The School of Greatness - Jordan Peterson on Marriage, Resentment & Healing the Past (Part 1) EP 1093

Episode Date: April 5, 2021

“Conflict delayed is conflict multiplied.”Today's guest is Jordan Peterson. He’s known for teaching mythology to lawyers, doctors and business people, helping his clinical clients manage depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety, and schizophrenia. His lectures have been viewed by millions of people online. Jordan has published over a hundred scientific papers, transforming the modern understanding of personality. This interview ended up going over an hour longer than we planned for, so we’ve decided to split this episode up into 2 parts! Part 2 of this interview will come out on Wednesday of this week!In this episode Lewis and Jordan discuss the keys to Jordan’s 50 year relationship, how to start opening up and admitting what you want in life, how feeling resentful can actually be useful, and so much more!For more go to: www.lewishowes.com/1093Check out his website: www.selfauthoring.comCheck out his book: Beyond Order: 12 More Rules for LifeThe Wim Hof Experience: Mindset Training, Power Breathing, and Brotherhood: https://link.chtbl.com/910-podA Scientific Guide to Living Longer, Feeling Happier & Eating Healthier with Dr. Rhonda Patrick: https://link.chtbl.com/967-podThe Science of Sleep for Ultimate Success with Shawn Stevenson: https://link.chtbl.com/896-pod

This is episode number 1093 with Jordan Peterson. Welcome to the School of Greatness. My name is Lewis Howes, a former pro athlete turned lifestyle entrepreneur. And each week we bring you an inspiring person or message to help you discover how to unlock your inner greatness. Thanks for spending some time with me today. Now let the class begin. greatness. Thanks for spending some time with me today. Now let the class begin.

Abraham Lincoln said, I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live up to what light I have. And Viktor Frankl said, everything can be taken from a man, but the last of the human freedoms to choose one attitudes in any given set of circumstances. My guest today is Jordan Peterson. He is known for teaching mythology to lawyers, doctors, and business people, helping his clinical clients manage depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, anxiety, and schizophrenia. His lectures have been viewed by tens and millions and hundreds of millions of people online. And Jordan has published over 100 scientific papers transforming the modern understanding of personality. His previous book, 12 Rules for Life, was a New York Times bestseller and mega hit around the world.

He's now back with a new book titled Beyond Order, 12 More Rules for Life. This interview ended up going over an hour longer than we planned, almost two and a half hours in total. I couldn't stop interviewing Jordan. I didn't want it to stop because it was captivating me the entire time. So this is part one and part two will come next. But in this episode, we discuss the keys to Jordan's 50-year relationship. And it was great hearing him really open up about marriage and relationships how to start opening up and admitting what you want in life how jordan thinks about discipline how feeling resentful can actually be useful to you and how to heal the memories of our past i'm

telling you this will open you up and inspire you in a new way if you're a big fan of jordan and you've watched or listened to some of his stuff before, he shares things here that I've never heard him share before. And it's pretty inspiring in this episode and also what you're going to hear in the next episode. Man, it gets deep and it gets really inspiring. So make sure to listen to this episode and then come back for part two after this one.

And if you're inspired, make sure to share this with someone that you think would be inspired as well. And I want to let you know, if this is your first time here, welcome to the School of Greatness. Please click the subscribe button right now on Apple Podcasts, as well as let us know what you thought about this episode or the part that you enjoyed the most in the ratings and review section over on Apple Podcasts. Okay, in just a moment, the one and only Jordan Peterson.

Welcome everyone back to the School of Greatness. I am very excited. We have Jordan Peterson in the house who has become one of the world's most influential public intellectuals. In his last book, 12 Rules for Life, An Antnecdote to Chaos. It's sold over 5 million copies internationally. He's got a new book, Beyond Order, 12 More Rules for Life. It is going to change the game for you. I highly recommend you check it out. Jordan, welcome to the show. Good to see you.

Thanks, Lewis. I appreciate the invitation. Very excited. Our last interview, we were just talking, did millions of views, and we had a clip that did over 30 million views on Facebook that people were really inspired by. And I think the thing that we did that was cool in the last interview is we talked about some stuff that you normally don't talk about. And so I want to ask you a question that I'm not sure if you talk about it

frequently, at least the stuff that I've seen you put out, you haven't. And I know how important your wife is to you. And I know how important your wife is to you. And it's actually the first thing you write about is the importance of the 50 years you've been in love with your wife. I'm curious, what is the thing you love most about your wife? That's my first question. I think it's very difficult to say exactly why you're attracted to someone. There's lots of factors, and many of them aren't known to you, really. She's provocative. She's witty and sharp. And so there's always an element of game playing.

Like, it's not dishonest game playing, but there's a teasy flirtatious provocativeness that characterizes her quite deeply she's no pushover by any stretch of the imagination and um i find that constantly interesting and intriguing um it's particular, it's, it's can be somewhat hard on me when I'm not feeling well, but when I'm up and functioning properly, then that works out extremely well. And so, yeah. What would you say would be the keys to your success of 50 years of loving each other and being in a, what seems to be a healthy functional relationship when in society today, that doesn't seem like many of those. Well, we, we really do our best not to lie to each other about anything. And we also

have fights when they're necessary. We don't let things, we don't hide things in the fog. That's the title of chapter three of my new book, Don't Hide Things in the Fog. And we work through our issues. If we have a dispute, we do our level best to get to the bottom of it, to find out what in the world's causing it, whose needs to change and why and how and when, and then how we can progress forward into the future without having that issue dog us or drag behind us or interfere with us at all. And that means a fair bit of confrontation, I would say,

but less so over the years as we've settled more and more things. But everything's out in the open. Everything that we can get is out in the open. You can't have a relationship without trust. And you trust your partner courageously if you're not naive, knowing that you can be hurt and that you can be deceived and that you can also do both of those things. So you offer your partner your trust as an invitation to them to be honest and forthcoming. And while then issues come up and you delve into them and straighten them out. well, and then issues come up and you delve into them and straighten them out. And we also attend to the relationship.

I'm not going to refer back to this new book continually, but it's relevant in this context. It's chapter 10, plan and work diligently to maintain the romance in your relationship. And we do that as well. And it is effortful. I mean, we try to have, throughout our relationship, we've tried to have romantic dates one to three times a week. And they require preparation and cooperation and the will to do it and the will to put yourself on the line and the desire to make that a priority, even when other things are more pressing.

