all this stuff like, oh my God, I lost it, man. And I couldn't go home. I couldn't even deal with it. And that was the thing that I said, that rage, it was uncontrollable. But I took it out on other people. And I never, even though I didn't beat him up again and didn't go back home, that rage was still in me. And I was doing that to various people in the street.

There's a long list of people who've been knocked out by me. And what's so crazy is that a lot of people go, oh no Terry, no, you're funny and you're so nice. My wife will be like, y'all don't even know. Y'all have no idea. It wasn't so nice back then. Cause I could flip. Of course.

You have to understand, being two people and learning how to manipulate and move, you know, that's why it would shock everybody. Right. Cause you could be the lovable, fun, energetic, passionate guy, but if there was a wound that was being triggered, the other tear came out. It would be a nuclear bomb.

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