We both want it to work. That's another thing. We're committed to it and not interested in finding another relationship. And so far, we've been fortunate and that's worked. We have fun together. We love our kids. We have had joint projects of all sorts together, renovating houses, traveling, raising our children,

now our grandchildren. But all of that is the most important thing as far as I'm concerned is to not to lie to your partner. You mentioned you don't have a relationship if you don't have trust or if there's not trust in the relationship. How does someone, if someone is not trusting the other partner, how do you cultivate trust if you're 100% honest with that person, if you are transparent about every action you make in your life, if they have access to whatever they want to see and you're constantly creating trust,

but for whatever reason, they still might be jealous or insecure or not believing you. How does someone get someone to trust them? Or is it not about them at that stage and it's about the other person and their insecurities? Well, it depends very much on the particulars of the situation. So I don't know if there's a generic answer to that. I think that you can establish the ground know, and have a discussion about it. Are we going to lie to each other or not? Are we going to tell each other the truth to the degree that we can to make that an actual goal and to talk through the consequences of doing that and not doing it?

And then I would also say, whenever a hiccup occurs in the relationship, maybe you don't call it out at each hiccup, you know, because you have to have a certain amount of silent tolerance in any relationship to let small infractions go. But if they repeat, my rule is three times. And it's the rule that I share with my wife. If something happens three times that is causing emotional upset, anger, jealousy, disappointment, resentment, frustration, any of those things, anything that you don't want to experience and that you especially don't want to experience repeatedly, then you can call it out. And if you have three examples, your case is much better made than if you just have one.

And I would also say that when you call it out, you know, you could say, look, we were at a party the other night and you were, it looked to me, I felt as if you were paying too much intense attention to Dave. There was some flirting going on there. That's what it looked like to me. There was some flirting going on there. That's what it looked like to me. There was some flirting going on there. And, you know, that made me uncomfortable. Well, you don't say, well, you were flirting. Stop doing it. You say, well, this is how it looked.

This is what it looked like to me. And here was my response. And then you want to think, and maybe I'm a damn fool and blind and jealous and stupid and I'm misinterpreting or maybe it was a harmless flirtation of the sort that people will engage in because it adds a little bit of spice to a social interaction you want to find out like it it's really convenient if it's the other person's fault except then you're laden with living with that person, so it really doesn't help you anyways. But it's convenient, because then they have to change. But you've got to think about this over the long run. You're

going to be interacting with this person on a minute-by-minute basis for decades. If you're the idiot, and that's causing trouble, then you should find out. So you want to say, well, look, this is what I saw. What's your explanation of what's going on? And then they'll offer you their viewpoint and hopefully they'll do the same thing. They'll think, well, this is my intent and maybe they have to go think about it, but this is my intent, and this is what I saw, and I think you're being oversensitive in that situation. And you peel back the explanations layer by layer until you both agree on what happened, and more importantly, on what you're going to do about it in the future. And that's really hard. And especially if there is something going on that's

not straight, because that will require quite a bit of digging. It'll probably result in anger and tears and a fight. And that's very unpleasant. It's easier in the short term to avoid that. But hopefully the consequence of that is you don't have to have that fight again. Right. But hopefully the consequence of that is you don't have to have that fight again. Right. You have to come to a negotiated agreement about that situation. And you have to pay attention to your own uncomfortable negative emotions in order to manage that. And not pretend that everything's all right.

Or that you're nicer than you are. Or that you're less jealous than you are. Or less blind or see one of the things I learned from Carl Jung the psychoanalyst about marriage was that there is a reason marriage was a vow like the vow is that you stick together. Okay, so now imagine that's a vow, okay? You do not get to leave, period. Okay, so what does that mean? Well, on the upside, it means that you don't have to be alone. It means that your family will have continuity over decades. It means that the narrative of your life won't be fragmented and broken by divorce or

sequential divorce. It means that your children can grow up and maybe have their children within a continuing family. It means that your children will be able to maintain relationships with the grandparents on both sides and the cousins. Like, it's a big deal to maintain that there's huge advantages in it it means that you'll have someone there when you're not well and so will your partner um and it'll means that you have someone to share all of the positive things of life with so there's huge advantages to it okay so why does it have to be a vow well i don't think you can tell the truth to someone who can run away because if you tell the truth to someone and they can run away then they'll run away right right because you're a mess man and not not just

because of your own inadequacies but because human human beings are so complicated and have such dark corners and have had, you know, unresolved problems in their life, sometimes that stem back generations and are twisted and bent in all sorts of ways. And you can't, it's very, very difficult to reveal that except to someone who can't run away. Now that, you know, I'm not saying that people should never separate. I am saying, though, that it's better not to, if you can manage it. But then the other thing, too, is if you can't run away, then you're motivated in a different way. It's like, I'm stuck with this woman, and she's stuck with me. And unless we want to have this same goddamn fight over and over and over for the next who knows how long, why don't we straighten it out? And then we can put it

behind us. See, the vow gives you a kind of desperation that is another motivation to actually solve the problems. And if you've got a way out, you can always stay hidden. You can guard yourself. You can protect yourself and even protect that part of yourself that thinks that it can leave if things get too bad. Now, the problem with that, in my estimation, is that you're going to drag your stupidity into the next relationship. Right. Always do, right?

Well, generally speaking, right? And so, now, you can get very, you can, under unfortunate circumstances, you can get tangled up with someone who's not playing a straight game with you and won't. And it's just impossible but i'm not talking about the limit cases you know i'm talking about the average case the average amount of unhappiness and trouble it's still plenty and then the sorry just one more thing i'd add to that you also have to in some sense shake the illusion that the other person is somehow not you you're so tied up with them that there's no difference between you and them in some sense is that what's good for her is going to be good for you and vice versa. One of the things we try to do to the two of us is we try to say yes to each other. Now, there's rules that go along with that, which is, well, I'm going to say yes to you.

But that sort of means that you shouldn't ask me unreasonable. You shouldn't make unreasonable demands. I'll say yes as much as I possibly can. And then you'll do that in return. And then we get yes out of the deal instead of no. That's also a huge plus. So that's, is there anything else about, you want, you have to want the best for the other person and you and for the relationship.

And within that confine, you want to tell each other the truth. Yeah, the truth is, is huge. And I heard you mentioned jealousy and insecurity at some point that, that message. Is there room for jealousy and insecurity in a relationship? Is there a healthy amount of jealousy that people should have in a relationship? Or does jealousy and insecurity only cause more suffering and pain in a relationship? Well, I think there's a reasonable amount of proprietary interest, let's say. I mean, in a classic monogamous relationship, a marriage, there's sexual fidelity as a crucial element of that.

And maybe you'll make an arrangement that differs from that, but it's not easy to chart uncharted territory like that i mean if you want to have an adventure like that with a partner a monogamous adventure that also includes sexual exploration well maybe you can pull it off but i doubt it it's really complicated let's say you're not having sexual exploration with other people and you're telling each other the truth and you're being honest. Is there room to be jealous or insecure in that relationship? Or does jealousy typically cause more harm than it does, you know, spice and good, I guess? I think jealousy probably causes more trouble than good, but that doesn't mean that there's something wrong with the proprietary interest. Should you care if your

partner pays undue attention to someone of the opposite sex they find attractive? Well, probably you should care. You might even say something about it. They might even be happy about that, right? Because it indicates that you noticed and that it matters to you. Now, I think it shades into jealousy when it's harmless interactions, it's interactions that would be regarded as harmless by a third-party observer, let's say.

I know that's a very difficult line to draw. That are being magnified as a consequence of insecurity on the part of the observer. Or there's envy where your partner is attracting attention, status, success, any of those things, and you're jealous of that. That's not helpful. You should be pleased. The optimal situation is for you to be pleased when your partner is successful.

I don't think competitive couples, I don't think competition between people who are in a monogamous relationship is useful, particularly. It's not zero-sum competition. I mean, you can compete's not zero-sum competition. Yeah. I mean, you can compete in a game-like sense. Right, fun. Fun, playful competition, but not,

I'm better than you in life. Yeah, but not existential competition. You're on the same team. That's the point. Right. You know, and if one of you is feeling left behind for one reason or another, it's time to throw that out on the table and say, look, I'm playing second fiddle here far too often.

What can we do about that? Well, it looks like you need it. And like, I've got an adventure. It looks like you need one too. Well, how can we rearrange the situation so I have my adventure? And then it's up to that person too to figure out what obstacles they might be putting up in their own pathway right that's stopping them and then they have you know they're angry at you for getting in the way but it's actually a consequence of them using you as a convenient excuse for not doing something difficult those things all have to be sorted through it's very

hard yeah these conversations are extremely difficult. It's no wonder people avoid them. I also think people are not taught to negotiate at all. And that's a real shame. First of all, you figure out what you want. This is what I want. Then you tell the person. Then you strategize with them so that you can get what you want and they can get what they want.

And you both know what that is and the way you go together and that that usually comes out it's usually obscured and hidden and comes out awkwardly in difficulty and and with difficulty if it comes out at all and people fool themselves into thinking that it's okay what they're doing i'm sacrificing myself for the children and're doing. I'm sacrificing myself for the children, and that's okay. I'm sacrificing myself for my husband's career, and that's okay. I'm working at a job I can't stand because I need to support my wife and children, and that's okay. I mean, sometimes that is okay, but it has to be out, clear, in the open, talked about, negotiated, discussed.

You know, I think you can be a slave or a tyrant or you can negotiate. Those are your options. And we default to slavery and tyranny because that doesn't require any cognitive effort. And then we pretend that everything's all right and then it blows up in our faces and we end up divorced. Right. So we got to learn how to negotiate. Yeah. Yeah. Well, and then you have to notice that there are things that you want, right? And you have to tell yourself what those are. And then you have to let the other person know. And then they can deprive you of them because they actually know who you are. And so a big risk. Well, if you do lay it out and negotiate it, then you have two people working

in the same direction and they each bring their different viewpoints to bear on the problem. And sometimes that'll save you, you know, that additional cognitive complexity you have because there's two of you instead of one. It can make you much more effective. What happens when we feel like our partner is depriving us of what we want, if it's not infidelity or something of the likes of being with other people, but something else that we want in our life, a goal, a dream. Well, sexually, that happens all the time.

Right. Because people, generally speaking, men would like to have sex more frequently than women. So that's a sticking point in many relationships. But forget that for the moment. We might just as well say that the probability that one partner and the other partner are going to have exactly the same level of sexual interest, say with regards to frequency, is quite low. So there's going to be friction there. So what do you do? Well, you negotiate about it. It's like, well, I'd like to have sex 15 times a week. Well, I'd like to have sex once a week.

Right. Okay, well, you know, the logical meeting point there would be in the middle. Then that has to be planned out. And you also have to say exactly what you mean. Well, exactly what do you mean by sex? Because there's all sorts of variations of sex, ranging from just intimate closeness to full-fledged sexual activity of various sorts. And the various sorts matter too. And these are painful discussions often.

It's very funny in some sense that people will do and desire things that they won't talk about. Right? They'll engage in the act, but they won't engage in the negotiation. And they won't admit what they want. Why is it so hard for us to admit what we want? We're ashamed of it. That's easy with sex. Sex and shame regulates sex. You know, people say, well, you shouldn't be ashamed of sex. It's like, well, really? Really? No, that's a stupid theory. We arrest people who expose themselves

in public. Why? Well, because we don't want people masturbating in public. We assume they should be ashamed enough not to do that. Shame regulates sexual behavior. So we're embarrassed about our desires. And, you know, naively you'd think, well, you can just shed that. Well, first of all, no, you can't. And second of all, it isn't obvious at all that you should. What you might be able to do is to determine how to play out your sexual life in the confines of your relationship in a manner that neither of you do find shameful. But that's, just think how hard that is.

Like, you know, you think, well, that's what I want. It's like, but then you think about how unlikely that is and how difficult it would be to attain it. You know, you could say that if that ever happens to you in your life once, you're lucky. You know, you could say that if that ever happens to you in your life once, you're lucky. You know, it's perfect. Now, I think that's pessimistic because I believe that solutions to that problem can be negotiated. But it's not. It's what everyone wants.

But it's an extraordinarily difficult thing to bring about. You know, so let's say you want the ideal romantic evening. Well, okay, what are you going to do about it? Are you going to put yourself in reasonable physical shape? So you're attractive? Are you going to make a playlist and put some time into it? Are you going to buy some candles? Are you going to buy something nice to wear? Are you going to wear it? Are you going to buy some candles? Are you going to buy something

nice to wear? Are you going to wear it? Are you going to dare to wear it? That might be true for you and for your partner. Are they going to dare to wear it? Are you going to be smart enough if they do wear it to respond in a way that makes them feel confident and increases the probability that they'll do it again? Are you going to do whatever is necessary to make yourself physically attractive in that moment? Are you going to have the kids put away? Have you got the day-to-day aggravations with each other that are dragging you down and making you resentful under control

so that you actually do want to give your partner some pleasure like these things are very hard yeah but they're not impossible and they're worth it but it's not surprising that people don't do it and then then the next well then there's the shame part too as well okay just exactly what is permissible or desirable and when and when should you when are your um kinks counterproductive exactly you know we can't we certainly can't have that discussion as a culture you know on the one hand we think we're so split on this on the one hand we think any sexual misbehavior should be subject to the harshest of punishments and everything goes and is acceptable it's like well good luck having both of those ideas right it's so interesting to me to

watch this you know There's just outrage, constant outrage about sexual misbehavior. And fair enough. That doesn't surprise me. When you mean sexual misbehavior, you mean someone cheating or someone having an affair or what sexual misbehavior? Yes, or unwanted sexual attention or sexual harassment. And I'm not saying these things don't happen

or that they're not nefarious and awful. Obviously, they are. It's no wonder that happens. But at the same time, we also are obsessed with the notion that any sexual interest of any sort whatsoever, with the possible exception of sexual interest in children, is absolutely laudable. Well, sorry, you can't have both of those things. And because we want both of them, insist upon both of them, then we can't even have a discussion. We can't have a discussion about pornography. It doesn't look to be like pornography is really a very good idea i don't think it's helping anyone now you know i there might be codicils to that freedom of expression um some potential educational utility um the pleasure that's

a consequence of sexual utilization of pornographic material. But I would still say, seeing all that, that it's not a net social good. It doesn't do the people who produce it or who consume it any good. And I don't believe that anyone feels like a better human being after utilizing pornography for sexual gratification. Now, you might say, well, that's because they've been shamed about sex since they're born. And, you know, and that's a consequence of our crooked culture. And, you know, in a utopian world, we wouldn't have that shame. And yeah, no.

It's way more complicated than that. And I read something in one of the YouTube comments in my video the other day. I was talking to Abigail Schreier about the apparent fact that today's teenagers are having much less sex. One person commented that there's the shame that men feel when sex is a spectator sport rather than a participatory act. And then you think, well, you know, the mere fact that you're watching two other people, one of whom isn't you, having sex instead of having sex really implies something either about your, it implies something about your desirability. It's pretty hard to shake that, isn't it? Or your courage. Why is it that you're sitting there alone at night with your laptop on your lap what the hell is

wrong with you well nothing it's just we should dispense with sexual shame it's like no probably not that's probably not the answer well so that was all you know why do people have a hard time negotiating about sex or talking about it well it's it's no bloody wonder. Sex is such dynamite. I agree. This could be a four-hour conversation on that. I'm curious. Yeah, well, that would be a good conversation. We need to have about a 50-hour conversation about that.

You should do a series on your YouTube channel about that. I'm curious about the biggest challenge you've had to overcome personally in your marriage that you're really proud of that you overcame in the last – I don't know if you've been married for 50 years, but I know you wrote that you've loved your wife for 50 years. But what's the hardest thing that you had to overcome as a man or a human being in this relationship that you're extremely proud of that you did in fact overcome it or you've improved upon it in a major way i don't know if i'm proud about it proud of it um like the the success of these things seem so unlikely and so dependent on good luck in some sense that you know mostly i mostly I'm, if things go well for me, I'm generally grateful that I escaped from the axe, you know, rather than being proud of it. We did a good job of working through our attitude towards how we were going to

treat our children. So we were on the same page all the time, pretty much all the time. And so the kids couldn't, we didn't let the kids appeal to one of us or the other. We really participated in their upbringing. And we talked all that through. And that's good. We have good relationships with our kids, both of us.

And that was really necessary too, because my daughter got unbelievably sick for massive both of us. And that was really necessary too because my daughter got unbelievably sick for massive amounts of time. And my son, we had to ignore him a lot because he just wasn't dying. So it was like, kid, sorry, like we got a problem here. And he was great, man.

He just rode through that like a master. But if we hadn't sorted out our child-rearing philosophy, let's say, it would have sunk us for sure. Well, because it was so close to the edge that, you know, few marriages survive the death of a child. And no wonder, you know. But the serious illness of a child is also an unbelievable stressor. And, you know, we sailed through that as well as could be hoped.

You kind of know that because you look back and you think, well, do we regret? Right? And, of course, well, do we regret? Right? And of course, there's the odd regret. You know, one thing when you have a sick child, you have this terrible conundrum all the time of, well, how hard do you push them? When do you allow the illness to be a reason that they aren't doing something? When do you allow them to use the illness as a reason that they're not doing something? Well, it's really, really hard to get that right, and sometimes we pushed harder than we should have and misunderstood too. But at least we did that together. And my wife, you know, I've seen many, many women protect their children from the father.

They don't trust him. And so every time he interacts with the child, they'll do something disapproving. A look, they'll put him down. Now, it's not like men don't do that to their wives. There's all sorts of tricks that men have for their wives. Men are very good at turning their wives into drudges, for example, for a variety of reasons which we can go into. But if you don't trust men, you won't let them have a hand in the children, the discipline of the children. You know, when you think of discipline, you think of punishment and threat and dad saying no.

of the children. You know, when you think of discipline, you think of punishment and threat and dad saying no. That isn't discipline. Discipline is discipline. If you discipline someone properly, they become disciplined, right? That means they're competent. They're organized. They have structure. They have, yeah. They can control themselves. So I'll give you an example. My son is quite a disagreeable person by nature. So he's very masculine. He's very high in emotional stability. So he doesn't have much negative emotion. And he's relatively low in agreeableness.

He's, and that's typical masculine pattern. The two big personality differences between men and women are agreeableness, women are higher, and neuroticism, tendency to feelableness, women are higher, and neuroticism, tendency to feel negative emotion, women are higher. So what that meant was that when he was a kid, he was a stubborn little pup. It was hard to get him to do what he didn't want to do. And that's the mark of a character that is hard to stop. So there's real advantages to it. But kids who are disagreeable are a handful because they think, I'm not doing that and you can't make me. Right.

And he was really quite good at that. And is it one of your rules from the first book? Like, don't let your kids do anything that would make you not like them? Dislike them. Yeah. Yes. And we should talk about that because that's such a good rule, I think. But I used to, the rule for him was, you know, he'd push the

limits in a variety of ways. And he's really good at that and quite persistent at it. And I'd talk to my wife and say, look, Julian's getting a little too pushy here. We have to crack down on him and stop him. And this is what I see. And she'd say, this is what I see. And we'd think, well, this is what we're going for a week. He isn't going to get away with anything. It's like the line, man. It's like, kid, he'd be three or three and a half at this time. Sit on the steps.

Sit on the steps. And if he wouldn't, because he was stubborn, well, I'd bring him over and put him on the steps. Like it was, you're going to, if I say you're going to sit on the steps, you are absolutely going to sit on the steps. So it was so interesting to watch him because he'd be angry, you know, because he got interfered with. He didn't get to do what he wanted to do. And he would go and sit on the steps, but he'd be like mad as hell on the way there. Arms pumping up and down and just, he'd go sit on the steps like, you know, like this, just overcome with anger. And the rule was, as soon as you get yourself under control and you can act like a

civilized human being and you want to have a good day, then you come and tell me and all that's it, but it had to be real. And look, my, my, uh, my criteria for accepting his statement was whether or not I liked him when he said it, you know, if he was still being, uh, if he was still misbehaving and, and bending the rules, he, he wouldn't be genuine when he talked to me. Right. But if he came and said, okay, Dad, like, I've had enough. I've got myself under control. I'd rather have a good day. And as soon as he said that I liked him, it was like, hey, man,

you're back in the party. Do what you want to do, yeah. Well, I didn't want him to sit on the steps anymore. I liked having him around. Sure, sure. So, but our, you know we we were on board with that and so the discipline so the thing is see what was the discipline aspect which is what i was talking about is he learned how to integrate it into his personality and i could see him doing

that sitting on the steps he was it was just this aggression circuit which is unbelievably powerful was just dominating him and he just force just force it, get it under control, get it under control, calm down, bring yourself back into the social world. And it was a victory for his developing ego, you see, because he wasn't defeated by his own impulses. And that's discipline, you see. Then you're not defeated by your own impulses. And so discipline has the wrong connotation. I was encouraging him, you can master this, man. And it worked, and it was so useful to us later because when Michaela got so sick, he was together.

We could rely on him. So it was together. We could rely on him. So it was necessary. And it hasn't stopped being necessary. And he's a very reliable person who does what he wants. It's a great combination. Yeah, that's beautiful. When do you feel the most loved, Jordan?

When what's happening around you or when you're creating something or when you're with people, when do you feel personally the most loved? When I'm with my family, when I'm with my kids, when I'm with my family. Friends too. And that's even been more the case over the last couple of years, because my family and friends have been so unbelievably loyal and helpful to me and my family as we've had our troubles. Terrible, terrible troubles over the last couple of years. They've been so unbelievably reliable and helpful. Amazing.

Unbelievably reliable and helpful. Amazing. Certainly people have gone out of my way for me in a way that I don't believe I would have done for them. Really? Well, look, I saw my father-in-law, and I write about this in Beyond Order. No, I read about it in 12 Rules more, I think, but it doesn't matter.

He's a really extroverted guy, disagreeable guy too, masculine guy, extroverted, assertive. Everybody in the little town I grew up in knew who he was. He was a performer, you know, the life of the party, and a good businessman, but a real character. And he did his own thing. But then his wife got prefrontal dementia when she was quite young, 55. And man, he took care of her for 15 years. Wow. It was unbelievable.

Wow. And it was so interesting, too, because if we offered to help him, he would accept it right away. And anything that we could do that would, like I suggested one time, for example, that he buy a digital readout sign so that if he went out, he could type in where he was going on the sign and it would just repeat over and over.

Oh, that's cool. And some recordings in the bathroom to help his wife remember what to do. And he would just implement those, accept and implement them right away. But he, this guy who was, who lived his own life, who was a very extroverted social person,

not someone who you would have regarded as soft and caring. And I don't mean that in a negative way. It's just that, that wasn't him. He wasn't Mother Teresa, you know. He just, he cared for her in a way that was absolutely astonishing and I saw that also in my friends and my family in the care that they've offered to Tammy and I over the last two years mind-boggling mind-boggling but I would say the like the place i like to be the most is

in a family situation when everyone's when there's no elephants under the rug and everyone's playing. If you ever have that, you should consider yourself fortunate, beyond belief because it's unlikely and you can lose it at any moment. Yeah.

I was in the hospital more or less for a year and then another year with Tammy. And I thought I'd lost all of that never get it back it was very dreadful and so now when it happens i mean i've always been grateful for it when it happens strive for that you don't the animal experimentalists have demonstrated that the ones who study play this is yak Jak Panksepp in particular, but there's a variety of them who study play, brilliant, brilliant scientists. Play is a circuit, it's a mammalian circuit, it's a specialized circuit, and it's very important developmentally for that circuit to be given free rein to

play. It's how children play out roles in the world that they're eventually going to adopt. They play mother, they play father, they play all these different roles, and that's how they learn to be those things. The role of the father is to put up security so that play can occur. So the security is there. That's's the walls they fortify the walls

man the walls guard the walls but within the walls then that's where play can it can take place and play is very easily disrupted hunger thirst any emotional state any motivational state can supersede it even though it's's very, very important. So you have to have the walled garden in place before play can occur. Remove the fears, yeah. Mm-hmm. To make it safe so that experimentation can take place within. That's paradise, right? That's right. It's a walled garden. That's what paradise means, is a walled garden where structure and nature, the walls in the garden, are harmoniously interacting and where eternal play can occur. That's paradise. And so you get a glimpse of that when everyone's together, often at the table.

Not fighting. And also not fighting. Right, right. Right? You know what that's like? Fighting but not like. It's when everyone's at each other's throats, but no one's saying anything.

Well, we're not going to talk about, we're not going to bring that up. We're not going to discuss that. Because that's not paradise either. Yeah. No, that's pretense and and you see that that negotiation is the eradication of the need for that pretense it's like you got a problem with me let's sort it out right because we're going to carry it with us you want to do that so people wonder why i engage in conflict i hate conflict it's and i find it very stressful but conflict delayed is conflict multiplied oh that's so true

it's worse to have lingering conflict for months decades, than the pain of direct conflict that can hopefully resolve and move on. Yes, absolutely. Well, and as the conflict is delayed, it's the reasons multiply. And the persons who are involved, because they're avoiding, demean themselves and get weaker and less confident.

And so it's a vicious circle it's better to notice you there's this there's a line in the new testament christ talks about prayer and so you imagine that as communion with god so you could imagine that as an attempt to to confer with the ideal or maybe to even occupy that space for a while well he says Christ says if you have a problem with your brother fix that first go pray later yeah yeah well that's it that that's well, that's wise. And that's a good thing. You know, if you're angry with the people who are close to you,

if you're resentful, I read a lot about that in chapter 11. Resentment is so useful. It's so useful. It's so horrible. It's so toxic. It's so destructive. But it's so informative. Right.

If you're resentful, you're either being oppressed and not standing up for yourself, or you're whiny and should grow up. And both of those things are really useful to realize. And all you have to do is notice that you're resentful and want to do something about it. Okay, I'm resentful. Okay, am I immature? You know, are people picking on me or I am immature? If people are picking on me, do I have something to say or something to do? I should do it. It's a gateway to improvement, resentment.

Or you can let it... Foster. Foster it. Let it devour you and take you places that no one with a clear mind would ever want to go. Hell, that's resentment, man. That's the pathway to hell. And if you don't believe in hell, you don't have any imagination.

That's my sense of things. You mentioned paradise being a safe space where we can play and have fun and feel protected. But a lot of times, at least in the last year, I'm seeing more and more in the world that the anxiety, stress, depression, challenges of the mind or the heart and the body have seemed to come to the surface for a lot of people even more. And it sounds to me, and it looks to me like when I'm connecting with people, that a lot of things from the past, past memories, past pains, hurts, traumas, are being brought to the forefront for a lot of people with the chaos of the now. brought to the forefront for a lot of people with the chaos of the now. How do we start to heal the memories of the past, the traumas of the past, so that they don't keep hurting us in the present? Well, the first thing I would say is, you know, sometimes there's a crisis in well-meaning mental health professionals,

Russian, to discuss the trauma while it's still happening. That's a really bad idea. People are generally traumatized because something actually horrible happened. And dwelling on it in the moment just makes it worse. It's not like anybody has a solution. Here's how you should understand this. You know, someone's just shot up your kid's school. Here's how you should understand this.

That'll make it all better. It's like, no, it won't. If you have old baggage, that often comes up if you're having an argument with someone, doesn't it? You know how it is. This is partly why people don't like to have a dispute within a relationship because it's a thread and you pull on that thread and just, God. Well, we had another rule. Do not agree with something you don't agree with. Ooh. Like if we're going to, if we had another rule. Do not agree with something

you don't agree with. Like if we're going to, if we decide, you and me, that we're doing this, we don't go back and say, well, I didn't really mean it. We don't get to play revisionist with our history.

So if you don't agree, don't agree, fight, object, or hold your peace. Because you see what happens with couples is there's a little fight. And then one says to the other, yeah, but you did this. And then that person says, yeah, I know I did that. But then that was because you did this. And each this gets bigger until what's on the

table is why the hell should we stay together at all right and so every fight becomes why the hell should we stay together at all so that's another thing you want to do is you want to have the fight about this thing not about everything about the past not everything it's like okay you were flirting i think you were flirting more than you should have been. Okay. So I go away and I think, well, okay, maybe I was. Okay. Well, then we have to have a discussion about why. And maybe we can solve that. But mostly what we have to do is figure out how to not have that happen again. Okay. So we're going to go see the same couple again. What is it that you want me to do? So I'm the flirtatious one, let's say. What do you want me

to do? Well, you have to figure that out. It's like, no, I'm stupid. Like you, we're equally stupid. I need to know what would satisfy you. And you need to figure out what would satisfy you so i know and that like that's also extremely useful is let your establish your conditions of satisfaction make them explicit let the other person know yeah you can't read someone's mind yeah we're very bad at that we're bad at reading our own minds for that matter yeah so if we if i have a fight with with tammy let's say sometimes i remember to say okay what what do you want me to do right now what can i do what what should i say and mean you know and you think well you shouldn't let the other person put words in your mouth well fair enough you know i You know, I'm not asking for something false. I'm saying, I'd like to not have this happen. Can you see a way out? Is there

something I could do to increase the probability that that's the route we could take? And, you know, sometimes that works. But the other person has to let you know what they would find satisfying. but the other person has to let you know what they would find satisfying. You mentioned sexual shame, and it triggered something in me about just the shames of the past that people tend to hold on to. I think I might have mentioned this to you the last time we talked. I'm not sure if you know, but I was sexually abused when I was five by a man that I didn't know. And for 25 years, I held on to the secret, the shame. And if anyone ever knew about this, then I would never be loved. Right, because you feel contaminated permanently. Yeah, I wouldn't have any guy friends. No girls would find me attractive. My parents would disown

me. I went down the rabbit hole of these stories of, I'm the only one this has ever happened to. I never saw any examples of this happening to. And about eight years ago, I'm the only one this has ever happened to. I never saw any examples of this happening to you. And about eight years ago, I started to really heal that and start sharing that shame and in many different therapeutic experiences that allowed me to start the healing process. I'm curious from your perspective with all the work that you've done, what is the best approach for someone to really heal their shame? Whether it's around sexual abuse or trauma or just anything, whether it be small or big or any type of shame that they might have. How does someone release shame in a healthy manner so that it doesn't make them a prisoner of these emotions of the past that hold them back well you hinted at a few things when you just described what what happened to you is you said well first of all you know i thought i was the only person this had ever happened to

it's like no it's a universal human experience to one degree or another now you know i'm not saying everyone was sexually abused and i'm certainly not saying that some people aren't sexually abused to a degree that's so extreme it's unimaginable where there are others you know get off relatively lightly but it's still it's it's well within the realm of normative human experience that sexual, that sex goes wrong in some way. At least you regret something that's happened, something you've done or something that was done to you. So putting it in to, when you're the only person that something has happened to, that's really not good. Right? Because it alienates you even from

yourself you have no idea what to do with that and so that's sometimes why people find it such a relief to have their illness diagnosed it's like oh there is this is known there's a category other people have had this experience maybe there's a pathway through it. So just knowing that you're not the only person like that can be very helpful. Updating, it's like how, you were how old? Five. Okay. Well, one thing to realize when you're 25 and you were abused when you're five is that you're not five anymore. Right. Right? That the person to whom that happened

is no longer there. You're there, but... So, you know, you might feel afraid of relationships. You might feel afraid of all sorts of things. But a lot of that was... You're sort of feeling like that residual five-year-old. I tell a story about one client I had. She was abused by her older brother and she told me this story. And I drew a story about one client I had. She was abused by her older brother, and she told me this story.

And I drew a picture in my head while she was, you know, I kind of pictured her at five and this teenage, hulking teenager, you know, taking advantage of her. But as she told the story, I realized that her older brother was only a year, two years older than her. While he was seven. And I was like, okay, well, they were, she wasn't the victim of a tyrannical male in some sense.

They were two badly supervised children. Now, that doesn't mean that what he did was right, but she was still the five-year-old in the memory, but she was 27 or so when she came to see me. And so the first thing I did was just point that out. It's like, think about the seven-year-olds you know, right? For a five-year-old, a seven-year-old is an adult, but for an adult, a seven and a five-year-old are clearly both children. Well, that just changed things somewhat. It made her feel less vulnerable in the moment.

changed things somewhat it made her feel less vulnerable in the moment what your brain wants from you in relationship to a traumatic memory is indication that you're no longer vulnerable to the same problem that's what memory is for right you remember something bad and you process it so that you change your interpretation or your behavior or the situation or whatever you can change so that it isn't going to happen in the future. And if you do that thoroughly, you'll generally let yourself rest. You have the memory to protect yourself from it happening again. Well, that's the purpose of memory in general. You make sense of your past behavior so that the good things that happen to you can be duplicated and the bad things can be avoided. It's not to make an objective record of the world.

It's to make a functional map of the world that you can apply to the future. And so, so how do we, yeah, how do we let that go? How do we disassociate something that happened a year ago, 10,

20 years ago that is no longer happening, but is seems to be triggering us. Oh, it's very, it's, it's very difficult. Well, I would say, you know, one of the things you need to develop, if you've had an experience like the one you had, perhaps, because I don't know the details, you probably need a theory of malevolence. You need an explanation. It's like, how could a person do that? What if you have to have an... What if the explanation isn't good?

They were just a bad person. They just... Well, then you need a philosophy of bad. You need a philosophy of evil. You have to understand it so that you're no longer a victim of it. Because otherwise, you can't put the event in a context. You know, and sometimes that means

the development of a real philosophical sophistication. And that can help because then you can start to separate out malevolence from benevolence because maybe you're afraid of any intimate relationship now because it's been contaminated with that and everything's fuzzy and foggy and so you need to understand the person who did that at least to some degree so that you can separate that person out from all the other people around you who that you encounter in situations that might be reminiscent of it you know so you you felt vulnerable for perhaps you felt ashamed. All those things have to be gone through. What do you think, you know, when you're ashamed? What elicits that? What are the eliciting cues? What do you think when that happens?

All of that has to be taken apart. I said in this Beyond Order book that, you know, if you have a memory older than about 18 months, that still you right it's still got emotional resonance older than 18 months ago or before you're 18 no older than 18 months ago or more yeah otherwise it's not really in the past right it's still happening that that whether you should delve into something how you should delve into something traumatic that's currently happening is a whole different issue but if it's an old memory and it still bothers you it means that you haven't decomposed that experience sufficiently to detach it from the emotion So imagine when something terrible happens to you, you don't understand it. So then you might say, well, if you don't understand something that's

happening to you, how can it be terrible? Because doesn't terrible mean that you understand it? And the answer is, well, you understand things in stages. And the first way you understand a terrible thing is by freezing in terror or running. That's the understanding. It's not conceptual. It's embodied and emotional. And so event terror, that's the first category. Okay, now the next question is how do you get out of the terror? Well, you realize that nothing truly dangerous is happening. Well, what if something truly dangerous did happen? Then you elaborate your view of the world to the point where you're no longer vulnerable to that terrible thing. And that's extremely difficult. So the memory of

something terrible stays terrible until you effortfully process it and decompose it into, well, often into a much more sophisticated map of the world. And it's really hard to do that. initial terror because you study this you practice this you teach this stuff but when you know as a practitioner teaching it is there was there a time where you're like man this is really hard for me to understand oh absolutely it's chronic i mean that state is chronic for me at the moment i would say partly because i've become so insanely famous. And I have difficulty with that, for sure. It's very difficult to understand. And so, and I wouldn't say I've managed it. I'm managing it, I suppose.

And then health trouble that has hit my family and me has been so devastating that I haven't managed that either. Like, you know, that's the thing. I suggest to people, no, that haven't managed that either like you know that's the thing i i suggest to people no that isn't even that it's that what have i found that you do about terrible things generally you don't run from them especially if they're not avoidable in the future. Generally, you stand, confront, decompose, understand, adapt. But just because you generally do that and it's the best bet doesn't mean it's definitely going to work. It's just the best shot you have at it. You know, it'd be lovely if something always worked.

But if something always worked, but if something always worked, people would never get sick and die. Right. And we do all the time. So we do our best, but that doesn't mean that that always works, but it's still the best that can be done. It's still better than all the alternatives.

How do you cultivate your own personal inner peace amongst the different changes that have come up? Whether the fame, the health challenges, personally, maybe challenges with family or friends. How do you personally keep a level of inner peace amongst the chaos? I walk a lot. I exercise a lot. A lot. Like I'm walking about seven miles a day now and working out as well. And so, and that's necessary.

If you didn't walk and work out, where do you think you would be? In a level of, really? Definitely. Yes. Yes. Is that physically because you wouldn't be physically taking care of your body or because mentally and emotionally your peace would be chaotic and it would drive you to die?

That. That. Wow. Yeah. So that you were saying, sorry, I was interrupting you. Solace, you said? Peace. That comes to you if you're fortunate. And sometimes it doesn't come.

I try to do things that I think are worthwhile, that seem worthwhile, and that gives me solace, I suppose. So I'm writing, I'm talking to people who I find interesting about things that I think are crucially important. I'm trying to learn and to communicate as a consequence of talking to these people. I'm trying to do what I can for my family and my friends and to do what I can beyond that as well in a variety of different ways. Those are all useful endeavors and they

keep me going. What have you found to be the best practices of managing mass attention, whether you want to call it fame, mass attention, mass audience, people being fanatical about your message, your work, you as an individual. Well, luckily that hasn't happened too much, the fanatical side of things. I've had the odd brush with people who were a little more persistent

than was probably good. And, you know, I could see lurking signs of mental health issues behind that. And, but fortunately, very little of that has happened. And, um, that's certainly all for the good. It's cause you're not, you're not living in LA. That's probably why. Well, it could be well could be could be but for whatever reason i've been pretty fortunate about that yeah um i talk over what i'm doing with the people around me all the time and try to keep it on the proper pathway to the degree that i'm able to do that and and to see if what i'm doing is justifiable and ethical.

And we're all terrified of this, you know, to a degree that is very difficult to communicate. You know, we live in a time where if you make a mistake, you can be shredded. And I would say to some degree, the more visible you are, the more thorough the shredding. Oh, right. Yeah. And so the cost of an error, an ethical error, is unbelievably high.

The cost of the appearance of an ethical error is extremely high, much less the cost of an actual ethical error. And so we're very careful to act ethically in every manner possible, appearance and reality. Because everything's being watched. Yeah. Well, I mean, I have no idea how any of this looks from the outside, but my reputation has been on the line publicly many many times and partly sometimes outright accusations sometimes as a consequence of things I hypothetically said sometimes as a consequence of things I hypothetically said. Sometimes there's a consequence of newspaper

articles that, you know, have taken a particular twist. And God only knows how many times a consequence of my own inadequacies and errors. But every time that rises up as an issue, there's a two-week period where no one in my family knows if this is the time that it's just going to go to hell really where it's all crumbles absolutely how do i look at how many people it happens to i know look how people respond man you know it doesn't take a very big twitter mob to chase anyone back into their hole how do we chase a company for that matter i know back into its on its heels i mean isn't that doesn't does that is that how it looks to you i mean what what do you think about this yeah i'm just curious you know as people individuals whether it be me you or anyone

wants to build something wants to have a goal and aim as you talk about and go after this thing that they care about and share their opinion, share their voice, have good intentions. Maybe someone doesn't like those intentions, but have good intentions. How do we, as human beings, think about reputation? And does reputation even matter anymore if anyone can try to tear your reputation down should we be focused on having a good reputation or yes and how do we protect the reputation when you should you're being more focused on deserving a good reputation what does that mean don't don't do things you know to be wrong and even if you don't lie yep don't lie, don't be careless. I mean, especially if you're...

See, I'm fortunate, I suppose. I put all my lectures online. So virtually everything I've ever said to a student is, I mean, obviously not, but a non-biased sample of everything that I've ever said to students is available. Well, it hasn't come back to bite me. Right. And that's hundreds of hours. Why? Well, because I've been fortunate enough not to have said anything fatal and you know maybe that's because I'm careful with my words I don't want to attribute too much virtue to myself in in in relationship to. I know that good fortune plays an immense role in how things turn

out for people and that you can get unlucky. But, you know, one rule I didn't write down is act so that you can speak of what you do. Act so that you can speak of what you do. So there's two domains of lying, right? So one lie is a statement. The other lie is an action. You know it's wrong. You do it anyway.

It looks to me like that's becoming riskier and riskier. Right. People aren't doing that anymore because they're getting caught. Yes, and the consequences are dire. Well, but then you think about this. You tell me what you think about this. One of the things that Carl Jung taught me, again, was that, you know,

as we become more technologically powerful, the quality of our individual morality becomes an increasingly pressing social concern because each of us are far more powerful than we once were for good and for evil. And so with this technological prowess comes an associated ethical demand. And I don't see a flaw in that argument. I don't see how that can be anything other than true if technology multiplies your power then it multiplies the cataclysmic consequences of your own immorality right and if you did one thing 10 years ago and someone finds it it could

haunt you it seems like is what's happening for a lot there's no doubt about that not only could it it will it will you know all likelihood you know and that's happening for a lot of people. There's no doubt about that. Not only could it, it will. It will. In all likelihood. And that's a problem too because, of course, people do make mistakes. And I'm perfectly pleased that my teenage years aren't stored on YouTube, for example. You must be terrified. You've been gone a long time ago. Well, it must be terrifying to be a teenager now knowing that your drunken foolishness at a party could become the next viral YouTube video. I mean, yeah.

I was lucky enough never to – I've never been drunk in my life. And that was a conscious decision because my brother actually went to prison for drugs when I was a kid. drugs when I was a kid. And I was in a prison visiting room many weekends for many years and witnessing the consequences of doing certain things. So for me, I was like, I don't want to touch any of this stuff. I don't even care if it's like, I'm not going to sell it, but I'm never going to take anything. But it doesn't mean that I didn't do bad things. Like, you know, I cheated, I lied, I stole. You know, I did all these things that I'm not proud of when I was 10 to 13 until I got caught. And I was like, oh, my actions actually affect a lot of people. And I remember the shame.

Well, it's normative behavior. If you look at adolescents, imagine there are adolescents who break rules all the time, including legal rules. Okay, well, they tend to become criminal. It's too much. But then at the opposite end of the distribution are adolescents who don't break any rules, and they tend to develop internalizing disorders, depression, anxiety disorders, that sort of thing.

So they're too constrained. So there is a certain amount of exploration of rule breaking that's a normative part of healthy development. But now, you know, you could take a chunk of that, a video of it, a record of it, and it's permanent. Can you imagine not being able to forget your past? Painful. Painful. Not even you forgetting it, but the world knowing your past, seeing it or witnessing it. Yes, and sort of unexpectedly and at any moment.

Yeah. Right. What's your greatest fear with the fame and the acknowledgement that you have at the level of you have it? What's the greatest fear you have moving forward or insecurity? something to um you know that i'll betray the people that that that i've been speaking to with you know that i'll be insufficient to the challenge in some manner yeah ethically particularly but more than that even just physiologically let's say so that's that's definitely it did you ever have a a goal to impact this many people was that part of your life's mission that i want to reach more people than outside of the classroom and you know sell five million copies

of my books and be so well-known that you are? Was that ever a mission, or was it always just, I want to learn and teach, and if 10 people watch, great. If 10 million people watch, great. I probably knew. I knew when I was working on my Maps of Meaning book that I was, look, I tried to write about the most serious problem I could find in the most serious way I could manage. And I thought, well, if this is a serious problem and I'm addressing it seriously, it's probably a serious endeavor and will have the consequences of that that whatever those might be and when i

started to lecture about what i had been thinking about and learning about the impact was obvious and and and unique in some sense i mean there are my lectures the most typical response i got from students in my classes was especially in the class on my first book maps of meaning was this course changed how i looked at everything and i would say my life the world the universe god everything yeah or they'd say well i've learned all these and I don't know how to talk about them with anyone else, which was the same sort of thing. And a lot of the public commentary on my work is similar to that. But, you know, in some sense, that wasn't a surprise,

because what I learned changed the way I looked at things completely, too. Absolutely, completely, like completely, like completely revolutionary way. And so, and I, I, I had a sense of that from, I don't know how old, very young.

You had a sense that, that you had a sense, you had a sense that your, uh, life would impact millions of people? Yes. Yeah. Was it kind of like an inner dialogue or an inner calling or something that was-

It was like a dream. Yeah. Sort of. Or the memory of a dream. That's crazy. Look, I talked to Jocko Willink the other day. I'm looking forward to releasing that. It was such a good conversation.

It was such a good conversation with him. He made such this immensely tough person, tough guy. Very. He knew he wanted to be a soldier from the time he was like three. Wow. And he said, and don't be thinking that it was for any high noble reasons. I mean, he's quite funny. I just wanted to destroy. three wow and he said and don't be thinking that it was for any high noble reasons i like i mean

he's quite funny i just wanted to he just destroyed he states it's like this is my character this is who i am it's it's it's me and you know with my kids i could see who they were they were the same person right from the time they were born like they developed and unfolded and all of that but it was the unfolding of something that was there it was the bringing of something there to light it's it's shocking and surprising to me constantly and exactly what i expected at the same time yeah and that seems completely paradox. It's sort of like one part of me knew and accepts it. And the other part is too old and too much the way that I was to adapt to it. Thank you so much for listening to this episode,

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